I walk down the hall still in astonishment and confusion from what I had just learned. I was about to go and see her in the chorus room. She had a nice singing voice, I had heard it before...But that wasn't the point. I was basically stuck between the decision of asking her was all of what Mr. Harcko told me was real or if I should just ignore him and push it to the side?...Honestly, I liked the second choice better, but I don't think that Mr. Harcko would just make something up like that for no reason...Ugh I'm so confused.

I pace back and forth in the boys bathroom. My feet making the click the echoing through the muggy atmosphere that I had created. I couldn't stop biting my nails. It's not that I was that worried, it's just that I didn't want to suffer the consequences of it all. And I was still worried about Genesis...If all of this was true then that meant that she needed someone to talk to because something is obviously wrong with you if you have to make up boyfriends just to lure people...But no, some things still don't make sense. She thought I was gay so she couldn't of been trying to coming onto me...I'm not even sure if I'm right about this. I might of mixed up his words. I continue walking through the bathroom spinning on the heel of my shoe each time I turned around.

"I'm suppose to be in the office right now...Damn it. Out of all times..." I mumble to myself. I take off towards the door, swooping down to pick up my bag by the door.

The front desk is being run by some slob eating a turkey sandwich, which makes me hesitant and confused, making me wonder if I'm in the right place."Um hello?" I approach the desk cautiously.

He turns around and smiles with pieces of turkey and lettuce stuck in his teeth."How can I help you?"

I look around me and past him in other offices full of working people. Where was the pretty lady with long blonde hair that worked up here?...Is what I wanted to ask but I'm a gentleman with manners so I won't."...I was called up here...On the intercom. I apologize for my tardiness, I had some...other things to situate first."

He stands up, letting the male and mustard drip onto the clean wooden desk and some papers. His suit that looked once sanitary now looked like just smeared his lunch onto himself. How he got this job with this type of presentation is very impressive. Kudos to you sir. He looks through what I suppose is the call log."Aha, here we go. You had an urgent call waiting for you. Do you want to call it back?"

I peer over his desk, trying to see the papers."I guess...What's the number?"

He looks like he's about to read it but just ends up handing me the papers."Here ya go." He throws them down in front of me.

I spin them around and look for my name."...Oh.." The names says its anonymous..."There isn't a name here."

He takes his two fingers and slides it across the desk, picking up the male and mustard that had clashed together in a little dust. I look away before I can see what else he does even though I know what he's going to do. He licks the rest off his fingers."Oh, I almost forgot. The person on the other line didn't want to list a name down. He just said to call back as soon as possible."

"Fine.." I pick up the phone and start to dial. The ringing starts up soon after, then I hear it pick up."Hello?"

"...H-Hello?" The voice said softly and cautiously. Whoever this person was sounded like they didn't want to scare me away."...I-Is it really you?"

"...Um who is this?" I hold the phone up with both hands and lean on the desk.

I can hear him crack a smile."If I tell you...who knows, you might hang up in my face."

I recognize this voice."You sound familiar. Who is this?"

He sighs."...It's your Father, Cloud."

I nearly let the phone slip through my fingers when he says those words. It feels like I'm going to melt right now."..."

"I-I've been calling your cell phone for weeks- better yet months. I also tried calling Archer and Donnie but they just kept telling me that you were busy and that they would get you to call me...I was so worried...Why haven't you been returning my calls?"

"..."I hold the phone up to my ear as I hear his voice start to crack. It sounded like he was going to cry...But he didn't deserve to cry, I was the one that wanted to break down crying. I should be the one screaming at the top of my lungs and asking why he lied to me all these years?...and why he started to sleep around and neglect me and everything.

"C-Cloud please answer me. I just want everything back to the way it was. I want my son back." He says with a raspy voice. I feel my eyes starting to water.

"...Well I want my Father back..." I say in a harsh tone.

"...What...What are you talking about?" He asks through the midst of his tears and sniffing.

I sniff lightly."...I don't want to talk about it here. If I explained what I meant, then...then..."I feel my self starting to fall apart. My eyes get watery, causing my vision to blur."...I'll just call you later..."

He objects to it quickly."No, you won't call me back. I know it. You'll say you will and never do it."

I feel my tears start to fall down my cheeks." I-I'll do it...I-I...promise."

"...Your promise?"

I nod even though he can't see it."Mhm...I promise."

"Okay, I-I love you Cloud."

I turn around quickly and throw the phone down with force. I wasn't even sure if I had made it or not. Why the fuck was this happening to me!? Why couldn't I just live a normal life with a Mother and a Father!? Why did my life have to fucking collapse into a hell pit that I was clawing my way to get out of!?...Why did I have to deal with this all by myself!? What did I do to deserve any of this?...I wipe away my tears and quickly walk out of the office.

The man at the desk calls out to me."You didn't end the call."

