A/N Thank you for the reviews and the alerts. Here's ch 12 coming at ya and as always see ch 1 for disclaimer. Enjoy.

Ch 12 An Emotional Message

While Donatello and Tang Shen were with Leatherhead back at the lair the rest of the group was preparing to watch Donatello's final message. Slash and his team had decided to give the family some space so they could properly mourn.

"You guys ready?" Leonardo asked, looking at his family and friends.

"As ready as we can be bro," Michelangelo said, letting out his breath.

"Just play it already," Raphael snapped, impatiently.

"Ok here goes," Leo said as he pressed the play button. Within seconds they saw Donnie appear on the screen.

"Ok red light is on means its recording," he was saying, as he was adjusting the camera. Then he sat on a chair that was directly in front of the camera. "Ok here we go," Donnie said, taking in a breath. "Hello everyone. I'm recording this at 2 am while everyone's asleep so bare with me if I ramble a bit. So if you're watching this it means I'm dead. Sucks doesn't it?" Donatello let out a slight laugh when he said this part. His family smiled at hearing his laugh again.

"Ok but seriously if I'm dead there's so much I want to say to you guys," Donnie said. "First of all I'm sure April, Casey and Shini are all there so I got messages for them too. First to Casey: I know me and you haven't always seen eye to eye."

"Yeah so true," Casey whispered with a rueful smile.

"But no matter how much we fought or how stupid I said you were," Donatello continued. "I've always respected and loved you. You're like my annoying big brother. And like brothers do we fought. But I always admired your sheer determination, no matter how ill planned it was, you always stuck to your gut and that is very admirable. And you taught me to stick up for myself for. So thank you Casey. Thank you for making me better."

"You're welcome D man," Casey said, his voice coming out a choked whisper due to the tears coming down his face. April put her arm around her boyfriend and squeezed his shoulder.

"Ok April you're next," Donnie said, after taking a minute to compose himself. "April you are one of the most amazing people I know. You're kind, smart and loyal to the max. I love you like a sister. Never stop trying to achieve your goals. I know you doubt yourself a lot, God knows I'm guilty of that too. But you are so smart. You are going to be a Hell of a scientist some day. And you're already a fierce kunoichi so you will be a force to reckon with. And Casey had better take good care of you. I have a feeling you two are in it for the long haul. I love you April."

"I love you too Donnie," April said through her tears. "Thank you."

"Ok Shini you're up," Donatello said, taking in a breath. "What can I say about you my friend? You already know how awesome you are. Although I admit when Miwa first brought you around I was terrified of you. But then again I was only 5 at the time." Donnie let out a laugh when he said this part.

"Oh Donnie," Shinigami said, shaking her head.

"But seriously Shini you are the most mysterious person I've ever met," Donatello continued. "And I mean that in a good way. But you're also you're own toughest critic. Probably due to your father's strict ways. But never doubt how amazing you are. You're smart, funny and you can kick anyone's butt if you really wanted to. I was lucky and honored to know you. I love you Shini."

"Oh Donnie," Shinigami said, the tears pouring down her face. "I love you too my brother."

"Sensei," Donnie began. "I..I can't even begin to express how grateful I am to you for all you've done for me. You took me and my brothers in even though you had an infant daughter to take care of. You raised us as your own sons when others would have tossed us aside. Everything I am is because of you. You taught me wisdom, gave me strength. I can never thank you enough for that."

"And you never had to my son," Splinter said softly.

"My love for you is beyond words Father," Donatello continued. "You always made me feel special. Like I was more than just a 'nerd boy'. So thank you for letting me be your son. It has been an honor. I love you Father."

"I love you my son," Splinter said, wiping away the tears

"Ok up next is Miwa," Donnie said. "Well big sister this is it. Our final goodbye. But please don't be to harsh on yourself. I'm sure you did everything you could to prevent my death."

"Oh Donnie if you only knew," Miwa whispered, wiping her eyes.

"You are the best sister anyone could ever ask for," Donatello continued. "You've always been there for me when I needed you. I can never thank you enough for the strength you've given me. And I can never express how much I love you, my dear sweet kind sister. Thank you for all you've done. I love you Miwa."

"I love you too Donnie," Miwa said, as the tears flowed.

"Alright Leo you're up," Donnie said, letting out his breath. "Leo words cannot express how I feel about you. You were always looking out for me. Always putting my needs before yours. Always defending me and protecting me like a good big brother should. I will be forever grateful for that. I'm just sorry I don't thank you enough for all you do."

"You never have to Donnie," Leonardo said, his voice barely audible.

"But I know you big brother," Donatello continued. "And I know you're most likely blaming yourself for this. Please don't do that Leo. It wasn't your fault."

"Yeah 'cause it was mine," Raph thought as he listened to his directly younger brother's words. As he listened the red masked turtle's guilt was building up more and more. Especially as he looked around at his grieving family and friends, knowing it was because of him they were feeling this way. And this was eating Raphael up inside.

"You always protect us," Donnie was saying. "And whenever one of us got hurt you always blamed yourself. Please don't do that Leo. You can't control everything. Just know I love you and I know you did what you could to save me."

"Unlike me," Raph thought miserably.

"I love you too Donnie," Leo managed to choke out. "And I know you're right."

"Ok Mikey your turn," Donatello said.

"Oh man here come the waterworks bro," Mikey said, the tears already going down his face.

"Mikey you are my best friend," Donnie said. "Always have been. And I know I've been harsh on you in the past calling you stupid and stuff. But Mikey you gotta know I never meant any of it. You are not stupid little brother. If you really put your mind to something you can do amazing things. Never let anyone else tell you otherwise. You have such a big heart. Never let anything keep you down. Especially not this. You're the glue that keeps our family together. Always remember that. And keep up the training. You never know you might be better than Leo one day. I love you little brother.

"I love you too D," Michelangelo said with a sniffle.

"And last but certainly not least is you Raph," Donatello said. "Raph you're probably the most complicated one of any of us. You feel things so strongly. And that can be both good and bad. We all know what a bad temper you have. But I know that deep inside you you feel things way differently, although you'd never admit it. I also know how much you love your family. Just like you know how much we love you. But Raph if you don't let these feelings out they'll eat you up inside. Please let our brothers help you. They love you just like I do."

"I don't deserve it," Raphael said, causing his loved ones to look at him.

"Raph..." Mikey began.

"Mikey don't," Raph said, fighting back the tears. "Please don't...I.." Then suddenly the green eyed turtle let out a frustrated sob and bolted out the door, leaving his worried and confused family behind.

A/N well there you go folks ch 12 complete. Did you all enjoy it? I hope so. Review please and thank you.