A great challenge presented before me.
A man whose faith went unwaivered.
But when I deceived him his life turned upside down.
And now I must save him from himself...
After Matsuda's "job" was complete he went to sleep on a large bed. Meanwhile Light was racking his brain to think of some way he could convince Matsuda to give up this life. This would be very difficult seeing as Matsuda lost trust in everything other than himself.
"Let's see now, he won't trust much that I try to tell him..." Light spoke to himself, "If I tell him he can trust others he'll just retort by alluding to when he trusted me, if I tell him he's going to get himself killed then he'll just respond by saying, "Who cares? If you got into Heaven then I will easily get in." Even if I tell him about Hell the chances are still very low that he will change his lifestyle. What can I do?" Light was truly perplexed. Every time he thought of some way to try to convince Matsuda to change there was always a counter to it.
"Light-kun...sometimes the way to help a person is to help them before they need help." Ryuuzaki spoke stoically.
"Wha-" Light was about to question what this meant when Ryuuzaki pushed him towards Matsuda. Light expected to just fall on top of Matsuda, or travel through him and the bed, but instead he fell into darkness.
"What the Hell is going on?" He questioned as he left the room he was just in and entered a new room. Light looked around, "No way..." he recognized the room, large open area, big fan, one entrance. He was back in the warehouse where he was defeated by Near. Light looked towards the door where the scene took place again...
"And so as you can see, Light Yagami is Kira." Near stated holding up the fake Death Note Mikami was tricked into using.
Matsuda fell to his knees, "No...Light...why?" He asked helplessly. Then everything shattered and Light felt like he was falling. When he finally landed he couldn't see anything; nothing but darkness in all directions.
A light turned on and a young boy who looked to be no older than eight years old was sitting there crying. "Why, why did he do it? Everyone I trust betrays me!" He yelled out.
"Excuse me, but are you Matsuda?" Light asked the young boy.
Matsuda looked up at him and his face went white with horror, "You!? No! Get away from me!"
"Please, calm down I won't hurt you." Light said trying to quiet Matsuda down.
"Why should I believe you?" The young Matsuda yelled tears still in his eyes. "You already have hurt me! I trusted you and you betrayed me... just like my father!"
"Matsuda..." Light was shocked at this. He never would have expected anything bad to have happened to Matsuda due to his cheerful disposition. "Matsuda, what happened with your father?" Light asked trying to console the crying boy.
"Why should I tell you anything? You'll just hurt me again!" Matsuda yelled.
'So this is what Ryuuzaki meant when he said "help them before they need help"...' Light thought, 'Matsuda is just a child on the inside, and because of that he's more trusting and easier influenced. That means this will be much easier than the Matsuda on the outside.' Light knelt down beside Matsuda, "I know I may have done wrong in the past, but I'm trying to fix everything I did. I understand why you don't want to trust me, but I am here to help."
Matsuda was apprehensive, but began to trust Light a little, "Okay...when I was six years old my father was the person I looked up to more than anyone. I thought he was the greatest person in the world. No matter what hard times we had to face he would face it with a smile on his face and always tell me it would be okay. Whether it was that the rent was overdue or that we were running out of money he would always say, "There's no need to worry, daddy will make sure everything is all right." I believed him every time and every time he would keep his promise..."
"That is, until one day. We were falling deeper into debt, although I didn't know it at the time, but even though that was the case my father took me to get ice cream. He gave me the money to get it and said he loved me. I got into line and after I got my ice cream I turned around and he...he was gone! I looked all around, but he was gone! Why would he do that? He said he loved me and he left me!" Matsuda was hysterically crying now.
Light was about to try to console him, but was interrupted, "I couldn't trust anyone after that! I was alone for a long time, but then I joined the police force. Your father was able to quickly change my outlook. He was such a great man that I was able to trust him. He was the greatest man I had met. Soon after meeting him I began to open up and become more social. For the first time in a while I had friends."
Matsuda stopped crying for a moment to catch his breath while Light was absorbing everything he was just told. Then Matsuda continued, "When I met you I thought you would be someone I could trust because of who your father was. When L was killed and you took his place I thought you were better than I ever could have imagined because you were able to keep working in the face of tragedy. And when your father died you were the person who took the place of who I looked up to. Then I found out you're Kira and you've been betraying us the whole time! That's when I learned that if I trusted and looked up to anyone else that they would just betray me!" Matsuda looked at the ground and stopped crying. He just stared at the ground morosely.
