I look at the clock for what seems like the millionth time today. It's only two in the afternoon. I've been sitting on the couch surfing the channels all day long. There's nothing to do and it's driving me insane. Since when is there nothing to do in New York, though? I decide that I must be delusional so I grab my purse and go look for some adventure in the UES.

After an hour of shopping I start to get bored and decide to stop by Starbucks right down the street from where I am. As I cross the street I spot a familiar face walking toward me.

"Jenny?" says Nate in wonderment.

"Nate." I say

"What are you doing here?" he asks

"Umm, I'm going to Starbucks." I say pointing to the coffee shop right in front of where we're standing.

"Can I join you?" he asks and I stare at him in awe.

"I promise I wont bite." He says and then smiles. I smile back and he holds the door open for me as I enter.

We wait silently in line and then walk up to the cash register. He looks at me expectantly and I realize that he wants me to order first.

"Umm, I'll have a vanilla bean frappuccino." I say and then look at Nate.

"I'll have a vanilla latte" he says and then we wait in silence (again) for our orders. If I had known that it would be awkward between us then I wouldn't have accepted his offer to join me.

Once we get our orders we go and sit in a table with two chairs in the far corner of the shop. And then we stare at each other, silently. I want him to start the conversation first, but I have a feeling that he wants me to start it. I take a sip of my drink and wait to see if he gets the hint. I'm not talking until he starts.

"So, how have you been since the other night?" Nate finally says awkwardly.

"I've been fine, thank you." I say and take another sip of my frap.

"You've been here, what, a week?" he asks and I nod my head.

"And you've already managed to get yourself into trouble. Way to break a record, Jenny." He says and I'm not sure if he's mocking me or just trying to make conversation, but either way I'm pissed.

"You know if you'd pay more attention then you would know that I only got myself into trouble once and it wasn't even my fault." I say in my bitchiest tone and then look away from him.

I know that he can tell he offended me because he keeps quiet for a moment and then says, "I'm sorry. I just didn't know what to say."

I look at him and say, "Fine, but just pick another conversation topic. I don't want to be reminded of how much I've screwed up in the past years."

"Well, umm, Serena and I broke up." he offers and I feel my eyes widen in astonishment

"Why?" I ask him

"I told her the truth." He says simply and then takes a sip of his coffee.

"About us?" I ask and he nods

"Way to not remind me of my screw-ups, Nate."

"How is that one of your screw-ups?" he asks and I look at him as if he's some sort of idiot, which maybe he is.

"I lost my virginity to a guy that doesn't love me. Then, he made me lie to everyone and pretend it was his best friend I slept with and not him. And to top it all off, everyone found out and I broke up one of the best couples in New York, had to leave town because of how guilty I felt, and you were left unscathed." My voice raises a little and I see people staring in our direction.

Nate stays silent and just stares at me and I know I've made it awkward between us again.

"I'm sorry" he says to me after a couple minutes of silence.

"I was selfish, I know. But I wasn't left unscathed. Chuck got shot and I know that it was completely my fault. He didn't talk to me for months and it's been hard to get our friendship back to normal. Every time I would be with Serena I would feel extremely guilty for what I did and I had to play the role of the perfect boyfriend and I had to pretend that I was hurt that she kissed Dan, when in truth, I was hurt, but I didn't care because I did something much worse than she did. And to top it all off, I had to walk around with the guilt I felt of putting this burden on you. I knew that you left because of me and every day without you was just a reminder of how badly I messed up this time. I always save you from whatever mess you get yourself into, but in the end I couldn't save you from myself; the biggest mess of all."

I look at Nate and I feel like I'm seeing him clearly for the first time in ages. I look into his eyes and they look tired, worn out. He looks like he's been carrying a burden and has finally released it. I never thought that he felt the same way I did.

"I thought you didn't care." I explain to him

"I did; I always have. I wanted to punch Damien in the face for trying to take your virginity. Then I come along and actually go through with it. I've been feeling like an ass for the past year and I know that telling you to keep your mouth shut about it must've made you feel like crap. And in turn, I felt like crap too."

