I am sooo sorry for not uploading at all. I have no excuses, I'm just sorry, and hope that you guys will still read my story. :) I have half of the next chapter written too, so I will post it probably once I get a review. Again, so so so sorry for the forever long wait! :(

Gil and I were happier then ever. We worked together more effectively, and then we went home to 'our place' together. I loved everything about him, and I could feel that he loved me too. Our lives were just perfect- He asked me to marry him very soon after we moved in together, and I happily agreed. We still didn't want others to know, so it wasn't really a wedding, but still. We were now officially connected, and bonded together.

I've been in Vegas for quite a while when we got a new case. Hannah, the little genius had it all. She had a family that loved her, brains that anyone could ever dream of, and you could easily tell that she will turn into a beautiful women. Except, she was too young to face all that she had to face. Yes, she was very smart, but she wasn't mature enough to handle high school. Hannah got into trouble just because she loved her brother. She wanted to save him. And she did. She manipulated all of us, especially me. I was so angry at her. I could've.. I could've done lots of things to her after court. I didn't though. I swallowed it, and went back to my life. It seemed like this was the part where the good had to end though. Not long after Hannah, Gil and I sat down for a talk..

- Sara! - Gil called from the living room

- Yeah? - I asked as I walked up to him, and sat down on the couch next to my husband.

- I was.. I mean.. Gosh, I'm not sure how to say this..

- Just say it! I won't bight your head off! - I said smiling.

- Do you ever.. Think about having a kid? - Do I WHAT? I couldn't believe my ears. Oh no. Oh no. This can not be happening! I look at him from the corner of my eye, and he seems so nervous. I would be crying if I could cry right now.. He looks so hopeful.

- Gil I.. - I just can't say it. He doesn't know I'm a vampire, and I'm not going to tell him. I love him more then that, I need to protect him. But then what do I say? I can't say I physically can't have children, he'd see right through that being a scientist himself. Or he'd make me go to a doctor. I have to tell him that I don't want kids. - I don't want to have kids. - there. I said it, shaky, but I did. And it seems to break him. He really did want this.. God, I really wish I could give him a child. His own little blue eyed baby..

- Sara..

- Grissom no! - I can't take it. I can't take his sad eyes, as he looks at me, as if he could see right through me.. So I choose to scream, and particularly run out of the house. Of course he can't catch me.. I can't help but use vampire speed. Without thinking, when the door doesn't open on the first try, I turn and head to our bedroom. The window of it is the back window, and our house is the very last house, almost in the desert. I insisted on this, without explaining why I wanted it. I jump out our bedroom window, and run off to the desert really fast. Humans are hardly ever around here at this time, and Gil.. Well he probably suspects something's off with me anyways.. I don't eat, or have my period. I also disappear randomly for hours at times. And I don't sleep. I try to pretend.. But he should know better by now. When I'm pretty sure I can't be seen from town anymore, I lay down in the sand. I don't sparkle.. But I should probably go to my dear friend soon before I start to. So I get up, shake the sand and some big creepy bug off of me, and start running again.