Man, I really do suck at this don't I? Like I feel like I have the erotica side of things down, like I've got a style and it's getting better and better and better. I mean Cow Sona and my Kayle fic were my best lemons yet. I love them to bits (Not the MF one, fuck that day). But man, I'm trying to write more like the great cyberpunk writers, I'm trying to get out my own style but I just struggle to even get anywhere close. Man, this is going to take longer than I thought. Sorry guys, will be a long one this one. But I intend to do another big story soon, I promise.
Jesus freaking H Christ. Sorry, that's my name for Christ. But man, I'm using lighting terms and learning about sunspots and celestial bodies and all sorts of stuff just so I can describe things better for you. Like did you know if you make a cone of shadow (Like if you light something from directly above, or directly to the side, like the planets for instance) you have different parts of the shadow? Man, I feel like you lot if you still read my stuff will have to look up things just to understand them. Man this is so much fun.
Oh god I'm feeling so much better. Sorry everyone for the last Monthly Lemon, gotta admit, worst day in 9 months. Like literally, almost had a panic attack trying to do work whilst at home. Didn't though, managed to push through it and actually do 4.5K of words, which is good considering I was going through semi-paralysis. But now I'm back at Uni, feeling so much better. I wanna keep writing and having fun! I wanna do another story for Cow Sona! I dunno why?! I just do! Argh please someone tell me whether that's a good idea or not.
Truth eh? Well if I don't believe the truth, then it's just simply not true right? God I hated this election. I actually lived in America for most of it as well just to come back to Britain to find they've fucked my own country. Thanks Obama. You've actually done a really good job as president. Kinda. Well. You did an alright job. Like nowhere near the best, in fact you failed soo much. But hey, you're better than a dumpster fire.
Well this'll be another new venture to keep up my ability to write conflict and ideas. Gotta admit, was feeling pretty crappy today. I got a bit done yesterday and just kinda had a depressing day today. But hey, we have good days and bad days and I'm feeling better now that I know the problem and will sort it out. Getting back into meditation, exercise, cleanliness, challenge, relaxation, work, everything I gotta do to keep the mind healthy. Can't believe I have to list it but that's because fuck off mental illness.
On another note, I'm getting another tattoo! Why? Cause Fuck the world, that's why. I want one. If I can afford it. Arghghghg. People did say they'd donate if it was possible. Ha ha ha ha ha fucking FF stopping me from saying the word
Um, to everyone who likes my stuff, I'm going on a small break. Mainly because I'm doing an insane amount of film research and Uni work is catching up to me. So sorry, I will be back I promise. I have a bunch of stuff lined up to write and I'm really looking forward to it but my god, just, arghghgh! I'm so happy! Just so god damn happy. Like man, it's been a while since I've felt this good. I know I haven't really filled out my thoughts in a while cause I just wrote, I didn't do anything massive I was just writing to keep up with my writing cause I thought I hit a good point (Cow Sona and Kayle Fic was a real boost to me, like it I think it's my best work) and I haven't done any massive fics but now that I've got MRZ and this new big Lemon story (Yup, I'm getting back into them) I'm going to be doing a lot of thinking about my writing and life in general so I love you all. I'll be back in maybe a month or 2!
TL:DR - I'm doing research for 2 months. Like hard life research. If you have an suggestions in culturally significant things, please suggest them for me to see/read/study/look at(Paintings and such)/Listen to/etc/etc
So I'll be back in 2 months. Sorry guys