A/N Hello, chicas and chicos! Guess what? 4 months till Abduction and 5 till BD: Part 1! Im in a happy ass mood cus I went on this hour long rant about Vampire Diaries VS Twilight and Breaking Dawn and now my jaw hurts, haha :) so anyway...R&R
I hadnt talk to Sam in three days. He was still a tad pissed about the whole prom mess but I didnt care too much. Instead of being concerned about prom I was more focused on college. I had my money saved up, thank God. Another reason I shouldnt go to prom. I wasnt gonna blow my whole entire savings on some dress I would only wear for one night.
Finals were done for the most part and prom was only a week away. I heard around school that Jacob was Nessie's date. That pissed me the fuck off. I didnt let him know that as we filled out college applications.
After writing my name on the Name line for the umpteenth time, I put my pen down and examined him as he laid his tall body out on my bed.
I thought about some of the greatest times we've had together and it made a huge, cheesy smile on my face form. I poked him with my finger like he did with me sometimes. His eyes didnt tear away from his paper but he flashed me a white grin.
"Yes?"
"What school you looking at?"
He lifted the clipboard and I read the name. "Seattle?"
He nodded and went back to filling out the sheet. "Yup."
"Why Seattle?" I wondered.
"I want a sports scholarship. The last game of the year determines whether Ill get one or not."
I was truly impressed. Mostly because he said "scholarship," and "determines" in the right context but also because he was aiming so high. A scholarship. Jacob Black get a scholarship?
"Wow, well Ill be there cheering you on, ok?" I promised and he nodded with a grin.
We kept up small talk as we filled out each application. It was nearing around seven o' clock, the time Jacob usually left to eat dinner with his dad and come back over a half-hour later.
As he got up to leave, I kissed him goodbye. He promised to be right back and I nodded ok.
About five minutes after he left, I felt something vibrate through my bed covers. My head jerked up as my eyes shot to Jacob's backpack at the head of the bed. Mustve been his cell phone. I ignored it...till it buzzed again.
I couldnt help but reach my hand inside his bag. I knew damn well it was wrong to read his messages but I was just a little curious. I wasnt hurting anybody.
I opened the first message.
Hey, where r u? Ur not with her r u?
From: Nessie at 7:08pm
I only grimaced.
Had Nessie gotten inside of Jacob's mind as well? Did she turn into some psycho bitch on him too and tell him to stay away from me? Some boyfriend she's got. The second one was a picture file. I opened it and the minute I did I regretted everything I had done in the last 24 hours. I hit myself upside the head and cursed. Mrs. Cullen mustve been grading papers at home and Nessie mustve seen mine. Fuck my life...
When I opened the file, I expected to see some sext of Nessie but instead my hazel eyes widened in shock as I looked down on a photo of the doodles I drew in science.
"Wat the fuck is this?" The text caption read under the picture.
I forgot about the fact that this was Jacob's phone and I pressed the "reply" button. My fingers flied across the keyboard.
Idk...never seen that b4 in my life.
I pressed "send." Focusing on my applications was out of the question now. The phone buzzed a few seconds later.
Didnt I tell u to stay away from her?
From: Nessie 7:11pm
I put the phone down.
Not only did Sam and the rest of the team suspect something but so did Nessie. I began to shake a little.
I fought back a tear or two and started pressing buttons again.
We're just friends...calm down
I turned his phone off.
I couldnt take much anymore.
I had gotten so low that I was texting his girlfriend, behind his back.
And you know what the shady part is? I had every opportunity to tell Nessie the truth. The truth about me and Jacob. Jacob and her mom.
My fingers shook as I pressed them to my forehead. I was sweating now.
Every logical, smart part of me was saying to be with Sam. Love Sam. Marry Sam. Do everything for Sam.
But every adventurous, exciting part of me was saying be with Jacob. Love Jacob. Adore Jacob. Cherish Jacob.
I wiped away a tear knowing Id have to give up one thing and lose the other. Who knew that just some time ago I hate him? But now...I loved him. I loved Jacob. I love Jacob.
But I followed my brain. Not my heart.
After placing his phone back in his bag, I stared blankly at the application and tapped the pen against the clipboard. This was gonna hurt him more than it was gonna hurt me. It took three years to feel the way I do about Sam. I couldnt ruin that cus I had some fling with Jacob. I wanted Sam. Sam was...the one I wanted.
