Kurt's week started off bad with running into Blaine and Karofsky and got worse. The mash up week between Carole King and Alanis Morissette was completely inspired but he and Rachel could not seem to get on the same page with their teaching. They ended up having an argument in front of the kids and all the old New Directions who had stuck around to help. They were trying to figure out when to do their mash up. Because they could not figure it out, Santana offered for her and Brittany to do an example mash up, which they completely took them up on.
The next day when Santana and Brittany did their mash up, it sounded amazing. Kurt was really pleased at how they managed to work it out until the end. Santana had decided to use that moment to propose to Brittany and Kurt lost it a little. He couldn't help but speak up and tell them that they were too young to get married, just like Blaine and him. Santana did not take kindly to the criticism during her proposal and Kurt realized that he had put himself in a place where he never wanted to be...on Santana' shit list. Tina managed to save the day by telling them they were perfect for each other, though Kurt knew something bad was coming.
Santana later cornered Kurt in the hall and basically ripped him a new one. She told him all the reasons why Blaine probably did not want to marry Kurt and it was really hurtful. The real problem was that he knew he didn't have a leg to stand on in fighting back because everything she was saying was, while inaccurate, completely justified. Kurt had ruined what should have been the most special moment of their lives up to that point and he felt really bad.
The next day found him in the auditorium helping Brittany make an engagement present for Santana. He felt the need to help her considering what he had done. They were filling a giant heart with Mounds bars.
"Why are you using Mounds bars? Aren't jelly beans more traditional?" Kurt asked.
"Well, Mounds bars are the lesbians of candies, jelly beans are the gays, of course," Brittany answered. "I used my better than yours math brain to figure out exactly how many minutes Santana and I have spent together and I'm putting the mini Mounds bars into this giant jar to give to her as an engagement present."
"I am so sorry that I interrupted your proposal," Kurt told her as Brittany walked over to get more candy. "I'm bitter. I have this firm belief that people shouldn't get married until they're thirty. But I believe in you and Santana. You remind me of Blaine and me," Kurt finished with a smile.
"Except for the fact that she and I are actually still together," Brittany replied taking more candy.
"I like to believe that we're just on a hiatus," Kurt defended.
"And I'd like to believe that Lord Tubbington isn't secretly videotaping me while I'm in the shower and selling it on Craig's List, doesn't make it true," Brittany replied. Only Brittany could get away with an answer like that. Kurt kind of nodded in acquiescence, even though he thought that Brittany was unrealistically weird about her cat.
"Okay, I hate to be the one to tell you this, but, um, he's moving in with Dave Karofsky. You know, Blaine, not Lord Tubbington. I was just helping them decorate yesterday." (Dave had finally convinced Blaine to move more of his stuff in and that they should tell people. So he had asked Brittany to help him decorate the bedroom as a present. It had certainly taken Blaine by surprise considering Brittany had decided to completely remove their bed, and decorate the bedroom for a ten-year-old girl.) "You need to start getting over him," Brittany went on. Okay, move on! Start seeing somebody else. I'm sure there is another person in the world who will understand and appreciate your particular brand of eccentricity."
"I know," Kurt said, completely crushed by this additional news. He stumbled a little before he could get out, "but I just feel like that if I start seeing someone else or even just go on a date that...I'll be admitting that it's over. And…I-I-I don't want to do that."
"You know," Brittany said bringing over some candy. "These Mounds bars are delicious...if you get to eat them. If you hold them in your hand hoping one day you will get to eat them, they're going to melt. And then you will look like someone just pooped in your hand. Don't let waiting for things to maybe work out with Blaine turn you into the guy who looks like somebody just pooped in your hand." Brittany was in all seriousness in her little speech and at first Kurt didn't know how to take it. He wanted to laugh, but he also wanted to cry. In her own strange way, he knew what she was saying made as much sense as anyone who would have put it a little more gently and a whole lot less grossly. He finally cracked a smile.
"I've missed you Brit," he said as he hugged her.
"I know, I'm awesome!" she replied, laughing.
That night Kurt sat in front of his computer trying to decide whether or not to start an online dating profile. He had let what Brittany said resonate with him and wander through his head throughout the rest of the day. He realized that Blaine might never come back. And while that was a thought he almost couldn't bear, he realized that he needed to start moving forward. As he was in Ohio, that pretty much meant online dating, as he wasn't about to go to Scandals to try and meet someone. For a gay man in Lima, that pretty much left the internet.
He had open on his computer. He had briefly considered Grindr, but he wasn't really looking to hook up with someone and he wasn't ready for anything quite that intense. He heaved a sigh and started filling out the online form. He picked a picture of himself that he felt really captured his fashion sense. And he filled in all the questions. He decided to pick "friendship with maybe more," as his choice for what type of relationship he was looking for. With tears in his eyes, he hit the submit button. Why did this feel so much like cheating? Blaine was probably off having sex with Karofsky at that very moment. That thought made him even more depressed and he closed down his laptop and went to lay on his bed to have a good cry.
