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Chapter Twelve: Her Purpose

When I was done with the nightmare lesson-studies, where Miraak, my so-called-master, decided to teach me, I didn't know how to feel about that. He was very strict with teaching and at first it was way too much stuffs to learn! I was sure we'd end everything on the first day. Though Miraak told me that we would still continue our lessons next time. 'Sadly' he had to leave, when a seeker came to us. He just ended the lesson. That was weird, maybe they are plotting something? These seekers can be sneaky sometimes.

Well I have no idea how much times passed since I appeared here but it feels like I am days or even weeks stucked. Usually we have lessons everyday still sometimes Miraak can't make it because of his own work, and we have to delay it. Why would he work anyway, couldn't he just tell his servants to do it? Or even me, I mean I am literally his slave. I can take care of books, writing stuffs he needs, it's not a big deal.

But the problem is that I don't know much about this world, so I have to call my buddy. Ah yes! I have a buddy, the seeker who handed the book to me is very nice to me! He... or she? I think it's a he.. So one time he guided me through the hallway to the library and out of a sudden another hidden corridor appeared where I didn't see before?! That was really amazing, it just opened by itself! True Miraak said that this place is living but, what can you understand by that? Maybe that this place is like mum and the seekers are her children! Oh well, anyway, when we entered the corridor, I saw the other tunnels, grounds moving with.. Tentacles.. By Talos, what is up with these tentacles! Not only they are moving around but sometimes when I come closer to them, they start to hit me! Of course I can avoid they amazing slow slaps, but didn't Miraak tell me, nobody would try to kill me? And is Mora included too? But I heard that Seekers belong to Mora then how in the world..

Well anyway, I seriously had a hard time to get used here. All these creatures not only seem to have the urge to kill people, but they can't talk! I tried to say thank you or ask them about their personal life..but that is just..

"Soo, you live here since you were born? Who did raise you?"

As a response Amara got only outsider's sounds coming from its tentacle's movements. The worst part was that she was sure her so-called-buddy understood her but he himself couldn't express his thoughts. Confusely with his entertainment Amara nodded a couple times, with an awkward laugh and a sigh.

"He-he-heh...ehh.. There is no way I can understand you, is it."

Although I am really thankful that there is someone who can talk to me, I am still afraid about my safety here. I have no idea how in the world did I end up here, but I am sure that I can go back to my home someday. My children.. Lucia and Blaise are waiting for me to return. I promised them that, I know it wasn't always easy to be there for them. Always gone, rarely playing with them or not allowing to stay late night.. but even if they are adopted, I am their only mum. I want to protect them.

Hopefully Lydia did return there and takes care of them, so I don't have to worry too much. I wonder though, what is she doing, what did she do after I came here. She can't possibly rescue me anyway so what's the point of staying there.. Ah this is just, not right to stay here. I need to get out and slay Alduin and finally bring the peace! This is my duty as the Dragonborn! This is my... purpose to live.. my destiny.. because that's what people tell me..? Is this my dream?

I was raised in a farm as a child. I only remember my parents working hard as farmers, gathering anything they could find in caves or in forests. My mum was a dreamer and always positively thinking. She used to talk how she had a dream to go outside, behind the mountains, see the most of the world and build a house in woods. She said that the nature and every living being had its own purpose and the right to live. She taught me to observe the nature and its behavior. I don't even remember what did she say about plants and herbs anymore. My dad was more realistic. He sure also wanted to have a big house in woods but he was afraid that we could be killed by bandits and monsters. He used to say I would become someone important and I would reach my dreams one day. That he'd be proud of me and my decisions. They tried to teach me, I could reach my dreams, to become anyone I wanted. We had barely money for living so there was no way we could just leave the farm and go to nowhere. But we had each other, because a family couldn't be replaced for all the world.

Nobody fought in my family, not even my brother, who was 5 years older than me. But he was really smart and good at building machines. I really admired him since he built a carriage of the woods and nails. We used this carriage for months and it still worked perfectly. But me, I couldn't do anything. I always watched them, I liked helping them out, because that was my role. That was the only thing I was good at...

I learned how to survive in wild, fight with swords, build a protective tent or avoid any unnecessary conflicts, only after my family's death. We were separated after a big fire and there was nothing I could do. I was hopelessly and desperately looking for my parents, my brother but I couldn't do anything.

Not a damn thing.

If I could help them with my skills I have now.. If I could go back in time.
If I told my dad about my destiny, what would he say?
If I showed my mum how big the world is, what would she do?
If I gave my brother all the books he desired, what would he read?

The lost I had, would never come back but, there are other people, people that I care, that I consider as my family. The whole skyrim's fate lies in my hands, why is it, because I am the Dragonborn? Because this is my destiny? Don't I have any dreams? If.. If I had a chance to fulfill one, what would it be?

Dad, if you can hear me now, please tell me, what would you do as a Dragonborn?

Out of a sudden Amara heard her door being opened and echoic footsteps entering her room. She quickly closed her journal and hid desperately under her bag on the desk. The woman knew exactly who was approaching her yet she turned her head to the intruder curiously. As she expected, it was indeed her Master Miraak and she got up from the chair, never taking off her eyes of him.

"Well, it seems that we can continue our little.. challenge."

Her heart pounded deeper than the last time they saw each other. She felt her throat let her to gulp of nervousness. Miraak on the other side had his mask on, so she wasn't able to tell his emotions. Although with his calm presence and his proudly arrogance she knew exactly what he expected from her to answer:

"Yes, Master Miraak, let's continue it. And remember if I win you'll tell me the way out!"

"You are aware of your 24 losts aren't you? But looking how you finally start to struggle makes this more... amusing, wouldn't we say?"

"I won't let you win anymore!"

"Alright, then prove it to me."

With a smirk on their faces they walked out of the room to finish their challenge.