I sighed dismissively as my bedroom door knob turned. The doorknob clicked and Jacob strode in with a huge grin on his face and his hands behind his back.
Before I could tell him my decision, I got too distracted as to what was behind him. I returned the smiled and cocked my head in confusion. "What?"
He didnt speak as he took two long strides to my bed. He had a smile of pure evil. I loved it.
"Jacob what are you-" I began.
"Close your eyes." He instructed in a low, husky voice. Wetness flushed all over me. I loved it when he talked like that. I did as told.
He ran a hand through my hair and kissed my forehead. "Open your mouth." His breath hit my face and I couldnt help but let out a moan that described every feeling Id ever have for him. The hate. The love. The lust.
My jaw hung open for anything. I expected to taste his erect dick in there because he knew Id allow it.
But instead, I tasted a sweet flavor. A sweet, very fattening, guilty pleasure, thick, delicious, taste bud tingling, flavor. I opened my eyes.
I was face to face with Jacob who had his finger in my mouth and his forehead to mine. I suck the icing from his finger. He swallowed and tried to hide his excitement.
"How'd you know I liked chocolate icing?" I asked him. He exhaled with a laugh and sheepish grin. He blushed red.
"Who doesnt like chocolate icing?" he teased as he dipped his finger in the tub of icing and took a lick of his own. He did it slow and looked me in the eyes as he did. I groaned and had the sudden urge to hump the fuck out of him. He set the treat on my nightstand.
"Seth doesnt. Neither does my mom." I answered his rhetorical question. It was true. I was the only one in the Clearwater house who enjoyed chocolate icing. He smugly kissed my forehead again.
"Where is your mom?"
I honestly didnt know. "Who knows?"
He kissed my neck. "Where's Seth?"
"At a friend's house."
He didnt speak for a while as his tongue explored my neck and collarbone. The feel of his wet tongue on my skin made my nerves jump. I loved the slithery feel. It made me literally tingle in pleasure. "Great," he whispered.
I reached for his shirt but he stopped my hands with his own.
"Go to prom with me." he said simply.
I blushed and shook my head. "Youre going with Nessie." I reminded him and looked to the floor. His face twisted in confusion.
"Nessie?" he sounded disgusted. "Im not taking Nessie to prom."
My ears perked and my head lifted to look at him. "B-but I thought that-" I began to stutter tentatively. My cheeks grew hot.
He began to chuckle. "Leah, I broke up with Nessie yesterday."
I tried not to think about her and her delusions. "Yesterday? Then why was-"
"She's been spreading a rumor we're still together...I know." he rolled his eyes, inflamed. It didnt make any sense.
"She texted you while you were gone."
He didnt look surprised. He just eyed me and cocked a brow. "No way," he chimed sardonically. I kept my giggle in best I could. "It's always the same with Nessie." And he left it at that.
"Why did you break up with her?" I wondered. I was just about to tell him I couldnt be with him this way and he up and dumps his girlfriend. Dont I feel like a bag of shit?
He flashed a proud smile and eyed me up and down. "Why have Nessie when I can have you?" he hummed in my ear. "You're perfect, Leah."
I had to stop him there. "Im not..perfect." I struggled to say the word so gracefully. Sam was perfection. He was the king of perfection.
He saw through my insecurities and put a lock of hair behind my ear. I shivered under his sudden touch and got reassuring goose bumps all over my arms and legs.
"Lee, you may not be perfect but youre pretty damn close," he touched my hair again. I touched his back.
Silence took over as I looked into his huge orbs. They were hard and tough on the outside. But once you get your head close enough, you see something in his hard and tough eyes. You didnt just the external blackness when you looked into them. You saw...reason for living. Cheesy, I know but one glance and I knew.
"Dontcha think that breaking up with Nessie could leave you in a shitty spot with Mrs. Cullen?" I asked him and waited for an honest answer.
"Well, yeah. I guess. She already hates my guts as it is. Now that I broke up with her little angel...my grade is going down hill. No scholarship for me." He kinda smiled but I saw it was phony.
"Dont think like that. She's not allowed to fail students just cus she doesnt like them." I reassured him. He kissed my forehead.
