Charon…I swear to you that I'll try. Please, let me know that you're really here for me. I swear I'll stand by you, as your friend, as your lover if you want it so. I'm so afraid of being alone now. I can't imagine the thought of it. You have taken me and changed me in one fluid, swift motion. I can't be without you now. I'll leave my bedroom open to you, my home and heart. I'll wait for you when you venture off into the darkness. I'll ask myself where you've gone, and wait patiently for your return. This Capitol Wasteland seems unbearable now, as we lie here in the desert. I can hear your soft breathing near mine, but not too close. I can't do this anymore, not alone, not without you. I rely on you now, against my better wishes, against my better judgment. I never wanted this, I never wanted any of this…but I've found it. Are you afraid, too? Can you just as easily work for someone else, and push me into the recesses of your mind? As if none of this has ever happened.
I'll wait forever for you, if you ever left me. I don't know what's wrong with me, Charon. I don't know anything that's happening with me. Please, help me. I want to cry to you, I want to cry out, but I can't explain it. It's so deep inside. Like a fire that I can't put out myself. Charon…I can't feel you next to me. I felt my hand brush your arm as I slept, but it isn't there anymore. Did you leave? No, no you'd never leave me.
It gets so lonely here. In my own mind, it gets so, so lonesome. But you're here with me now, in my memories and with me. I can't sleep, I can't dream, I need you forever, Charon. You sit with me in my head, and together we laugh. I've never heard you fully laugh. It hurts, to remember my past. Please make it stop. Make it all go away and never come back.
Charon. I'll wait for you, okay? I'll miss you when you're gone. I know you're going to leave me one day, I know it. Your contact will leave my hands, and you'll be with someone else. I couldn't live with that, Charon. I can't. You're the only person to care about me, I can't imagine my life without you now. No one would stop me. No one would prevent me from finishing what I started the night you fell into my hands. I need you now, Charon. I need you here, with me, keeping me safe. Where are you, Charon? I can't hear your breathing, I can't feel you near me…Charon…