I ignore the disgusting front office man and continue to walk out. I felt like if I were to talk to someone then I would just get angry at them and yell...And no one deserved the pressure and feelings that I was dealing with. I turn the corner and bump into someone chest, making the papers fall from the persons hands."...I apologize for that..." The persons begins to duck down and pick up the the fallen papers and documents.

I wanted to help them, but I want to walk past them at the same time. A tear rolls down my cheek and onto the papers that the man was picking up, making a tiny thud. I sniff once. I can see through the blurriness in my eyes the person glancing one look at me and looking again."Cloud..."

I immediately put my hand up to my face to cover up my face from being shown even though the person has a good idea of who I am."..."

I recognize that voice, which makes my tears start to fall even more. I can kind of see a visual of who it is...Zius. He drops all of his papers back onto the floor and forgets everything in that instant."What happened?"

I shake my head and try to find the words to say something, but the only thing that I'm able to do is shake my head.

He puts his hands on my shoulders and looks at my face. I didn't want him to see me like this...I was in a vulnerable state and when I'm like that. I can go two ways, I can cry even more or I can throw a fit. But when it's with someone I trust I usually go with option number one. "Tell me...What happened?..Please..."

I sniff once more and the urge takes over me to hug him and just cry. So that's what I did. I leaned onto him and I cried. I pulled onto his suit jacket and cried like a baby. This was similar to that time I had cried in his arms some months ago except the only thing being different is...that I trusted him now. He brings his arms around me and hugs me allowing me to cry until I couldn't cry anymore."...It's going to be alright." He puts his fingers through my head and went through it multiple times, like a mother comforting her baby."Cry until you can't take it anymore...Let it all out." He embraces me tighter as I continue to let the salty water fall one after another.

I eventually stop the loud crying noises and just let the tears fall until I feel like all of my tears have run out. He takes his warm arms from around me and pushes me off of him lightly by the shoulders to see my face."..."

"...Feeling a little better now?" He asks, his hand still on my shoulders. I nod and wipe away all of the wetness from my cheeks. Zius takes out a handkerchief and hands it out to me."...I got a new one."

I try to smile, but fail when even I realize that I'm making a sad smile. I accept the tissue and wipe my face."...I-I'm sorry. I got tears all over you...again." I blow my nose softly into it.

"It's fine...I don't mind being your crying pillow. I just want you to get all of your worries out..." He looks down at his suit to see a big wet spot."Even if it requires me being soaked in salty water."

I smile lightly, this time it being real. I sniff."...I didn't exactly plan to run into you."

"It's my job to be around here." He taps my red nose." You should've know that you were going to run into me."

We both look over to the sound of some one clicking the stapler really slowly. It looks like we've gotten an audience, mostly women.

"Oh my gosh...That is so sweet." One of the females say.

Another pops her head out of her office with a squeal."Can anyone else say Yaoi or what?"

I look back at him with confusion."What's Yaoi?"

He shakes his head, still looking in amazement at the women."Beats me...How about we get out of here before we get an play going on?"

"Everyone knows what 'How about we get out of here' means?" She gets and 'Ooh' out of all the ladies.

Then someone yells from out of nowhere."Make sure you young kids use a Condom!"

That sounded like a older woman. Zius turns me around and pushes me out of the nearest door outside. I don't think he wanted me to see how red his face was, but I didn't mind because I didn't want him to see how red mines was too.

I follow beside Zius as we walk down the brick pathway that I had followed him walk down just a few hours ago."Where are we going?"

"Well me and you are going to talk. But it looks like the hallway isn't the best place to have a conversation in." He shakes his head still remembering what older woman said.

I smile."Yeah."

We finally make it to the place where Zius wanted to take me. We walk all the way where it looks like the ground ends...This is where we teleported when he first brought me here. Its hard to believe that it was only months ago that I started attending this school. He to makes a unexpected and walk through the multi-colored flowers. We were in the front of the school were the garden club worked. Wow... The smell hits my nose just as it did before. I really like coming here.

"I hope you don't mind sitting in some flowers for a while. I just thought of this place being a good area to get things off of your mind." He looks back at me."It's something I do when I'm lost or confused."

"I can see why you do. The smell probably gets to people brain and unravels..." I step over some flowers, not wanting to crush them." the thoughts and problems."

He makes an small chuckle."That has to be the smartest thing you've ever said."

"If you weren't walking so fast I would've hit you already." I follow closely behind him as we trail through the flowers.

"...We don't have to go that far out." He stops and kneels down on one knee, spinning around to sit down on his butt. He pats the spot on the ground next to him."Sit."

I approach him and take my bag off first and then I sit down next to him."..Zius you don't have to talk to me. I know that you have a lot of work to get done and I don't want to stall you from completing it."

"I don't think you really have a choice but to talk to me. Especially when you run into me and start to bawl your eyes out. How couldn't anyone be concerned?" He leans back on his hands.

