A/N: Ok so I hadn't updated in a while because I was working on an original story. I needed a break because I got a pretty bad case of writers block, then I had I an idea that I couldn't use in my story so it came here and cleared the blockage. Yes I used the "it was all a dream" angle but in my opinion it was well worth it. How would you feel if you lived four years of your life in a dream then woke up and remembered it all. You would be the same person you were in your dream. Now on top of that you fell in love with a girl and gave up your humanity for her. It was too interesting for me to pass up.
Will I Ever Save This Day Will It Ever Change
Being thirteen sucks, especially when you are have the mind of a seventeen year old, and this is the second time you are going through it. If you add on the fact that I also had fallen in love, planned on getting married and oh yea turned into a vampire. I was miserable with every heart beat I missed Bree, with every breath of air I wished I didn't need it. I had survived one day of school before deciding I needed to find her, needed to get my family back, or at least try there was a slim possibility that it was just a dream.
Another thing that completely sucked about my life was the fact that I couldn't drive. I knew how to, but I was not legally able to. My solution was simple, I was going to steal my grandpa's Harley, well technically it was mine but that's beside the point. So in the dead of night I snuck out and headed for La Push, it would be a short drive and I knew that Quil or Embry, maybe even Seth would be patrolling the border. The second I reached the border I heard a howl and I smiled my gamble had paid off it wasn't just a dream I had it was real.. At one in the morning I bet they didn't expect a normal human to appear on their territory. I knew at least one of them would ask me what I was doing here, they were honor bound to help a human.
I wandered deeper and deeper into the woods before I finally saw something. It was definitely a wolf; I continued driving deeper into the forest. Finally I saw a truck's lights in my mirror. I pulled over and it followed suit. A tall Native American boy got out, and
I immediately recognized Jake. This was more than I had hoped for, he was actually checking up on his turf.
"Hey, kid aren't you a little young to be driving" he asked approaching me.
"In some way's, I am," I nodded sadly.
"Honestly, you can't be older than thirteen. You should not be driving a motorcycle."
"Like, I said I only look young"
I got the satisfaction of seeing him sniff at the air.
"What's your business here?" he asked and his tone got icy
"A hunting trip" I said slyly and as sadistically as I could.
"I'm going to tear you to shreds, bloodsucker" I guess he thought I had the extra ability of masking my scent.
"So vampires do exist," I blurted out
"What, you mean you are human?" Jake asked totally shocked, stop in his tracks
"Yes, now this is going to sound totally crazy but I lived four years of my life in a dream each day went by with the same slowness of reality, and the only reason I know this is reality is because in the end I was a vampire, I lived with the Cullens. Now I'm looking for them."
"It does sound crazy, but technically so is turning into a wolf, and since I already let it slip that the whole supernatural realm is real I can't play it off but you all ready knew that. I don't know why you want to become a vampire it's a curse, it really is. The pack kills all non vegetarian vamps, why would you give up a normal life to become a monster?"
"Because in a week's time it won't matter because my parents will have died and that will set me on the same path of my dream and I'll be a vampire then anyway and because I fell in love with a girl. I can't get her out of my head. I feel like an immortal any way.
I'm seventeen, in a thirteen year old's body" I sighed
"I leave tomorrow to go see Nessie, I should probably take you. I guess I don't need to explain anything."
"No you don't, you just need to translate everything below my hearing level, which was always you or Emmett's job."
"Great, I'm going to guess you ran away so I guess we should head out tonight actually. I think it would be wise to alert the Cullen's of your presence."
I loaded my bike into the back of Jacob's truck, and we drove off heading north. I told him the rest of my four year life. He made a pretty long call on his cell before pulling over at a random part of the side of the road.
"Alice had a vision of you; you absolutely cannot meet Bree right now. She needs to go hunting, also Alice suggested that her and Jasper become surrogate parents for you until you are seventeen, this way you can get to know Bree without having to be her brother all the time. Emmett and Edward are shadowing your parent's to make sure they stay safe and we are going to put out a story that you are missing. It's not the nicest way of doing this but if you are intent on living this life then it's a necessity. This is your last chance to back out."
"I can't back out, it's not my place"
"Alice and Edward would like to talk to you before you make a final decision.
"Fine, they won't change my mind though I can promise that"
"I don't think that is there intent, I think they want to understand why you are still able to recall the dream in such detail. That might explain why you retained your mentality."
"Sure," I nodded impatiently. I had four years to get my body back, and keep my family intact
We waited for little over an hour before a Porsche pulled up next to us. I immediately recognized the two figures in the car.
"Alice, Edward" I acknowledged. I immediately recalled the four years I had spent growing up only to have them snatched back from me, in my mind. When I was done Edward wore I look of confusion and got out of the car and I hopped out of Jake's.
"I don't understand" Edward muttered
"You don't understand what?" I asked
"Your mind. It's that of a seventeen year olds, which is odd, but there is also instincts smoldering underneath the surface. It seems that your mind literally shifted from your dream to reality. You have the mind of a vampire yet the instincts are reduced. It's weird"
"Weird, I may have thrown that word around"
"I mean it. If I was blind and couldn't smell I'd mistake you for a very controlled vampire. It shouldn't be like this, a dream shouldn't age you, change the very principles of your mental infrastructure. You aren't bothered by the thought of feeding, you want blood deep down, and you wish you could use your gift."
"Thank you, Edward for getting that deep soul searching over with for me." I said sarcastically
"You're not taking this seriously at all, are you?"
"Not really, I know all this already; I know I crave blood more than any food. I have fed before so no the thought doesn't bother me at all. I want to know why,"
"I can't answer that" he responded
"Then we have no point in continuing to examine the facets of my mind" I snapped and for the first time since I dreamed I felt the desire to attack. Fortunately, the desire wasn't very strong and I was able to keep myself in check, a scrawny thirteen year old would be no match for an immortal vampire, even if I had the mind of one.
"Zeke, I can't read your mind so you need to describe the dream to me, how did you see, were you like a bird viewing it all or something else?" a voice asked. It was Alice.
"I lived it, every day, an hour lasted an hour, and a month lasted a month. The only reason I can't pass this off as a dream is because vampires don't sleep. There for this is reality and the life I'd prefer is a lie." I nearly yelled
"Zeke, you have to calm down, you might have the body of a human but you definitely have the mind of a vampire, you need to keep in control of your self." Edward instructed.
"Edward cut him some slack; you saw first hand what he lived through." Jake said rushing to my defense.
"I know, I did, but he needs to calm down, for his own safety he might attack out of instinct, and we could accidentally kill him in self defense because of our own instincts"
I didn't hear the rest of their conversation, I was to busy thinking of what Edward had said about me wanting blood. I really did want it and bad but I didn't feel the flaming thirst or the overwhelming desire to feed.
"Zeke, how about we take you back to Alice's house if you are hungry, I'm sure we could find you something that will satisfy your "craving" without you having to feed." Edward said reading my thoughts.
"Ok" I responded solemnly.