I know it's been forever since I last updated. There just was so much going on in my life I didn't get the time.

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Yuuri loved Victor, and he would have done anything in the world for him. He only wished there was something he could do now.

They had been in Switzerland for about a week. They had a wonderful time together. They cuddled and chatted all day and made love at night. But there were times when Victor went to this really dark place.

'I am a terrible excuse for a human being.' Victor said. 'To think I let Nina die. I wanted to have children with you someday, but I don't think I am fit for that. I let a child die, Yuuri! I let a child die!' violent tears streamed down the Russian's face.

Yuuri cupped his cheeks. 'It was not your fault, Vitya. Don't think for a moment it was. He wiped his tears with a finger and planted kisses where the tears used to be. 'I love you.'

'So, you think this ordeal was your fault, somehow.' Nadia Feltsman said.

Nadia Feltsman was Yakov's niece and Victor's new therapist. Yakov had requested her to fly over to see to Victor who, according to Yuuri was in a terrible state. They knew she was trustworthy, and would keep it a secret.

'I cannot stop blaming myself.' Victor said. 'For hurting my Yuuri. For letting Nina die. For...'

'Why don't you start from the beginning and tell me the entire story.'

'It st...started on Yuuri's and mine wedding day. We were so excited. And then...then...' Victor broke down. 'I cannot.'

Nadia nodded. 'It is okay. Victor, I suggest you wait till you are able to narrate the entire story without tears. And the day that happens, you should talk to our husband and decide on a course of action.'

'It started on Yuuri's and my wedding day.' Victor said confidently, looking at everyone in the room. He had requested for Yuuri, Phichit and Chris to attend that day's therapy session. Yuuri gave his husband a reassuring smile. 'I was so looking forward to marrying my Yuuri. But then, Elli Greene coerced me into wedding her instead. She had hacked my social media accounts and acted like she was actually engaged to me. I did not do anything as I was afraid it would spoil my reputation and my career.'

'Elli forced me to live with her as her husband. The entire world believed that Elli and I were a happily married couple. She forged my name in the adoption papers of a girl from the local orphanage named Nina. She acted like she was our adopted child.'

'I grew fond of Nina and I began to care for her like a daughter. That became another point in me for Elli to exploit. My friends tried to get in touch with me, but it was of no use as I was too terrified of Elli to do anything. Then, one day, I Elli planned out an elaborate charade with her brother, Gary. Gary pretended to kidnap Elli, and abuse her. But she tried to escape, and got run over by a car.'

'I got really angry with Elli. If it weren't for her, Nina would have been alive. In my anger, I sort of pushed her and she accidentally hit her head.'

'Overnight, the media blew up with news of how I had let Nina be killed by neglecting her and how I was abusive to Elli. I became a hated person in Russia. Yakov managed to bring me here and here am, thinking of my next course of action.'

Victor took a deep breath before saying 'I am going to get a lawyer.'