"I cant even imagine what Id do without you..." he whispered to more himself than to me. "Leah, I love you."
Then I decided I couldnt take much more. I broke down starting with a croak.
"Leah?"
"Jacob, I cant-"
"Cant? Cant what?" he asked calmly.
The words were caught in my throat. They just sat there, clogging my breathing and making me lose sight of the real world.
"Lee?" he asked a little nervous now.
"Sam asked me to prom and...Im thinking about going with him." I worked the words out slowly, trying not to sound too anxious.
I watched his face as it went from nervous to confused.
"Do what?" he acted as if he hadnt heard me.
"This...us...I know you broke up with Nessie but it's still not fair to her. She truly did love you. She lost her damn mind a little but ya know..." I trailed off.
He went from confused to a tad upset. "Nessie was with me for attention. She's at the height of her popularity when she's with me. Now where is she? At the bottom of the food chain. She's not even 'Nessie' anymore. She's just 'that girl who dated Jacob Black.' "
I ignored him and his nasty attitude. "I have a boyfriend, Jacob. He loves me. I love him and we-"
Jacob sprang up and his heat went with him. My body chilled and I jumped as his huge fist made contact with my wall. He backed away from the wall and there was a dent. I gasped.
"Jacob, listen-" I began, a little bit afraid.
"I told you I loved you and you're going back to...him?" he growled a little and his eyes went dark.
"I never left him." I corrected him.
He shook his head in disbelief. "Youve been toying with my feelings all this time?"
We stared at each other for a few minutes.
I honestly couldnt even respond to him. My mouth was open, ready to answer. But no words came out.
"No one told you to fall in love." I murmured.
He clenched his fist. "Youre the first girl Ive ever opened up to. Youre the first real girl who Ive ever had true feelings for. Excuse the hell outta me for feeling something more than just lust. I didnt know that loving someone could hurt so much," he whined the last part sarcastically.
"Why cant you just admit it?"
"Admit what?"
"Leah, it's okay to say you love me. I wont-"
"How can I love someone like you?" I wondered more to myself than him. "Have you seen yourself? You are the shadiest person Ive ever met. What kind of boy-"
"Leah, that's the past! Ive changed all that! I havent been fucking anybody but you. I broke up with Nessie cus I wanted to be with you! I told you I love you!"
"Jacob, Sam is-"
He put his hand up. "Sam." he growled his name with fury. "You feel something for me, Lee. I know you do!"
"Jacob, it's not like that. I love you but-"
"But what? You wanna marry this kid, huh?"
"Just lemme-"
"No, Leah. It doesnt work like that. You love me, Leah! Why would you be with him when everyday is a struggle not to call him by my name! I took your virginity! You opened up your legs for me! One day, youll see that the underdog was on top and that you made a big mistake."
"I know what I want, Jacob! And I want Sam!" I shouted at him, a little unsure of what I was saying.
"Bullshit, Clearwater! I know you better than you know yourself; youre not the type to love and leave. Im more to you."
"Why do-"
Jacob had heard enough. He pushed passed me with a force that made me lose my balance. He caught me, twirled me around and his breath was on my face, furious and vicious.
"Dont you ever look down on me again. Next time you think of Sam just remember Im the one who made you walk with a waddle." His growl was loud as he spoke and I could only stand there, scared of what I had done to him.
He let go of my arm and was out the window with the wind. I stood there and watched as he left. Stupidly, I whispered his name, as if he could hear me. I shut my eyes to keep the hot tears in. How could he say such hurtful things?
As I sat on my bed, I heard his Rabbit start up and vroom away. The engine was loud. He was going fast.
I rolled my body over to look at the ceiling and tried to recap what had just happened. My taste buds tingled for more chocolate icing so I reached over and grabbed the tub.
Using my finger only, I finished the whole thing.
It was hours later till I could fall asleep.
I didnt cry much. I just laid there, reviewing all the things Jacob had said.
"You love me!"
I didnt deny it.
Sighing heavily, I turned on my side and stared at the empty tub that once held icing in it. It was nearing 2am.
A chill brushed up my neck and I shivered. My teeth chattered a little so I pulled the covers over me some more. I got distracted from the time to look up at the wall Jacob had punched. The dent was not as big as I thought.
