*Trigger warning: The following chapter contains sexual abuse and if you can't handle it, I suggest you stop read now.*

I was playing a new video game my mum had gotten me for my birthday. I was just about to beat the level when I heard him. He was talking to my mum downstairs. My entire body froze in fear and I felt like throwing up. Then I heard footsteps getting closer to my room. I was about to get up and hide when my bedroom door opened.

"Hey sweetie." My mum ran her hands through my hair, but my eyes never left the screen. "I have to step out for little bit. Bob is going to watch you while I'm gone."

That's when I looked up. There he was, standing in my doorway with a smile. God how much i hated that smile. I gave my mother pleading eyes, but she was no longer looking at me.

She spoke some words to him, but I wasn't paying attention. I was focused on trying to keep my breathing even. I felt her kiss my head as she said goodbye. Then she left. And I was alone. With him.

I continued to stare at the paused screen when I felt the bed shift.

"Hey buddy! Whatcha playin?" He said.

I didn't answer.

He picked up the box."This is a fun game."

No answer.

"But you know what's even more fun?"

That's when I felt his hand on my leg. I jumped slightly, which he sensed.

"Hey just relax!" Then he kissed my neck. "Relax."

He pushed me down on the bed and continued to kiss down my neck. I said stop over and over again. I screamed so loud and pushed him off. But on the outside I was completely still.

"Chris!" Someone shouted while shaking me, causing me to wake up.

My eyes shot open and I saw PJ standing over me. All the lights were on and Dan and Phil were sitting up in their beds. It took me a moment to realize I was breathing hard. I took slow deep breaths while also trying to bring my pulse down.

"You alright mate?" PJ asked. "You were whimpering in your sleep."

I nodded. "Yeah just... a really bad dream."

"Do you wanna talk about it?" Phil asked. Concern evident on his face. on all their faces actually.

I shook my head. "I'm alright."

None of them looked convinced.

"Seriously guys, I am alright. It was just a nightmare." I said trying to reassure them. "Nothing to worry about."

After a second of silence PJ nodded and reluctantly went back to his bed. Dan went fell to sleep, but Phil was still sitting up and looking at me.

"Phil I'm okay!"

"I honestly don't believe you," Phil sighed. "But I'm not going to pressure you into telling me what's going on. Just know that I am here to listen and I am probably the last person on this earth to judge you."

I looked at him for a moment, wagering whether or not I should tell him. In the end I decided that right then wasn't the time to tell him or the guys anything. I knew that eventually they would have to find out, but I was planning on prolonging that reveal as long as possible.

"Thanks Phil." I said with a small smile.

He returned the smile before turning out the lights and falling back to sleep. I layed back in bed for what felt like hours, just praying for sleep. The problem was I couldn't get my mind to rest. Over and over again my mind would think about the dream. Or memory I should say.

I checked my phone only to sigh at how late it was. To go to back to sleep now was pointless. Hearing snores from all over the room, I took my chance to get some fresh air. Very quietly I snuck out of the cabin and made my way down to the deck. To my surprise I wasn't the only one who had this idea.

"Hello." I said as I sat down on the deck on the opposite side of Ally.

"Hi." She said quietly.

"Couldn't sleep?"

She just shook her head and pulled her legs against her chest while resting her chin on her knees.

I nodded. "Me neither."

After a few minutes Ally spoke up. "So what kept you up?"

I looked out at the water. "Bad dream. You?"

"Same."

"Wanna talk about it?" I asked.

"No. Do you?" She looked over me with a smirk.

I shook my head and chuckled. "No, not particularly."

Ally smiled, but the two of us stayed silent for a long time. I actually found her presence comforting. It was obvious she had her own problems which kinda helped She didn't force me to talk about what was wrong nor did she make me feel bad about not saying anything at all. Together we just stared out at the lake and it's calming waters. That's all we needed.

"Why do bad things happen to good people?" She asked quietly.

Her question startled me a little because she spoke so softly. For a moment I thought I imagined it. I thought hard about what she was asking, only to come up blank.

"To be honest, I really don't know." I looked over at her. "Why do you ask?"

Ally didn't say anything. She just chewed on he bottom lip and kept her gaze on the lake. But I kept my eyes on her. Whatever it was, it was eating her up inside. She looked broken. Nothing like the strong, angry girl I met the first day of camp. And I didn't like it.

Very slowly she turned her head towards me. "Emmy had a great time on your date."

I blushed at the comment. "Did she?"

Ally smiled. "Mhm. She wouldn't shut up about it."

I was beaming at everything she was telling me. For the date I took Emmy to a nice place for lunch and then we went to a local theater where a rendition of the Into the Woods was playing. I was pretty happy with the date and to hear that Emmy thought so as well made everything significantly better.

"She likes you a lot, you know?" Ally picked off a piece of lint from her jumper. "Emmy liked you from the very start."

Her words sent a thousand butterflies into my stomach. I felt lije inwas on cloud nine. "I like her a lot too. Like a lot alot."

"Can you promise me something?" I nodded. "Just... be careful with her. She's the closest thing I have to family and I'll be dammed if you hurt her."

"Believe me I would hate myself for all eternity if I ever hurt her." I said softly.

"You know, for some reason I believe you." Ally smiled, but this smile was different. It was genuine and heartwarming. It made me wonder what was it that caused her not to smile like that more often. But just as quick as that smiled appeared, it was gone and replaced with her usual bored look.

"It's late. I'm gonna go back to bed and try to get a few more hours of sleep. I'll see you later." She stood up and started walking back, but stopped. She turned back to face me. "Thanks by the way."

I looked at her confused. "For what?"

Ally glanced at her feet before back at me. "For not pushing me to talk earlier."

Oh

"Thanks to you too. For you know... doing the same." I chuckled.

She gave a small smile before nodding and walking back to the cabins. When she was out if site, I turned back to watch the lake. Unfortunately, my mind went back to the memory. I wanted nothing more than to forget it. To forget all of the horrible things that he ever did to me. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't repress them.

Sometimes they would be gone for a long time and then just randomly come back to haunt me. I knew that the best thing to do was tell someone, but I just couldn't do it. People would think I was some disgusting freak and I couldn't handle losing people I cared about over that. It just wasn't worth it. Besides it was ten years ago and he was already gone. There was nothing that could be done now.

I stayed at the lake until daylight started to break through the clouds. As I was walking back I realized that it was time to move on with my life. I didn't need him to keep ruining it. So after I was finished getting ready I headed straight for the mess hall in search for Emmy. I spotted her in line and once she saw me she smiled. I smiled back and briskly walked over to her.

"Hey Chris! I was just telling-"

I cut her off my grabbing her face and crashing my lips on to hers. I pulled away leaving both of us breathless. "Will you be my girlfriend?"

Emmy looked stunned, but then smiled and nodded her head. "Yeah. Yeah I will."

With the hugest grin on my face, I pulled her into my arms and spun her around. This is what happiness was suppose to feel like. And I deserved it.

A/N: I would just like to say that writing this chapter was probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to write and I almost gave up on it. I hope none of you hate me for this.