Sam's pov
The plan was set, everything was in place. I had gone over the plan with Shigure and had his full support. We found Tohru in the kitchen with Yuki in the dining room. She was busy cleaning...to busy to notice. I put everything in place, my steps silent.
From the bottle of orange juice which was really water and mac n cheese powder to the windex bottle with blue raspberry juice. The plan was to act like normal, go about the kitchen and mess with each fun little prank item with Shigure to help act as though what I was doing was normal.
In total we had made the windex juice, cheese juice, vanilla pudding in a mayo jar, and my personal favorite...the food dye in her toothpaste. I stepped from the kitchen only to run into Yuki who stood with his arms crossed and a small smirk. I smile as innocently as I could making him chuckle.
"You're evil…" I smile and slowly smirk.
"Don't use her toothpaste." I chuckles and leaves towards the kitchen as Tohru finally notices people walking in. Shigure enters from the stairway and meets my eyes with a wink. I walk into the kitchen quietly as Yuki and Tohru talk about how clean the kitchen was. Her eyes got straight to me and turn confused.
"Aw...how'd you find them?" I chuckle and shake my head.
"It was pretty smart hiding them there but you forget...i have my ways." Yuki looked confused and thankfully when along with the plan he didn't even know existed.
"Wait..hide what where?" Tohru gives a sheepish smile.
"I wanted Sammy to wear more girly clothes so I hid her bag by the rock out in the garden...i knew she'd find it at sometime, but not this soon…" I smirk and turn towards Shigure. "You know the place?" he smiles and nods, slipping on his shoes.
"Wait what?" Tohru asks. I turn to smirk at her.
"You just told me where you hid my bag, genius." her eyes widened and Yuki just chuckled.
"Wait, but then where did you…?" she trailed off looking at my clothes.
"Shigure didn't like seeing me upset and was nice enough to lend me something." it was Yuki's turn to be surprised.
"You lent her clothes?" I turned to see Shigure with my bag in hand. He simply nodded and tossed me the bag making the pills rattle.
"Hey, I was meaning to ask you...what do you have in your bag?" Tohru asked suspiciously. I sighed and decided to start the prank to draw attention away from my pills.
"Just some vitamins." I pulled out the mayo jar and grabbed a spoon taking a bite happily. Her eyes went wide and even Yuki made a disgusted face at me.
"What are you doing?! Don't eat that! Sammy!" Tohru started her freak out and Shigure stepped in.
"Yea, don't eat it all! Share." he pouted making me chuckle. I filled the spoon and fed him making him give a happy groan. I chuckled again, shaking my head.
"No, you shouldnt...i mean...what?" I turned to Tohru and smiled innocently before deciding to bring Yuki in on it.
"What? It's pretty good! Here Yuki, try some." he gave me a wary look and Tohru gave him an almost pleading look but he shrugged and took the spoon full I held out to him. He smiled as soon as he tasted the pudding and handed me back the spoon.
"What the hell is wrong with you guys?" we all turn to see Kyo in the doorway looking completely disgusted. I chuckle and take another bite.
He gave me a look before rolling his eyes and moving past towards the fridge. He opened it and pulled out the 'orange juice' making me and Shigure freeze. We shared a look of uncertainty before he smirked and nodded.
I guess this just became a prank on Kyo too. We watched as he removed the cap and brought it to his lips...not even getting a glass...that inconsiderate jerk! Now he just deserves this. As soon as he takes a sip he spits it out and rushes to get a different taste.
In his panic I quickly grab the 'windex' and grab the front of his shirt. I spray the juice in his mouth making Yuki and Tohru cry out with shock. He takes a minute to get over the taste before realising what I had sprayed in his mouth.
"What the hell?!" he caps the drink and moves to throw it making me flinch away as memories fill my mind. The times my dad would throw empty beer bottles at me, thew glass shards shattering and piercing my skin.
I felt my breathing pick up and I tried to shake myself from the memories as it all happened so fast. Flashes of the same fist being raised above me, coming down with intent to cause me pain. My mother just stood there watching as she laid cracked out of her mind.
Everything started shaking and my vision began clouding as it kept flashing from memories to the here and now and I quickly became confused as to which was which. I felt my knees give out under me. I couldn't focus.
I heard voices around me, arms wrapping around me...i could only cower as I watched the flashes of violence.
"Samantha Lily Carter!" I felt a sudden cold feeling wash over me as reality suddenly snapped back. I blinked repeatedly before I could register anything. It was silent, I looked up and everything came rushing back to me.
How long had I been on the floor? What just happened? Shigure stood with his arm out keeping Yuki in place. They both were focused on my with sad and...scared eyes. Why did they look scarred? Tohru looked down at me sadly with a cup empty in her hand. In the corner was Kyo, he had tears across his cheeks and I quickly stood up worried.
I swayed for a second but quickly caught my balance. I could feel all eyes on me as I walked over to Kyo. I raised my hands and he stood tall with his eyes meeting mine. I carefully wiped his tears shocking him.
"Why are you crying Kyo?" he seemed taken aback by my question and seemed confused but I didn't care. I didn't like seeing him crying. I might not know what was going on but if it made Kyo cry then it can't be good.
"She doesn't remember, never has…"Tohru said quietly. I turned to face her in confusion.
"What happened?" this time Shigure spoke up.
"Does this happen often?" i give him a questioning look but they seem to ignore me.
"Not really, it has to be triggered...it's usually when someone raises a hand...like Kyo." i look around at everyone.
"Seriously, someone tell me what happened…" i try but they keep ignoring me.
"What else triggers it?" Yuki asked. I started getting angry. Tohru was about to respond when i cut her off with a shout.
"What the hell is going on?! Stop talking about me like i'm not here!" all eyes went back to me with the same sadness.
"Sorry Sam...it um...you…" Shigure spoke up.
"You had something like a major panic attack." my eyes widened in realisation and i sighed. That explains my wet clothes…
"You could've just told me i had an attack. Damnit…" i sighed and shook my head running a hand through my soaked hair.
"Sorry guys, it's a pain in the ass to deal with...sorry." they all looked confused but i was to focused on something i had just realised.
"Wait...so why were you crying Kyo?" he hung his head in shame.
"He is the one that triggered it." Tohru explained. I made an oh sound before chuckling.
"Relax Kyo, it's nothing to worry about...just next time, i will kick your ass if you raise a hand to someone." i smirk while he looks shocked. I started shivering and could feel my bandages soaked and becoming loose.
"Imma go change and dry off if it's all the same to you, bye." i smiled and walked off. I got to by room, bag in hand and let out a heavy sigh. I rubbed a hand down my face and allowed myself to slip against the wall down to my knees before curling in on myself.
I could feel the tugging pain in my stomach from the cut but couldn't give a damn. I had another attack...i was usually so good about hiding those...truth was, i always remembered. I told Tohru i didn't and acted as if it never happened but it's all lies. I remember everything.
Every hand, every cut, every tear i shed...i hate it. I pulled closer to myself and allowed myself to break just a little. I could never break tohru like that. She would never look at me the same if she knew. Kyoko knew...she always tried to talk to me about it but it always ended the same...her holding me for hours as i cried, as i broke.
I couldn't do that anymore. These damn Sohma boys already know to much. I need to stop being such a child… with a heavy sigh i composed myself and did what i knew all too well how to do. I shut off. This is why i never let myself feel...it only hurts more.