A shadow moved on the wall and my hands froze. An intruder?
I forgot I left my window open so I shut my eyes and hoped I was dreaming. The window was being shut gently. The shadow was man-ish and my heart restarted when I heard a husky voice whisper, "Leah? Lee, you awake?"
I rolled my eyes. "Go away."
He scoffed. "Dont be like that."
"Leave."
He switched the light on and sat near my feet. "Leah, listen-"
I sat up and pointed my finger at him, ferociously. "No, you listen! Every time you mess up, you think you can fix it by just coming in through my window and charming your way back into my good graces! Not everything can be resolved with a nice, hard fuck, ok?" I grunted in an unladylike way and he looked at me shocked.
"I didnt come here to fuck. I wanted to apologize. I went to...Jacob's Happy Place and I knew I said some pretty fucked up things, ok?"
"That makes two of us...now leave." I grimaced and he only sneered.
"Just lemme finish. Lee, Im sorry. Im sorry I yelled at you. Im sorry I punched the wall. I didnt mean to scare you-"
"You? Scare me? Please." I rolled my eyes, knowing he had had scared me.
He only sighed, knowing he wasnt getting anywhere with his apology. "Fine. Ill just leave you to cool off then. Bye, Lee." He got up to leave but I grabbed his arm.
"Wait,um...dont leave. I said, fearful of being alone.
He looked down at me in confusion then he grinned sheepishly. "You want me to stay?"
I let his arm go and scoffed trying not to sound too needy. I nodded.
Jacob sat back down on my bed and touched my hand softly. "Leah," he exhaled. "Im so sorry." I wasnt even close to forgiving him.
But something told me to. I leaned towards him and our lips met.
They were soft and delicious as I nipped at them. He kissed like an angel.
My hand ran though his soft, black hair and he rubbed my lower back. I gave into his light touch easily.
He started where he always did.
Jacob's moist lips invaded my neck with sweet, tender pecks and nips. A smile crept upon my face before I shut my eyes.
As he descended to my chest, the kisses got heavier. Wetter.
His tough fingers roamed over the hem of my shirt as he straddled me. His expression went from wondering to angry as his hands flew to the collar of my V-neck. Within seconds, he had ripped the clothing off of my body. I moaned as my bare chest was revealed to his accepting eyes. I arched my back to him and he ran his hands over my wanting-no, needing-breast.
"Goddamn it, Leah. I never wanna see you with clothes on again. Cus I swear to God, Ill rip the clothing right off your body."
I let out another desperate, needy moan. My nipples were hard as ever and now Jacob was just teasing me. He nipped lightly then bite down with more force. I went insane with wetness.
His kisses grew more sensitive as his hand reached down for my underwear. His fingers explored through my wetness.
He watched carefully as my face changed. The first finger was always the best. It gave hope and promise for more penetration to come. I wanted to come.
I whined in happiness and he took my cries of joy as an indicator to enter a second finger. I squeezed the sheets in pleasure. "Jacob..." I moaned, breathlessly.
"I wanna hear a scream, Clearwater." he was saying.
I couldnt eveb produce a proper English sentence as he put his fingers deeper into my soaked twat. I growled in almost anger, remembering what he said earlier. I could just hate him for saying something so conceited!
But my body rejected the hatred I wish I felt for him.
"Leah," he moaned as he went deeper, my hips grinding automatically to the rhythm his fingers had going. The build up of my first orgasm burst out of my vaginal walls. I half screamed and Jacob, who had his eyes closed, threw his head back and smirked.
"Music to my fucking ears." He flashed me the smile of a jackass. I loved it.
He slid his fingers out of my pussy and looked at his two fingers sheepishly.
I returned the smile devilishly.
He slowly licked his index finger of my juices. "Taste sweet," he noted. I took his middle finger into my mouth, tasting myself. He got hard all over again and grunted in the back of his throat.
"Here I am, bearing all and your pants are still on." I said sweetly, batting my eye lashes at him. I lifted myself up on my knees and he got to his feet.
"Maybe we should get rid of this shirt," I joked as my fingers ran over his collar and just as he did mine, I found unknown strength to rip it from his body. He bit his lip and blushed.
I began to kiss his chest the same way he did mine. Soft and tender. As I got lower towards his hardness, he put his hands in my hair to guide me to the right spot.
