The summer vacation had just started. The last couple of weeks I had done my best to avoid Aomine. And I think he had done the same. I had only gotten a few texts from him and he hadn't showed up at my house uninvited or anything. I had only seen him once when we passed each other in the hallway. He had been walking next to Momoi and they had been talking, when he noticed me though he had looked up and we locked gaze for a few moments. Before I was too embarrassed (or ashamed? I wasn't sure myself) and looked away. He hadn't said anything or approached me, but I felt his eyes on me before we passed each other. That was the only time I had seen him since the rooftop.
I would be lying if I said I didn't miss him. But I was still not brave enough to face him. I wasn't sure what I would say or how I even felt. I had told him that I 'might' love him. And that was still how I felt. I hadn't come any closer to any answers myself... I knew that I liked being around him, and that I liked him as a person. I found him attractive and lately I've had a few... Wet dreams involving him. But I still wasn't sure if I acctually loved the guy. How could I tell? I have never been in love with anyone before. I had dated one girl in my life, and I hardly know if that even count since we were in elementary school.
I just felt confused and tired. I didn't know what to do or how to act or think. Fuck Aomine, this is all his fault! Back at his apartment if he hadn't... Done what he did then I wouldn't even have these thoughts. What the hell. I couldn't even be angry with the guy, even though I damn well wanted to, and that pissed me off even more.
I turned around in my bed and looked at my phone to see the time, 9.32 pm. It wasn't late, and I didn't have any school or anything planned for tomorrow since it was vacation. All i wanted was to get some sleep, and I had tried. I was tired as fuck, but my mind just wouldn't shut up. And I was also a little scared of the thought of dreaming about my friend. I had woken up from some inappropriate dreams with him in it, and even if I enjoyed them they made me feel ashamed. It wasn't seen as normal to dream about your best friend, not in that way anyway...
I picked up my phone again and went into my contacts, opening up a new message and started typing, 'Hey what are you up to?', I erased what I wrote as soon as I had typed it out. I sighed and tried again, 'I'm sorry for what happened...' I quickly backspaced again. I stared angrily at the light screen, as if it would magically give me the right words if I look threatening enough. But no luck. I tossed the phone carelessly to the side and pulled the covers over my face. This is stupid. I closed my eyes. The clock on my wall ticked. The faint sound of traffic could be heard outside the window. It was hot. And I was far from tired.
I woke up startled. My eyes darted around the room, for a second I was not sure where I was. But my brain slowly got back to motion again, I was home, in my own room, safe. I checked my phone which I had tossed to my side before, the time was 2.10 am. No new message's or missed phone calls. Not like I was expecting any, but it was still frustrating. I grunted and put the phone away again. My eyes closed shortly, I still wasn't sure when I had fallen asleep, and neither how. I wasn't complaining or anything, I rarely slept this long without waking up at least once during the night lately. But now my brain was going back to it's 'normal' state. Nagging on and on about the tanned guy who was the root to my problems right now. I decided that I needed some fresh air. My hand gripped my cellphone and then I slung my legs over the edge of the bed, sitting up slowly. My parents were sleeping in their room, I could hear my dad's snoring. I tried my best to not make more sounds than necessary. I put on my shoes and sneaked out through the front door, closing it with a low click.
I wasn't sure where I was going, I simply let my feet take me forward. A walk was good I kept telling myself, it was good for me, and my thoughts. I turned left and found myself on a smaller street. I haven't walked this way before, since the closest stores, cafés and other stuff were in the opposite direction. But once again I didn't have a special destination to arrive at. My mind hadn't calmed down (yet). The walk didn't seem to be helping much, but I really enjoyed the fresh air, and the silence at night. A small playground appeared when I had walked for a short while on the little road. Without thinking I walked up to it and stopped. It wasn't much of an playground really, just a small sandbox with a couple of forgotten toys and next to the box two swings. I sat down on one of the swings and the chains that held it up rattled a little. Gently I started to rock back and forth. My mind was slowly wandering off to my childhood. I used to love to play at playgrounds, and I always begged my parents to take me to play at one. It felt like such a long time ago, almost like it wasn't even in my own lifetime. I tried to remember when I had stopped liking playgrounds, or when I stopped playing in general. But I couldn't. It didn't really matter anyway, I knew that, but for some reason it felt rather important to know at this moment. Maybe it felt important because my brain desperately wants to think about something other than a certain someone. A sigh escaped my lips. I really had to stop running from this, and do something about it instead. But it still didn't become any less easier. For all I know he might hate me, or be disgusted by me. I did afterall dump a (half-assed?) love confession on him. And it's not seen as 'normal' for friends to be dropping the L-word on each other, at least not guys.
I turned my head up towards the sky, the cons of living in a city is that the stars were harder to see. Though I was able to spot a couple of them above me. For some reason looking up at them made me calmer, calmer than I've been for a while now. They didn't help me to come up with an answer to my situation, but they made me feel better. I sat up from the swing, I wouldn't be able to solve this whole thing here on the spot, but I'm not going to run from it any longer. I took up my phone and once again opened a new text message, 'Hey, I think it's time we talked' I typed out and sent it before I changed my mind. I still needed to sort out things, especially in my head. But before that I should talk to Aomine, what I was going to say I wasn't 100% sure about yet but I would think of something. This will work out, it had to. I looked down at my screen again, no reply so far. All I can do now is wait.
