Johanna and Finnick

As she closes the door behind her she's startled to see Finnick standing there. She actually feels nervous to see him. She hasn't been alone with him since the day she woke up and he stayed with her until she was okay. Since then, she's seen him when Annie insists on visiting her or in District 13 meetings. She looks around and sees John, who excuses himself to do some work with Peeta. He walks out. She composes herself and smiles at him.

"Hi Finnick." He just stares at her and he actually looks upset with her. "What's the matter? Is Annie okay?" She asks genuinely concerned.

"Annie's fine. I had been looking for you last night but you weren't in your room. I went looking for you this morning and your doctor told me that you had spent the night with Peeta. I thought it was a mistake and I get here, and saw quite the cozy scene." He sounds resentful and clearly jealous.

Johanna has no idea what to do with this behavior. "we need each other…"

But he doesn't let her explain. "I had actually run into Katniss this morning, which is really why I went looking for you. At night she likes to go check in on Peeta from the observation room. Imagine her surprise when she saw you there with him, sleeping in his arms. I thought, she'd imagine it. She takes too many drugs you know, it's possible she imagined it."

Johanna is surprised to hear him say this about Katniss. She also feels angry by his tone and assumptions. "I told Katniss to stay away from him for the time being…"

"who do you think you are to try to keep them apart?!" he raises his voice at her and she's startled by his accusation. "Can you respect what they mean to each other. You know I'm actually surprised by you. I would have never thought to take your behavior towards him seriously at the Quell -but now I know better. No wonder you were so ready to cast us a side."

Johanna is startled by his words, and she's furious. "How petty do you think I am? I decided to end things with you for one reason alone, I love and respect Annie too much. What she and I went through together weights more than our once a year romping arrangement." She protests to him.

He is furious when he hears this but he's hurt and his fragile nature come through. "Is that all you think we are?"

She closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. "Whatever it was, it doesn't matter now. I'm not the same person anymore. The promise of this revolution was the only thing that kept me company for years, I gladly gave myself over to it. Now it's here and I'm a part of it, I've already been a victim of it, and I will be its loyal soldier. Only now, I'm not alone anymore. I have Peeta AND Annie, and I love them. Don't you get it? This revolution has already given me more than I had." She says this with tears running down her face.

Finnick reaches out and wipes her tears. She catches his hand and presses her face to his palm. Finnick's heart jumps and he embraces her. "Having you in my life gave me so much hope Johanna, you were more to me than just an affair. It was so much more than that."

She starts to sob softly and pulls away. "But we were wrong to do that Finnick." She interrupts him. "Neither me or Annie deserved that. I would get so tired of missing you, far away, all alone in District 7. All I had to look forward to was the Hunger Games where I could get small doses of your affection. You know, you never asked me how I felt about the arrangement. Do you know what it felt like for me to know that at the end you would go home to her. And you thought it was natural, perhaps because you assumed I was uncomplicated."

He looks startled to hear her confession. "I'm sorry – I had no idea you felt this way. Johanna had I known I would…"

"What? – Leave her? That wasn't going to happen and frankly I'm not sure that I would have ended our arrangement since even that was better than the nothingness I had in my life." She pulls away from his embrace.

"Finnick, I'm sorry you're struggling. I am too. You have no idea what I went through." And the last word barely escapes her because she feels the pain of the torture just thinking about it, it knocks the wind out of her. Finnick tries to reach for her again but she steps away from him. "Don't you ever, ever, judge me for doing what I need to do to get through this trauma." She manages to say between soft sobs.

His tears begin to spill over. "I want to be the one to comfort you, to help you, as much as you helped me."

"You can't be the one to do that Finnick." She wipes her tears. "You want to help me – take care of Annie." She stops to stare at him. "You've been my partner in crime, my conspirator, my fellow Victor, we've been rebels together, my lover – but you've never been my friend. Why don't we try that for a change."

He's speechless, Johanna makes her way out trying to contain the sobs.