Punk Love Chapter 12: My Death, an inuyasha fanfic

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the songs.

Songs: We Were Born For This.....Paramore(big surprise)

I don't like switching the point of view of my stories b/c if you read a story it has a constant p.o.v or has a constant way of switching p.o.v so thats why I didn't want to do this. But its easier so this chapter will be put in a mix of Kagome and Inuyasha's point of view. I think its more dramatic for this one than just the narrator talking.

Punk Love

Chapter 12: My Death

My Death.

I don't like to think about death, but it happens a lot. But when you think about it, really think about it, it takes my breath away. Not out of the crazy, suicidal way, but in the I'm terrified way. We are all going to grow up and have a life and I can vaguely see flashes of kids, grandkids, me getting old. Then....I'm going to die. Of course there is heaven and hell but for a while there is nothing but darkness. You're not going to remember anything and you won't see the reactions of the others. Its just....black. Nothing to take with me in that dark time and I'll just lay there. Dead.

Of couse even when my breath is caught up I don't think of dying this early. I always imagined myself living life to its fullest and dying of old age. Not being taken advantage of and then killed to get rid of any evidence. I knew that was what was going to happen to me. Smart predators don't leave there victims alive so they can report them and then be sent to jail, and I know he's not stupid. He's managed to avoid being found for five months.

I knew today was going to be my last day alive. March 12th, 2008, the last home concert before the 'would be' tour, I, Kagome Higurashi, was going to follow exactly what the note said and walk myself to my grave. Its not suicide. No. Its the only attempt available to save the people I love.

'And if you don't follow I have your address...your family's address. Not to metion you remember what happened to Bank.'

I now realized just how terrified I am to die. To be left in total darkness with no memories.

Dying for the people I love this much though, dulls it just a bit.

"Come on, Kagome! Pizza before our last show in Japan!"

Sadly Rin was mistaken. It was my last show.....ever.

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I look into the crowd. I always do but I see everything in a new light. The crazed fans holding up rock signs and shouting words of appreciation for the band. They really actually love this band. I'm letting it all go down the drain too.

I'm not one to just follow orders. No, I'm a taurus and they are extremely stubborn, but there isn't anything I can do. He has people in the police bribed on his side so I can't call saying I'm being stalked. He has demon protection too. So do I but he's got those extremely talented, kill you in a blink of the eye, on his side. I'm screwed. I'm not one to give up but I know when I'm done for, and I know I'm not getting out of this.

The crowd isn't the only thing that shines in a new light though. My friends I've been looking at for years just look different. I see for the first time how Sango gets the extremely hard core look on her face when she is playing a solo. And how Ayame's eyes are really that unique and how Rin's side ponytail with most of her hair out gives her the never ending childish look she has even when she hammers on the drums. And Inuyasha. He's another person to me all together. No, he's not a person at all. He shimmers like a some greek god. Its as if I'm seeing them for the first time ever.

"All right Japan! This is our last performance so we're going to kick some serious ass on this one!"

The crowd whooped and yelled as always, but as everything else today it has a new meaning.

"Lets go out with a bang." Rin commented before she counted us off.

Funny. Her choice of words and all. Bang, gun. Ha! How sadistic.

She's starting us off for our last song of the night, We Were Born For This. All the songs that were being played tonight were chose for a meaning. Giving it your all before it all ends.

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Oh no I just keep on falling
(Back to the same old…)
Where's hope when misery comes crawling?
(Oh my way, Ay…)
With your faith you'll trigger a landslide
(victory)
Kill off this common sense of mind

I looked up at her. She looked different. More of an urgency and feeling in her eyes than usual. She still looked great. I can't say she ever looks like crap, because I love her. Simple as that. But love makes you worry and I know there is something wrong with her. I'm posotive. At the pizza place she had on a fake smile the entire time and that is definately not like her. If she was mad about something she is going to tell you not hide it with a smile.

Thats how I knew something was up. I just didn't know what.

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It takes acquired minds to taste, to taste, to taste this wine
You can't down it with your eyes
So we don't need the headlines
We don't need the headlines
We just want…

Everybody sing like it's the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?
Everybody live like it's the last day you will ever see
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?

I love singing and I always put a lot of feeling into it but for this song I put everything into this one. Like its the last song I'm going to sing? Hell, it is the last song that will ever leave my lips. All the songs I've written that are being held captive in my room will never be heard. The last day I'll see. I'm never going to see the morning sun again or the silver hair and golden eyes that I love. Never.

