AN: Yes yes yes! Here's the next chapter, and as you guys might feel, the story is coming to an end :) The last chapters will be uploaded soon!

I'll actually feel sad when I'm done writing this, lol, I really enjoy it ^_^ When I was watching episode 12 and 13 for this chapter, I almost got emotional when I was thinking about the sad feelings he must have felt 0:) hehe! I'm sorry if this chapter looks like it's a little rushed, but I can't help it :( Well enough chat, enjoy reading! ^^

I don't know what to think, or say, or do. I'm seriously having a marriage interview tomorrow. I was told that if I would marry this girl, it would benefit the management of the company. And that's what my father needs.

In order to get healthy again, we'll have to remove his stress. I'm already in the medical department, I can't change it anymore, I'll have to do this. I'm feeling how I'm ignoring this unknown pain in my heart. I'll have to leave my family, and Kotoko. But I can do this.

Naoki

I've met her. Christine Robbins. It was a rough day today. I had to ignore my own feelings, and Kotoko and Matsumoto Yuuko who were stalking me. Seriously. Don't make it hard for me. Christine is a nice, friendly and pretty girl. Marrying her would be any man's dream. But why does it make me feel upset? I know to marry you have to love someone, so that might be it, but I can get to love her when I learn more about her.

But I just keep thinking about Kotoko. What do I want anyway? I still can't say I love Kotoko. She's important to me, but do I love her? I still have this resistant feeling that I don't want Kotoko any closer to me than she is, but I wonder why it's so hard for me then to marry another woman. Ah well, I'll have to live with it, I have to do this.

When I just came home, Kotoko asked me if I was going to marry Christine. She was so sad, but there's nothing to do about it. I'll have to leave her. I'm going to bed, I'm feeling awful.

Naoki

I kinda overslept today. When I got down everyone was gone, except for Yuuki, he was having his lunch. Yeah I slept that long. I asked where Kotoko was, and Yuuki said she had a date! I can't believe it. It's two o'clock right now, about an hour I'll be meeting Christine.

Naoki

I'm back. Christine is such a nice girl, but I'm still not feeling any better. I just couldn't stop thinking about Kotoko! This sad feeling, it just won't go away. Christine and I walked into Kotoko and Kinnosuke when we were heading back. So Kinnosuke was her date… Kotoko looked happy, she was having fun, until she saw me. She just couldn't look at me. Even though I knew Kotoko was thinking about me too, it still hurt when I saw her grab Kinnosuke's arm. And when I came home I was immediately attacked by my mother. Man she's pissed off.

In order to let her calm down, I just had to say that I like the girl. When I got upstairs I saw Kotoko. That didn't go well at all, we only pissed each other off. I'm quitting.

Naoki

Today was rather troublesome. I introduced Christine to my mother, and all my mother did was hate her. I felt kinda sorry for Christine, my mother was a total monster. On one side I was glad Kotoko acted cheerful and normal, on the other side it was annoying. How could she be that cheerful already, even when she knows she'll lose me? Not that I want to see her depressing either… I just don't know. But she even tried to help Chris and me.

After that I had a fight with my mother. Seriously, why isn't anyone making things easier for me. I can't remember I've ever cried, tears aren't normal for me. But if I COULD cry, it could have been in this situation. I didn't though. I never cry…

Naoki

Kotoko couldn't help it. He hadn't cried back then, but reading how he felt, the pain he felt, made her cry. It felt like she cried for him instead. Tears fell on the diary pages and for a moment she embraced the diary and sobbed. "K-Kotoko?!" Chris exclaimed and she ran over to her.

"I-it's just t-that - *sob* p-poor Irie-kun!" Kotoko cried. "Kotoko relax! It's the past!" Chris hugged Kotoko and smiled. "Right? So just read on, you'll reach the happy part!" Kotoko smiled and nodded. "You're right!" She wiped away her tears and turned over the page.

I've made my decision. I know now, I love Kotoko. I'm sure. I overheard her friends today, and it seems that Kinnosuke proposed! How could he do that this fast! Right at that moment I knew it, I couldn't lose her. It was different when she had to lose me, it felt like it had to be like that, I had to help my father.

