New Chappy Hope you like it. Sorry it's been so long.

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When you feel like the world is crashing down on your heart, what do you do? When all you feel is pain in every inch of your self, how do you make it go away? When you cry so deeply that when you stop you feel numb all over, how do you get the feeling back?

I sat in that tree for hours crying over all the sorrow and pain and ache in my heart. I remembered every moment I spent laughing with my mother and Tiff. I remembered every stupid argument we had. I tried to forget the bad times but when you try to forget all you end up doing is remembering them all the more.

My heart bled for all of those things. And I wished for the sweet release of death.

I don't remember when, but I became aware that at some point, Andrid found me and held me through my pain. My cries of agony and he cried with me. I think we needed to let it go. Get it out.

We fell asleep some time later but I woke up first. I was laying against his chest. My eyes were sore from my tears. I stretched and took off to find some food. When I got back he was looking for me. I landed on the ground and started dividing the takeout food I had "found" at a camp site. He saw and landed nearby.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked sitting across from me. I sat there a minute holding a burger before I put it in his pile and replied: "No. There aren't words for it." I continued dividing until we each had a sizable pile of food. We ate, packed, and took off towards our destination.
We flew for a few hours before stopping to eat and got something to drink. Flying really takes it out of you. We took off again and continued West towards South Forks.

We were getting close now. We were maybe a day or two away from South Forks. We developed a sort of silent agreement to just get there and then think about all the things we had yet to do.
I was lost in thought most of the time. Every once and a while he would snap me out of it for a food break. He was mostly just quiet. He looked like he hadn't slept in days. Maybe he was sick? I would ask when we stopped for the night.

We flew all day and stopped three times before we stopped for the night. We set up camp in silence and divided up the remaining food we had between each other. I gave him more and he gave me an odd look. "You have been really hungry today. I am not all that starved, you can have more." He gave me an odd look and gave me the extra. "I am doing fine. You can't starve yourself because of me. I won't let you." He set up his bed roll and lay on it staring at the stars. I did the same.

"When we get there are we going to commandeer a lodge or something?" I nodded and replied:" Yeah, I know of a lodge that we can use. I used to know someone who owned a lodge there and they don't use it this time of year. We can stay there for a few days and then we can scout out a better hideout. I know there are some caves in that area maybe we can use one of them." He nodded.

We lay like that for a while just looking at the stars." Will we ever really belong anywhere?" He asked. I had no answer.I had been asking myself the same question for years and now more than ever I didn't know. "I hope so." With that, we fell asleep.

The Next day goes much like the last. We eat, we fly, we eat, we fly, we eat, we rest, we fly, we eat, we fly, we camp. We are getting very close. I guesstimate we will be there by noon tomorrow if we get up at dawn. I want to stop. I don't want to keep going any more. I love to fly. It is so much a part of me. But, I don't like running away. I feel like a coward. I need to stop and think and prepare and I REALLY need to get even.

When we do finally get there I practically fall onto the porch. Andrid picks the lock on the door and we crash right in the living room. I have been sneaking him more food and now I am getting my dues. I am EXHAUSTED!!! Which is really not good. I can't be vulnerable right now. Not when we are on the run and who-knows-how-many hunters are on our tail. I dream of Mom and Tiff. I haven't allowed myself to think about them since my breakdown. I can't be like that anymore. I have to be strong. I will be in control. I have to be when we go against the monsters who are after us.

I wake up and Andrid is zonked out on the floor. In my haste to pass out I had taken the couch and left him with only the floor. He was so out of it that I was able to pick him up and put him on the couch without waking him. I raided the pantry and cabinets for anything resembling food and took half. I stuffed my face and downed two bottles of room-temperature water. I decide to take a look around and start my tour with the bedrooms. Slowly I work my way through the house until I find the master bathroom. SHOWER!!!!!! It Was HEAVEN!!!!! I must have been in there for two hours. It felt SOOOOO good.