I sit Indian Style."I don't know...I just..."I sigh."I don't know."

Zius glances over."...I feel a little bad..."

I began to play with a flower in front of me. A pink one, the scent being watermelon."Why do you feel bad?"

"Because...I'm just now realizing that you probably don't have anyone to talk to. Do you?"

His words caught me off guard, causing me lose my breath a little."...Not really, but it's not like I have a lot of worries so I try to put them aside."

He nods to my words slowly as he look back ahead of him."You need to learn how to put yourself first sometimes...You always do it the opposite way. Helping someone elses problem when you still have your problems to deal with...If you ask me, it sounds like your running from them."

It was almost as if he could see right through me. Could it be a ability that I didn't know about?...No he would've been told me. Maybe he's just one of those people who can read people easily. Me on the other hand, have a horrible time reading people."...I-I guess you could say that...Never really thought of it as me running from them. But now that you mention it, I guess I really am cowering from my problems."

"..Why?"

"...Well I used to have the perfect family. A Mother and a Father who both loved me with all of their hearts. So that's why it was so hard to believe that she would've left us for another family...Well before all of that happened, I had never saw them fight. Matter of fact, me rarely hearing them fight led me to believe that maybe we were a perfect family." A small smile comes upon my face."She used to read me stories and sing me lullaby's for me to fall asleep to. She had a nice voice...Even Father said it too."

"So what happened?"

"One day...I came home from junior high and saw Father sitting at the table with all these mixed facial expressions. One being angry, the other being sad and lost. I asked him what was wrong and if I should call her to come and talk to him, but no. He allowed me to look through the whole house before he said anything. But finally he revealed to me that she...that she had left us and forgotten about us. I didn't want to believe him...Why would I?" I make a small cold chuckle."I thought we were suppose to be the perfect family...I sat at the table with him watching the clock click from seconds, to minutes, minutes turned into days, days turned into months...and months turned into years. I never saw her again. It made my emotions start to wilt about her. Every single happy thought that I had about her turned into hate and anger. I thought to myself...How could you do this to us? How could you leave behind memories that we made together."

I peer over my shoulder looking at him."But your probably thinking. How could you hate the person that brought you into this world? Especially when you and Donnie lost it." I look back at the flower I was picking at."...I didn't think about it like that at the time. The only thing I could picture in my mind was how she hurt us by doing this. So as time past on, him and I only thought of her as someone who we would try to forget... no matter how hard it was. We both agreed to forget. And that's what we did; Well that's what I did. Him on the other hand, just completely broke down."

"What do you mean?"

"He started to drink and sleep around. It was like he didn't care about me anymore and that I was just someone living in his house at that point. I could kind of understand where he was coming from and how he felt hurt, but why did I have to suffer because he was too? So I decided to move out and by that time, it was time for me to start looking for a college. So that's what we did. Archer, Donnie and I found a college that we could all attend."

"But...You always seemed like a happy kid, even when you were outside." The wind blew petals that had fallen from the flowers start to flow across the ground and through the air.

A small smile appears on my face."I had learned how to forget about my problems...That's probably why I always hold my problems aside and ignore them because I've been doing it for so long."

"So why were you crying in the office?" He asks.

"Well, there's another side to it...Not to long ago, maybe about some months back. I had a dream the first night I was brought here. I had been having these nightmares about all of those things trying to get me. You know...Well when I got here, I had a totally different dream. It was with my Mother. So of course I cried when I saw her and asked her why she left us...And that's when she revealed something shocking to me...That she had never left us for another family." I close my eyes as a tear comes down without warning." She told me that she died from an illness that she had for a while now. I suppose that it happened while I was at school. I had seen her that morning...she did look a little pale but she always had a smile and a laugh waiting to cheer me up so I couldn't tell. I didn't have to ask her why she didn't tell me ahead of time. I had already knew why myself...Her spirit was always the kind to want to make you happy and never make you sad. So she would never tell you things like that because she only wanted to enjoy the time she had remaining and make good lasting memories..."

"...Why'd your Father tell you another reason then?"

I let more tears fall as I wiped them away with the tissue. I sniff softly."She told me that he was hurt during that time and he wasn't thinking clearly. But I thought immediately that he was thinking of himself...However then I'm confused because part of me does know that he was trying to cover up the truth from me so that I wouldn't be as affected but then again I know that he also made up the lie so that he wouldn't be hurt as well. He didn't want to believe that the love of his life had just died."

"So does he know that you know?" He hit it right on the spot.

I shake my head."No...That's why I cried. Because when I think about it even more now, I don't think that he would of ever told me about it unless I figured it out myself. Maybe my Mother planned for it to happen like this. For her to come through a dream and tell me."

He sighs."...You do know that your going to have to talk to him?"

I nod."Yeah..."

"But I can relate to what your saying..."

I look over at him, our hair blowing lightly in the wind."How?"