Light felt heartbroken. The combination of the fact that it was his fault and that Matsuda was in the form of a child brought Light a great amount of pain. Matsuda was really just a kid inside and Light completely destroyed his hope for being able to have faith in anyone.
Light finally began to speak, "Matsuda..." Matsuda looked up at him, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry for everything that I've done to you. I'm sorry that I destroyed your trust in humanity. But you can't only trust yourself. If you do then soon you will die due to the fact that you have become a hitman. It may not seem like it would be bad since you have a chance to go to Heaven, but think of how badly that would affect everyone you know. I know right now that your mother and all of the friends you made are very worried about you. Think of how they'll feel if you get hurt, or even worse killed." Tears were beginning to well up in Matsuda's eyes at the thought of hurting his mother, the only person that he has been able to trust his entire life and not get betrayed by.
"Matsuda, I can't force you to change your ways but I can guarantee that you will be happier if you trust people rather than to think that everyone is out to get you. Think back to how happy you were when you trusted everyone. It's true that sometimes things work out for the worse, but for that to happen something good will either have had to happen already or have to happen in the future." Light was beginning to see Matsuda trusting what he was saying.
"My death, as an example, may have taken me from the world of the living but I am much happier because I didn't go to Hell and I am in love. I am happier than I have ever been and I had to go through a lot of pain for that to happen. This is the same for you, I believe that once you have gone through some pain you will be able to proceed to a better life. But if you keep on this path then you will more than likely die soon and there is a probability of you going to Hell because of how you have acted." Matsuda sat there quietly. Light also sat there, wondering if he had succeeded in his persuasion.
Soon Matsuda spoke, "That makes sense, but I don't know if I can deal with this again." It seemed that Matsuda was still uneasy.
Light spoke again, "Matsuda you were strong enough to make it this far, you will be strong enough to make it for another short amount of time before things get better. I know you can make it for just another small amount of time."
Light was hoping, praying right now that Matsuda would change his ways. It wasn't just about being able to stay out of Hell, but now it was about him genuinely feeling remorse over what he did. If Light wasn't able to get Matsuda to change then he definitely wouldn't be able to sleep easy anymore. After what Light thought was going to be an eternity of silence Matsuda finally spoke again, "Light, I would like to thank you for the motivation. I.....I agree with what you said. I have been weak enough to try to take an easier path. But from what you said, it will end up as a harder path. I want to go back to my old life, but there's a problem...I-I've done a lot of bad things. I've done some illegal things and if I suddenly disappear from this place then the mobs that hired me might come looking for me. I don't know what to do. They might find me and kill me." Matsuda seemed to trust Light immensely again, and he needed his advice.
"Matsuda, due to what you've done recently this will be a very difficult time for you. But since Aizawa, Mogi, and Ide are part of the police you may be able to get protection and if you keep quiet about what you have done you should also be able to avoid imprisonment. It may be a little deceitful, but unless you do this you may face a long jail time. Even if you are found out I believe that Aizawa, Mogi, and Ide would protect you. It will not be easy, but I'm sure you can succeed in fixing any past mistakes you have made."
"Light thank you for caring enough to help me with my problems. I guess that I was right in trusting you in the first place." Matsuda smiled for the first time that night as he spoke. Light was starting to feel better when suddenly everything went black again. Unexpectedly he was forced out of Matsuda's mind and sent flying across the room.
Light landed without being hurt, but since he was still not used to not being able to be injured he had braced for pain. "Light-kun needs to relax. I thought I told you that you cannot be hurt by anything Earthly."
Light opened his eyes to see Ryuuzaki directly above him, looking down on him while sitting in a chair, "Shut up..." Light replied to him slightly annoyed. "You could have told me how to enter Matsuda's mind."
"Actually Light-kun, if you recall I'm not allowed to tell you how to do anything." Ryuuzaki stated bluntly.
Light sighed, "At least you helped me this time. You know I don't know if it's just because you helped me or if it's because you're a sexy little lawbreaker, but I am so turned on by you right now."
Ryuuzaki's mouth spread into a smile, "That's good, because I was just thinking similar thoughts about you."
A diabolical smirk grew onto Light's face, "I think this time I want it more than you."
Ryuuzaki looked questioningly, "Oh?" Light suddenly grabbed Ryuuzaki into a rough kiss. When they broke apart Ryuuzaki was trying to make more sense of this, "B-but I thought I was the seme."