Using as much roughness as possible, I yanked his pajama pants right off his legs. I was still amazed by his size.
"On your knees. Now," he commanded. I did as I was told and without being told, I began to suck.
He gave me reassuring moans as I worked on him. I remembered the first time I had done this. I was so nervous. Kinda shy. Now I had a huge smile on my face, dripping wetness onto my own bedroom floor.
"Jesus, Lee-" he swallowed his words and I looked up as I took in more inches. His head was thrown back like before.
"Enjoying yourself?" I asked as I stroke him.
"Dont fucking tease me..." he was pleading. After two more strokes, I entered him back into my hot, drooling mouth.
I licked the head of his dick, taking in almost a mouthful of pre-cum. He whined once more before gathering himself. I didnt even bother to wipe my mouth as his taste lingered in my mouth.
He stepped out of his pants completely and approached me. I climbed onto the bed and laid down on my back, legs separated. Missionary was his favorite position. He loved to dominate.
His rough hands wrapped around my waist and he yanked me towards his hips. He yanked my underwear and sweatpants off together. I was soaked.
"Wet much?"
"All for you. Do you love me enough to have brought a condom?" I kinda mocked him.
He kissed my neck and sucked on my earlobe. "Honestly I didnt think Id be forgiven so easily. I didnt think to bring one. "
My face fell. Well there goes my night.
He continued to talk. "But I mightve snuck a few into your drawer last time."
I lit up again as he reached over me, opened my nightstand drawer and grabbed a condom. He ripped the plastic wrapper off with his teeth and pulled the condom out. He lifted himself, slid the latex onto himself and when he heard the snap his eyes met mine.
I wrapped my arms around his neck to bring him down to my level. I opened my legs up for him and the moment I did, he entered me and the real moans began.
"Ohhh," I started softly, closing my eyes.
"I wanna make you fucking scream." he muttered as he picked up his pace to a speed that caused enough friction to make my legs quiver in pleasure.
He took hold of my waist with a stronger grip this time, his hip thrusting into mine causing me to fist the bed sheets.
"Harder," I begged through light gasp. He knew I wasnt too proud to beg so he did as commanded.
His hands roamed over my breasts and he pinched my nipples, hard. Blood rushed to my head and I was gone. Over the edge. On Cloud 9. My toes curled and I reminisced back to the day I saw Jacob pounding Mrs. Cullen and her toes curled. This feeling was like that times ten.
"Jacob...Ohh...fuck-" I bit my bottom lip and needed to claw at something. He pounded harder and towered me, groaning louder than I was. As he thrust himself into me faster, our bodies got tighter and I reached up to touch his sweating face. The heat was almost impossible and when Jacob hit the sweet spot, I whined and squealed as I hit my second orgasm of the night.
"Ohh, Jacob...f-f-fuck..." I legs shook and squeezed my left tit.
He came down to may face, balancing his weight on his hands on both sides of my head. Jacob grin was wide as was mine.
I looked down at our joined bodies and I remembered how cautious Jacob was when he took my virginity. We were both slick with sweat.
"You like my big cock, Leah?" he teased as I began to grind on his boner.
"It's not how big. It's how mean." I told him as I eyed my favorite Lady Gaga poster with pride. Jacob took that as a challenge.
"Oh, really?" he growled. He rammed himself into me mercilessly and I had nothing to hold onto but myself as I howled in ecstasy. He seemed satisfied as he pulled himself out of me. He used his huge arms to flip my body around.
"You want mean? I'll show you mean."
I giggled like a school girl as I propped myself on my hands and knees. Before I knew it, he was in me, pounding harder than before. His muscles wrapped around my hips, keeping me close. I looked back at him and his mouth was half open, looking down at my helpless vagina being beaten by his huge member. He was pumping as hard as he could, the heated contact sending tingles all through my tight, yearning pussy. I held onto the headboard of my bed and squeezed my tit even harder.
"Oh, fuck! Jacob, fuck me!" I cried out, almost losing myself.
He grunted and slapped his hand hard against my right ass cheek. I yelled out in satisfaction. Jacob reached over and kissed my shoulder. He lifted me up with one hand and continued to punish me. He made his way to where he was hitting it the hardest and rubbed my clit hard.