"...I'm pretty sure you've heard the rumors already. About how my grandparents killed my Mother and my Father went to shit's creek and started to believe the wrong things."

I nod."Yeah I understand...How do you handle your problems?"

He shakes his head and looks up to the sky."I don't. I ignore them to the best of my ability. But eventually I might crack..."

I shift my eyes towards the ground and back to him. I smile lightly."I can be your crying pillow..."

He looks over at me and then smiles."Will you?"

I nod with a smile."I don't mind being covered in salt water either."

"I rarely cry. But you can be my support pillow." He suggest.

"Support pillow?" I say with a smile.

He nods."Yeah, I'll come to you when I need support and you'll come to me when you need to cry."

I laugh lightly."Are you being serious or not because I don't want to look dumb when I come to you with all my problems."

"No I'm being serious right now. If you promise to come to me with any problem you have then I'll promise you that I'll talk to you about any problem I have." His facial expression showed a smile, but I could tell that he was serious.

I look at him, my eyes traveling his face."..Zius your really unpredictable..." I say to myself."...I promise."

"...And I promise too."

We both fall backwards into the flowers and agree to spend the next hour looking at cloud shapes. My thoughts go to Genesis."Well, Zius I do have one more problem..."

He looks over, his head crushing flowers."What about?"

"...This girl named Genesis." I continue to look over at the clouds.

"..."He doesn't say anything at first, making me question if he was even listening.

"Zius..." I look over, sits up and pushes himself off the ground."...Hey where the hell are you off to?"

"I forgot about...some work I have to finish." He starts to walk through the flowers.

I sit of on my forearm and elbow."But we just agreed- Like literally 5 seconds ago that we would stay for an hour."

"I'm not going to get yelled at by my Father for looking at stupid clouds." What the hell?...What happened to him that fast through those 5 seconds?

"Zius...What's wrong? Did I offend you or something?" I roll around and push myself up." You said that we could talk to each other so that's what I'm doing."

"You didn't do anything. I just really need to finish some work up and I can't do that if I'm out here acting like a child when I have work to do Cloud." I could hear his voice growing some strength in it. What the fuck just happened?

"How are we acting like fucking kids when I just sat here and told you about everything?" I try to catch up with him but it's hard to match his speed.

"Because I have work I need to finish and us sitting here in the middle of the fucking grass like were in middle school seems kind of dumb, Don't you think? Look I'm sorry but I'm an adult now. And last time I checked adults didn't do things like that." He continues marching through the flowers at a good pace."See? I got fucking bird poop on my shoe now."

"Zius..." I glance down at his shoes then back at him."The last time I checked. You were the one who invited me out here...Why are you being such a dick all of a sudden?"

"...I don't want to have this conversation anymore. I need to get back inside." The atmosphere changed just that quickly from a good vibe to a bad one.

"Zius" He starts to ignore me and continues to walk."Turn around and listen to me."

"..."He continues to walk and ignore me as if the thing we both just agreed to was nothing.

"Zius...Got damn it! Turn around and fucking listen to me!" I grab his sleeve and turn him around with all my force. He spins around to my face as I angrily glare at him."Don't ignore me!"

He looks down at me with a angry but calm look. Almost like he couldn't bare to look at me."..."

"...Why the hell are you being such a jerk right now?"

"Because...I don't want to fucking talk right now. Why is that so hard for you to understand?" This was the coldest I had ever heard him talk to me.

"I just sat down over fucking there and poured my heart out to you!" I point to the spot of where we previously were." And now your being an asshole for no reason!"

"...I have a reason." He says nonchalantly."

"Well tell me why so I can understand because right now I'm so fucking confused." I say with a sarcastic tone.

"...Maybe because I don't want to hear what your saying anymore...Your acting like you understand what I went through. When your problem and mines are different. You don't understand anything about my life and you never will. Now will you just fucking back off of it?" I step back and my eyes look over his face. My emotions were still angry but now hurt was something I felt too.

"...S-So why'd you tell me that-"

"Because I wanted you to feel good about yourself." He says with no emotion.

"...You wanted me to feel good about myself?...But we just sat over there and promised to talk to each other about anything..." My eyes start to get watery. How could he say that?...I trusted you and all he says is that he did it because you felt sympathy for me.

"Well when you said you wanted to talk. I thought you actually wanted to talk about something I could feel sorry for." He crosses his arms and shrugs."But it's whatever. You thought it was something serious and whatever you want to believe is what you want to believe."

My eyes travel across his face. I was in total disbelief...What the hell happened?...He just turned into somebody I didn't recognize. This wasn't the Zius I knew."...Are all of my problems that I've ever told to you like this one too?"

He looks around and sighs."Can we speed this up? I've got to really get some work done."

Then that's when it feels like something inside of me shatters. I feel one of my tears fall down..."...Fine. I apologize for wasting your time..."

