Nail-Polish

They don't talk about the kiss.

It's easier to ignore what happened, for both of them.

It's a lot easier for him to pretend everything's okay than talk about it. So life goes on and he keeps pretending nothing's going on, keeps pretending that Kensi is just a partner and a friend. He works surrounded with people who can smell lies a mile away but he thinks he's doing a pretty good job so far. It's not like he's lying. He's just hiding the whole truth.

That's not as bad as straight-forward lying, right? Well, he keeps telling himself that it isn't so it's okay.

Kensi doesn't say a word about it either and he's thankful for that.

Deeks is the guy who is always pushing her to talk about things but this time he's actually glad she doesn't make a habit out of talking about things she considers pointless. That would be awkward. It would be awkward explaining why he kissed her, why he pulled back, why he apologized and why he ran away. He would be screwed and things would never be the same between them.

He can't let anything come between them.

They're good together and the team doesn't have to be affected because of his rash decisions, because of his inability to resist his urges.

So far, he thinks things are normal. Deeks thinks he can handle anything and keep a straight-face no matter how hard it is when she sits so close to him their thighs touch or when she touches him just because she walks past him. It takes everything he has in him to keep his hands to himself in those situations because all he wants to do is touch her, kiss her senseless and tell her she means the world to him.

But he can't do such a thing.

He just has to come to terms with the awful truth.

He can't have Kensi.

He can't risk losing her just because of this silly thing called love.

Love…it's nothing but a nice way to describe 'pain that seems to cut you inside out'.

Everything changes, however, three days after that morning. Deeks walks in and the first thing he notices is that Callen is sitting on his desk.

That's unusual because they're all satisfied with the locations of their desks and respect each other's space. But Callen is in the middle of a chess game with Sam and if the bored look on Kensi's face is anything to go by, there was some sort of argument before they decided to test their chess abilities.

Kensi smiles when she sees him there and pats Callen's chair, the one right next to hers, motioning for him to sit down.

Deeks goes against his instinct and does just that. Kensi sighs, the smile still on her face, and breaks the silence in a whisper.

"This might take a while. Stay in silence because they say the noise disturbs them."

Deeks shakes his head with a grin on his face, fighting against the laughter that wants to escape, and starts working on a few reports he took home to finish but never did. Kensi is doing the same on her desk, right next to him.

She's not a fan of paperwork and delays it for as long as she can. He guesses Hetty finally told her she has until the end of the day to hand those papers or there will be hell to pay.

Callen finishes the game but doesn't request for his seat back, choosing to go to the gym and work out for a while with Sam.

So they work in silence for a few minutes. It's something he's not particularly good at but he's working and avoiding talking about a certain subject so silence is good for now. And her closeness doesn't bother him as much as he thought it would.

In fact, in a weird way, it's kind of comforting.

He doesn't know why but having her near soothes him in a way he can't understand. Deeks knows there are things in this world that are not meant to be understood so he doesn't give it a lot of thought. Her perfume fills his nostrils but he's already used to that by now. Every now and then she lets out a small sigh but remains in silence during most of the time.

And it's only when, for some unknown reason, she needs a new pen that everything goes downhill.

One would think that in the middle of that mess she calls a desk there would be more than just one pen but the truth is that when she runs out of ink she needs to grab Callen's.

Said pen happens to be right next to Callen's computer, on the desk currently occupied by Deeks. Having her leaning in so close to him to grab a pen was already torture enough but it got worse when he looked at her hands. Her nails were painted red.

Dear Lord, that's just wrong.

She sits back on the chair and keeps writing but it's already too late for him.

He's already gone.

His mind is already going to places it shouldn't go to while at work, or near her. Deeks can't explain why but he can imagine those red nails carved on his back while she desperately tried to hold onto something while he made her writher with pleasure.

He shakes his head to try to get rid of those thoughts.

This is getting worse.

He's starting to have these kinds of thoughts with the most ordinary things she does. For God's sake, it's only nail-polish and he's picturing having his way with her all over this freaking bullpen.

When he dares to look up, the smirk on her face is enough to rival one of his owns. How does she do that? How is that she always knows what's going on through his very dirty mind? Does she do this kind of things on purpose?

If he finds out that she's teasing him, he'll make her pay for it.

For now, all he can do is try to focus on anything but his thoughts about bending his partner over his desk.

It's going to be one of those days…he can tell.

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I'm sorry this took so freaking long to come out but Easter celebrations in my house are crazy and I had no time to do anything. Then, school started and all I've been doing lately is sleep all afternoon.

Anyway, there are four more chapters left but I'm thinking about expanding this story. I'm working on a bunch of things at the moment. To all of you who keep track of my work, I have some news. I started writing a sequel for Blame it on the Pickup Lines that I'll post on the beginning of the summer. Bargain will finally have a sequel called Anger. I have three one-shots that will be published once I finish them. I got an idea for a brand new story that I will start working on as soon as I have some free time.

For now, reviews will make you earn a small preview of the next chapter. I'll try to keep the updates coming at least once a week.

Thanks for sticking with me, so far.

Love,
Sarah