Chapter Twelve: Confrontation

My hair was short like it was when I cut it five years ago. I didn't let my hair grow out anymore due to it reminded me of a man that could never be mine. I grabbed two strands of my hair with one hand as the other reached for a hair pin. I tied the two strands together and the hair was pulled back from my face. The pupil-less eyes stared at me. They held sadness most of the time but all my sadness had to be pushed back so I could face the day. The doctor said that I was suffering from minor depression but I was truly suffering from a broken heart. I never took the pills because I knew they made me feel like I was dead from my emotions.

I put on my light brown trench coat, fixed my tank top before putting on my fish net t-shirt. My light brown mini skirt was tight around my legs and underneath I had black tight shorts. Each year I prayed that the dream I had in the hospital, the one where I kissed Orochimaru would come again. The dream felt real. When I woke up I liked my lips tasting him still. It was a great reminder of what she dreamed. Now my lips tasted dull, no longer having his taste and it was the only thing that made me hold on to my love for Oro-sama. Five years and no contact, no note from him and for some reason I'm still waiting. I felt my sadness trying to break the face that I created and it never did. It was a waist of its time.

Five years and I was a Special Jounin and a member of the village of Konoha. I was accepted for once in my life. People grew to know me and some had come up to me asking me to forgive them for their actions. I would always look at Kakashi who smiled through his mask, and then I would blush and accept their forgiveness. I guess people thought I was Kakashi's girlfriend since he never left my side. For the first year I didn't mind because I felt insecure on walking in the streets. Now I found it annoying. First off, yes I was his girl-friend and not his girlfriend there was a difference. I walked out of my apartment and passed by the place that I would always stop and stare.

In the village where stood a house that had many memories mostly horrible ones and never any good ones. The empty space was cleaned up and another house was constructed. Around the edges of the house there were still dark smug marks that gave a hint of fire. I sighed. I continued on walking to my job. I had to give my infamous speech on the Forest of Death to a couple of maggots for the Exam. I took the job because it was a way to relieve some stress on torturing several students threatening on giving them visits when they slept. It was a play but I made them all fear me. Seeing the fear and their attention fixed on me as I came into their view I smirked.

I laughed as they tried to hide it from their faces. They turned away or looked away. I brushed Iruka as I passed by him. I didn't know him that long. We had a year on knowing each other and he was alright. He was very how do you say…easy to get along with. He was there to make sure that I was giving them a proper speech not like several years ago when I scared the whole teams and it took them several months for half of the teams to make it to the temple. I laughed my ass off knowing how horrible I was to them. Thus I got the name 'Snake Lady' or 'Crazy Snake Lady'. I gave my most boring and appropriate speech. I rolled my eyes several times while talking to the teams. Then I gave them my final three words. "Just Don't Die!"

The gates opened and the teams disappeared in different directions. I walked over to one of the booths that gave the scrolls out and jumped on top of it. The Forest of Death had many dangerous creatures and booby traps. The traps were part of my devious side. I could tell which screams where from the creatures and from which were from my traps. I broke into laughter as I heard one team already stumbling into one of my traps. It was only five minutes and I was already hearing my favorite tones.

"Aye, Anko, when are you going to stop torturing the poor souls?" Iruka was by my side in a flash and it made me jump. I gathered my composure and grinned.

"These kids need a really huge dose of reality." I answered. There was one thing I liked about Iruka. He didn't take my statements serious especially when they were crude or have some sexual meaning behind them. He rather enjoyed them.

"Yeah but tone it down a bit yeah? Because the last time you went all hard core with your words the kids were scared to even fight or try to get the scrolls." He laughed remembering the traumatized faces then he coughed down his laugh. I glanced over to him with the smirk still on my face.

"How did I do this time? Did you approve or do I need to 'tone' it down even more? I was falling asleep while giving the speech." I turned my attention back to the sounds of another team that had encountered a creature.

"I actually slept." He joked. I punched his arm and it felt good having another friend other than Kaka-kun. "It was better. This time I didn't see many petrified faces."

The day passed by and my shift was done. I went home hoping that after a long hot shower I would sleep and pray I have that dream again. I waved goodbye to Iruka-san before leaving.

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The shower fogged up the whole bathroom and I liked it that way. I decided to take a bath rather than a shower. I wanted to lie on the huge tub and lay underneath the bubbles. The white bubbles moved at a snail's pace and it took a while for the water to clear where my face was. My arms pushed me out of the water and sit against where it was mean for my head. Kakashi was Hokage and I was happy for the guy. I smiled when we were afraid to see each other. Three years ago we thought we loved each other and it was an embarrassing conversation that led both of us relieved. We did love each other but it was just friendship love, not love, love.

