I was fighting my way through the darkness, I felt like I was in a jungle trying to hang my way through the underbrush but with every swing of my arm the path just got longer. I was tired, so tired of fighting this blackness. I could hear my angels voice trying to call me back.
"Bella my love please wake up. I need you so much" his voice broke on the last part and I made the decision to wake up I needed to I couldn't give into the blackness. I couldn't have my love in pain any longer. I slowly started opening my eyes only to squeeze them back shut the light hurting my sensitive eyes. I opened my eyes slower this time squinting until my pupils adjusted to the light.
"Oh Bella my love I was so worried about you" Edwards eyes were black telling me that he hadn't hunted in awhile.
"How long have I been out?" I was confused
"Two days Bella, the longest two days of my existence you cant ever do that to me again Bella or to yourself"
"I know Edward I'm so sorry I should've tried to control my temper it's just that everybody kept asking about us and I was getting annoyed very much so and the girls in the locker room wouldn't stop there gossiping mouths and I felt like punching in all of there faces" I kept rambling trying to get Edward to understand I really was sorry. Edward put his fingers on my lips hushing me politely
"Bella what did they say?" Edward asked hesitantly
"That you were only with me because you felt bad and not because you liked me and they also didn't know why you would go for someone that looked like me. . . Plain" I said my head slouched down.
"Bella look at me" I shook my head and still kept staring at my lap Edward put his fingers under my chin and lifted my face up until I was staring into his eyes, even though they were black with hunger they still held love.
"Oh my love you didn't believe them did you?" he asked incredulously
"Of course not, sometimes I can't help but wonder what you see in me because I am so plain but then I just count my blessings that I have you for now"
"Bella how many times do I have to tell you that you are beautiful for you to believe me?"
"For eternity"
"I can do that" he said grinning and kissing my forehead. I tried to wrap my arms around him but felt something tugging.
"Why is there an I.V. in my arm? I hate needles please take it out" while Edward got to taking it out of my arm he explained why
"You wouldn't wake up and your broken ribs were starting to puncture your lungs, we had to get the blood in you somehow, while you were out I had Carlisle take off your cast too"
"I'm so so sorry Edward I never meant to get that angry" my eyes were tearing up and I knew I was close to crying.
"It's okay my love just promise you'll never do that again. Wait until the baby is born to get angry if you have to"
"I can't promise that Edward but I will try my hardest for you because. . Because I love you" I said the last part in an almost whisper knowing that Edward would hear me. I know that it has only been 2 weeks since I've known Edward but it felt longer, almost as if we'd known each other our whole lives, I love Edward Cullen, I didn't think that I would ever love another man after what James did to me, but with the help of Carlisle's therapy sessions and Edwards constant caring I was healing albeit slowly but it was still happening.
Edward embraced me into a protective hug and I loved the way I felt completely safe in his arms.
"I love you too Bella, you are my life now, you both are" I hugged Edward as tight as I could not wanting to let go of him.
Edward pulled back from me staring into my eyes
"What did you say?" his brow furrowed in concentration.
"I didn't say anything Edward, are you okay?"
"Yeah Yeah I'm fine I think it's the baby's mind that I'm hearing" Edward said in amazement his face completely awestruck
"OOHH" I squealed in excitement, the baby startled and kicked me hardly and I flinched.
"Quiet my love you scared her" Edward said lovingly rubbing the spot 'she' just kicked
"Her?" I questioned could he tell by reading his/her mind
"I have my hopes" Edward said
"I wish that you could have been the father Edward, this baby would have been made out of love and not out of hate"
"Bella I love you and I love this baby already, though the making of the baby may have been hateful, this baby will be completely loved by all of us, as long as were together everything will be great"
"You're too good for me Edward" I decided to get a little bold and see what would happen how Edward would react
"Or should I say daddy now?" Edwards responding smile was worth the risk his smile blinding his eyes sparkling onyx he was gorgeous.