He looks me in my eyes. His dark red eyes piercing me with "Cloud...You should be heading to your next class about now."

"Yeah...I should..." I start to walk back over to grab my bag on the ground. I kneel down on my knees and open my bag up roughly. I begin to angrily throw all of my books out and papers. He rushes over to me.

"What are you doing?" He looks down at me.

I continue to feel tears fall."...Returning your shit." I take everything out and throw the bag at him. He catches it and holds it in shock.

"...Cloud your going to need to use something to carry your stuff. Here." He tries to hold it back out to me.

I ignore him and put all of my books and papers all in one pile. I pick it up and manage to stand with all of this heavy shit in both hands. I turn around and walk up to him."..Don't fucking talk to me ever again...Have a fucking fantastic day, Mr. Slaughter." I march through the flowers with anger and hurt. What just happened? We were talking like how friends should but then everything just turned to shit. Complete shit...It wasn't my fault that he turned angry on me in that one second. We did promise each other to talk about our problems together. So why was he acting like I had just crossed the boundaries of something...I don't know...Zius, why did you have to become a dick all of a sudden? I didn't want to yell at him like that...I was hurt and angry so I started to say what I felt. Something must of made him mad in order for him to make a scene like the one before. Damn it, How are we suppose to be able to tell each other things if you can't even tell your problems?...I continue walking until I get to the door. With my books in hand, I lean on the door to push it open, but before I push it all the way open. I glance a quick look behind me to see that he was gone. He wasn't in the middle of the field anymore and I didn't hear him run...Damn it Zius.

I walk inside the school and sigh in deeply only to release it back out. This has to be considered the worst day ever...I look over to the clock. And it's only 10:50. Time for me to meet Genesis...My day only keeps getting better.

The squeak sound comes from the rust that had started on the metal, causing the door to open slower. I push it open with my back and turn around to walk before the door closes. But before I can look up, I hear a female's voice.

"Cloud where have you been? You made me think that you were ditching me." Genesis walks over to me and puts her hand on her hip.

"I'm sorry. I...had some things I had to get taken care of in the office." I nod my head back at the door, in reference to the office.

"Oh I forgot that you were getting some stuff done."She takes the fake angry face off and replaces it with a smile, but if fades into confusion when she looks down at my book and papers in hand."What happened to the cute bag you had earlier?"

I look down at the stack I had in my hand, reminding me of our...I guess our first official fight. I mumble under my breath."I returned it to the asshole..."

"The asshole?...Who?"

I look up at her and shake my head."...Just some stupid asshole."

She shrugs lightly and turns around, arms wide open."It's a good thing that I've got chorus. Otherwise, I wouldn't of been able to get in here." She takes her key out of suit jacket pocket.

I walk over to a nearby old wooden desk and place my books down."They gave you a key?"

"You bet your ass they did." She throws the key in the air and leaps forward to catch it."No one's in the class during this time of day though. It's mostly around 6 that they start rehearsals."

"Oh you did tell me about that. You have to get me a ticket to a show sometime." I walk over to another desk and leap onto it to sit.

She raises an eyebrow as she continues to throw the key into the air, sometimes missing it."You want to come to a show?"

"Sure it seems like something I wouldn't mind checking out. Plus since your a good singer."

"Aw Thanks Cupid but I'm just average. If you heard Gabrielle's voice then you would probably faint." She makes a small smirk." She's the leader in my chorus group.

I smile too."Because she sounds so good?"

She makes a quick laugh, but it costs her from catching the key that had just hit the marble floor."Good? Haha that's a good one." She bends down and picks up the key."She sounds like one of those dumb princesses off of those Disney movies."

"Which kind of princess?"

"Snow White or either when the villains want to sing too. But somehow she managed to get a spot on the chorus team when we totally heard something different other than a good tune come from her mouth. Our choir instructor heard an Angels voice or whatever he said. But yeah...he ended making her the leader of the choir team." She shrugs.

"Your voice has the potential for you to be the Choir leader." She sounded pretty good...Way too good for her to be in the back and singing along with everyone else.

She looks at me."You think?"

I nod."Mhm. You shouldn't be mixed up with a group of people singing along with them when your voice sounds that good."

"I thought about it at first, to be the leader of the group..."She admits.

"So what happened?"

"Well, they told us that the leader had to do a whole lot more traveling, as if we don't already travel enough. Going from one place to another can be tiring." She walks over to a desk and hops onto the chair first and then the table. She keeps her balance by holding her arms out." So that's kind of why."

"Kind of? Traveling should be a fun thing not something you should dread." I look at her."Unless you've been doing it your whole life. Then it's understandable."

She shakes her head, still focusing on her balance."No it's not that...You might not believe me if I tell you this."

My head goes to the side, as in that's bull shit."I'm your friend. Come on tell Mr. Cupid what it is."

She looks up and giggles."Your getting so comfortable being called that now. Aren't you?"

