(1,645 words) just a short chapter, So i can continue with my loop and write other stuff. I haven't got a single review for this story, sometimes I'm tempted to laugh at it, but it still does make me sad, but who cares about that. Enjoy my new chappy.

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12) how time flies

After Jenna had left, Mina for awhile kept going out to try and find her, ditching the children on the others in the house. She would always come back with nothing, she couldn't find her. She wasn't even able to find someone who'd seen someone fit a description like hers. One thing for sure was that she must be far away from Luca, wherever she had gone to.

This worried Mina greatly, she was in no health that she should be by herself, she was so sick, without someone to be there for her, no doubt would she worsen. She had been so weak around the end of her pregnancy, the few times she had come out of her room had reduced themselves to none at all. Mina had been having to bring her food to her room when that had started happening.

Not to mention, even if you ignored her sickness and problems with her mental health, her daughter was still extremely young. Sure she would have left eventually, but she shouldn't have done it straight away. The girl shouldn't be forced to be without her mother at her current age, it wasn't right. But they couldn't blame the woman for what she'd done, her mind had not been in the right place the whole time. Mina had said that the father of the baby had apparently left her; so having to see someone, who likely had resemblance to him, it must have brang back the pain she must have felt when he had left her. And that would have been horrible.

But still she was young, and all in all, it wasn't right.

Eventually, Mina gave up looking, she was coming up with no results; it was useless to try anymore. She had decided it would be better to look after the girl than search for the mother that she would never find. In the end, she called her Sandara. She had said before she found it a pretty name, so she had no reason not to. She had wanted to know what Jenna thought of what to call her, instead of doing it herself, but she had no choice now.

So she was called Sandara, strangely, it seemed to fit quite well. The half Al Bhed girl was very quiet for someone of her young age, she barely ever cried. Mina praised her for it, every other kid she was looking after had been total crybabies. She complained that some of them had woken up and startled bawling at the tiniest of sounds, it had been so infuriating. But now all of them were getting out of the habit. Which she was very glad for. So unless she started taking care of more children or if Yuna's baby was a one of those types of kids, she wouldn't have to deal with it again. For Sandara certainly wasn't one of those types. She was a little angel, it was a shame that her mother would never know of any of this. Every sign pointed to her being intent of staying out of her daughters life.

Yuna could remember one day when she'd seen Mina sitting on the same chair where she'd first gotten a look of the tiny girl. It was a rare occasion where Sandara was not staying quiet, it wasn't like it was loud, but she was making small crying sounds. Mina was doing her best to console her, she was developing bags under her eyes. All what she had been doing was taking it's toll on her, Yuna had never seen her look so tired. When she took a seat the older woman bearly took any notice of her being there. She really must have been lacking sleep. She looked horrible, her greyish chocolate hair was a mess, she wasn't doing good keeping her eyes open.

"Are you alright?" The younger girl leaned foward a little after asking.

Mina gave a small jump, truly she hadn't notice anyone come up to her, far too distracted taking care of the baby in her arms that still had tears dripping off her face.

"Ah, hello Yu, I didn't see you there," She gave a half hearted attempt at a laugh.

"So I noticed." She wouldn't have jumped if she had.

"Apologies. I'm tired I guess," She shrugged her shoulders, "The kids have been more hypo lately, even with Lu's help it's still not being easy." She sighed.

"It's showing." Yuna said simply.

"Ahh, god," Mina wiped some sweat that was about to drip from her forehead, the weather in Luca was getting hotter, it sure wasn't helping a thing.

"You know, I was talking to Lulu about this earlier, I guess I feel like saying it to you as well,"

"What is it?" the younger one interupted.

"Some people have asked if they could adopt some of the kids, They know how hard this is on me. They want to give me some help. And I was thinking if I should say yes." She admitted.

"I know that Shyde and Luka's dad has gotten a better job and isn't having the financial problems he was having before, so soon he can take them back, I'm fine with that, we agreed from the beggining that of he became better off he would do that. But there is some other people that have asked. I said no to most of the offers, I'm not giving up Sei, I couldn't do that, I'm too close to Henah and his real mum to be able to do that. Some people found out about me looking after two pregnant woman and asked if they could look after their babies when they are born, you can guess I said no to that. I feel sorry that I couldn't help her mother like I would have liked, so I feel like I should make it up by raising her daughter in a good environment. For the other child it doesn't really need explanation. How could I possibly give away Ayla's grandchild to someone I barely know, it just seems wrong to me. So I know it means I can only take up one offer then, and if I won't be looking after Shyde and Luka as well, it makes the nine to six. It'll be more simpler I guess. My kids are growing up and I'm going to force Emily to help me more often. Sandara's an angel so I won't be having too much trouble with her."

Yuna nodded after she'd finished talking,

"So you're thinking of someone else raising Byx?" She asked, as according to what she said, he was the only one she'd ever let go of.

"Yeah pretty much, I'll be weird, he's been with me for seven years. I know I'll feel sad for it, but it's for the best. It's gonna be worst on him I should keep in mind. But it's not like I would never see him again, the ones that would want to adopt him and are ones I would let do so, do live in Luca. So I could still see him whenever I want. And he wouldn't have to be completely seperated from the person he sees as his mother." She gave a small smile,

"So it won't be all bad." She concluded.

"He'll understand if I explain it, he's a smart kid for his age. I just can't keep doing what I have been doing anymore. I'm not young any more, and I don't have much help; my husband died years ago, my youngest wouldn't even have a memory of him." An expression passed over her face for second, but she forced it away and looked at the child in her arms who had quieted down and now was breathing steadidly in her sleep. She made herself smile, Yuna couldn't tell if it was real or fake from her position.

"I should let my thoughts wander over to that, it's sad and I'd rather not think about it," Reffering to how she had previously mentioned the husband she had lost.

She uplifted her head to the side and showed the younger one the smile that had planted itself onto her tired face.

She decided then, that she would take the subject off of this.

"I still can't get over how much you look like your mum," Getting far off the before mentioned topic.

"It's still messing with me."

"I can understand I guess." Yuna gave a small shrug of her shoulders, feeling just a little embarrashed.

"Right now it's making me feel old thinking about it all." Mina said with a laugh,

"What, me looking like my mum?"

"Noy exactly, it's just that I can remember when she was pregnant so vividly. It's strange thinking about how you're her daughter, and now you are as well. Long story short it makes me feel old."

She gave a smile with hints of other feelings resting in her eyes as she looked at the eight month pregnant woman.

"Times a fun thing, always wants to go faster than you want it too. I have so many memories of when I was younger then what you are now. To me it doesn't seem like they had been so long ago, but in truth it's even longer than the entire time you've been alive. It's a scary thought how fast time flies."

I actually had a whole other idea for what to write for this one, but then I was like meh, it's good enough like this. Even though my original idea was something I'd planned from the start, I scraped it because it fit better like this. not sure whether to feel bad about it.

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And now I have to go write down my english assignment because my printer has gone and dissapeared and it's due tomorrow.

I had written this all and then my internet randomly disappeared and so I've had to write this authers note twice ( just lucky for me my editing was saved.