AN: These are the first couple of chapters of the sequel for any of you who want to read it. I have really bad writers block with it so probably won't end up finishing it.

JACOBS POV

Chapter 1

I Miss Her

My first week of college went great, mostly because classes hadn't started yet; it was all about enrolling, going to seminars to pick the right classes for you and your ambitions and getting to know people. I had convinced Quil and Embry to try and get last minute placements to come with me and luckily the school managed to fit them in. I hate to admit it but they were my safety net, I felt more secure and comfortable knowing that I wouldn't be alone in a huge school, much bigger than the reservation and Forks High school put together.

I sighed as we got back into the car after a long night of so called partying, although none of us were drinking due to patrol when we got back. I missed Aria so much, she'd been gone a couple of weeks and there just seemed to be this big, gaping hole in my chest where she used to be. She took my heart with her and I felt lost and alone without her here telling me that everything will be okay, as she usually did.

The guys knew exactly what was on my mind, Aria had been since the day she left and she will be forever. I looked glumly into the rear view mirror as I reversed out of the parking space and started our one hour thirty five minute journey back home. Luckily the school was paying for my travel costs or there would be no way I'd be able to make this trip almost every day.

"You still haven't written back to her have you?" Embry asked from the seat next to me.

"No, I have text her to make sure she's okay but haven't really spoken to her." I replied depression filling my voice and body.

"Why?" Quil questioned me.

"I just don't know what I'm supposed to say. I don't want to lie to her and tell her I'm fine and I don't want to upset her by telling her the truth." I sighed again.

"Well can't you just tell her some and leave the rest out?" Embry thought out loud.

"I guess, but it seems as bad as lying to her."

The car went silent for a while. "Well, I think you need to reply, or you will live like this for the next three to four years and it's not healthy."

I eventually arrived home after doing a two hour patrol; it was three in the morning. Thankfully it was Saturday tomorrow and I had nothing to do but sleep. I dropped to my bed suddenly wide awake and decided to just wait for sleep. It didn't come. My head filled with Aria, what was she doing now? Was she sleeping, or was she laying thinking about me, like I was her? Was she making new friends? Was she out at a party or in with her new flatmates? So many questions filled my head and it felt like I needed to know the answers, that without them I would be able to do nothing but this.

I worried about her all the time, wondering if she was safe walking home in the dark, or if she was making sure she cooked her food properly. I was worrying about stupid things, knowing fully well that she could take care of herself, I still had to worry. I tried to picture her in my mind, her long golden hair, her piercing green eyes, and her slim curvaceous body. I smiled to myself at how beautiful she is, I was proud to call her mine. I couldn't help but wonder if she had come to terms with the distance yet, she was good at adapting to different situations and I thought maybe she would have by now. I wished that I could, so that I had done what she had asked of me in the letter.

The summer ended horribly for me, alone and empty without Aria. There weren't any more leech attacks so patrol was at minimum, the pack were trying to keep me preoccupied by always doing something, going to Emily and Sam's for lunch, hanging out on the beach, going to the mall in Port Angeles. I knew they were just trying to help but they had their imprints, their soul mates right there with them and it just made me miss her more, knowing that she should have been there with me.

I sat up with yet another sigh, a bad habit I had picked up since Aria had left for college. Nothing seemed worth it without her here, even breathing felt like a chore now. Maybe Quil and Embry were right, maybe I did need to reply to her. I grabbed a notepad and pen and started to write.

Aria,

Thanks for the Mustang; it must have cost you a fortune! You shouldn't have gotten me it, but I love you for it. Thanks for all the new parts as well, I hadn't realised that you had put them in the trunk until a week later. I really don't know where you got the money from. Maybe once its fixed up I could sell the Rabbit and pay you some of it back at least? I know you wouldn't really take the money off of me. It's great, I've already done quite a lot of work on it.

So I guess you're wondering what's been going on here, to be honest not a lot. Patrols at a minimum because there have been no attacks as of yet so there's nothing really exciting to tell you.

Caleb is getting bigger and bigger every day, I know you only saw him once or twice before you left, and I wasn't there, but I can image you fell in love with him. Or at least you would if you were here. The diaper changing thing isn't so great, it stinks but he makes up for it in cuteness as you would say.

