Yeah yeah yeah you're all pissed at me. What am I to do other then give you another update? I love you guys with all my heart so I hope you stick with me. I know I completely changed the direction of my writing but I guess that's what happens when you take a break from writing so long. Oh and yes all of the stuff on the last chapter did happen to me but to be more specific my friend got jumped and I saw the whole thing. italics are flashbacks btw.
Brooke's POV: It's an hour past close and I'm still sitting in the store tapping my pencil on the wood desk that's holding the blank paper that I continue to stare at. I just can't get any sketches out and the only thing I can think about is seeing Haley just a few hours earlier. I sigh with frustration as I throw my pencil down and hear the thud echo in the silence. I lean back in my nice office chair and close my eyes and can only think about how this all went wrong.
It had been a couple months later after I was attacked and I still can't go outside at night without having panic attacks. Haley's been working so hard to help me but I just keep getting frustrated with her and end up yelling at her. I don't know what's wrong with me. One minute I'm scared and just want her to comfort me and then when she tries, I get pissed and push her away. I feel so helpless and I know she feels the same way but for some reason I just can't get myself to care. I know I should feel horrible about that but I don't and I hate myself for that. I know she's taking all the blame for this and I should tell her not to but I don't. I should kiss her but I haven't. I should tell her I still love her but I know it won't matter because I know something will set me off right after that and we'll start this mess all over. I've never let someone break me emotionally like this until now.
I run my manicured nails through my straightened hair. I still can't process why she was standing outside of my store. My store-- the one that bitchtoria helped me start. Yeah, I had no problem letting her in though my wall but I guess it's because she gave me tough love and that's the only thing I wanted. Not the emotional make my heart skip a beat love. Yeah I really am screwed up in the head.
I can't stand sitting here anymore so I grab my belongings and walk out after I lock up. After three years I only check my surroundings once when I go outside in the dark and that's an accomplishment.
Haley's POV:
I knock lightly a couple times and I'm tempted to walk away because I know the door is going to slam in my face, or at least it should after what I've done. The door opens and my same old squinty eyed best friend opens the door. He matured a bit since the last time I've seen him and an array of emotions play on his face.
"Haley?" He opens the door a bit wider and just stares at me.
"Hey Luke." I smile softly and begin to feel awkward as he just stares at me. "You gonna invite me in or do I hand to talk to you out here in the cold?" I say quietly as I raise an eyebrow in questioning.
"Oh-- sorry!" He rushed forward and pulls me into a hug before we make our way to the living room and take a seat. "So how long has it been since I've last talked to you."
I take a moment to think about it before the guilt sets in, "Since the day I left which was about three years ago." He nods in response as he runs a hand over his head. "I'm sorry, Luke. I should have stayed in touch."
"It's okay Hales, but if you don't mind me asking-- what happened?"
I looked down at my hands as I played with my fingers, "All of the arguing and the way Brooke changed just got to be too much. I couldn't handle it anymore."
"What ended it?" He asked curiously before I retold the night that ended my relationship with the girl that I thought I was going to love forever.
I walked into the living room after working a night shift alone to find Brooke watching tv. "Hey baby. How was your day?" I asked as I attempted to give her a kiss but she turned and I ended up kissing her cheek.
"I don't want to talk about it."
I sigh in frustration. This is all getting to be too much I don't know if I can handle her this way anymore. "You never want to talk about it." I mumble as I toss my keys onto the table.
"Maybe you should take the hint then." She snarls as she looks over at me.
"Why do you always have to push me away like this? I'm just trying to be here for you." I reply sadly. I'm tempted to just ignore the conversation or more like argument and just head to bed but I want answers.
"Maybe I don't want you to be there for me! I just need some space!" She yells before turning back to the tv and ignoring my presence. Tears fill my eyes and I'm actually used to my nights ending like this on the rare occasion that she actually wants me to hold her because she had a nightmare or she's scared.
"I can't do this anymore." I whisper so soft that I wonder if she heard me but she did because she looked back at me and I actually saw fear in her eyes that was caused by me for once.