I shrug my shoulders."I don't really have a choice but to adjust to it. I'll be called it anyways."

"It's just...that I didn't accept it because-"

I put my hand up to interrupt her."Wait so you did get accepted?"

She jumps off the desk and makes a good landing."Whoo...That would of been a bad thing if I had fallen." She looks over and sees that I'm still waiting for a response. "And yes I had been accepted."

I grip the chipped edges of the desk."Genesis...Why didn't you accept it? This would've been a great opportunity for you. To travel over countries and compete with other people. Is it to late to join?"

She shrugs her shoulders so carefree."Hell if I know."

I sigh."Well, why didn't you accept it? Was it to much money? Or were the places to far to get to and your parents wanted to be able to reach you?"

"No. I just didn't want to do it because of some things...or I guess particularly some people." She says in a softer tone.

"What?" All of these thoughts rush to my head. "Did someone threaten you not to join it or something?" I say aloud.

Genesis begins to say something but is alerted by my words."Haha what?"

I kind of feel stupid and embarrassed now that I said it."...It could of happened...Anyways what was the reason before I blurted that out?"

She puts one foot in front of the other in a shy way. Making steps inside the marble squares on the ground."...It's because of someone that I didn't go."

"Someone?..." My memories of me and Mr. Harcko's conversation soon drift back into my mind."Totter?"

She looks up at me with her usual cool expression but I could depict some sadness in her eyes too."...To be honest, it's not Totter this time."

"It's not Totter?..." Does that mean what Mr. Harcko was saying is true?..."He's suppose to be your boyfriend right?"

She stays silent and looks down at the ground slowly."..."

"Right?" I ask once again.

"...No." She walks over with her shoes making a click against the marble floor. She leaps onto a desk next to me and looks over at my confused face. "Cloud I haven't been completely honest with you about this whole Totter situation."

I look at her with a shocked expression. I try not to make it visible though but I failed at it."What do you mean?"

Her eyes fall to the floor."...Would you hate me if I showed you?"

"Would I hate you? No...Of course I wouldn't. I can't hate you when you tell me the truth." Was she going to show me a picture of the guy that Mr. Harcko showed me too? Or would she tell me a different explanation?...Whatever it is. I just want her to be comfortable when she tells me.

She stands up and sighs a short breath. She seems a little nervous about whatever she is about to show me...I watch her carefully as she turns around and steps in front of me. And I mean...Close in front of me."...G-Genesis..."

Her eyes look into my brown eyes as if she had to make a split decision at the moment before anymore suspicion came upon her. She then unexpectantly leans forward, without warning and plants one on my lips. My eyes stay wide open as her eyes fall naturally and normally into the kiss. Her lips were soft and smooth as she melted even more onto me. Her chest leaning onto me as she placed her petite hand onto mine that was trembling. The room temperature turned from a warm into a hot boiling lava filled room. And it wasn't because of this kiss, it was because of the guilt that I felt run over me. It trickled down my spine which sent shivers down. I was shocked and confused so I sat there as she tried to make the kiss appear as if she were really into it. Although I could feel her forcing herself when she started to open her mouth up to try to get a french kiss. I wouldn't lie, I kind of felt turned on by this situation that had unfolded before me. But I wasn't the normal kind of turned on like 'Wow I need to finish this kiss' it was more like 'Why is she kissing me?'. It wasn't the way a usual young adult male would feel. Any other guy in my shoes right now would of started to kiss back but I couldn't get into it. I knew that I didn't like her this type of way and only as a friend so maybe that was it...I truthfully hope that is the reason because I refuse to think about any other options that it could be.

She tries to pry my mouth open again with her wet tongue as she starts to move her hand up and down my forearm. I can't do this anymore. I mumble during the kiss and move my head away.

"What are you doing?" She leans back in front of my face as I try to move my head side to side to block her kisses. She starts to breath onto my neck and cheek."Cloud stop turning your head..."

"No..." I say out of breath. I guess I hadn't realized that I wasn't breathing when she kissed me."I-I can't do this..."

She smiles quickly but returns to pecking my cheeks as she gets closer to my lips again."Why?..."

"I just can't Genesis...It doesn't feel right." I grab her arms in order to grab her attention so she could stop kissing me."This isn't right..." I hang my head down towards the ground."I'm sorry Genesis..."

"Cloud come on..." I feel her loosen her muscles."...I thought you told me you weren't gay."

I shake my head and look up at her."I'm not gay Genesis."

She breaks her wrists out of my weak grip with force."Then why won't you kiss me back? That's not what a normal straight guy would do Cloud!"

I sigh and push my hair back from my face."Can I not be a normal friend and support you? Why would I have to be a homo for me to be able to give you advice?"

She crosses her arms and looks at me with little anger."...Cloud are you turned on right now?"

I furrow my eyebrows and squint my eyes."Excuse me?"

