Leo wasn't joking about being scared of those things, but we queued up for the roller coaster anyway. I've never been on a roller coaster so I don't have anything to compare it too, so I'm not really scared at all. None of the others wanted to come on with us.
"It'll be fine." I squeeze his hand as we climb into the front seats of the roller coaster, cancer perks. The whole way up the slope on the way to the big drop, Leo is just freaking out and I can't help but laugh hysterically.
"OhmyGodohmyGodohmyGodwe'regonnadieohmyGod." He wont let go of my hands. He's absolutely hilarious, as soon as we do the drop he starts screaming and then when the ride reaches a consistent pace he starts getting used to it.
"See! It's not so bad!" I shout so he can hear me over the loud wind.
"Not so great either!" He grits his teeth. When we get off we both have to sit down. Leo practically kisses the ground. "Okay I wanna play soccer, come on guys." Leo and his old team head off to the beach, Gary, dad and I take Sam on some rides on the pier, Leo's parents go to watch Leo and everyone else goes home or back to the hospital.
What a day, my name is Alice Roth now. I have a husband. And we're going skydiving this weekend. Who am I? When did I become this person? I used to hate myself, I was beaten down and broken and I thought I would never be happy. Now I can't imagine anything bringing me down.
I say my goodbye to Sammy, trying my best not to cry. I have a feeling I won't see him now. I give him the flower on my ear, he promises to keep it forever.
Back at the hospital Leo tells me about the game he played with his friends and how much fun he had today.
"Thank you for this, Mrs. Roth." He kisses me.
"You're welcome Mr Roth."
"Wow, we kind of sound like my parents."
"You're parents are awesome."
"True."
"I love you, I can't explain how happy I am. And it sounds weird, but, I know I'm going to be happy for the rest of my life because there isn't a lot of it left, but that makes me happy. You know? Like, happiness makes me happy."
"I love you so much."
"I just wanted to say, I'm only 17 and I'm dying, I had an awful life to begin with, but now I feel like I've had a full life, in fact I don't just feel it, I know it. I've lived enough with you for a million life times."
"Everything you say is so beautiful, you know what?" He snuggles up to me. "I can't wait to be eternal with you."
The next week, I began to fade away. We all knew it was happening soon, I'm just happy it happened peacefully.
Leo's POV
It was Friday night, I was getting all of our stuff ready to go sky diving the next day, I didn't think she would be well enough though.
We were married, happy together. She made everything on my list happen. Everything. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect life, she completed me, my leg wasn't my missing piece, it was her.
That night was hard for her, I realised she definitley wouldn't be able to go, she realised that too. But it wouldn't matter, I just wanted to be with her. She'd been in bed all week, usually when she was this bad she'd still be in her chair trying to make the most of her time. But this week has been the worst so far, we both knew it was going to happen soon. People came in to our room everyday, giving us around an hour alone each day. But I understood. She needed to say goodbye. She wouldn't let anyone cry for her, though people did, even Kara shed a tear when she said goodbye. In the evening, she was slipping in an out of consciousness, I had to get her dad and nurse Jackson. I was panicking, I thought it was happening. Dr. McAndrew sat at her bedside well nurse Jackson explained everything to me.
"She'll be falling asleep and waking up a lot over the next few hours, could be anywhere from 3 hours to 24. Sometimes she'll be fully conscious and responsive, sometimes she'll be out cold, and sometimes she'll have her eyes closed and be unresponsive, but she'll be able to hear you. She's said goodbye to a lot of people right?" She asked Dr. McAndrew.
"Everyone but us." I said.
"She will, don't worry Leo." He took my hand and comforted me. Over the next 8 hours, she did exactly what nurse J said she would, at one point she was awake and looking at me, but she was too weak to say anything, she just smiled. She managed to mutter a few words to her dad.
"Dad," She coughed, "I love you. Thank you for finding me." He kissed her head and cried a little bit. "I can feel it, it's happening soon."
"I love you baby." He hugged her. He stood up and went to stand just outside to give us privacy. I climbed into her bed next to her.
"I want to come with you." I said.
"I'll see you soon. I'm in love with you, thanking for loving me back, thank you for letting me love you." She reached behind her pillow and handed me a folded up note. "My real list." I unfolded the paper, it said '1. Make Leo happy' With a check next to it. "I did it."
"Thank you." I cried, I couldn't help it.
"Goodbye, beautiful bald boy." She kissed me. Her dad came back in and took her hand again. She closed her eyes and the machine lets out one long beep.
I don't really remember what happened after that, I just remember waking up without her this morning ready to jump. I'm going to jump out of that plane, she wanted to make me happy, she did, but this was the last thing on my list and we didn't get to do it together, so now I'm doing it for us.
Coma Girl and Bald Boy.
