Stiles' POV: Cora VS Lydia
After Cora and I left Derek's we hung out at the bowling alley, we had fun together. Something just changed between us recently, and I wasn't sure why. We just got along better than either of us expected. With everything going I welcomed the change. Scott tried to be there for me as much as he could, but he was split between the Alpha Pact and school. He was really trying at both.
Being that I was Stiles Stilinksi, Lydia was the only other girl that I've ever loved. Lately, Lydia and I have grown closer, and I like that, but we weren't friends like I wanted to be. With Cora I had that friendship.
So when she kissed me I had no idea that it was even an option. I mean, I was no Scott or Isaac. Or Boyd or Derek. Even Peter. Well, two of those people were related to her, but still. So it shocked me, but I still reacted to see what it was like. I knew that I was still very much in love with Lydia, but I hadn't kissed anyone since Terra. Even that was my first kiss. Little kid kisses don't count.
Once I got the hang of it I placed my hands on her hips because that's what I wanted to do to Lydia. I kissed her with a hunger that I didn't know I had and pushed her into my jeep. Strawberry blonde hair filled my mind, pale pink lips.
My eyes flew open, realizing what I was doing. No. This wasn't right.
Cora looked at me with confused eyes. "What's wrong?"
I blew out a breath as I took a step back. "That was not supposed to happen. I'm sorry, Cora. I didn't mean…"
"You seemed to mean it to me." She gave a tiny hopeful smile that made me feel like an even bigger douche.
"No, that's not what I meant. It just wasn't supposed to happen with…" I couldn't say it, and I know that made me weak, but I just didn't want to hurt her feelings.
"It wasn't supposed to be with me." She finished for me as she looked down. "It's about Lydia."
I nodded. It was always about Lydia. She was all I ever thought about, besides my dad. I just couldn't shake her. "I'm sorry, Cora. You're a great kisser if it means anything to you."
She gave a bitter laugh as she started down my drive way without a word.
What was I supposed to say? I had never been in this position before. No one ever kissed Stiles! Why was I a target now?
"You know, I get that you weren't leading me on, but we still had a great thing going." She stood at the end of my drive way.
I took a few steps forward. "Yeah, we did. We still do."
She waved. "Tomorrow, Stilinksi."
I gave a small chuckle. "Tomorrow, Hale." I waved, and then I watched her walk away. I blew out a heavy breath. "That was a damn good kiss," I muttered to myself. If it wasn't for Lydia then I would be a fool for Cora.
Lydia would never see me the way Cora does, which was depressing, but I couldn't mask my feelings for Lydia just to give Cora a chance. Besides I didn't want to. Cora was the only other friend I had right now, and a girl at that. For some reason it felt like I cheated on Lydia, but she'd never know about it. No one ever would.