"Scream for me, Leah. Come one." He kissed my shoulder again. "Please come. Cum all over my hard cock." he was begging now. I lifted my arms to wrap them around his neck. My nails dug deep into his back and he cried out as well.
Suddenly, his pace slowed but I wasnt even close to coming.
"Dont stop. Please..." I whined with the taste of need in my mouth.
"Leah, wait." his husky voice was strained.
"No," I declined, not listening to him.
I believe I was so close to the edge, I saw vivid images flash across my mind. I saw a confused Sam. Then I saw a hurt Sam. Lastly I saw an angry Sam. All three disgusted me so I only went down harder on Jacob's dick trying to make them go away.
"Leah, I-" he said through grit teeth.
"Keep going."
Jacob sighed and brought me closer to his chest, his huge hands covering my own as we both gripped my flopping tits.
"Come on, Leah. Scream for me. I wanna hear you scream my fucking name! I want you to explode on my hard cock!"
I threw my head back over his shoulder and he did his final smashing till my pussy and his cocked exploded on each other, taking our bodies to the oblivion.
"Ahh, fuck Jacob!" I screamed. "Oh my God! Jacob..." my wetness overflowed along with his hot semen that was trickling from his dick into my filthy, tight pussy.
He groaned viciously and his body went slack. I did a few last grinds before I laid down on my side, Jacob still inside me. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my shoulder again.
He rested his forehead on my shoulder and I felt his hot breath on my back.
"I love you," he whispered softly.
The sweat of our bodies covered each other and I brushed a stray lock of hair out of my face.
"I love you," I exhaled, absolutely positive of what I was saying.
He pulled out in between my thighs and pulled the condom off. "Shit," he murmured.
"What is it?" I asked, smiling like an idiot. He put before me a piece of busted latex with thick white semen all over it. The condom had broken.
I didnt freak the way the old Leah would have. I simply took it from him, tossed it to the side and kissed him softly.
He stared at me confused so I just nibbled on his ear. "Dont worry about it, stud." I whispered naughtily. Jacob eyed me in disbelief.
"Just trust me." I reassured him, thinking about the Plan B One-Step my mom had stashed in her medicine cabinet.
Jacob, unsure, wrapped me up in his arms and I gazed up at the white crescent moon. He kissed my cheek.
"Leah?"
"Hmmm?"
"I just want you to know that if Sam were to ever hurt you..."his voice trailed off.
"Yes?" I said for him to finish.
"If Sam were to ever hurt you just know that I love you and Ill always be here, ok?"
I arched my brow in confusion but I shrugged anyway. "Um, ok. Thanks. I love you, too Jacob."
With a kiss on his nose, I dozed off with pleasant thoughts on my mind.
When I awoke, my body was still in a good mood.
The first thing I saw was Jacob, sitting up and chewing on his thumbnail. When I opened my eyes completely, he grinned.
"Morning, beautiful." he said, stroking my face.
I rolled my eyes and thought otherwise. "Morning," I said back and kissed his cheek.
"How'd you sleep?" he asked lovingly.
My dreams came flashing back to me and I remembered the wonderful night we shared last night.
"I had a strange dream."
He rubbed my back and hesitated. "Tell me."
I sat up and blushed like I had a fever.
"Well while we were making love...I saw Sam. Like he walked in, saw us and he looked so...perplexed. Then he looked hurt. Like he had been stabbed or betrayed. Then he looked...mad. So mad. Like he could just explode. I looked at him and he only got angrier by the second. And the fucked up part of it is, we didnt even have the power to stop. And then he left. The dream was over."
I reminisced the dream that seemed so colorful and real, it was unbelievable. Jacob looked worried and concerned.
He sighed nervously and took my hands in his own.
"Um, Leah about that..."
"Yes?"
He looked at me pathetically and kinda frowned. "Um, Leah...that wasnt a dream."
"What?" I questioned him.
"Last night, while we were making love Sam did walk in. He saw us. He looked at us and he did look hurt. I tried to stop but I just couldnt. You looked straight at him and you just..." he didnt finish that last statement. " "Leah, Im really sorry." he finished.
A/N Im just a holy fool, oh baby hes so cruel but Im still in love with Jacob, baby...how bout that lemon?Took me days to write...hope you liked it REVIEWS R LOVE