"That sounds perfect to me Bella but if I'm going to be Daddy you are going to be Mommy" I froze at Edwards words, hearing him say that scared me would I be a good mother? Would I be horrible? What if I was a terrible mother?
"You will be a wonderful mother Bella, there isn't a doubt in my mind about it" for that moment all my fears had disappeared. My stomach growled reminding me that I was starving. Edward chuckled.
"I guess it's time to feed you"
"How do I know if its hunger for food or thirsting for blood?"
"Your stomach growled for one for two that baby got plenty of blood from your I.V. bag she's quite stuffed right now" he chuckled
"So what would you like to eat?"
"McDonalds?" I said questioningly
"I'll get you anything my love just tell me what you want from this McDonald's place"
"Big'n'tasty, extra-extra pickles, large French Fry, and a large hi-c please" I said knowing that this was going to be heaven once I sunk my teeth into that juicy burger.
"I'll be back soon my love try and rest please" he said kissing me lovingly on the forehead while tucking me in. He was gone in seconds out to get me my food.
I heard a knock on Edwards door, great I'm trying to take a nap and Alice probably wants to talk shopping.
"Go away Alice I want to take a nap until Edward gets home with my food" I said rolling back into Edwards pillow and inhaling his scent as always it was mouthwatering. The door creaked open and I wondered if Alice knew how to listen.
"Um Bella it's me Rosalie" I sat up stick straight and motioned her in.
"I've been wanting to talk to you about what happened on Tuesday" I tensed immediately. I have to stay calm, I have to stay calm.
I want to apologize Bella, I assumed everything and out of jealousy I didn't ask"
"Jealous of me Rosalie" I scoffed at that I was plain old Bella and she was super model Rosalie.
"Yes Bella I'm jealous of you, you have your humanity, you can have children and grow old"
"I never meant for this to happen Rosalie" I said motioning around my stomach area.
"I know that Bella but that's the point you didn't even mean to get pregnant and yet you did, Vampires can't conceive, believe me we've tried." she said the last part bitterly.
"I'm sorry" Rose would have been a great mother.
"No I'm sorry Bella, I don't know the details of what happened to you but I do know that it was horrible and I understand that and that is why I want to share my story with you"
"You don't have to do that" I said stuttering through my words.
"I want to"
"Okay" it would be kind of nice to have someone to relate to.
She took a deep un-needed breath to ready herself and began telling me about her experience.
"I was to be married to Royce King, I was so excited Bella. I would have my dreams come true, I would be married and I would get the family that I had always wanted, I was going to meet Royce that night, we were going out to eat, while walking to his place I spotted him with a couple of his friends. I walked up to them where Royce then proceeded to show me off like some prized sow. He ripped my favorite dress. I was so upset but all they did was laugh at me and touch me in places I didn't want them to. I told him to stop Bella I really did, I'm not going to go into detail Bella because it's pretty gruesome, but in the end they left me for dead and that's when Carlisle found me and changed me"
"Oh Rosalie I'm so sorry" I said rubbing circles on her back trying to soothe her even though I don't think that it was helping.
"Thank you for sharing that with me Rosalie" it was really nice hearing that not that the story was nice because it wasn't but it was nice to have someone to relate to or if I needed advice I could go to Rosalie because she knows.
"I just wanted you to know that you're not alone"
"Thank you"
"I think Edwards here and he's getting a little antsy" Rosalie said laughing to herself.
"OOO he has my food" I said my mouth practically overflowing with saliva
Rose glanced at my stomach which was now protruding more than last Friday.
"Would you like to touch my belly" I asked, her face lit up into a beautiful smile.
"Oh please" she was practically bouncing in her seat reminding me so much of Alice. I lifted my shirt up and laid back a little.
