Annabelle
it was 2 days later a tues. I was going from the lady's house in aurora to my place in denver. I got up around 11 or 1 that day. She was at work and my roommate was elsewhere. I took the bus to denver well actually to cherry creek. Where I went and saw 2 movies well about half of them. then I went and stopped in at my bar to say hi to people didn't stay long.
I think I went to my place and slept. The next day I i'd slept for 8 hrs. and then woke up around 4 p.m. And felt so much better. So I went to the store and got a book and luna bars then came back. It was a wed. which meant it was karaoke night. I waited around at my place for awhile then went to the liquor store where I got of course liquor. A lot of it. It had gotten dark by then so I went to the BK by the park and got ready put on my makeup. I think the reason I didn't get ready at my place was bc I didn't want anyone other than my friend knowing i'd been there. So I didn't want to leave any evidence. Then I went under a tree in the park drank but not too much as i'd be drinking at the bar and rehearsed. I went back to my place and left the shooters in the closet. Then went to the bar where I met another friend of mine. I sang at least 2 songs but 1 I had to wait an hr. for. The karaoke guy forgot. My friend left early and so then I got 2 crinks white russians. Went back to my place where I drank more.
The next day I read, binge drank and slept until about 3, 4 when I went and got chipotle. That was fri. after I ate the chipotle I smoked my 1st cigerette. In the bathroom bc again I was paranoid someone would drop by. Which was why I didn't smoke in the living room or outside though that probably would've been better smoking it outside. But also it was cold outside so.
So that night I went to a bar on colfax for a bit where I had a sip of red bull and vodka or something. Then I went downtown to the apple bar as I call it. I'd been there before back in feb. 'bout a wk. Or so after my ex I broke up. That time prior to my going to the apple bar i'd gone to leela's. Which i'd left after doing something I shouldn't've. But this time I only went to the apple bar. I had a shot of soco and I was good for awhile. I apparently went back to my place.
The next day I went downtown again to the tarantula bar by leela's. That day was fri. at some point in the days after I went to leela's at 5 in the morning where I think I got fries. Then onto starbucks and back to my place. Where I slept.
at some point during my stay I went downtown again.
9 a.m. And I was downtown. I was looking for evan [my friend not my brother] who I hadn't heard from in 2 months. I hadn't slept in 2 days and had walked over 8 hrs. i'd walked from aurora to downtown. I'd told ashley and another friend of mine where I was going.
I'd called evan at least twice. But he didn't answer his phone. I called again and the answering machine picked up.
"hi I don't know if you're here or not. I haven't slept and i'm really fukin tired and I need you and I...i don't know. I'm headed your way i'm...um..." - I looked around and found myself looking at the mcdonald's i'd just come out of - "i'm on colfax. Out a mcdonald's er I mean i'm outside of. Yeah. I'm tired have I mentioned this? Ashley knows my plan".
I hung up cause I was too tired to continue. I saw a lady approach me.
"do you have bus money?" she asked me.
Never one to turn down someone who needed help I said "i um I think. How much...?"
"no i'm going to give you bus money. You look tired."
"i am."
she gave me a 5.
"wow um thank you."
"of course."
and she was on her way.
I waited a bit for the bus then took it to the civic center where I got off.