The Cullen's are preparing to leave, Seth's pretty hung up about it and is trying to decide whether to go with them or not. Their going up to Alaska to start again with their whole high school students bit. They mentioned that the other clan like theirs, the Denali's might come and stay in their house for a while basically doing the same thing they are. We've met them before so we shouldn't have any problems with the switch over.

I miss you so much. I feel like you've been gone for years, not weeks. I feel so lost and alone and empty without you. Everyday just isn't worth it anymore because you're not here to spend them with me. I couldn't tell you how much I wish you were here in my arms, so that I could hold you tight and feel your soft skin against mine and smell your strawberry shampoo. Just make sure you come back to me.

I made you a thank you gift for the car. I don't know if you've already received it, I think it's supposed to take another week to get to you. I hope you like it; it's something for you to remember me by.

I love you so much. Wait to write back for a while, so you can tell me everything about the academy.

Jacob.

I folded the paper and placed it in an envelope, writing Aria's address on it. I would post it in the morning.

ARIA'S POV

Chapter 2

I went to my mail box, thinking maybe mum and dad had sent me a post card from Venice. They had decided to take another vacation before the good weather was over. No postcard but a letter. I picked it up and looked down at Jacob's try at his best hand writing. My heart skipped a beat when I saw it; all I could do was stare.

"Aria, are you okay?" My flat mate Jilly asked me.

I turned to look at her; she had curly auburn hair and freckles covering her pale white face. She was smiling at me but her light brown eyes conveyed a small amount of concern. I tried to smile back at her, not doing overly well.

"Come one you two!" Ryan called from the sunshine.

Instantly I followed his voice, eager to get away from Jilly's stare. She followed me out and I stuffed Jacob's letter into my bag before anyone could question it. We were two girls in a dorm with 3 boys or I guess you would say men at our age. Ryan, Lucas and Nathan were stood waiting for us and lead us onto a grassy area where hundreds of students were hanging out in the sunshine.

We sat down and I smiled up at the blue, cloudless sky and sunny warmth, it was nice to be out of the rain but I missed La Push and my friends so much, it was hard to breathe when I thought of them sometimes. I tried to busy myself with the research material I had taken out of the library already wanting to get a head start on one of my first assignments.

Eventually a cold evening chill slid across the grounds and the group of us packed up our stuff and made our way back to our flat. I used Jacob's letter as a bookmark and held the book tight to my chest as we walked to what was my new home.

We made food together and all sat down to eat, dinner was becoming a tradition. We would nearly always eat the same thing to keep shopping costs to a minimum and it was easier than us all crowding in the kitchen trying to cook five different meals. Nathan was a really good cook and he didn't mind doing it most of the time as it meant we wouldn't make him clear up after himself. The five of us got along really well so far and I was wondering what Jacob would think of them. Maybe he'd get to meet them one day.

After dinner I escaped to my room shutting the door firmly behind me, I opened my book and put it to one side as I sat on my small bed to read his letter. My heart beat fastened as I opened it happy that he had finally replied to me.

I read it through and ended up in tears at his anguish of me being gone. I, of course feeling the same way, wished I could console him somehow. I must have read it ten times when there was a knock at my door.

"Who is it?" I asked, my voice shaky from the tears.

"It's Jilly. I wanted to see if you're alright." She called through the thick wooden door. It was only last night that I was doing the same thing for her.

I folded the letter away and brushed away the tears as I answered the door. I knew fully well that my eyes were puffy and red, I wasn't trying to hide the fact that I had been crying.

"Oh." She muttered as she flung her arms around me, making me cry much more into her shoulder.

I could sense the guys were watching from a distance but I didn't care. I missed Jacob too much for any of that to matter. Jilly heard them muttering and hit them with a disappointed glare before shuffling me into my room and slamming the door shut behind her.

"What's wrong?" she asked me.

I shook my head unable to talk and pointed at the picture of me and Jacob in the dark wooden frame that was by my bed. She picked it up and sat down on the edge of the bed next to me looking at it.

"What's his name?" Jilly questioned me, understanding written all over her face.

"Jacob." I whispered.

"The letter was from him." It wasn't a question, it was a statement. I nodded. "Did he break up with you in it?" I shook my head. "You miss him." She deduced, which just caused more tears to flow from me.

