Pairing: Fuji x Atobe

Disclaimer: Prince of Tennis does not belong to me.

Part: 11/?

Genre: Angst/Fantasy/Romance

"Happy New Year!!!"

A.N Nervous laugh, yes I know the ending to last chapter was a bit disappointing and for that I apologized. Therefore, I will attempt to make it better with this chapter. Umm I hope.

Truth is I am kind of surprise that I finished this chapter in time since I just recently finish updating my two new stories. -shrug- I have no idea why or what I am doing anymore. -wanders and pour self another cup of coffee-

Hope the readers enjoy this chapter

Heaven's tear

"Mizuki, let's go out."

Mizuki's pov

An interesting turn of event and I know I would have be more thrill if I wasn't so distracted by a certain someone. Yes, when Saeki called attention upon him and Shusuke I was at the same crossroad as well. From where I was standing, I saw Shusuke, Saeki, Atobe and Yuuta.

Yuuta is here.

I never thought I would see my Yuuta again. Even after all these years and life times, Yuuta's aura still felt the same, it was his own special mix of anger, sorrow and misery but all that will change soon. Yuuta will be free from his emotions once for all when he realized that I had destroyed Shusuke for him.

Destroy the brother that he hated

Destroy the brother that he craved to surpass

Destroy the brother that never knew his existence

Destroy the source of his misery for him

I never had Yuuta's full attention because of Shusuke. Our relationship was a failure from the start because Shusuke stood as the invisible barrier between Yuuta and me. I was never able to get close to Yuuta because he couldn't see anyone beyond Shusuke's invisible presence. Even after all these life times, it still hurts to know that Yuuta didn't even notice me because the only person that ever matter in his eyes was Shusuke.

Yuuta, why couldn't I be enough for you?

Ever since you were little your parents would compare you to Shusuke. Shusuke, the prodigy and you were never enough for your parents. Shusuke, the tensai but in my eyes you were always enough. If only we could switch eyes for one moment, I want you to see what I was able to see all along. In my eyes, I saw a man capable of everything. I saw a man being blinded by his own desire to surpass his brother. To surpass the brother that he never know but envy for all eternity.

Envy

Yuuta, your own green eye monster had blinded you for so long. I fear that it will consume your whole being soon, but I promise I will destroy Shusuke before your green eye monster destroyed you.

For that I will need a sacrifice lamb.

Yuuta's pov

"Shusuke"

The name came out of my mouth like a whisper. The mere mention of his name made me angry. The mere thought of his image made me want to taste blood. It had been a long time since I felt so blood thirsty.

Red

Red was the color of my anger and it was aimed toward the brother that I had never met. It was directed at the same brother that left my family before I was even born. I must sound pitiful for harboring so many emotions toward someone that I had never known or meet. All my life, I was always being compared to you. I was never enough.

"Why couldn't Yuuta be like Shusuke?"

"Why did Shusuke have to leave?"

Yes, indeed why did you leave. I should have been the one who left or better yet I shouldn't even have existed. It was on my fourth birthday when I overheard the conversation between our parents. I overheard a conversation that I wasn't meant to hear but one that would change me forever. That was the first and last time that I had shed a tear. I cried because I found out that I wasn't wanted.

I remember walking up the stairs to mother and father's bedroom when I overheard it. I was carrying the last two pieces of my birthday cake when I heard, "Why did Shusuke have to leave?"

Shusuke?

I was puzzled so I waited. I waited outside the door all night and listened to our parents talk about you. They were missing you on my birthday, the birthday that no one cared about.

I walk away quietly and throw away the last two pieces of cake and went back to my room. That night I couldn't sleep because I want to know who this Shusuke person was. The first time I saw a picture of this Shusuke person I was stunned.

He wasn't what I expected. He had the kindest eyes that I ever seen, kind eyes … on a demon. It screams conspiracy but that was what I thoughts.

Kind

So gentle and kind that it made me sick to my stomach

I want his eyes to scream anger like mine. I want his eyes to reflect hatred... I want him to feel pain, not peace, anything but tranquility. Then I meet Mizuki or maybe I should have said Mizuki found me, like a stray dog. I was wandering around with nowhere to go and Mizuki found me. I didn't trust him because I learned long time ago that no one deserved my trust.

I was sure that Mizuki would be fed up with me and kick me out but he didn't. He tended my wounds and look after me... like I was some kind of … pet. I hate that comparison but that was what being with Mizuki reminded me of.

Mizuki was a perfectionist and he couldn't stand anything out of order in his house but yet he continued to put up with me. Finally I caved in to my curiosity and asked Mizuki why and his answer was anything but rational, "It was love."

That was my breaking point. That was when I realized that I have to leave Mizuki. Love was an emotion that I cannot allow myself to feel. I never did figure out if I love Mizuki or not. However, there was one thing that I was always certain of and it was the fact that I cannot let myself be wrap up in something as trivial as a relationship.

I need to find an answer.

I need to find a peace of mind.

I need to find Shusuke.

Because I know that Shusuke will be the key that unlock my anger but I was too late. When I found Shusuke he had already give up his immortality for an archangel named Atobe Keigo.

To become a mortal

To experience life and death

All for what?

Love?

It sickens me and my anger grew. I was so close to finding the source of my anger. I cannot let that happened so I decided at that moment that I will find Shusuke.

It doesn't matter how long. It doesn't matter how many lifetimes it took, I will find Shusuke. I will find Shusuke even if it means giving up my immortality and experience life and death like a weak mortal. All these lifetimes I failed, but I never gave up because I know that I will find my answer one day. One day came a lot later than I thought, but today is the day.

At a crossroad ... I finally found him. I finally found my brother.

…

TBC