"So I guess we can both agree that we've both been feeling like crap for the last year." I say and he smiles.

"I agree" says Nate.

"And we can both agree that we can't put this behind us. It'll always be there, haunting us."

Nate nods and says, "But we can both agree to forgive each other for the hurt we've put each other through and that we will move forward even if what happened will always haunt us."

"I agree." I say to him and then we smile at each other.

"So, you and Serena broke up, huh?"

"Yupp." He says to me and nods

"Are you okay?" I ask him. He was so in love with her that it must hurt him a lot.

"Actually, I am." He says and I look at him surprised. "We've been arguing for the past year for so many stupid reasons that I guess I just grew out of love for her along the way. I was sick and tired of it all so I decided to tell her what happened because, truthfully, I didn't care anymore. And I know it sounds harsh, but once you get to the point where you're dreading seeing you're girlfriend, it's just time to face the facts and break up. It isn't meant to be."

I am completely astounded and speechless by his words. Here I was thinking that Nate and Serena were still the 'golden couple'; that they were meant to be, but in fact it's the complete opposite. They got to a point where they couldn't stand each other anymore and had to break up.

"Wow." Is all I manage to say.

"Why are you surprised?" he asks

"Nate, you asked me to tell everyone I had sex with Chuck and not you because you wanted to be with Serena and didn't want anything to get in your way. And now you're telling that same girl that you guys aren't meant to be and you're completely okay with your break up." I explain

"I'm not completely okay." He says and I stare at him with a look that says 'I know you're lying' and Nate smiles.

"Okay, so maybe I'm way better than I expected. But it still kind of hurts."

"Well just so long as you don't go home to watch sappy movies and cry yourself to sleep now." I mock him and he looks at me, mockingly hurt.

"You know, I'm really hurt by that, Jenny." Says Nate and I shrug my shoulders to show him that I don't care. "And to prove to you that I won't go home right now and watch sappy movies and cry, why don't you come over and we can watch action movies and play video games without shedding a tear. Unless you beat me, then I will cry." Says Nate and I'm hesitant to say yes, but then he smiles one of his brilliant smiles and I cant help but smile back and accept his offer.

Three hours later I find myself eating popcorn and playing Mario Kart with Nate.

"You better go get tissues, Nate, cause you're going down!" I yell and he starts playing harder. I look over to him and laugh hysterically when I see his face. He looks so concentrated it's hilarious. Nate realizes I've stopped playing and looks over to me.

"Why are you laughing?" he asks

"Your face." Is all I manage to say in between breaths.

"What about my face?" Nate questions and then I explain to him how he looked when he was playing and we both end up laughing because both our faces look stupid.

"Well, well what is going on there?" I hear Chuck behind me and I turn to see him and Blair sharing a knowing look about something.

"Really, Nate?" questions Blair and I see Nate look just as confused as I feel.

"What?" Nate asks and Chuck and Blair exchange that same look again and then look at me.

"What was so funny, Jenny?" asks Blair

"Umm, just a stupid face that Nate made while playing the game." I explain and Blair looks over to Chuck triumphantly. Then Chuck stares at Nate and I decide maybe it's time for me to leave.

"You know, I think I'll go." I say and then grab my purse and head toward the door.

"I'll see you later, Jenny." Nate says and I nod. I say my goodbyes to Chuck and Blair and as I'm leaving the apartment I hear Chuck saying to Nate, "Well, Nathaniel, I think it's time you and I have a little talk."

I go back home and get back to surfing the channels while mentally making up scenarios for why Chuck and Blair we're looking at each other knowingly and why Chuck had to have a 'little talk' with 'Nathaniel'.

A/N: okay, so all through season 3 Nate and Jenny played video games and watched a lot of movies together. i always wondered what it would be like to see Nate and Jenny playing these games and acting all goofy with each other. GG was way too serious this past season and it needed more goofiness and so that lead to the end of this chapter with Jenny and Nate playing video games. though i don't think i did a very good job at writing that, but tell me what you think about it anyways! hope you enjoyed! :)