~Edward~

After dinner, I played around on my laptop, checking my Facebook and Twitter accounts. Not that I was a very active participant on either, just trying to keep my mind occupied, I suppose.

And then, before I realized it, I was on Torn's official website. As I scanned the news and show section, I noticed they had an upcoming show in Indianapolis in two days. I needed to find Rose, she's the only one that would understand and have means of helping me.

I left my room on a mission, hearing the muffled music as I reached the bottom of the stairs. Perfect!

I found Rosalie in the media room listening to what I now knew as Torn, and casually flipping through a magazine.

"What are you doing," I growled out, as I grabbed her shoulders from behind.

"Shit, Edward." She screamed while jumping. "You scared the hell out of me."

"And it works like a charm, every single time," I chuckled, picking up the magazine she'd thrown when I scared her. "So, what've you been up to?"

"Oh… you know. This and that," she responded bopping her head to the beat of the music. I grabbed the remote, turning it down a few decibels. She huffed, but I cut her off before she had a chance to voice her complaint.

I gathered what little courage I had at the moment. "I was wondering if you were going to see Torn on Friday?"

"How did you know about the show?" Rose asked with a raised brow.

"Oh, uh... Some kids at school were talking about it." I quickly breathed out. "I was wondering if I could catch a ride with you. I'd like to see them again," waiting for her to call me out on it.

"Well… I am going, but I booked a room to stay overnight. I don't plan to be in any shape to drive all the way back from Indy." I felt my stomach drop a bit. She must have recognized my hesitance as she added with a slight smirk, "Ya know, if mom gives the okay to ditch school the next day, it'll be fine by me. The hotel is booked, but the room has a sofa bed. We can just room together."

"Thanks, sis." I kissed her cheek and went to find my mother. I knew she wouldn't have a problem as it wouldn't it would be just one day missed. She knew I was responsible; I did feel a little guilty having her think there wasn't a minimum age to get into these establishments I had been frequenting lately, but I didn't dwell on it.

I wanted and needed answers. Mostly, I just needed to see Jasper again. I only hoped he saw me this time.

Late Friday morning, Rosalie and I drove the three or so hours to Indianapolis and checked into the hotel. As she had said previously, they were still booked solid, so changing to a double or even a suite was out of the question. That meant the sofa had my name on it. I did not care; seeing Jasper again was the main focus for the evening.

Rose and I placed our luggage in the room, quickly dressed, and grabbed something to eat in the restaurant downstairs as we had time to burn before heading to the club.

I noticed her staring at me, contemplatively, as she had been doing quite often as of late. "So Ed, why did you really want to come with me?"

I cleared me throat, "I just enjoyed the music last time." I replied quickly, too quickly. I started playing with my napkin.

She slammed her fork down and walked away. I sat for a minute and then chased her to our room.

I followed her in, grabbing her arm once the door shut behind us. "Would you wait?"

She continued to pull away. "No. I know there is something going on with you. It really hurts that you can't trust me," she sobbed.

"Shit, Rosalie." I prayed that this would turn out fine. "Sit, please," I gestured to the sofa.

She sat, looking up at me and patiently waiting for her answer. I ran my hand through my hair and starting pulling on it, a nervous habit I've had as far back as I can remember.

"Rose, I just… don't know." I whispered in acquiescence. That was the honest truth. I did not know how to tell her about what I was dealing with. She always talked; I listened. I took a deep breath and gave silent prayer for acceptance on the exhale.

And with a look of shame that I'm sure was plastered on my face, I let my dark secret out. "Uhhh…S-Something happened the other night. The night of Torn's show in Columbus."

She quirked a brow, "What do you mean?"

I shook my head but said nothing, wanting to run it through my mind first. Please, please still love me after all of this.She sat silently, giving me a minute.

I rubbed the back of my neck and sighed, "I think…well, I might be gay."

"You think you're gay?" she asked. "Deets, little brother."

"Well… I…" I stammered. "I felt something for… uhhh… Jasper."

"Jasper?" she blinked. "Edward, what the hell happened the other night?" she said through her teeth.

"Rose, listen. I'm not telling you everything, okay." I cleared my throat and continued. "This is so new and so damn hard for me. I don't know what I'm doing here. Just know that I've never felt like this for anyone else before. Ever."

"Wow," she breathed out, sitting up straighter.

"My thoughts exactly," I sighed in relief.

"So, this is why you wanted to come tonight."

I looked her in the eyes and whispered, "I just wanted, no needed to see him again."

She looked at me for another minute, her eyes starting to water again, "Well then, you will."

I let out my own sob – this one of relief - and hugged her, happy to feel her acceptance.

A/N: Chapter updates will be slowing down to weekly. I just don't have the time for daily or even twice a week. Thanks for your patience and trust in me! I appreciate all of you.

And, I thought I should mention. I don't exactly picture most of these characters as the actors who play them in the movie version. You may not agree with some of these, but I think they fit the story.

Jasper Whitlock– people who know me IRL, know that I love me some Jackson. So yeah, he is my Jasper.

Edward Cullen – I'm probably the only person out there not attracted to RP Whaaaa? However, I am his portrayal of Edward in the first film, Twilight. That is how I picture this Edward to look. Oh, add some thick black rim glasses. Hot.

Emmett McCarty - M. Shadows aka Matthew Sanders of the band Avenged Sevenfold

Rosalie Cullen– Taylor Momsen of the band The Pretty Reckless and Gossip Girl TV show

Carlisle & Esme Cullen - as portrayed in the films

Peter Whitlock – Ville Valo of the band HIM

Mike Newton – Jared Leto of the band 30 Seconds to Mars

Leah Uley – as portrayed in the films