"Go ahead" the light bruising didn't seem to affect her like it did Edward. She tentatively reached her hand out and laid it on my swollen stomach, as always the baby reacted to the temperature change and kicked me but thankfully not as hard as when I'm angry or upset. Rose gasped at the feeling her face glowing happiness. My stomach growled, while Rosalie was admiring it, reminding me that I was hungry.
"I guess I'll go Edward is going to burn a hole through the floor with how much he's pacing." I giggled at the thought Edward did worry about me too much
"Thanks again Rosalie"
"Bella?"
"Yes"
"You can call me Rose that's what my friends call me" She said smiling as she walked out, Edward rushed in seconds after she had left. My food in one hand and a worried smile one his face. My food smelled delicious.
"What did Rose say? I hope it wasn't anything upsetting, my love" Edward said while setting my food up in front of me
"She told me her story, we understand each other now" I said and that was all I said until I was eating my last fry and gulping down the last of my drink.
"MMM that was delicious thank you" I looked up at Edward smiling while rubbing my stomach it was so full. Edward watched my hand and after a couple of seconds put his hands on my following my movement.
"Anything for you my love" he said leaning down and kissing my stomach.
"Edward what are we going to do about Charlie and school?" I asked, I was worried, would I even graduate?
"I think you should move in with us Bella, Carlisle and Esme already think of you as there daughter, and I love you and want to be around you all the time" he said looking sincere with love just flowing out of his eyes.
"You want me to live with you" I said not knowing if I was ready for that step would he get annoyed with me? Find someone better than me? Realize that I'm not what he wanted?
"What are you thinking my love?"
"What if you get sick of me?"
"I could never get sick of you, you are my life now Bella"
"Will you come with me when I tell Charlie?"
"I will come with you anywhere Bella" he said hugging me tighter and kissing the top of my head. I wished that he would kiss my lips I want to know what they feel like, I couldn't give him my virginity and that upset me but he could be my first kiss.
"I want to try something" I said feeling nervous, obviously Edward wasn't going to take initiative so I would have to. I just hope that he didn't reject me I don't think that my heart could take it.
He pulled back from the embrace looking at me with his furrowed brow.
"Can we kiss?" I asked feeling vulnerable
"Bella I don't know" he said looking nervous
"Can we try" Edward didn't answer he just leaned forward a little
"Be very still Bella" I didn't move or answer the only sound in the room was my racing heart and my breathing.
Edward was millimeters away from my lips I could feel his cold breaths on my face. His lips gently touched my his cold against my warm sending a jolt of electricity through them. My lips felt like a livewire I could feel the energy buzzing between us. This felt so right like I belonged. Edward started moving his lips against mine, I responded the same staying in my spot letting Edward control this as much as possible with out feeling like I was being forced. I was getting into the kiss when the nagging feeling in the back of my head started creeping up on me telling me that if I didn't stop I was going to break. As if Edward could sense my dilemma he slowly started pulling away. I was thankful for that I was out of breath that was the best kiss/only kiss I had ever had.
"I'm so sorry Bella I shouldn't have gotten carried away are you okay?" he said shame and worry on his face.
"Edward that was the best first kiss I've ever had thank you" Edwards face lit up
"Best first kiss huh?" he said all cocky, great I was inflating his ego what would I do now
"Yes the best thank you Edward for knowing when to stop" I said feeling ashamed that we had to stop in the first place.
"Bella I've said this before, I would wait forever for you, when you're ready you just tell me I will be here" he said as I cuddled up next to him. I had a full stomach and was starting to get sleepy again. I don't know what the weekend is going to hold but I do know that this baby is taking a lot of my energy I am starting to feel tired all the time.
"Can we see Carlisle tomorrow I want to know how far along I am, and after that we have to tell Charlie that I am moving in here it's for the best"
"Anything now sleep my Bella" he said and started humming the unfamiliar tune that I had started to grow accustomed too. I was sleeping peacefully and it felt wonderful.
Okay here's the chap. I know it's way longer than normal. Enjoy I apologize for any spelling, grammar errors.