"What?" She whispers back.
"I said I can't do this anymore, I'm done." I say louder for her to hear me. I let the tears fall from my face before I pick up my keys and walk out the door. That was the last time I turned my back on Brooke Davis.
"Wow." He says softly. I look up at him and he seems to be dazed, as if he's taking in all of the information.
"So where did you go and what did you do?" He asked after he focused back in on me.
"I went to LA and stayed in an apartment while I played bars at night."
"So why did you come back?"
I sighed before I leaned back and looked at the ceiling. "I guess I wanted to see if I could get a piece of my old life back. I was tired of living my new one."
He nodded in agreement, "Have you talked to her yet?"
"I saw her today but I couldn't bring myself to talk to her."
"Do you want her back?"
I contemplated his question thoroughly before answering, " I want the girl I started the relationship with, not the girl I ended it with."
"I would say the same." He replied. "Maybe you should go talk to her."
I nodded before replying, "Maybe I will."
I take a deep breath of the chilly wind that causes me to pull my jacket a little tighter. I look down at the pavement that Peyton has covered with her words of love since their break up that Lucas told me all about. I look up at the river and look at the moon and stars that are reflecting off of it. There's just something about this place that calms me down, the river court.
One of our first dates was here, me and Brooke's. It's funny to think about now because we were so nervous with each other but I think that night broke us out of our shells, or maybe I was just the nervous one.
"We're gonna play a game!" Brooke said with a smirk that made my heart flutter. She picked up a basketball and held it up for me to look at.
"Okay? How do we play."
"It's like horse but sexier." She replied with a wink. I bit my lip and nodded for her to continue. "For every basket we make we get a kiss, for every basket we miss we have to take an article of clothing off."
"What happens when someone gets all of the letters?" I ask nervously.
"Then the winner gets to make the loser do whatever they want."
I nodded, "I think I can do that but you can start."
She nodded with her smirk reappearing before throwing the ball from the three pointer and swishing it. Shit. I'm completely screwed.
She passed me the ball before I turned back to the net and dribbled the ball a couple of times. I raised my arms and shot the ball. It just barely hit the edge of the backboard causing me to grumble. I turn to her when my brilliant plan came to mind. I took off both of my sandals and tossed them off the court causing her to glare at me before making a lay up. I smile at the fact that Lucas made me help him work on his lay ups so I'm actually pretty decent at those. I run up to the net and throw it which bounces off the backboard and into the net. I turn and smile in triumph before passing her back the ball.
She slowly walks towards me as she swings her hips seductively and leans forward so that her lips are close to my ear. "Good shot, James." The hairs on the back of my neck raise and I don't have a chance to think about it because she puts a hand on the back of my neck and presses my lips to hers. She sucks on my lower lip before nibbling on it causing me to slip out a moan. She pulls before I can even get into it and throws the ball up for a score but misses.
"Your turn." She whispers huskily before she grabs the ball but instead of just handing it to me she walks so close that our chests are pressed together and are noses are almost touching. She leans around and nibbles on my neck before sucking on it to sooth the skin and puts the ball in my hand.
My eyes are closed from the sensation and I can hear her giggling in front of me. "That's not fair." I whisper softly.
"I'm sorry. It was for good luck." A small smile forms on my face and I still have my eyes close. "If I make this-- then we're supposed to be together. It's fate." I say loud enough for her to hear me. I granny shoot the ball before I hear it swish. I open my eyes with a grin to find Brooke had already taken her shirt off.
"I decided to pass on my shot which is a penalty of taking a piece of clothing off." She says as she walks toward me. I can feel my heart pounding faster with every steps she takes until our lips are connected and my heart is sent into overdrive.
I eventually come back to reality and didn't realize my eyes were closed until I open them and look back at the river. I inhale deeply at the refreshing air before a voice startles me.
"I guess I'm stalking you this time." I turn around to find a hazel pair of eyes looking back at me.
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