Light's diabolical smirk returned, "Yes, you were the seme, but then you broke Heaven's rules and for that you must be punished before you do something you'll really regret." Light pulled Ryuuzaki into another forceful kiss. This time Light's hands wandered into Ryuuzaki's shirt. Light traced his fingers down Ryuuzaki's back muscles.
"Mmmmnnn...." Ryuuzaki moaned into Light's mouth as he was touched. Ryuuzaki was new to being an uke, but so far he was enjoying it. Light's hands made their way lower and lower until he reached into Ryuuzaki's pants and grabbed his ass, "Eek!" Ryuuzaki involuntarily squeaked out.
Light giggled at this, "That was a little feminine."
Ryuuzaki blushed bright red, "I-I'm just not used to being touched like that." He was quite ashamed of letting Light hear him squeal like that.
"Maybe you are more suited to being uke." Light said grinning.
"Shut up..." Ryuuzaki said blushing deeper.
"Okay..." Light retorted before pulling Ryuuzaki into another kiss. Ryuuzaki wrapped his arms around Light's neck as he began to unbutton his shirt. Light suddenly stopped kissing Ryuuzaki, "The clothes....lose them." He demanded.
"So forceful..." Ryuuzaki replied as he removed his shirt. He didn't care about being seme, he would have that title again, right now he was too horny to care. He stripped down to nothing but a pair of black boxers and Light stripped down to nothing but his boxers as well.
"You look so damn hot..." Light said lust filling his eyes. He took Ryuuzaki into another kiss before pushing him down to the ground. They stripped off their respective boxers quickly. Light grabbed Ryuuzaki's member and tapped his fingers on it.
That's all he did and after about 15 seconds, Ryuuzaki was pissed off, "Wh-why aren't you doing anything?!" He shouted angry that he was being denied the pleasure he wanted so badly.
"...I want to hear you beg for it first." Light said an evil grin spreading across his face.
"Y-you Bastard! You're still a-a-a heartless murderer!!" Ryuuzaki shouted bitterly.
"Heartless? ....Maybe, but would you care to explain the murderer part?" Light asked still only slightly touching Ryuuzaki.
"This is slowly killing me!" Ryuuzaki yelled as an answer.
"All you have to do is beg..." Light said still grinning wickedly.
"P-please..." Ryuuzaki whispered quietly.
"What was that? I can't quite hear you." Light said enjoying himself immensely at the torture of the once proud detective.
"Please..." Ryuuzaki said louder.
"Please wha~at?" Light asked as he continued to torment Ryuuzaki with tiny amounts of pleasure that didn't add up to anything.
Ryuuzaki motioned his hips towards Light's hand, "Please, Light-kun..." He couldn't stand this situation. He wanted this so badly, but he would hate so much to beg for it.
"I'm not gonna do anything until you beg for it." Light said still cruelly keeping Ryuuzaki yearning for him.
This was too much for Ryuuzaki to hold out on, "PLEASE DO ME, FUCK ME, WHATEVER YOU WANNA CALL IT, JUST TAKE ME NOW!" Ryuuzaki screamed as he did something he never thought he would do, beg.
"Now was that so hard?" Light asked still not doing anything more than giving small, soft touches.
Ryuuzaki motioned his hips towards Light's hand again, "Unnnngh, Light-kun, come on I BEGGED already. I NEED you to fuck me now! PLEASE!"
Light was a little surprised, the proud detective was actually begging, no, pleading for something. Light then licked from Ryuuzaki's neck up to his ear and whispered, "Don't worry, I want this too." Light then firmly grasped onto Ryuuzaki's member and a small "meep" was heard from him.
Light locked his lips with Ryuuzaki's and their tongues got reacquainted as he began to pleasure Ryuuzaki with his hand. He planted light kisses on Ryuuzaki's neck moving lower with each one until he reached Ryuuzaki's member. He removed his hand and started to softly lick the head of Ryuuzaki's member. "Haa..unnn...Light-kun stop tormenting me!" Ryuuzaki yelled at Light since he wasn't doing what Ryuuzaki wanted him to do.
"I'm sorry...I was just so tempted to do that again." Light responded. He then took Ryuuzaki's entire member into his mouth.