"Were you turned on when I kissed you and rubbed your arm? Like if I asked to fuck you right now that you would be all for it. That kind of turned on."She had a bit of edge to her voice.

I shift my eyes to the floor."W-Well I was somewhat turned on but I don't think you asking me that would make me want to...do it." I look back up when a thought comes to my mind." But that should just mean to you at this point that maybe I only thought of you as a friend and I wouldn't just do that with you."

She rolls her eyes."Cloud when I kissed you. I knew you were going to push me off since you literally were lost in thought, probably thinking about what your 'Boyfriend' was going to say about this once you told him."

"...My b-boyfriend?..." I sigh."Genesis, How many time do I need to tell you that I'm not into guys?"

"So..." She puts her hands together and nods." Your telling me that your not into the guy that pulled your tie until you both were an inch from each other's face."

My eyes shift to the door past her. The door that I walked through when Zius said those words...I had planned on spending the day with him watching the clouds, but because he was being a asshole, he was now banned from talking to me."...No I'm not into him...And his name is Zius."

She throws her hands in the air and hits her thigh on the way back down and turns around. She turns back around quickly."Cloud! Are you kidding me right now? Your honestly sitting here and telling me that you don't like the guy?"

"Yes, now Genesis can we go to another topic?...Maybe one about Totter and why I've heard from a little birdy that you have a fake boyfriend." I didn't mean to say it like that but if I hadn't brought that up then she would of never stopped talking about this whole homosexual thing. Damn, obviously if I were an homo then I would be able to admit it to myself.

She puts her hands on her hips and her face becomes one of a denial."...Totter's real. Alright?"

"Well what I've heard is that, Totter is fake and the boyfriend that you said before is fake also...Listen Genesis if you would just admit it then I won't be angry."

"Who told you that he was fake?...He could be real!" Her tone starts to become a little higher.

"He 'could be'?" I quote.

Her eyes dart across my face in a panic for mistakenly saying the wrong thing."He is real...He's not fake! He's just not my boyfriend anymore!"

I don't say anything for a moment, not wanting to say something wrong. Because anything that comes out of my mouth could make her not want to answer anything else."Then why did you kiss me?"

She steps back with her hands still on her hips. Maybe she was contemplating her thoughts before she said them as well."...Maybe because I wanted to clarify if you were a raging homo or not. I have my answer now."

I shake my head in disappointment from going right back to the topic I wanted to avoid."How many times do I have to tell you that I'm not a homo?"

"You can say it as many times as you want but it's not convincing by the things you and him do. You do also know that it's not normal to do that right?"

As soon as I'm about to reply to that I cut my self off from another thought about convincing her that I'm not gay but I could see what she was doing. Trying to switch this on me. She had kept bringing this up to avoid the question and I don't know why it took me so long to figure it out."Yes I know its not normal...But then again its also not normal for you to kiss me when you have a boyfriend."

Genesis stops talking and her determination leaves her eyes, which is replaced with a little fear, as she tries to search for a better comeback."I already told you...We broke up. There. Happy? You know now."

I narrow my eyes."Why are you getting angry at me? All I wanted to know was if you guys were still a couple and why I keep hearing this rumor pop up." That wasn't actually true though. The only person to tell me about this was Mr. Harcko. Sometimes lying comes in handy...Just sometimes. Not all the time.

"...Fine. Alright Alright...I'll tell you the truth." She walks from in front of me and walks near some desk and takes a seat."...I don't know who spread this rumor about Totter not being real but it's probably the girls that I used to 'think were my friends'...Dumb broads." She mumbles but enough for me not to hear."Totter is real and the guy in the Christmas photo isn't him at all. That's just some random guy who dyed his hair red for the party."

Okay, so at the moment this sounds somewhat similar to what Mr. Harcko was saying."So why'd you post that onto your account and say that it's Totter?"

"Because..."She rest her head on her hands as he slouched onto the cold wooden desk."Me and him were in a fight at the time and I knew that if I did something like that then I could piss him off...It's dumb now that I think about it but I started to tell everyone that Totter dyed his hair red and that also pissed him off because people were always confused on who was my boyfriend." She looks up at my confused face."The color of his hair changes his appearance dramatically which makes it hard to tell."

I nod slowly."So the two Totter's that I've heard about are actually one?"

"Yeah, and now everyone thinks that I'm this psycho bitch that makes up boyfriends and tries to cry in front of new guys that come to the classroom." She rolls her eyes."And as usual, everyone believes it..."

My eyes cast down towards the floor as I was easily persuaded into believing that too."...I'm sorry Genesis...Have you ever showed him to anyone else? Totter?"

She shakes her head."No...I used to tell the girls about him but I don't think that they believed me. He does go here but I never had this urgent need to want to show him around to any friends of mine. Maybe because we were always in arguments."