She hugged me close to her until there were no more tears left and then got up whispering "I'll go get the ice cream." She came back with the tub of Ben and Jerry's we had started last night during her cry time and a comedy. We lay on my bed and watched it, chatting the whole way through and eventually both of us fell asleep there.

My alarm clock sounded waking us both us with a start. Jilly hurried back to her own room to start getting ready for class and I did the same.

Eventually we hurried into our first lecture of the day and many hours after that we stumbled out of our last. My arms were piled high with books I would have to read and make notes on, pieces I would have to paint, and others I would have to do a re-make of. One of the third years had told me the courses I had chosen would be tough, this was the end of my first week and I was already piled high with work, I guess he was right.

I fell onto my bed exhausted after carefully placing my large pile of books down onto my desk. Too tired to even want to eat food, I changed into some pyjamas got in bed. Lying in the dark, I dialled a familiar number on my phone and waited for Seth to answer.

"Hello?" He asked as if I wouldn't possibly be ringing him.

"Hi." I say sleepily down the phone.

"Are you okay?" he asked me uncertainty in his voice.

"Mhmm just tired. Everyone went out but I was too exhausted to go." I tell him, really sounding it.

"Oh." Silence. "Why are you ringing me?"

"You don't want me to?" I asked distraught.

"Yes! Yeah I do, I just thought you'd ring Jake before any of us."

"Oh, well, I don't think he's ready for that yet." I tell him, explaining about the letter and how much I'd cried. "I don't think I'm ready to hear his voice yet, I think I'd just pack up and come home." I confessed. "I just… needed to hear a friendly voice I guess."

"Well I'm glad you rang." Seth was such a good listener.

"Jake mentioned you might go with the Cullen's?" I asked him.

"Yeah." He sounded unsure.

"Want some advice?"

"Yes!" He sounded relieved. "I was going to ask but I thought you kinda had your own stuff to deal with." He explained. I nodded and then realised he couldn't see me.

"Yeah I do, but you're the best friend I've got so feel free to unload." I told him conversationally, trying to skip over my issues about leaving.

"So tell me what you think I should do, or what you would do."

"If it were me, I would hold off for a couple of months, let them go, see what happens. In that time you'll be able to figure out how much you could realistically see Renesme, and you'll know if you can spend that much time away from her. If you can't then you should go with them, but if you can, then for now at least, you should probably stay. You and Nessy aren't in a physical relationship yet and that will make it easier."

"Yeah I think you're probably right, I just really don't want her to go." He told me, his voice full of sorrow.

"I know, believe me."

We talked some more but then Seth had to go on patrol so we hung up and I fell asleep feeling a bit happier than before.

JACOB'S POV
Chapter 3

Coming Home

It has been weeks since I mailed the letter to Aria and still no reply. I get the occasional text message or e-mail so I know that she's safe and she's rang Seth a lot too. Seth keeps reassuring me that she's really busy, every time he has spoken to her she's sounded exhausted, or it's been the middle of the night and she's only just finished her work or she's just gotten back from a waitressing job or something. It sounds like she's always on the go and she obviously just doesn't have time for me. My heart sinks once again as I thought this, I wish she's just call me or write back and tell me everything, for once why couldn't she call me instead of Seth?

I sigh yet again, the habit beginning to really frustrate me and continue my three hour patrol. This really is the only time where it seems to hurt less, when I can let go of everything human and just run around on all fours. I've been doing as many patrols as possible, taking Colin and Brady's now and again so that they can get their school work done. Getting rid of the excess energy is helping me to keep my temper through all of this. I just wish she would reply. I would never be too busy to reply to her.

Maybe she's not replying for her and it has nothing to do with you. Brady's thoughts clear in my mind. I guess maybe he could be right about that one; she wouldn't purposefully torture me this way.

I'm going to call her I decided and raced in the direction of home, not caring that I still had another hour of patrol to go. Brady would cover for me; there hasn't been an attack in months. The Cullen's are gone and the Denali's won't be arriving for a while yet.

I phased right outside of my house and pulled on my cut-off jeans, striding into the house as I went. Billy wasn't home; he was out fishing with Charlie like they did most Saturdays now. I went to the privacy of my bedroom anyway and flung myself on the bed, propping up the pillows, I rested against the head board.

