It's been awhile but I'M BACK BITCHES! Yes, *gasp* I curse! Shocking, isn't it. Sorry if it offends you, but one of my New Year's resolutions is to be completely 100% me on this site, and that is what I plan on doing. So, welcome to 2019 everyone! Tell me in the reviews what your resolutions for the New year are if you made any, and also, head over to my profile page and vote on the poll for what two stories you would like to see me publish next! Oh, I am so excited to be back, and let just get to it! Enjoy!

Clary:

Once I got back from school, I was already having doubts about my sanity when I agreed to go out with Sebastian. I mean, I only agreed to one date, not anything substantial, but it felt like a betrayal of my nameless lover, and more important, it felt like it made everything that I had been thrown out of Heaven for seem pointless.

And adding that on to the questionable history I knew Sebastian had with the girl's in our school, I was kind of wishing I had stuck with my instincts, and said no. But it was too late now, and plus, I couldn't ignore all members of the male species other than Jon forever just because of someone I had faint memories of loving.

So I would go on one date, with as open a mind as possible, and then I would make a decision from there.

Jon had other plans.

I had just barely made it in the door after parking my motorcycle in the garage when I heard Jon's Camaro crunch to a stop in the gravel. When the door to the car slammed shut, I had thought that it was just because of the argument we had had the previous night.

But then he shoved open the door to the house, and the air was crackling with the intensity that only came when an angelic being felt pure anger. It was why we had to be careful to keep our emotions in check, because that crackling would have burnt a mortal.

Jon wasted no time, getting right in my face after chucking his bag across the room. "WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING?" He shouted at a volume enough that the neighbors could probably hear.

I stared at him, bracing myself for the next piece that I knew from experience was coming. "What the absolute hell were you thinking to go out with that scumbag Clarissa?!" Jon shouted, his eyes burning with white fire, straight from the heart of Heaven, even as I flinched at my given name. As he knew I would. I pulled from the depths of my essence, igniting a pure black flame in my eyes.

"I was thinking you aren't my FREAKING CARETAKER AND THAT I DON'T HAVE TO RUN MY ACTION'S BY YOU!" I shouted back, matching his volume.

Jon paced, the waves of heat pulsing from him. "He made it onto the watchlist for God's sake!" Jon yelled, his flames rising with his voice.

"Great for him! SO AM I!" I yell back, refusing to back down from this argument. Even if I had had my doubts about Sebastian only moments ago, they were all erased in the desperate need to keep the last bit of freedom I had. I had forgotten that Sebastian Verlac had made it onto the list of people Heaven watched, due to the capability for astonishing evil they had, and even though he had been low on that list, it was disturbing. But I wouldn't let Jon decide who I dated for me.

"IT'S NOT THE SAME CLARISSA!" Jon raged, his anger effectively getting rid of the twin I loved with my whole being, replacing him with the honed warrior that we both were.

"And why the hell not Jonathan!" I shouted, flames burning outside of my eyes now, turning my into a full blooded demon in the moment. The combination of seeing me as a demon and me using his full name shocked Jon enough that his flames licked down until they were just small embers. There was still world ending anger there, but it was reigned in.

"I didn't realize," he apologized, a small lull in the argument as he noticed that he had been using my full name, and that it was affecting me as much as his name had hurt him. But the moment I nodded acknowledgement to his apology, his argument roared back to life. "It's not the same because you are a—," Jon cut himself off, turning sharply to the door, trying to make an escape, to run from the words that had almost escaped him mouth, his instinct running from the hard truths.

I cut him off, pinning him with the flames still raging out of my eyes, the black veins pulsing through my flames as I brought on my demon form. "What am I Jon?" I demand, forcing him to say the words.

I expected him to flinch away or to shove past, to continue protecting me and refuse to say the words. To bring out to the truth. Because it was what he had done for millennia as he protected me from one danger or another.

But he didn't, anger twisting his familiar features. "Because you are a demon." I hadnt been prepared for the absolute devastation that came with hearing those words from Jon's mouth, and the words stunned me enough the the flames guttered out, the veins sinking back into my skin until I looked normal, and Jon shoved past me and into the fresh air, the house suddenly too small and too hot.

It was rare for us to argue, but when we did, it was explosive, no holds barred, and short. Just our tempers taking over. But like what had just happened, we often said things we regretted.

But that was what Jon deserve for trying to dictate my life. How dare he tell me who was dangerous for me when I was a literal demon now? I was immortal, and powerful, and beyond that, one of the best fighters in Heaven an Hell combined! I wasnt some little mortal that needed their brother to defend their honor!

These thoughts flowing through my head were what brought the anger flaring back, which was why I didn't go after Jon, why I didn't walk out that door, shouting the apology I already wanted to give.

Which was why I didn't see Jon screeching out of the driveway in his white car, speeding off down the street. Why I didn't see when Jon turned down a side street adjacent to ours, where a boy who we had both agreed would play a part in our futures lived.

Why I didn't see Jon going to talk to Jace.

That was so fast, I literally just wrote that in like half an hour, I'm so f***ing proud of myself! As a reminder, please head over to my profile page to vote on what stories you would like to see me publish next! I hope you all liked this chapter after the winter break hiatus that I took for a couple of weeks, and please tell me what you thought in the reviews! Till next time! Bye!