Light was making loud slurping noises which was just bringing Ryuuzaki closer to climax faster, "Haaa...Haaa..aahhhnnnn..." Ryuuzaki's breathing was becoming more sporadic as Light continued to pleasure him. "Ohh...haaa..oh...yes....yes Light-kun..." He said in pleasure. "Oh...OH GOD... Y-You're GOOD...." Ryuuzaki barely said as all functions of speech were being replaced with pleasure.
Light stopped sucking Ryuuzaki's member and licked his way up to Ryuuzaki's ear again, "Where's the lube at?"
"O-over..over there." Ryuuzaki said panting and pointing to his pants.
Light searched the pockets and found the gel he wanted. He spread some on his fingers and got back on top of Ryuuzaki, "You're going to feel a little pain now, are you ready?" Light whispered into Ryuuzaki's ear.
"Yes...I want...I want this now..." Ryuuzaki said still panting a little.
"Okay..." Light said before putting his index finger into Ryuuzaki's entrance. Ryuuzaki winced, but had too much dignity to make any noises hinting at pain. "Good so far..." Light put another finger in and began stretching Ryuuzaki out.
"...Ahhh...it hurts..." Ryuuzaki said biting his lower lip.
Light kissed Ryuuzaki's forehead, "I know, but trust me it will be worth it in the end." He said stretching Ryuuzaki's entrance out further. Light pulled his fingers out and lubed his member, "Now...are you ready for me?" Light said straddling Ryuuzaki's hips.
"Yes Light-kun....I want this NOW!" Ryuuzaki said pressing his hips into Light's.
"You're very eager...but so am I." Light said getting in position. Light pushed into Ryuuzaki's entrance softly, he was showing great restraint. He could see the pain on Ryuuzaki's face, "Just bear with me, you'll enjoy it soon."
"JUST THRUST INTO ME!!" Ryuuzaki screamed in pain. Light nodded and thrust hard into Ryuuzaki which completely changed the look on his face from pain to pure pleasure, "UWAAAAHH!!....OHGOD...HAH HAH.....AGAIN!" He demanded and Light complied. "OH GOD LIGHT-KUN!!" Ryuuzaki shouted filled with pleasure. Ryuuzaki wrapped his legs around Light. He began to move his hips in time with Light and was getting the maximum amount of pleasure.
Light thrust in repeatedly hitting Ryuuzaki's prostate every time. A chorus of moans was erupting from the two men as pleasure was overtaking the both of them. They were moaning so loud that it was surprising that those from Heaven couldn't hear them. "HAH.....HAH..L-LIGHT-KUN, YO-YOU'RE...YOU'RE AMAZING!" Ryuuzaki screamed out in pleasure.
"Ahhh...LAWLIET..." Was all Light was able to get out while thrusting in and out of Ryuuzaki.
"LIGHT-KUN....UWAAAHHHH....." Ryuuzaki couldn't believe how much pleasure this was giving him. He would want to be seme again, but he also wouldn't mind switching around every now and again. Light thrust hard into Ryuuzaki's prostate again, "HAAAAHHNNNN....AH L-L-LIGHT-K-KUN!" Ryuuzaki couldn't help but stutter due to the intense pleasure being given to him, "I-I-I..Can-Can't...ICAN'THOLDOUT!!" He was able to scream out before losing his ability to speak. Light thrust once more hitting Ryuuzaki's prostate. "LIIIIGHT!!!" Ryuuzaki screamed out involuntarily as he came.
"LAWLIEEEETTT!!!!" Light screamed as he came inside of Ryuuzaki.
The two were panting harshly after the great amount of exercise they both went through. "Was...was that good?" Light asked lying on his back exhausted.
"It...was...It was astounding." Ryuuzaki answered also lying on his back breathing heavily. "I...love...you Light."
"I love...love you too Ryuuzaki-chan." Light said smiling.
Ryuuzaki blushed a bit, "Don't call me chan, it's too embarrassing."
"Hahahaa...What are you going to do about it Ryuuzaki-CHA~AN." Light said putting great emphasis on the chan part.
Unexpectedly Ryuuzaki jumped on top of Light and bit his nipple, "I think I'm gonna have to hurt you a bit."
"Aaahhhhnnn.....That's nice..." Light loved it when Ryuuzaki played with his nipple, and was surprised at how eager he was to do it again after he got so exhausted. 'I guess Ryuuzaki's just too hot for me to resist no matter what.' Light thought to himself as he got prepared for more fun. For the rest of the night the sound of the two lovers taking each other in different positions could be heard.