Chapter 12:

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The days leading up to the funeral were very interesting, from finally letting myself be with Christian to beating to crap out of my mother. The funeral is today and I'm not sure I can handle it there are going to be a lot of guardians coming from all over some from the Academy as well and I'm not sure I want to see all these people. I'm not even sure that I'm ready to let him go yet either, To day id going to mark the day that Dimitri is really gone I'll never see him again I'll never hold him or kiss him tell him that I'll always love him; this is going to be the hardest day of my life and I just hope I can hold myself together. I hadn't realize that I was sitting down on the floor crying till I felt Christian wrap his arms around me and pull my body onto his. "Rose its going to be ok I promise I'll never leave you. I love you Rose and we will get threw this together." He whispered in my ear, we sat on the floor for as bit longer then he said, " Rose I know that your up set but we have to start getting ready, unless you truly don't want to go which I know that you do so get your butt in the shower now young lady." The last part he start made me smile and I know that he was right so I got up and walked to the bath room and put the water and started to get undressed. I stepped into the hot water of the shower and just stood there thinking again, maybe I shouldn't go I mean do I really want to see them put Dimitri in the ground. The cold hard dark ground, where he won't be able to get out from what if he isn't really dead. Oh god what if he is just sleeping some crazy sleep. Maybe I didn't really kill him. I started to lose it in the shower again I didn't even know that Christian was in here with me till he pulled me off the floor and onto his lap. "Baby its going to be ok; please don't cry it's killing me because I can't do anything to help you. Please it's going to be ok." Christian kept saying that till I finally stopped, after my melt down he stayed in the shower with me to make sure I wouldn't freak out again, Which I have a feeling is going to happen a lot today.

I had finally gotten myself dressed and ready to go, I was wearing a simple black strapless dress and with lace and some type of shimmery almost see threw fabric, with a pair of nice black heels. I had put my hair up like Dimitri always told me to for formal things. When I did that you could see my marks, but no promise mark. I walked out of the bath room after I was finished getting ready to see Christian standing in the other room wearing all black as well, but man he looked so hot this was different from the all black he use to wear back at the Academy. I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around him said, "You look freaking hot Mr. Ozera." He smiled and kissed the top of my head, "Well Miss Hathaway you don't look to bad your self. I think when we get home I'm going to have to buy u a lot more dresses." He said with his I want you right now smile. I just laughed in response and walked away; if I had walked away we would never leave this room.

The drive to the church wasn't to long but if was very quite the whole way there, me lost in, my own thoughts and Christian watching me to make sure I wouldn't lose it while driving. Thankfully I kept myself together long enough to drive us there; we were the only ones at the church beside the Belikov's. Every time I look at Dimitri's family I cant help but think about how I'm not the only person that will miss him, that wouldn't be able to hug him and love him and that's what is making me stay so strong because other people need me right now. I had to stay strong for them now because Dimitri isn't here to be strong for them. I walked over to Dimitri's mother and we talked for a bit about how things were going and if there was anything more I could do for them. "Roza you have done far more then any of us could ever thank you for, I am sad that my son is gone but at least he is at peace now. And you have done that for him you have freed him when nobody else could or would even try, Roza you are so brave and strong and that's why our Dimitri loves you so much; that's why we all love you so much." I was fighting within my self to keep it together, and it was so sad hard. After making my rounds and talking to all of the Belikov's people stared to show up. Dimitri's family was standing by the door welcoming and thanking people for coming, Olena came over to where I was sitting and asked me to please come and stand with the rest of the family. " Roza you are Dimitri's love and I know that he thought of you as his wife, would you please come and stand with the rest of our family." When she said that I felt a couple tears fall down my cheeks I was going to fall apart. He thought of me as his wife? Christian looked at me and said, "She is right Rose you belong over there with the rest of your family." More tears started to fall even Christian thought of me as apart of their family. So I got up slowly and walked over to where the rest of my family stood and I also started to thank the people for coming. Every one seemed to know who I was, people that I've never meet they all would say I'm sorry about your husband Mrs. Belikov. Every time some would say that I felt my self falling deeper and deeper into a dark whole.

Soon we took our seats because the service would be starting soon, When out of no where the doors opened and in walked about ten more guardians when the last one was in he stopped and said," Her majesty the Queen Vasilisa Dragomir and King Adrian Ivashkov." I stood there unable to move or think or anything. Before I knew my feet were move me across the floor till someone pulled me back into the pews. I looked up and it was Christian and he was holding onto me for dear live. "Rose you have to relax there is nothing you can do right now, there are like a hundred guardians here I don't think you could take them all. And I don't want to see you in jail," he tried to comfort me by rubbing my back but nothing was going to work right now, how dare they come here . "Christian don't let go of me, please don't because if you do ill kill them both." I guess by the look on my face he knew I wasn't joking.

I know this is cliffy and I'm sorry but I just had to do it. I will be putting the other chapter up in a couple of hours.

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XOXO ROZA