A/n: Sorry I haven't been updating quite as quickly as I was before. I've been suffering from some writer's block recently. I've also been thinking of posting a That '70s Show fic that I wrote a while back... I'm just not sure about it, though. . Hmmmmmm. WE SHALL SEE! :D
-You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon. Shine on you crazy diamond.-
When Dean was four he was sure that the only woman he would ever love was his mother.
Of course the only girl he knew other than his mother was Bela. He didn't like her much. Whenever they would play together she would take his toys, if they played Tag he would always be 'It' and if they played hide and seek she would cheat. She also had a tendency to pull his hair and hit him sometimes. Of course he never hit her back because his father had taught him that you're never supposed to hit a girl. He thought that they should make an exception for Bela.
-You said they laid out lots of coke, but you don't know how much you did. Now you don't want me to go home, because you're afraid you might get sick, just like the bad news you accept, just like that boy your gonna get. It's all the drunken promises. I'll be your friend, but you just haven't made me yet. -
The first girl he ever took a liking to was Cassie, when he was six.
After he meets her he thinks that maybe he can make room in his heart for her too but he'll never love her as much as his mother. He really didn't care when some of the other boys in his class teased him because he only plays with girls. Dean thought that Cassie was cool and even though Bela was mean she needed a friend too.
-Call me up before you're dead. We can make some plans instead. Send me and IM I'll be your friend.-
Cassie had to move when they are ten. And then it was just him, and Bela again.
That is until it was him, Bela, and Gabriel.
He liked Gabriel, kind of. Gabriel reminded him of Bela with a better attitude. Most of the things that Gabriel did were done with a fun spirit rather than a malicious one. And looking back Dean usually found Gabriel's pranks funny, especially when they were directed to someone other than him.
Gabriel had two older brothers but he didn't seem to like either of them. Dean thought it was weird because Sammy couldn't seem to get enough of him. When he told Gabriel that the boy had just snorted and said,
"Well you're awesome. My brothers aren't. They're always fighting and when they aren't they're just being dicks in general. Okay, now put them in the freezer." He handed Dean a pair of soaked boxers that he had neatly folded up. Dean wrinkled his nose but put the pair of boxers in the freezer.
Later that day when Michael finds his boxers had been frozen he started yelling and cussing. Lucifer grinned and gave Gabriel five bucks and played interference for him and Dean so that they could get out of the house before Michael found them. They spent the night at Dean's house that night and built a fort in the living room out of the kitchen chairs, the couch cushions, and a sheet.
John found all three boys sleeping in it that night. Sam was sandwiched between the two older boys sucking his thumb. He took a picture of them and kept it in a photo album that he and Mary had started after they got married.
-Wanna bounce on the seesaw, wanna lick your popsickle. Wanna swing on the swing set, just to see how high we can get. There's no one around, except the police man in our head. There's no one around. Let's pretend that everyone's dead. Let's pretend that everyone's dead.-
When Dean was sixteen, before he met Bobby, he saw something that horrified and disgusted him.
He had gone to Bela's house and let himself in their back door when he found it open. The family's car was there so he assumed they were. He remembered creeping up the stairs because the silence in the house was so oppressive that he had almost been scared to break it. When he got to the top of the stairs he remembered hearing a whimper, someone crying, and a man's voice. He followed the noises to Bela's bedroom door and when he peeked inside he saw her and her father.
Her father had been on top of her and touching her in places that made Dean throw up in his mouth a little.
He remembered bursting into the room and with a burst of adrenalin pulling Bela's father off of her. Though he probably only did that much since he had the element of surprise. Her father was a big man. He grabbed Bela's hand , pulled her up off her bed and turned to run back down stairs only to find Mr. Talbot standing in the doorway and blocking their escape.
Dean remembered letting go of her hand and tackling her father. He can't remember when he got his father's K BAR from the sheath on his belt. But he did remember telling Bela to run and hearing her rush past them and down the stairs as he and the older man stumbled into the hall. And he remembered Mr. Talbot crying out in pain when he stabbed him in the side.
There was blood on his hands when he got into the Impala. Bela hadn't asked about it as they peeled out of her yard and sped away from the house.
When they got to Dean's house they called the police.
Bela's father was arrested.
No charges were pressed against Dean for stabbing him.
And Bela ended up going to live with her dead mother's uncle, Crowley.
That night Dean sat down and lectured Sam about what to do if anyone tried to touch him inappropriately.
He didn't really care if Sam was twelve and thought he was too old for this talk and he didn't care if Sam thought he was too old to be held in Dean's lap. Dean needed it so for a long time after Bela left with her uncle he just sat on his couch with Sam, holding onto him.
They still saw Bela after that and she was still a bit of a brat but she seemed happier.
-Well, it's been ten years and maybe more since I first set eyes on you. The best years of my life gone by, here I am alone and blue. Some people cry and some people die by the wicked ways of love; But I'll just keep on rollin' along with the grace of the Lord above.-
A/n: The lyrics used for line breaks in this song are from the following songs. Shine On You Crazy Diamond, by Pink Floyd. I'll Be Your Friend, by Bright Eyes. Loose Lips, by Kimya Dawson. Everyone's Dead, by The Homophones. Heartbreaker, by Led Zeppelin.