He still loved Rin and I had to confess to him that I still loved Orochimaru. I thought he'd get mad and began to speak his mind out about the Snake Sannin but he smiled sadly. He knew how much I loved Orochimaru and was happy but he always said that I was truly happy with him. Kakashi became that one special friend that I could tell my thoughts to. He was the person that when I felt anger to the point where I would break he'd knew what to say to calm me down. He was that type of friend. Rin and he were engaged and Rin was one of the few people who personally came to ask forgiveness. It felt wrong for Rin to apologize. I saw how she struggled to say the words and I knew she wasn't the person to apologize on what she said. It got painful to watch her so I told her not to worry.

It surprised both of us that we got to be friends. Never in a million years had I thought I'd be friends with her. She wanted to kill me and I wanted to kill her. We were surely enemies back then. My mind then went to Minato, the man who always tried to make me his. The blond spiky hair man had moved on, I think. I still get this vibe from him that made me not want to be alone with him. Kaka-kun felt it too when Minato was around. I didn't know if he truly did move on or he was just buying his time to try again. I shivered through the hot burning water. I saw small bumps appear on my arms. I let my body side once again in the hot water disappearing into the bubbles.

Few minutes later I got out, wrapped a towel around my body. My skin was slightly pinkish but it did not over power my natural light tan skin. I was glad that my closet was in the bathroom so I didn't travel far enough. Through the bundles of clothing that I had I chose a light green t-shirt and white sweats. The clothing felt tight due to my slightly wet body. I hoped on to bed and began to read on the notes that Orochimaru had wrote about his experiments. I was the only one who survived out of ten kids. The poor souls, they never had a chance to live their lives and have families. The Third Hokage had given me the book when he thought I was ready to have a look at the files. At first I wanted to slap the man for trying to turn me against my Orochimaru but in the end I realize that his intentions were never that.

"That was the old me." A slithery voice interrupted my thoughts. My heart jumped stopped several beats. Was he really there? Slowly I looked up to the man who spoke. He was in a knee high cloak, with a tall collar, three red clouds on the bottom. He had long black hair that made me want to tangle myself in it, pale but still beautiful skin that reminded me of the snow but unlike the snow his skin was warm. He had the most astonishing reptilian eyes that always made me wonder how he got them. My mouth went dry as he, the beautiful being, was standing in front of my bed. How long was he there?

"Orochimaru..." I manage not to stutter his name. I fought the urge to jump on him and attack him with my body. I set the notebook down to get a better look. "What are you doing h-here?" Fuck! I can't believe I'm stuttering! I never stutter around him! Fuck! I screamed as my voice was having trouble speaking.

"I… I wanted to see how you were." I blinked. What? Orochimaru showed a hint of emotion but what was it? Embarrassment? I never knew he could be shy. It was kind of cute.

"I'm alive and I'm well as you can see." I kept my body calm but the only organ that I didn't have in control was my heart.

"The last time I came you were in the hospital and on critical condition." Again I blinked. I felt my heart explode.

"So that wasn't a dream?" I found my thought escape from my lips. I felt my cheeks burning red. Orochimaru smiled. The smile made me shiver but in a good way. It made my body become alive on what it wanted. I bit my bottom lip a bit. "Well like I s-said I'm f-fine." I hated being nervous.

We both were quiet. Our eyes were on each other's and unlike Kakashi who took me into another world Orochimaru took me into his world. It was weird because he let me know what he was thinking and his feelings all by looking into his deep light green eyes.

"Why?" I asked and he knew what I meant by it.

"I wanted to know if immortality was possible and I needed a powerful Shinobi to see if it worked. I took ten children that had the chance on being that Shinobi. Yes, in the beginning it was all tricking you and the other kids making them feel special. In the end of the experiment I was going to give them the Curse Mark and see who survived. When all nine of children could not take the pain their bodies gave up and they died." He paused and I listened to him, "Something changed in the process; I was truly falling for you. I never thought I'd fall for someone so young. I realized of how fond I grew to you when the bounty hunter was going to kill you. I never feared for another life.

When you were found I wanted to kill the bastard but I was beaten to him. You were so damaged we thought you weren't going to make it. So I made a decision and decided to give you the mark. I rather have you die by my mark than let you suffer by the hands of your parents. Then we found out that you did survive the mark and almost destroyed the village. I feared after that because you went missing and I feared the worse." In his face he had so much pain and disgust. It disturbed me because he was never a man to show how he felt. He was Orochimaru! I crawled closer to him and placed myself on the edge of the bed. I was on my knees even on my knees and on the bed he still beat me on height.