The next day started off okay and Kurt decided to go get coffee before heading to school. The line at the Lima Bean was ridiculously long but he had time to wait. He had been there in line for about 10 minutes when he started looking around. He glanced back at the line behind him and was glad that he hadn't arrived later as it only seemed to be getting longer. His was about to turn around when he saw someone very familiar. Blaine was standing toward the back of the line and he had actually been looking at Kurt so he smiled and gave a small wave. Then he glanced down at his watch nervously. Kurt realized that he was probably worried about being late, as he had to drive out to Dalton and took pity on him. As soon as Blaine glanced back up, Kurt gestured for him to come join him near the front of the line. Blaine cocked his head in question, but Kurt just shook his head yes.
"Thanks so much," I thought I was going to have to leave without my coffee," Blaine said as soon as he arrived by Kurt.
"Of course, no problem," Kurt answered, somewhat upset by how surprised Blaine seemed by such a small gesture of friendship. "We are still friends, right?" he asked.
"Yes, of course!" Blaine answered right away. They stood in awkward silence for a moment before Blaine finally said, "You really are helping me out here though. I have Tina coming out to teach the Warblers about theatricality in a bit and I need to get out there." Kurt looked at him with complete surprise and Blaine continued, "I know it isn't really a skill an acapella group needs, but I got such a more well rounded experience with performance once I went to McKinley, and I would like to give that to my guys in case any of them ever want to pursue a career in performance."
"I think that's great," Kurt replied. "I guess I'm just surprised that you picked Tina for this particular lesson."
"Why? She is actually really good with this stuff. You always told me she killed it with the Gaga lessons, and I've seen it myself on a few occasions," Blaine replied. "Who would you have picked?"
"Um...well...me," Kurt replied a bit embarrassed.
"You would come out and teach the Warblers a lesson?" Blaine asked completely surprised by Kurt's answer.
"Sure," Kurt said. He quickly added, "I was one too, after all," as he caught Blaine looking at him with a very strange expression.
"Well, that's very sweet of you considering everything," Blaine replied. "But don't you think it would be a massive conflict of interest?"
"Oh, yeah, I guess it would," Kurt said with a laugh. "I don't really want to be number one on Rachel's hit list, so I guess I can't be about helping the competition. Or even appear to be helping as this wouldn't really have anything to do with what the Warblers will do in competition." Blaine laughed a little at that and they realized they were at the front of the line. Blaine insisted on buying Kurt's coffee, as a thank you for saving him from the line. It brought old memories up from high school for both of them and they parted ways very quickly after their coffees were ready.
Seeing Blaine had made Kurt wonder what the heck he was thinking by starting to try to date. There was absolutely going to be no one else in the world for him and he was determined to delete that profile as soon as he went home. He managed to make it through the day and he just had to get through glee club. Unfortunately for him, it was time for the students to sing their mash ups. Mason and Jane had planned an incredibly sentimental mash up of Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow and Head Over Feet. The whole song was absolutely perfect and had Kurt thinking of all the best parts of his relationship with Blaine. He was crying by the end.
He was so angry at what had happened with his relationship that he did the unthinkable. He lashed out at the kids, even though they had done a great job. He criticized their singing and lack of choreography. Rachel got mad and made him leave, which she was well within her rights to do. However, at the time that didn't calm him down. It made things even worse. He drove away from school completely pissed off at the entire world. He didn't go home. He ended up driving out to the lake and just sat looking out over the water until he could calm himself down. He had had to brush away several angry tears out of his eyes until they stopped being angry and he was just hurt. He didn't want to be here in this place emotionally at all. By now, he and Blaine should have been married and living in New York in complete blissful happiness.
He finally pulled himself together enough to drive home. He pulled his laptop out of his bag and sat on the couch ready to delete his online dating account. He pulled it up and realized he had some winks and some guys had said hi. He was just about to shut it down when a new message popped up: "Hey, how's it going?" from a guy named Walter. Cute, he thought, looking at his picture. The guy looked to be a little older than Kurt but he supposed that was okay. He also had a weird instragram filter applied to his picture, which Kurt found kind of charming. He remembered why he had done this in the first place and he figured it couldn't hurt to say hello back.
Hey, yourself, Kurt typed.
Hi! I didn't expect you to be online, Walter typed back.
Honestly, I was just going to delete my profile, Kurt replied.
Free trial run out? Walter guessed. That made Kurt laugh a little and he replied that no he was just still dealing with something. Walter answered with another thing that made Kurt laugh and they fell into easy conversation. Kurt eventually looked at the time and realized they had been chatting for over an hour and he had had a really good time. He didn't even know it was possible for someone besides Blaine to make him laugh this much. They had gotten onto the subject of The Golden Girls and it was really fun. Kurt agreed not to shut down his account and that they could continue talking. They made a plan to both be online the next evening.
The next day he apologized to Rachel for losing it in glee and she was actually fine with it. The kids had actually taken what he had said to heart because they wanted to be good and win, which Kurt took as a really positive sign.
He spent the next couple days emerging himself in glee and talking to Walter online. By Saturday things were actually looking up. Then he got the weirdest text from the most surprising source and didn't know what to think.
A/N Haha sorry for the cliffhanger, but no worries...all will become clear soon.