When I came back down, wearing some of my acquaintance's clothes, he was just waking up. He looked around for a second before jumping to his feet in a panic. I put my hands up in and tried to calm him down. "It's alright we are at my semifriends house in South Forks. I put you on the couch when I woke up and then took a shower and changed my clothes. Everything is fine. We are going to be fine. Calm down." I was staying back and staying low in a submissive stance so he wouldn't freak out even more. He sat down on the couch and took a few deep breathes. Then he looked at me and nodded. I sighed and walked over the sit in front of him. We just sat there for a few minutes before I fell back and just smacked into the floor. What was I thinking? That all the answers would just come to me when we got here? That by some freak miracle everything we need to do is going be written on the wall? I groaned as he checked to see if I was okay. "What did you do that for?!? Are you trying to give yourself a concussion?!?" He checked my head as I lay there staring at the ceiling. "I don't know what I was thinking. Maybe that I am a total idiot who has no Idea what she is doing." I ran a hand through my hair and down my face. "I'm sorry. I just need a plan. I don't work well without one." I stood up and walked to the kitchen to splash some water on my face. I wiped it off with a paper towel and stood leaning over the sink. He came up behind me and started rubbing my neck with his hand. "I sort of thought the same thing. That it would just come to us. Maybe we should start with finding some food to last more than one meal." I shook my head clear and nodded. "Your right. Let's go."

When we got back we put the mountain of food on the table and started to put it in the cupboards. Then we decided to arrange the house in order so that we knew where everything was and where good escape routes were. We checked out the trees behind the house and found a good clearing for sparring. Then, when it was getting close to dark out we made a camp fire behind the back proch and roasted some hotdogs. "We should start your training tomorrow. I want you to be ready for anything and the sooner we start the better." He nodded and we went to bed early to get a good rest.

The next morning we showered and ate before walking out to the sparring ring we had made the day before. We started with the basics. Blocking a punch. I was punching he was blocking. Then we switched up. Every once in a while I would give him a pointer on how to hit harder or faster or more accurately. We did that for a few hours and then took a break. When we started up again later in the afternoon I showed him some kicks and ways to block them. As before, we switched up every hour or so. When we finished sparring we stretched. To make sure our muscles didn't seize up. Then we went for a flight. I showed him a few moves that help when being shot at from the ground. Flying up in a spiral and then diving at a 90 degree angle at over two hundred miles an hour. By the time we were done it was after dark. We walked into the house, grabbed some food, and collapsed on the couch to watch TV. I made it through my food and about half an hour of Television before I passed out. When I woke up I saw that he had once again slept on the floor. I walked into one of the bedrooms and grabbed the mattress. I brought it into the living room and flung him on the couch before setting the mattress on the floor in front of the couch and putting him down on it. I walked into the kitchen and made a bowl of cereal for myself, leaving the milk and cereal box out for seconds.

He walked in a minute later and sat with his head on his hands. "My back is killing me." He said into his arms. I giggled. "That's what happens when your out of shape." He gave me an evil glare and I smirked sweetly. He smacked my arm and I giggled. "All kidding aside, I know some stretches that will help keep you limber so that you aren't as sore when you get up." He looked at me through his hair. "As sore?" I gave him a withering look. "It's is going to hurt whether you do it or not, the only difference is the level of pain. I suggest you learn the moves because we aren't taking a day off. We have to stick to training every day. I won't go easy on you either. I am simply offering to make it a little less uncomfortable." He looked at me a little darkly. I realized what I said and cringed. "I didn't mean that I am going to hurt you on purpose. I just meant that some of the workouts are strenuous and I don't want you getting hurt because your stiff." I picked up my bowl and put it in the sink. I bent over the faucet and took a deep breath. "We are still in preliminary training. I will not fight you hand-to-hand until I am 100% positive your ready." I turned to face him. "I sware." He was still watching me with his seagreen, piercing eyes. It was like he was reading my whole being with those eyes. He stood and walked over. He put his bowl in the sink next to mine. "I believe you." He put his hand on my shoulder.

Then my body was on fire.

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I know it's short but I have a ton going on in my life right now and I don't have the time to post more right now. I will try to get another one up soon.
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