"Hey, rebel boy!"
Lyonsse turned to face Alexia, he was sitting on his usual place in the cafeteria "Stop calling me that." he muttered.
"Too late," she said as she smirked "Anyway, I need to talk to you. In private."
He nodded and put his mask on as he stood up. They left the cafeteria with quick steps and he followed her into an empty control room. She locked the door behind them and watched him as he took his mask off.
"Did something with Kylo happen last night?" she asked.
He shook his head "As far as I know, no. But it might have after I left you in the training area."
Her eyes widened "You left me in the training area when I was drunk as hell?!"
He pointed her with his index finger "You wanted me to take you there, wise ass! You've no right to get angry with me." he said "I told you that it was nonsense but you didn't listen. You said that you wanted to punch something. I knew it was useless to argue with you so I just did what you wanted."
Alexia held her head with her hands "Shit," she muttered "He found me there, in the training area, and took me back to my cell. Because I woke up in my cell."
"Pretty reasonable, since you were not able to take two steps without falling down." he said, then raised an eyebrow to her "So did you to had..."
She interrupted him before he could finish "No..! Maybe... I don't know, okay?! I don't remember a fucking thing!"
"You can just check the sheets, easy peasy."
She crossed her arms "I am not a virgin, you idiot."
"Well, then in that case there's nothing we can do, right?" he asked, then added "Unless you know a Sith-trick for that?"
Alexia rolled her eyes "For the last time, I am not a Sith!"
"Whatever."
She took a deep breath "Yes, there's a trick for that but I have to wait till afternoon." she said, then checked the time "Shit, I must get going. I'll see you some time."
(Time skip)
"Stormtroopers are not here for you to befriend them, Alexia." Kylo Ren said as he retreated from her mind. He had learned about the friendship of Lyonsse and Alexia.
"I'm just befriending one trooper, Kylo, not the entire army." she muttered "I need someone to laugh with, do you understand? And since you're not the laughing type, I've found myself someone that I can have fun with."
"Don't you come crying to me if he dares to..." he started but Alexia didn't let him finish.
"I see through him. And he's afraid to try something like that again, I can assure you."
He eyed her for a while "Fine, but don't say I didn't warn you." he said "What was I expecting anyway? Two rebels finding each other. What a surprise, huh?"
Alexia had something to say but she kept it to herself, not wanting him to choke her.
His invisible fingers reached for her mind once more. She threw her head back "To be honest, I wasn't expecting you to be an alcoholic." Kylo muttered as he watched her memories from Darkknell which included her drinking sessions.
"Alcohol has always been the best way to let it all go," she responded as she tried to kick him out "It was the only way to forget all those night with the men I didn't even know."
"I cannot blame you for that," he said and swiped to another memory. Alexia's eyes snapped open as she raised her head, looking inside his eyes.
"Kylo," she whispered "Please."
"You need to learn, Alexia." he said "This is the only way."
She bit her lower lip as her last memory with her mother played in front of her eyes.
"Promise me you'll wake up again." said seventeen-year-old Alexia. At the same time she was tightly holding the hand of the curly, brown haired woman, who was lying under the covers.
A smile appeared on her mother's pale face "It's just a sleep, dear, I'll wake up just as I do every day. There's nothing to worry about."
But they both knew that it was a lie. This was just the beginning of her eternal sleep.
Alexia was not able to hold back her tears "What... What if you do not wake up, mum?"
Her mother squeezed the young girl's hand "You know how to survive, sweetheart, you know how to live on your own. You're strong enough to handle it on your own. Your father and I, we've raised you well. I know you can do. Just one thing –never lose your hope. When there's hope, there's life."
And with that, she fell asleep for the last time.
Alexia held her mother's body tight as she sobbed loudly. She did not want to believe that she had lost the very last person she had in this damn life. She wanted to deny the truth. She sat there and cried for hours.
After that, she had gone out to the garden for some fresh air. She needed to think clearly and for this, she needed fresh air.
But instead of peace, the fresh air brought rage to her. As a tantrum took her over, she closed her eyes and screamed to the night at the top of her lungs. Little she realised that everything around her was flying, crashing at each other.