- The next day - (now told from Aomine's pov)
I had woken up and checked my phone, and on there I had one unread message from Wakamatsu. He wanted to talk. It would be a lie if I said I didn't want to too, but I was still scared shitless.
I had talked with Satsuki about what happened. Not everything of course, but I did tell her what he had said before storming off that day. I thought she would at least be a little surprised but she hadn't shown any sign of confusion at all. She just wanted to know what I had said afterwards, and I told her the truth, that I didn't have the time to say jack-shit. We talked a lot about it, on more than one occasion. Everytime she encouraged me to contact him, talk to him. But I kept telling her I needed more time and that I wasn't ready to face him yet. Thankfully she hadn't made fun of me or anything, only nodded in understanding.
Now I was here with that message on the phone, and I had no idea what to do. I didn't feel ready now either. Fuck. I opened the phone and looked down at the text for the 15th time. It still hadn't magically changed or disappeared. I clicked a few more time and put my phone to my ear. After a few tones Satsuki answered,
"He messaged me" I said before she had the time to say anything. "What the hell do I do?"
"Answer" I rolled my eyes. "What did it say?" she asked after a short pause.
"He wants to talk" I looked up at the white ceiling. "When?" "We haven't decided anything, I haven't even replied. Could you help me out, what do I say?" My voice cracked at the end of my sentence and I prayed that Satsuki didn't notice.
"That you want to do the same and then ask when" Another pause, "that is what you want right?"
"Yeah, I think so, I mean I miss his cu- stupid face" I changed my sentence halfway through. She didn't react but I bet she noticed. "Then tell him!" She shouted on the other end "Stop being such an idiot! You like him, and he obviously like you too, just tell him!" "How do you know that?" I shouted back, what the hell was her problem? Why was she getting upset?
"Everyone can see it except you two idiots, just go and be honest for once!" Before I had the time to snap back at her she hung up. I growled quietly for myself. What did she mean? Girls are confusing, fuck.
I sat still for a few minutes, just staring down at my phone. Then I opened the text again, and this time I started typing. 'Yeah. Do you got time to come over?' I looked down at what I had typed for a long time before pressing send. Sink or swim.
After about 10 minutes later I received a reply, 'Yes, in an hour, that's okay with you?'. My heart started beating faster as I read through the words, and I hurriedly wrote an 'Ok' back to him. He would be here in an hour. Okay, I still had some time to think. One hour. Who was I'm trying to fool, I'm screwed.
The hour past in what felt like seconds. I didn't even notice it was time until I heard the knock on the door. It startled me and as soon as I realized that it was him behind the door (and that my time was up), my stomach dropped to the floor. I literally haven't come an inch closer to what I wanted to say to him. But all I could do now was to wing it. I stood up and dragged my feet to the front door opening it and behind it was (of course) Wakamatsu. He looked about as nervous as I felt. He gave me a quick wave and entered, I said a low 'hi' in return. After that we both fell silent. I was too scared to even look at him. My mind couldn't come up with anything good to say. But for some unknown reason my mouth opened and words came out,
"So what are we going to do?" I looked at all other places than the boy before me. A long silence followed my question and I was just about to say something else when he asked,
"Do you... Like me?" His voice was shaking slightly and even though I wasn't looking at him I could tell he was blushing. I was sure I was doing the same at this moment.
"Yes, I do." I wasn't lying, I did like him, I just wasn't sure on which type of 'like' it was yet. "And you?"
"Me too" he barely whispered back. It felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest, this whole situation felt so surreal. "Good... So when we got that out of the way" I was so fucking grateful that my voice was more or less steady now, even though the rest of me was far from it. "How or what should we do... With us?" I waited for him to speak up about his thoughts, or ideas or anything really. But when minutes passed without a word I slowly continued.
"Should we... Try going... Out?" I have had a few relationships in the past but never with a dude.
"L-like an date?" We locked gaze for a second before we both looked away blushing.
"I-I don't know. Yeah, maybe, if you want to I mean" The blond nodded quickly, which I took as he approved of the idea. What the hell are we even doing? From someone else's point of view this must look so hilarious, but I just feel... Okay I'm not too sure on how I feel exactly at the moment. "Okay, good, uh... So this is me, asking you out;" This is so stupid. I looked over to Wakamatsu and saw his blushing face. "Would you want to watch a movie or something with me?" His eyes went up and gave me a shy smile,
"I'd like that" My heart skipped a beat at the look on his face, he looked like someone that won the lottery, his whole face showed happiness. A warm feeling was starting to spread inside me and I couldn't help but return his smile. Suddenly he bursts out laughing, his sudden reaction startled me but I soon regained my posture. And soon also I started to crack up. This whole thing was really idiotic.
For once I had a good feeling for the future, everything would work out in the end.
Hey there!
Well idk what to say about this... I think I did it too fluffy and happy, but eeehhurgh. Hope it was at least a little enjoyable for someone. Next update will most likely be a while, but as always thank you for reading this train wreck of a fic.