Grabbing my phone off of the side next to me, I scrolled through my contact list until I found her name. My heart beat picking up pace, I pressed the call button and held the phone up to my ear, waiting far too impatiently. It went to answer phone far too quickly. Aria hung up on me! I stare down at the phone in my hand blankly, unsure how I was supposed to feel about this. Seconds later the phone was vibrating in my hand with her name and picture on the screen. I smiled down at it for a while then remembered I needed to answer.

"Hello?" I ask uncertainly down the phone.

"You rang me" Aria stated.

"Yeah, I haven't heard from you, you didn't write back so I just wanted to make sure that everything's okay?" I tell her, my whole body filling with elation at hearing her voice.

"Yeah, why wouldn't it be?" She asked me, sounding far away from the phone.

I heard a knock in the distance down the phone and Aria calling "Hold on a sec" I presume through her door.

"Jake, I gotta go." She said and then to someone else. "Hey Luke."

I heard a male voice in the room with her saying a muffled "Hello, are you ready to go?" He asked her "We'll be late." He warned.

"I have to go to work; I'll talk to you later." Aria's voice sounded down the phone and the call was over before I even had the chance to say goodbye to her.

My whole body was shaking and I didn't have time to escape the house or my clothing before I saw red and burst into a wolf. Who the hell was Luke? What was he doing in my girlfriend's bedroom? Who did he think he was, tearing her away from me like that?

It took me quite a long time to calm down enough to phase back to my human self. Majority of the pack had come by to try and help me out with it, but it was close to impossible to make me okay with Aria not being here, she belongs here with me, she should be here with me.

"It won't be long till she's back now Jake." Seth tried to soothe me, but it wasn't helping. Aria was being like this on purpose, not talking to me, not replying to me, she didn't want me so what good would her being in La Push do? It would just make it all harder to deal with.

ARIA'S POV

I dropped my bag to the floor, exhausted from a week of finishing work for our hand in date that was yesterday. I start hanging up my clothes and unpacking all of the things that I would need for my visit back home. I was in my bedroom in my parents' house; it was the middle of the day, sun hidden beneath the clouds as usual here and I felt strangely full and happy to be back. I had been dreading it all week, knowing that Jacob would be upset with me. I had been dodging his calls and texts for the past couple of weeks still trying to deal with the distance, I was finding it impossible.

There was a knock on my door and I turned in time to see Seth smiling at me from the door way. I rushed over to hug him, smiling up at him. "I missed you!" I tell him pulling away from him to look at him. He was in his usual jean shorts, and shirtless. His hair cropped short and messy and his chest and arms considerably more muscled than the last time I had seen him. "Looking good!" I tell him wiggling my eyebrows at him happily.

He laughed and said "Right back at you."

I was wearing a pair of black leggings and an emerald, lose green dress that hung from my figure perfectly, and brightened my eyes. I smiled up at him happily I shook my head disbelievingly at him, my golden hair swaying with me.

"Please tell me you plan on going to see Jake, like now?" he pleaded.

I nodded laughing at his desperateness, "of course", I tell him. "I miss him so much."

"I know you do. He's really messed up over the separation." Seth muttered looking to the floor as concern filled his face.

I sighed, "Me too."

"Well, I could take you, I drove here." He said excitedly. Seth had finally saved enough money to buy his own car.

"That would be great." I laughed at him.

"Yes!" He grabbed my hand, "let's go now!"

I grabbed my bag off my bed as Seth pulled me out the room towards the stairs and the front door.

We pulled up outside Jacob's house; he was in his garage bunched over the bonnet of the Mustang. He turned at the sound of me slamming shut Seth's car door. I just stared at me like he had never seen me before. I felt my heart crack at the look, filled with pain and desperation and love all at once. Immediately I felt even guiltier about the way I had been acting than I had before.

Seth drove away just leaving me stood there. How could he? My head screamed for him to come back and take me home but I needed to see Jake. We were just mere meters apart but I couldn't bring myself to close that distance. What if he didn't want me here?

"Are you just going to stand there?" He asked me a smile filling his face.

I just ran to him, to his arms, dropping my bag on the garage floor as I went. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and I put my head on his bare chest finally feeling safe and at home. He tried to pull away from me after a while but I wouldn't let him. He chuckled into my hair and tightened his grip on me again.

"I missed you." His husky voice filled deep with emotion.