"When we found you I was happy. I could sleep again and not worry if you were out there in the world scared or dead. I'm sorry for all the pain I gave you. I knew your feelings for me had grown as you matured. I thought you'd hated me but when you took my hand that one night and chose me I knew you still loved me." His hand reached up to caress my cheek. Orochimaru's fingers were soft and warm. I placed my hand on his. "We knew that anger was the key to activate the mark and we tried to get you angry every chance we had. We drew apart from you to get you mad. I'm sorry about Konan. That was not fair for you. It was our second plan. Yes I loved her and she loved me but it was not like how we made it seem. We knew you listened in when she was in my room. We all wanted you to think we were betraying you."

As he explained everything, every plan they had I wanted to slap him. I almost did but I told my free hand to stay in place. Instead of swinging it and striking his upsetting features turning to the verge of tears it my hand went into a fist. I didn't want him to cry on me. That image of his tears was so beautiful and very painful. He regretted everything.

"I'm sorry my dear Anko." Orochimaru whispered. He rested his forehead against mine. I saw a single tear run down his cheek. It was invisible but my eyes caught the small tear drop. This time I let what my body wanted. My lips stopped the tear from falling further down his face. The small droplet of water melted on my lips. My free hand went through his hair and kept his head from leaving mine. My other hand wrapped itself around his neck bringing him closer closing the space. I rubbed my nose against his and staring into his eyes. His lips brushed against mine before he pressed them against my lips. His hands circled around me keeping me close.

"I love you Orochimaru." I said out loud for him to hear. I loved him. No matter what shit he'd put me through and the shit he will put me through I will always love him. He smiled that smile that did match his face. I kissed him again and pulled him over on me. I was not going to let this chance pass me by. I was going to make him mine. My hands explored his body and in matter of seconds I had removed his cloak that had a uniform. I removed the suit and roam my hands over this naked back. I didn't want my lips to leave his. I wanted this night to belong to us.

The pure pleasure over whelmed us as he entered me was a sensation that I never thought existed. Flesh against flesh and soul against soul. I truly felt complete and it was very, very, very good. His hands explored my body and I gasped lightly as his thrusts became more powerful and pleasurable. Orochimaru's mouth left no place of my body untouched and I loved it. He nibbled my neck then bit down hard. I felt his teeth biting down and I moaned in response. I tangled my fingers in his black hair and resting my chin for a couple of seconds on his shoulder trying to catch my breath.

We locked eyes when they met. He had both hands on the mattress looking down at me. My hands where on his sides matching the speed of his hips I never thought I'd be doing this with him. Yes I had dreams of having sex with him but each time I woke up alone and knowing that it was a dream. This…This was reality and it was happening. I felt my cheeks flushed as I was giving myself to Orochimaru. He nodded his head saying if I was ready for what was to come. I smiled and kissed him deeply. In matter of moments we both felt our bodies truly becoming one. Orochimaru gently fell against my side and I placed my head on his chest hugging him for dear life.

"I love you Anko." He whispered and I kissed his chest where his heart was racing. "I will always love you."

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Orochimaru was still awake when Anko had fallen asleep in his arms. She had completely given herself to him. He wasn't sure if it should have happened. He still had plans in stored for her and he wanted to still do experiments. Now it was impossible for him to do them. He let himself break down his own walls for the girl no wait for the woman (he loved), that he made love to. He shouldn't have done it. This shouldn't have happened. He is Lord Orochimaru, the Snake Sannin, and he cared for no one! He stared down at Anko and saw the peaceful look on her face. That thought went away quickly. He loved this woman and he wanted to be always on her thoughts, mind, and he wanted himself to be the only man she loved. He knew he already had it but things could change and she could get sick of him and leave him. No, no, my Anko wouldn't do that. He reassured himself. He kissed her forehead. His hands stroke her hair lightly, not wanting to wake her up.

Her reaction was totally different from what he had imagined. He thought she'd throw a fit and activate the curse mark but she didn't. She listened and tried to make sense of what he was telling her. She forgave him the moment she saw his tear. He was sorry for the bullshit he put her through and the tear was proof on how his own selfishness made him feel. If Anko truly loved him then she'd be willing forgive him for the upcoming pain. Orochimaru didn't want to think about it because he knew it would be soon rather than later. Knowing this truth would show him if Anko's love was strong enough and true enough to forgive him. For now he was going to sleep with his sleeping beauty and forget about it, all of it and enjoy the moment.

Okay I hope I did well on this chapter . I was having trouble writing it due to the romantic moment. More chapters to come! So please R&R (: