Hello people of the human world. sorry I haven't updated in awhile but I'm stuck in the writers block for awhile. Hope you enjoy.
Its been a couple days since that man... attacked me. Though the flashbacks have stopped I still point a blade at guys if the scare me and I get nightmares that have the man and Lolli in them. I wake up every night in a cold sweat. I even scream out in the night and Alec comes to calm me down. But as Alec holds me and comforts me I remain silent as a have been for the past week. I'm in my own world where Lolli is still alive and nothing bad ever happens. Where shadowhunters didn't exist and Me my mother, father and entire family are living together in the beautiful countryside. Yep so i'm walking around the institute silent, and completely out of it, ignoring everything around me. After weeks of this, Jace finally says to me, "I know you are hurting Bunnee. But you can't go on like this, your sisters need you." Those words spoken by Jace breaks through my fantasy, sending my dream world into chaos. My mother and father disappear, the house burns and the scenery turns to what looks like a post apocalyptic world. Suddenly, I don't want to be here anymore. Slowly like dirt being rubbed away from a window, the real world comes into view. I blink a few times, clearing up the fog that had once covered my eyes, blocking my view from reality. I see Jace, just looking at me. He starts to walk away and I speak the first word in a long time, "stop." the word comes out small and rough, like sandpaper. Jace stops in his tracks and says, "Welcome back to the real world, Bunnee. Nice of you to join the living." Jace then continues walking down the hall. I'm still partially in a world where Lolli is alive. So I go to look for her. I look in the Infirmary, Library, kitchen and the weapons room. She's no where to be found. I see Clary and I ask, "Where's Lolli? I've looked everywhere for her."
Tears fill Clary's eyes as she says, "Bunnee, Lolli's gone."
"Where could she have possibly gone?"
"No Bunnee, she's dead."
Those words smacked me straight in the chest. "Lolli can't be dead. She's young." Tears sting my eyes when I fight what I know deep down, its true.
"She is, Bunnee. I'm sorry."
I start shaking my head frantically and the floodgates that are my eyes open. Tears starts spilling down my cheeks. When Clary tries to put her arm around me I push her away and I yell,"Leave me alone!" And I run to the garden. I cry alone in a tree until I hear Moth enter. "Bunnee?" Moth says. I remain slient as I hold my head in my hands and rocking back and forth. "Bunnee, I know you're here." Moth spots me in the tree and climbs up to join me. "Bunnee, Jace told me you came back. I know Its painful to come back and find out about Lolli, but please don't leave me again." Moth pleas. Tears run down my face freely. I nod and say softly, "Its my fault shes dead." I say. "But I'm here." When I finish, Moth starts crying and hugs me, obviously happy. "Misty isn't very happy with you Bunn. Be very careful, she's gotten better at fighting. Watch your back." Moth whispers in my ear.
"Thanks for the warning, bug." I respond. I haven't called Moth, bug for a very long time . Not since she was 9. "Thank you." I repeat and I hug her. When I leave the garden I head down to see Alec and I feel a girls hand on my shoulder. The hand drags me back and pushes me into the wall, hard. I go woozy and I try to fight back sloppily, not anywhere near as good as I normally do. "Misty stop, please." I plea as she wraps her arm around my neck, choking me. "You let her die! Its your fault, Bunnee. Its all your fault!" Misty cries and her arm gets tighter around my neck with every word. My airway has been completely blocked off by Misty and I'm beginning to run out of air, I start to lose consciousness and I hear a girls voice yell, "Stop!" and the arm around my neck loosens and goes away completely. She's running away. By now I'm a bit less dazed and Clary runs up to me, helps me up and takes me to my room. When we reach my room she helps me to the bed. I sit down and when Clary hints that she will stay to "help" me. She sits across from the bed, where I am sitting, in a chair. There is a beautiful white lamp on the bed side table, within arms reach. "So Bunnee, I'm sor-" Clary doesn't have time to finish before I chuck the lamp at her head. The lamp hits Clary's head square, she stumbles back and leans against the desk. "LEAVE ME ALONE!" I scream at her and Clary stumbles out of the room, temple bleeding. Oh my god, whats wrong with me? I wonder to myself. Clary could be seriously hurt. Then, I start to miss the one person that I could count on, Caleb. I know that the windows open, and there is no other way out without being seen. I slowly open the window and I look down and immediately the world begins to spin, its a very long way down. Like 7 stories at least. I breathe in some deep breaths and I get my act together. My street-smart brain immediately picks out the way down. I should be okay. I put my leg out the window after taking off my shoes and the other leg follows. I work my way down about,maybe, two stories when a gargoyle thing scrapes the inside of my arm, deeply. I wince in pain. When I flinch my foot slips and 5 stories up I'm dangling by one arm. I look up to the window above me and I see Jace and some slutty looking girl making out. That is not going to be my last living sight. I think to myself. I swing myself in the direction of the next windowsill and I let go. With great relief my fingers securly grab the sill. I'm just glad that I'm not a puddle on the sidewalk. I find a foot hold and I have no doubt that my feet look like raw meat. Eventually, I reach the ground and I see a mundane couple just staring at me like I'm insane. "What? You've never seen spiderman?" I say to them and they just walk away, eyes still wide. I look at my arm and I've lost a lot of blood. Then, I realize how depressed I am. I know I'm underaged but I have had alcohol once and it made me feel better. So I go into a crowd, I find a 21 year old girl that looks kind of like me and I pick pocket her. Judging from the clothes she's wearing and how she's so easy to pick pocket she probably as high as a kite. I go to the nearest place where I can get a 6 pack of beer. I buy it, I go into an alley and I start chugging.
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