"Well didn't any of his guy friends stop and say 'Guys stop he is real. He's right here'."I try to make my voice deepen so that I could fit the buff and tough guy image of what I supposed his friends looked like.

She makes a small smile at my horrible impersonation."No because most of the boys are the boyfriends of the girls so if they were to look as if they were helping me out then they would get mad at them. But something that I don't understand is why these guys stuck by their sides."

"For the same reason Totter stuck by your side when you were confused on who to pick. Maybe they stay because some- not all of them but some actually care for the girl."

Her eyes stare down at the desk as she thinks about what I said."I never really looked at it like that..."

"Not a lot of people do. Most people assume that they only stay with those kinds of girls for popularity and vice versa but sometimes they really like each other." I stare down at my feet as I swing them playfully. I look up at her smiling softly at me."What?"

She shakes her head."He's a lucky guy to have you."

"...Who's lucky?" I stop swinging my feet.

"Zeus or whatever his name is." She shrugs. I've noticed how much she shrugs and she probably does it when she doesn't realize it.

"...It's Zius." My eyes fall back down to a spot on the floor."And he doesn't deserve to have me."

She raises an eyebrow."What are you talking about?"

"...We had a fight before I got here. A dumb fight one. And he won't tell me why he got angry so I told him not to talk to me ever again." Zius why are you being such an ass?...I kept asking myself why he was acting this way but no matter how many times the question wandered around in my head. I knew that the only person that held to the answer to the question was the dick himself.

"Wow...That escalated quickly. How angry did he get for you to say that because just like usual it's probably just one of those daily arguments you guys have."

"Daily arguments?" I question.

"Yeah, you both have these really adorable arguments everyday which usually ends up with him teasing you." She giggle at my face. My face was starting to become slightly embarrassed."You probably don't notice that you two do stuff like that."

I shake my head."Well obviously not, otherwise I would've stopped it a long time ago. Plus this time it wasn't one of those 'Daily Arguments' it was more like 'Fuck you and your feelings' type of fight. I told him about some things that meant a lot to me and he just interrupted me and got up. He went on and on about him having to all of a sudden finish some important work. A pet peeve of mine is for someone to ignore me when I know they hear me so I spun him around and told him to tell me and then...he just started saying a lot of hurtful things to me. So in return, I took out all of my belongings and threw him back his bag-"

"Hold on." She smiles."His bag?...The cute bag you had earlier?"

My face soon starts to deepen in its redness. I'm sure she could see it now."...Y-Yeah. It was his..."

She continues smiling and shakes her head."Alright...Continue."

With my cheeks still feeling a little rosy, I try to continue."And I told him never to fucking talk to me again and to have a great day."

She leans up and stretches, spreading her arms out wide."I really do hope that this is just a phase you guys are going through because when you two aren't together it's now become a little weird. I'm used to seeing his face pop up in the door and making the lame 'gun click move' and you waving in embarrassment of why he was doing that. And without that it won't be the same in the mornings."

"Well starting now...You-...We'll have to get used to it because I refuse to be the one to apologize for anything. Especially when I did nothing wrong...At least I don't think I did."

"...Well, I hope he's the one to say something then because obviously I can already see that were going to have Mr. Cupid being the feminine one in this relationship waiting for him to say something first." She smiles.

I smile and shake my head."Then I'll continue not saying anything because there is no relationship anyways."

And from that day on me and Zius haven't talked. We sometimes saw each other in the hall way but we wouldn't talk to each other. We'd just exchange glances and continue one with our day. I'll admit that not having him around sometimes can be a drag and boring but I have the guys so that feeling leaves quickly anyways. And sometimes I wonder about what he's doing or if he is ever going to come around to talking to me but sadly, that day has yet to come. Donnie still visits me and him but he just does it separately. As in he visits him one night and then me. He says that this whole argument thing has to come to a stop because just like how Genesis said, he also said that the two of us not talking made an awkward and angry vibe float in the air. He asked how we started ignoring each other a month ago and why we weren't talking and I told him the whole story. From the beginning to end, including the things going on with my Father and Mother. But luckily, I had Donnie on my side or so I thought. He said that he understood me and all and of why I was angry but that maybe Zius was having a hard time coming to clue with some things. He also made another comment that stuck to my brain. Don told me that I was acting the same way he and Archer were. But I tried ignored that thought, thinking that it had to be a load of bull...But lately I have been thinking that in a way we were some what similar. The facts were there, we were arguing because of something Zius wasn't telling me, I told him never to talk to me again and we were ignoring each other, just like Donnie and Archer. The comparison worried me a little. It's not that I didn't want to not ever talk to him again, but I wanted him to come forth and tell me why he acted that way. My feelings towards the whole situation still hurt even though it had been a month in a half and whatever had cracked inside of me that day was slowly on it's way to being repaired. I only wish that it would hurry up because feeling like you could break down and cry if you thought about it made it that much worse.