Sorry that it took me so long to actually post this chapter. Busy day. So it goes though.I own nothing not even this computer. Please read and review. Sorry if this one is a little short. The next chapter will be the last one.
Rose was busy as a bee pacing up and down the school corridor muttering to herself. It was quiet, completely and utterly quiet. The entire school was deserted. IF she tried hard enough she could pretend that all of Paris was empty and she had all the time in the world for herself and her thoughts.
The class had finally been allowed to leave once the Principal was satisfied with their work. Everyone had shot away once they had been dismissed. Juleka hovered around the front entrance with her for a few moments before Rose said that she needed some time to think.
And it was the truth. She did need some time to think. Alone. With no one to distract her. And no place was emptier then a school after hours. She felt as if her head was filled with marbles and she had to find the right marble but all of the marbles were cracking against each other and making a horrible racket and distracting her.
She sighed and continued her pacing and hand wringing. It let out a little bit of stress but not enough. She knew that her emotions were getting the better of her. She wished that she knew the right course of action. She wished that she knew what to say to who and how to make everyone happy in the end. If only life was that simple.
"I want...I want...well I know what I don't want." She said out loud. Not entirely true. She did know what she didn't want. That was the easiest part.
She didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings. She knew how horrible that felt. She knew how She also didn't want to be with anyone that was making her miserable. It would be best if she was with someone that made her happy. She thought that person would have been Nathaniel. But clearly she was wrong. So who else could it be?
She knew who. But the thoughts wouldn't materialize just yet. Just pictures. Pictures over and over again.
And Nathaniel's bright red hair were always noticeably absent from each and every one of them.
The picture in her mind would not stop going to Juleka. All of her thoughts continued to turn to Juleka. Just Juleka. Juleka with her long black hair, Juleka with her bright inquisitive intelligent eyes. Juleka with her smile that lit up her entire face and made Rose feel all tingly and happy inside. Juleka with her dark make up and goth music love and her creepy spooky obsessions of the occult and the gothic. Juleka was amazing. In every way shape and form. And Rose felt like a better person for having known her and for being around her.
And Nathaniel...well she wasn't better off after having dated him. Well she at least knew this much. She deserved a person that cared about her. That cared about her because of who she was. And not because of someone else that she might be.
"Forty one. Forty two. Forty three." Rose paused and stepped back a few feet. She looked into the corridor and saw Kim on his hands doing push ups. Viciously, quickly, excessively. She knew that the guy was strong but he seemed to be pushing himself too much. She then realized that it wasn't two handed, he was exclusively using his left hand. Which she knew was a mistake. He was right handed. Kim took a deep breath and paused halfway up. He held that position before he went into a half plank then a full one handed plank.
His face was red and sweat was coating his face and arms. He was still wearing his bright red sweatshirt and his eyes were two narrow slits as he gazed intently down at the ground. He then pushed himself up and caught himself before he went back into his pushups. She was always surprised how strong the boy was. She never really thought about it, he might be obsessed with sports and running but he had some impressive muscle mass.
Kim grunted and groaned his tongue was almost hanging out. He was dehydrated, and sore, and had to go for a run after this. But he wasn't done doing his push ups yet. When he didn't want to think he would go for a run, it was just him going as fast as possible for as long as possible. It was peaceful. But when he wanted to think, when he wanted to organize and get his thoughts in order, he would do weight work outs. He had to think really hard about what to do next. With Alix, and Chloe and himself. He had to do the right thing...but was he one hundred percent positive that he knew what the right thing was?
He heard her clear her voice before he saw her. Rose wore slippers everywhere, effectively making her invisible. Kim looked up at her. In her hand was a small paper cup from the water fountain. She smiled and held it out to him.
"Thirsty?" He nodded and took the cup from her. Drinking the water down eagerly before crumpling the paper up.
"You don't want more?" She asked legitimately interested.
"No. No I don't want to get any cramps." Kim responded. "Thank you though."
Rose nodded and stood beside him awkwardly for a few moments. The two did not say a thing, just basking in the company. Kimi finally cleared his own throat and went down to the ground.
"Max couldn't be here...do you mind uh? I mean your weight about the same." Rose looked at him in confusion before she finally got it. She gulped and precariously sat on his back. She wrapped her legs underneath her and gripped his neck like she was riding a bull. Kim went back to his push ups. This time it was slow and steady. No more violence. Each up and down was completely and utterly calculated.
