The first time Alec and I had sex was around a week ago. We have slept together every single night since, switching off between his room and my room. I leave in six days, and today I am going to swallow my fear and confront Alec about what is going to happen between us after I am gone.

I walk with purpose towards the throne room, my head held high. I open the doors quietly, and look up to see my dark-haired prince sitting in Aro's throne... With a beautiful strawberry-blond girl in his lap, his hands up her shirt as they make out furiously.

"A-alec?" I stutter out. Holy fuck. What is going on?

"Oh, hey Cassie." He says as if everything is perfectly normal right now, standing up and setting the stunning girl to his side. He grabs her hand the way he always grabbed my hand.

"Alec, baby, who is this?" She smiles at me as if I'm a child.

"This is Cassie, she is just another one of Aro's guests. Cassie, this is my fiancee, Tanya." He speaks of me as if I am a nobody, totally unimportant to this world when just last night he was ravaging my body and telling me all the things he loves about me. I can't believe what I am hearing. My heart feels like it is being pounded with a mallet over and over again. Is this some kind of sick, twisted joke?

"Fiancee?" I squeak out, zoning in on the ring on her left hand.

"I'll be right back, honey." He kisses her cheek, and then zooms to my side, grabbing my upper arm and forcefully dragging me out of the room. He gets a safe distance from Tanya before he begins talking.

"I guess this would have been a good thing to mention as soon as we met," He laughs nervously, running his hand through his hair.

"You have been playing me this whole time?" I can barely recognize my own voice. It sounds choked and rough.

"Not exactly... I fell in love with you, Cassie. I am in love with you. Deeply and truly. But Tanya and I have been planning a wedding for a year now, she and Corin have just been taking care of some trouble in Germany for the past couple months."

"How can you be so madly in love with both of us?"

"Pfft. I'm not in love with Tanya," He scoffs as if it is the most obvious thing in the world. I stare at him in utter confusion.

"Tanya and I are getting married because we look good together. I am like a celebrity in the vampire world, and so is she. She is hot and has telekinesis. You.. well you're only fourteen and you don't even have a power." He states the blunt truth.

"So basically what you're saying is that even though you love me, you will never be with me because I'm not good enough for you?" I am using every ounce of my strength to not cry. His eyes turn sad, and he looks quite upset.

"To me, you're perfect in every way. But if I'm speaking from the point of view of everyone else, then the answer to that question would be yes.."

"Go to hell." I hiss at him, then run away back to my room.

"Cassie, wait! Cassie!" He calls as he runs after me. I slam the door in his face and lock it. He could easily have knocked it down, but he patiently stands outside and knocks.

"Cassie, don't be like this." His fists are probably making dents on the door.

"Don't be sad that the man I'm in love with has cheated on my for the past three months and will never be with me because I'm not good enough? Yeah, I'll get right on that." I drop onto my bed on my stomach and begin sobbing.

"Don't cry, Cas. Please don't cry," His voice quavers as if he is about to cry himself.

"Go away, Alec!" I scream, trailing off with a wail.

"No. I'm not leaving til you-" He is suddenly cut off and I hear a loud crash.

"Get. Out. Of. Here." Renesmee growls, her voice more menacing than I've ever heard it before. I hear Alec scuffle up and run away. Renesmee turns the knob of my door so hard the lock brakes off. She slams it behind her, and jumps on the bed with me, wrapping her arms around me. I cry into her soft hair and hug her as tightly as I can.

"Don't you want to know what happened?" I sniffle, my head still buried in her hair.

"Not if you don't want to tell me," She says kindly.

"Alec is getting married to a girl named Tanya. She has been in Germany for the past three months. He said he isn't in love with her, he is madly in love with me, but him and Tanya both are hot and powerful and I'm plain and only fourteen." I sob.

"Oh Cassie," She breathes, holding me closer.

"How can you hate someone and love them at the same time?" I whisper, rubbing my eyes and wishing I was capable of producing real tears.

"Human emotions can suck," She sighs.

"I loved the human emotions he brought out in me.. And Ness.. I.. I slept with him." I admit with a sob.

"You slept with him? But you've only known him for three months!" She whisper-shrieks.

"I thought I would be with him for the rest of eternity. I didn't see a reason to wait."

"How many times?"

"Seven." I say bashfully.

"Seven?" She groans in exasperation.

"I was in love," I bite my lip and look away.

"It'll be okay, Cas. I'll call Carlisle and we'll have tickets home by tomorrow." She assures me, whipping out her phone and dialing his number.

"I'm going to go for a run," I walk over to my window and punch out the glass.

"Now why didn't you use the door?" Nessie asks as I hang on the ledge.

"Alec broke my heart. The least I can do is break his house," I leap down, landing in the Volturi garden. I take off running, launching myself over the wall. My footsteps echo through the quiet morning, and my skin sparkles in the early light.

I dodge through the dense trees, leaping over boulders and squishing my bare feet in the green, fuzzy moss. It begins to rain randomly, ruining my long red silky nightgown. The branches snag at it too, ripping the bottom and tearing huge holes in it.

I take down a rather large male elk. I usually stay away from the plant-eaters, but I'm not very thirsty today and only hunting as a way to release my frustration. I throw the elk's lifeless corpse to the side, and continue running.

I end up at a rushing river and I stare in at my reflection, but I don't recognize the girl looking back at me. Her red hair is frizzy and filled with leaves and clumps of dirt, her butterscotch eyes are so angry they cause me to flinch, blood is smeared all over her lips and face, and she is wearing a muddy, torn, mid-thigh length gown that is billowing in the breeze.

I begin talking to myself as I tend to do when I'm confused or deeply upset.

"I will never be with you again, Alec Volturi. Never. You just pushed away the only girl that will ever really and truly love you."

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