But now I'm about to lose her. Kotoko might be this stupid and depressed because of me, that she'd actually agree to marry him. I think I won't be marrying Christine. Kotoko is a good person, she couldn't say no. She'll be unhappy for the rest of her life. I don't know what'll happen, but I'm going after her. I'll wait for her and see what will happen, cause I don't know what I'll do when I see her. All I know now is that I want to stop her.

Naoki

Okay, tonight was seriously, until now, the most intense experience of my life. I can't believe it, but my body is still shivering, and I have a really weird feeling, but it's positive. I'm going to marry Kotoko. I'm so.. happy that I can't even write it down, but I'm still going to, I'll even repeat tonight be describing everything.

Well as I wrote before I was going after Kotoko. Now, the moment I saw her walking in the rain I was attacked by emotions. I wanted to see her so bad, and then there she was. I first didn't know what to do or say, I did keep my cool though. I said I was waiting for her.

The first minutes when we were walking together were rather.. awkward. I said I heard Kinnosuke proposed to her. And then our discussion/fight started. She said she would agree to marry him, so she could forget about me, and so that I could be happy with Christine and she with Kinnosuke. I can't believe my pride is this big, but I started to protest. I said she was in love with me and she couldn't forget about me, and hell I don't know all things I said.

But I do know I made her cry. She cried, and screamed at me, and the rain made the scene even more intense. And when she was saying how I don't care about her at all, I couldn't hold myself anymore. I kissed her for the third time. All my sorrow and confusion faded away and all I knew was that I wanted her to be mine and only mine. After the kiss I embraced her and held her in my arms for a while. She's so cute. She mumbled that if this was a dream, that she would want to sleep forever. Her words touched me. I kissed her cheek and held her again, and for a moment I felt like I never wanted to let go. But there were things that had to be settled. I pulled away and dragged her home.

Now that I think about it, I forgot my umbrella. It must be somewhere outside. When we came home I immediately went straight to the point. I approached Kotoko's father and asked him if he would allow me to marry his daughter. Of course I surprised everyone, and they all freaked out. After I got permission and my mother wanted to get the camera, Kotoko fainted! Probably of the stress and confusion, that's so cute.

And just a moment ago I was standing outside my room with Kotoko. She had recovered and we were ready to go to bed. She was standing there so shy and said nothing, and to be honest I felt a kinda shy too. So I said good night and wanted to leave to my room (I really wanted to write everything that had happened down). But she stopped me, and asked if I was sure that I wanted to marry her. She's so insecure! And I finally said it, I hadn't said the words before, but I said I loved her, and embraced her.

Her small body fits perfectly in my arms, it's such a nice feeling to embrace her. For a moment this question came up. Why do I love her? Hmm I love how she's so loud and outgoing, yet she can be so shy when I get serious. I love how she can be so annoying but how it's cute at the same time. I love how she can make me angry and drive me crazy about her at the same time. I love how she's clumsy and funny, and makes me laugh inside while I'm scolding her. I love how she's so sensitive and cries about even little things. I love how she's this crazy about me despite the way I treated her. And I love how I can go on and on about her but actually want to stop.

Hmm actually I disgust myself at the moment. I just can't stop writing about Kotoko. I hope one day it'll be easier for me to express my feelings openly, and not only in my diary. Well I'm off to bed now, the first night I'll fall in sleep without worry, since weeks.

Naoki

"Irie-kun…" Kotoko embraced the diary once again. He loved her, he really loved her back then already. Even though he had told her, reading this made her speechless. Then her own voice sounded through her head.

"Then WHY? Naoki? Why do you love me?" Again tears streamed down her face. She wanted to see him. There was written more on the next page, but her patience was gone. She would read that part later. "I'll be back to get my stuff later Chris, please keep the diary away from Kinnosuke!" Kotoko said as she ran towards the door and put on her shoes.

"Y-yes!" Chris answered but Kotoko was already outside. As Kotoko was running home, the words Naoki had written kept echoing through her head. She couldn't wait to see him!