He breathed in and out. Focusing on his arm muscles and his stomach muscles and the small hard weight that was on his back and the cold stone in the pit of his stomach. It felt as if it were traveling up his chest and out his throat.
Rose felt as if she were on the ocean. She felt as if she were riding a horse. The easy swell and slow but steady dip was hypnotic. She took deep breaths with Kim. She imagined that she was a princess, out on a ride on her horse. It fit. Kim was a lot like a steed.
"That was pretty impressive what you did in the classroom." Kim said up to her. He really meant it. After all using a trash can to destroy a window. That was impressive. She must have had some really awesome biceps. He wished that he had biceps like her.
"Oh thanks. It was certainly something huh?" That...well it had been a riot. It had been little more then just a riot. She had never been in a riot before. She hoped that she had acted appropriately. She just had to let out some steam and let her emotions explode all over the place. It had felt good, good to finally let everything out.
"Yeah. I had not expected everything in that classroom to get so out of hand." Kim said. He then went right back to doing his push ups. She squeaked in surprise before getting back into the groove of it. He was consistent, so he had that going for him. She had to give him credit. She definitely didn't have the mental or physical fortitude to stick with a work out regime. If she did she would probably would not end up looking like him, instead she would probably just break in half on the second day. IF she even made it to the second day.
They continued in silence. With Kim doing push ups and Rose floating on his back. The two of them lost in their thoughts, trying to get everything sorted away. Finally Kim could not stand it anymore. He had hooked onto something. Now he just had to say it out loud, flesh it out, maybe even get a second opinion if he was lucky.
Lucky for him Rose had decided to break the silence before him.
"What are you thinking about?" She asked. Maybe if she talked to someone about something, about her problems...or about their problems...she might just be able to get everything sorted in her own life. Kim paused, his arms fully extended and her little hands wrapped around his tightened neck to keep from tumbling off. Kim gazed down at the ground and Rose looked down at the sweat staining his dark black hair.
"I think that I am going to break up with Chloe. She just. She isn't good for me. And I'm no good for her." Kim looked off into the distance, he had it, it made perfect sense to him. He had been so stupid. But now. Now this was his moment of clarity.
"I think I know what you mean." Rose said softly. Kim looked up at her in surprise. She smiled and gave his neck an affectionate squeeze. She knew what she had to do. She had to let it go.
"Keep on going. You're almost at one hundred." Kim looked at her in confusion.
"I passed one hundred."
"I heard you say forty five just a little while ago."
"Yeah as in one hundred forty five. It takes too long to say the three syllable word." Rose's eyes widened in surprise as he continued going. He was like a machine. But her own mind was like a machine. She was thinking, and planning and finally coming to a conclusion.
Kim's eyes were sharpened, he looked at the ground with purpose. He knew exactly what he had to do. No more beating around the bush. He would be straightforward and blunt about the entire thing. He finally knew exactly what he had to do.
Rose walked out of the school and put her phone to her head. She waited the customary four rings until she heard it get picked up.
"Hello?" Nathaniel answered.
"Hey." Rose started biting her lip and summoning all the nerve that she had. She knew that they had to meet in person first though, she would just have to call him first. "I think that we should talk."
"Hey Chloe." Kim said once her answering machine beeped on. "We need to talk. But I am going to at least give you this message." He didn't know where else to go from there. But he had to think of something, for her as much as for himself. He shook his head and began walking to his home talking the entire time. Explaining everything and hoping for the best.
Nathaniel nodded from his end of the line before replying.
"Yeah. Okay. That is...okay..." He hung up and looked at the progression of his pictures. From Marinette's sweet round face, to Rose's exuberant face to finally...finally...well it was like looking from the moon to the sun to finally realizing that what you were looking for. What you were really looking for was...well what you were looking for were the stars. Bright, far away, sharp on all sides, and yet still fascinating.
He knew who his star was. And it honestly terrified him. He just wished that it wasn't her. Or did he? Great now he had no idea what he was going to do.
Thanks for sticking with this so long. Please read and review I own nothing not even this computer. Glad that it got so much attention. Remember that the last chapter is the final chapter. Hope that everyone has enjoyed this for so long.