"ENOUGH!" Alexia screamed as she kicked Kylo out from her mind. The Force she had used was too strong that it made Kylo's body move backwards even if it were mental. And in that tiny, little moment; she creeped into his mind.
"There has been an awakening," Supreme leader Snoke told Kylo Ren "Have you felt it?"
"Yes."
Before she could see the rest of the memory, Kylo Force-choked her. But that time, he did not let it last long. She fell to her knees as soon as the invisible fingers around her throat disappeared "WHAT HAVE I TOLD YOU ABOUT INVADING MY MIND?!" he roared and for the first time, Alexia was actually afraid of Kylo Ren.
She sat on the floor and crawled backwards, away from him, till her back met the wall. She was still coughing "I... I'm sorry." she said, her voice weak "I was not trying to creep into your mind. It just happened in a blink of an eye."
He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down "Don't let it happen, Alexia. You must control your power."
She slowly stood up and sat back on the chair "Can... Can I ask something about what I saw?"
He thought for a while, then nodded.
"Was he talking about me?"
"Yes." Kylo responded "At that night, Supreme Leader had felt your power but none of us were able to detect the source of it. I think that someone or something was protecting you, hiding you from our eyes."
Alexia just looked away without saying anything.
(Time skip)
She panted as she opened her eyes and held her head with her hands. She just could not reach the memories from last night, and it was driving her mad. It was like, something was forcing them to hide from her. She was feeling the invisible barrier inside her mind that separated her from them.
She sat on her bed cross-legged once more and closed her eyes. Her conscious stormed pass all her memories and thoughts, still searching for one specific time. When she was not able to move forwards anymore, she knew that she had reached her destination.
I have to unlock them. I have to destroy this damn wall.
She pushed the wall with all her strength but again, it was no use. No matter how much power she used, she could not damage it even the slightest. She tried to stay calm as she thought about another solution.
What if I try to erase it instead of destroying?
That might work.
She just thought of that wall disappearing, over and over and over again until it worked. When there was no barrier between her reach and the memories, she took a deep breath and let her conscious slid between them.
"This... attraction you feel towards me is not one sided."
"There's a reason why the Stormtroopers are all over you, which you know why. And you're around me most of the time. I think the attraction between us unavoidable."
"Attraction is something physical, not emotional. You can be attracted to anything. And attraction brings passion as well, which is one of the strongest drives of the Dark Side. As long as this attraction stays only physical, there's nothing to worry about."
As her conscious returned to the present, the very first thing she did was moving her index finger on her lips. She had kissed Kylo Ren. On his lap. She had kissed Kylo while sitting on his lap. She lied on the bed as a silly smile found its way to her lips.
He's attracted to me, too. This makes everything different, then.
He liked it when I tease him. This is gonna be useful.
Shit, I wanna kiss him again. But I know I can't unless he lets me somehow.
I have to wait for him to take the first step.
I hate being patient.
She stood up slowly and walked towards her wardrobe, grabbing black tights, a black tunic and a white zip-sweater. After wearing them, she took a look at herself on her mirror. Her black curls were creating an astonishing couple with the white sweater. She did not zip it and left her room, heading to the Panorama Room.
When she got inside the room, she sat in front of the massive window and crossed her legs. Ever since she had found this very place, her nights had been becoming more pleasant than before. She was feeling that she was getting somehow attached to this room.
She reached out to the water bottle on her left and opened it, then with a small movement of her hand some water came out of it, hanging in the air in front of her. She smiled slowly, playing with the water through the Force was her way of relaxing nowadays.
She did various things with the water: making it turn whirlpool, letting it hang in the air just as drops, making it flow around her arm... With the breath-taking view of the Panorama Room in front of her, everything she did felt more soothing.
As she poured the water back into the bottle, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She knew he was here, of course she did, it was impossible not to feel his presence when he was around her.
"Are you doing this on purpose," Alexia asked as she turned her back to face Kylo Ren "Keep finding me at the times that I want to be alone?"
Hello my space babies!! How's everyone? Sorry for the late update but the school's back on and the teachers don't give a damn if it's the first week of the second semestre or not, so I'm pretty much dead on week days ):
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