Do I feel the pressure now? Hell yeah!

Right now you're the only reason
(I'm not letting go, oh…)
Time out if everyone's worth pleasing
(Well ha-ha!)
You'll trigger a landslide
(Victory)
to kill off their finite state of mind

Inuyasha was the main reason I am afraid to let go of life. I didn't want to leave him forever. I wanted to stay with him forever. But sadly there are more people than Inuyasha I would be giving up if I didn't meet him tonight. I could see my mood ring turn gray. I have no clue what the colors mean since Inuyasha said he lost the guide after he memorized all the colors. The ring was for his benefit anyways.

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It takes acquired minds to taste, to taste, to taste this wine
You can't down it with your eyes
So we don't need the headlines
No, we don't want your headlines
We just want…

I couldn't understand it. Kagome was putting on one of the best performances of her life and was really kicking ass-I hate that pun but its catchy. But her mood ring was gray. Gray was miserable. Even with the mood ring I couldn't understand her. I knew she was sad but I didn't know why and that was probably the biggest problem.

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Everybody sing like it's the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure?
[repeat x2]

I know I wasn't ready to die. I was posotive but I was even more posotive that I didn't want my friends to die. Especially not Inuyasha.

Alright, so you think you're ready?
Ok, then you say this with me
Go!

'its simple. Your innocence, or the life of all your friends?'

We were born for this

I held the mike out to the wild crowd and they shouted back.

We were born for this

My life was already written for me. I was born to die for the sake of all my friends and him. I was meant to love him to death and let him lead me to that death.

Alright, so you think you're ready?
OK, then you say this with me
Go!
We were born for this
We were born for this
We were born for this
We were born for this

I was born for this. To die for my loved ones. I'm still not ready though.

We were born for
We were born for

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It was gray and brown now. Miserable and Fear. Something was up and she wasn't telling anyone. I was loosing it. I was freaking out at the point of a breakdown for not being to help Kagome out of whatever she was feeling.

Everybody sing like it's the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, can you feel the pressure?
Everybody live like it's the last day you will ever see
Tell me, tell me, can you feel the pressure now?

Everybody sing like it's the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, can you feel the pressure?
Tell me, tell me, can you feel the pressure?

We were born for this
We were born for this
We were born for this

The song finally ended and I could swear I saw tears form in her eyes for a second before she went into performance mode yelling the hyped crowd goodbye and covering with another of her fake smiles.

"All right Everybody thats goodbye!"

Her goodbye sounded as if it had a double meaning to it. It was all too weird. I didn't need an invitation backstage and I hurried so I could get to the bottom of all the fakeness.

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She wasn't there when I made through the mob of fans trying to smuggle their way in to meet the band. Sango said she went to the bathroom but she would of had to pass me to get there.

I was going nuts by now. I got on the floor and started to sniff around for her sniff. I finally found it and followed it out to the back door of the club.

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He was there just as he said he would be. Leaning against the brick wall waiting with a vicious grin on his face. He didn't speak at all as he pulled me against him and pressed me against the wall. He didn't even bother for me to attack this time before he pulled the gun out, resting it on my skin in a silent threat.

His lips moved all over my body and his hands groped greedily and I just stood still not moving at all, letting him take my body.

'Dear Kagome,

Its been a while hasn't it? Too long. On the day of your last concert in Japan you are to come out the back door of the club and meet me. there we can finished what we started. If you don't follow I have your address....your family's address and remember what happened to Bank? I can easily do that for all your friends and family. Don't bother reporting to the police or telling anybody b/c i have allies in all places easily prepared to kill. Its Simple. Your innocence, or the life of all your friends?

Love,
Hojo

You will be mine.'

Then I heard the door click and fear took over my body. It was all to familiar and the flash of silver hair and red eyes confirmed my fears.

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I saw the gun and I saw her face. I saw her shirt on the floor and I felt my body shake with rage and my vision blink red.

I also heard the pop of the gun sending a bullet into the air.

My Death.

I never thought of how I would die, but dying in the place of someone I love, seems like a pretty good way to go.

"INUYASHA!!!"

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I just had to write this I was too anxious to keep it bottled up for too long. I had to put in that Twilight line because it just seemed to fit in perfectly. Okay well this story has almost reached its ending but REVIEW!!!!!!!