"Me too." I whispered back. I couldn't handle more than that right now.

We stayed there for what felt like hours but it was probably really only minutes. Eventually I let him pull away so that he could look down at me. I looked up into his gorgeous brown eyes and smiled at him. He smiled back but it wasn't so pure this time. His face filled with questions, and I couldn't blame him for being angry with me.

I held up a finger for him to wait a moment and went to find my bag, pulling out a letter addressed to him. I handed him it silently and he looked down at it blankly.

"I wrote it about a week ago; never go round to posting you it." I tell him, my voice full of apology.

JACOB'S POV

Chapter 4

The Letter

I looked down at the letter in my hands and back up to Aria's beautiful face, here were the answers I had been craving for so long. However, the questions seemed meaningless now with her here in front of me. She was so much more beautiful than I had remembered her being, and again I recognised how lucky I was to have had her chosen for me.

I ripped open the envelope and leaned against the old blue-ish colour car, pulling Aria in my warm embrace.

Jacob,

I'm sorry I haven't written back, and I'm sorry I've been dodging your phone calls and not answering your texts and e-mails. I truly am. Words can't even begin to explain the way that I have been feeling in order to justify how I have treated you. I thought that by forcing myself through the semester at school without much contact with you would make it easier on the both of us. But I'm finally beginning to see that I was wrong. I figured that the reason I'm so sad and alone and empty and confused isn't because I am here and you are there, it's because I'm forcing you out of my life by doing this.

I miss you so much, every second of every day my heart breaks that little bit more. I hate waking up in the morning knowing you aren't there, knowing I won't see you or hear your voice or feel your touch. This really is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Being away from you is like being away from me. I gave you my heart and you gave me yours, you are and forever will be a part of me just like I am a part of you. When I left, I left that part of me with you, and now I feel so alone and lost and incomplete. I know I will only feel whole again when I am in your arms.

I can't wait to see you again, just another week to go and I'll be coming back home to you. I hope you're there waiting for me, and that you're not too mad at me for how I have been behaving. I guess maybe there's a small part of you that could understand why I did what I did, even though it turns out it was only making things worse.

School has been really busy all semester. It's been book after book after book, and painting and drawing and art history, essays and exams. I've barely had time to breathe easy. Then on top of that I got a job as a waitress in a small restaurant with Lucas, he's one of four flat mates and is turning out to be a really great friend. The others Nathan and Ryan are cool too but I'm not as close with them. But there is also Jilly, she's a little weird but she's a good friend and she's always around when something goes wrong.

I told them all about you, and they're dying to meet you someday. I hope that you'll like them, and not be too weird that I'm living with three guys. I know that you'll probably not be okay with it, but they look at me like a sister, they've never even tried flirting with me so you don't need to worry. Well actually you wouldn't need to even if they had; it will take more than that for you to get rid of me.

Just in case you're wondering, apart from the crying over you whenever possible thing I have going on, I'm doing really great, my school work has literally never been better and I'm having a lot of fun. I hope you are too. Mostly, I'm just really busy, I don't really get much time to go out, and I have so much work to do. I'm up almost every night till midnight at least trying to get it all done and have classes Monday to Friday and work at the weekends. I barely have time to eat or sleep or shower. Don't panic I do, do those things. I should be finishing an essay right now but I decided you're more important.

I love you so much Jacob, I wish there was a way that I could explain it, there just aren't enough words, and none that would be good enough. Even though we haven't spoken, I fall in love with you more and more every day. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, I guess I can finally agree with them.

I miss you. I'll see you soon, it's a promise.

Aria.

I finished reading and just stared down at the paper in my hands for a while, taking in the beautiful words, any anger I felt diminished. I tore my eyes away from the letter to focus on her face. She is so beautiful.

"I'll never let you go." I whispered to her, pulling her in tighter.

"Good." I hear her say.

I pulled away and brought her face up to mine with my hands, kissing her soft lips. Her arms pulled up and wrapped around my neck as she kissed me back more fiercely. I was lost in her taste and her scent and her body, my head spinning yet so focused on her. I fell in love with her all over again.

ARIA'S POV

Chapter 4

The holiday passed far too quickly. I spent the whole thing practically glued to Jacob, the only time we weren't with each other was when he had to go out on patrol and then I would always wait for him to come back to me.