Hey Diary (Surprises)
February 16 2007
We are being hunted. The forest rangers are setting up traps for us. But we are not getting caught as these are bear traps. That is nothing to fear about. We can escape easily from those. Only we need to worry about is Embry. He was doing patrols with Paul. He came across the scent of the mate leech. We had almost given up following it. But he was determined. He tried to follow it. It was very fresh. I and Jacob had not caught it during our Patrols. What happened then I'll tell later. Embry – as I told you tried to follow it- it was just approximately a minute old. He chased the scent. He reached a meadow. It was beautiful but there it was. The leech. The male leech. It almost saw Embry. It definitely heard some voice over where Embry was. When Embry realized this he took to his heels. The bloodsucker started following it. It was a short chase. Embry phased after he had gained a decent space between him and the bloodsucker. So now his scent changed from that of a wolf to that of a human. He actually phased mid air so that was an added bonus. He is a smart kid. It might not have caught Embry but he knew something was around. And actually lucky Paul didn't follow Embry or else he wasn't brainy enough to do what Embry did.
Though both of them are safe. Paul is so pissed at Embry for almost exposing us. Sam sent him on a holiday for a day. Embry is in some state which you can kinda call depression. He is so worried about how Sam will deal with this. Sam has not talked to him yet. Sam is with elders discussing what will be and what should be done if the leech came to know of us.
Now is the time to tell what happened during the patrols. Between me and Jacob.
I was two minutes late. Jacob reminded me of that. He was not in a good mood and he was always like this since he turned wolf, I had heard. He just grunted in response to my thoughts.
The he was in his own world as I was trying to control my thoughts. But I couldn't stop thinking about what Embry might have told about him to me.
He doesn't gossip
That was his response. Sorry. Can't control my mind.
I started thinking about Kim. Her eyes, her lips, her face. This was all it took to distract me. But it had been just two days. I wasn't over it yet. Operation Beach Passion. After 5 seconds that was all I could think about. The way her hands moved across my chest. The scent of her hair. The way our tongues had danced while we kissed.
Can't you think about it later?
Sorry again.
Why does this happen to me. Every time a new wolf joins the pack, I have to give a perfect bad impression. I had to stop worrying about this. I started concentrating on the forest in front of me. This time it was Jacob who got distracted. He was imagining the same things which I had a few minutes ago. But he was in my place and Isabella was in Kim's. Like , for him this wasn't just about sex. He had feeling for her. Not just a crush. Love. He absolutely was in love with her Almost like mine and Kim's, but it wasn't as much as ours. Maybe if it was requited.
I started thinking about Isabella and him. It just didn't fit. It didn't look as though they were meant to be together. I imagined Isabella with her leech boyfriend. In a strange kind of way it was good. But here was the proof that vampires don't make good boyfriends. They ditch you and go. But still they were good together. Only problem was Isabella was not as disgustingly perfect as the leech. I tried to imagine it. Her eyes golden. Her skin pale white. Disgustingly aromatic sweet scent coming off her. Her pose perfect. This was what looked good with that leech betrayer.
Then I heard the first reaction from Jacob. He was really pissed off. He didn't bother when I had thought he and Isabella would never work out. It bothered him that leech lover and the leech will work out. Jealousy.
He didn't reply anything. But his thoughts changed direction. He felt good to have me as company. He had found a person who loved someone at least as much as he loved the leech lover. He was happy. He thought I could understand his pain. Well, I did. We actually bonded well. I wondered why Embry and I weren't on good terms. Maybe I should not just think about Kim but also about my brothers.
Jared does Kim know about you being a wolf?
Yes. Why?
I was wondering today that if I could tell Bella about my secret.
What no way, Jacob. Sam will never allow.
But why, Kim and Emily both know your secret.
Yeah but Paul's girlfriend Elle doesn't. There are some rules. Jacob. You have to obey that.
This is not fair.
Do you think becoming a wolf is fair? Do you think having no job all because you are a wolf is fair? Do you think that never growing up is fair? This life is not fair Jacob. It is upside down. Everyone's is. Some don't know it yet. Some are anxious about it. Some are learning to live with it.
After this we didn't talk at all. All we did think was about what was in front of us. Though we had an argument. We were good. Now I had one more job to do. Of fix my relationship with Embry. Oh boy, that was gonna be hard. But I had to try.
That's all that happened today.
-Jared