Chapter 12
What If

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Authors note- while I was finishing this chapter I was listening to safteysuit and What If played a lot….the song fits perfectly to this chapter. Take a second after and listen to the song and you will see what I mean.

Tamaki sat out back on the porch of Kyouya's house watching René attempt to play catch with Kyouya.
"Wow dad you're really bad at this."
"I told you sports weren't my strong point."
"Your aim is way off." René had to always run after the ball to catch it and throw it back. At least it made it too him and Kyouya was catching it pretty well. René went to throw it back when he saw Antoinette running towards them from the back gate.
"Look out wild dog on the field." Soon he was down on the grass as she tackled him. Kyouya and Tamaki looked to see Yuzuru walking to them. René was able to push Antoinette off and at least sit up.
"Grandfather, do you want to play catch? Dad isn't very good."
"I didn't do that badly."
Trading with Yuzuru Kyouya walked over to sit next to Tamaki. He was a little surprised when he decided to sit it out. Together they watched the two of them play and Yuzuru was a lot better than he was.
"Tamaki you did just a great job on René. He is such a great kid."
"Th…thanks. I'm surprised my dad's here." For some reason he was worried Kyouya was going to talk about kids and not just René. He couldn't talk about that right now, hopefully he would go with the conversation change.
"Well he won't be here the rest of the week because of business. Speaking of fathers, I want René to meet mine tomorrow."
"Do you really think that is a good idea?"
"I do."
"Okay, well then if you want to."
Kyouya tried to read Tamaki's face, ever since he landed he could tell something was bothering him.
"Is something wrong Tamaki, ever since I got through to you last week you sounded distant. René noticed it too, he said ever since last week when you got back from helping your coworker with whatever it was you've been acting strange."
He forgot he lied to them both about why he wasn't home one night and answering the phone and why René had to sleep over Sara's for a few days.
"Have I, sorry. My mind just hasn't been there."
"Tamaki what are you hiding. You know you can talk to me, you're not alone anymore."
"I know, it's nothing really, promise. Did you know that I'm happy to be here with you right now? More than you could possibly imagine. Last week, the move, for my coworker, made me realize how much I missed you."
As he brushed Kyouya's lips with his own he decided that he wouldn't tell him about what happened just as he originally planned to.
"Eww their kissing!" Tamaki moved away hearing René.
"Antoinette he's got the ball." Antoinette stood up at Kyouya's voice, René was back in the grass before he realized what was going on.
"Careful girl, René isn't as strong as I was when you used to tackle me." Listening to Tamaki she moved off him to push him over making it harder for him to stand.

By the time he was able to stand he was covered in grass. Yuzuru helped brush it out of his hair but it didn't help too much.
"Thanks a lot dad, 'he's got the ball' that was uncalled for." René came over to them only to make Kyouya laugh harder and Tamaki crack a smile.
"Better you then me and get used to it because come June she is coming to live with us. She is your father's dog after all and apparently your grandfather wants to give her back to him. Now come on let's go inside and get you washed up." The four of them walked inside and Kyouya showed him to another guest room since the last one was empty for painting.

Kyouya walked back downstairs to see Tamaki talking to Yuzuru about something. Tamaki seemed to be having trouble answering. Once again Yuzuru was messing with him. By dinner Tamaki seemed more talkative and just seemed more like his usual self. By eight thirty though he was ready to collapse in bed, René had already turned in for the night. The jetlag was too hard to push aside any longer. Kyouya sat in bed watching TV when Tamaki came out of the bathroom ready for bed. Going under the covers he moved close to Kyouya. It felt nice to be close to him again, feeling Kyouya's arm around him was something he needed since last week. Though he couldn't tell him and he didn't know this made it feel like Kyouya's way of saying everything will be okay.
"Kyouya, I love you."
"I love you too."

Kyouya led the way through his old house to his father's office. It felt strange for both of them to be walking down the hall. René was blown away by the look of the house, it was unbelievable. Tamaki was nervous about this; he didn't see Yoshio being happy about all of this the way Yuzuru was. He kept René behind him until Kyouya was ready. When they walked into the office he was behind his desk reading something. Tamaki was a little too scared to pay full attention to what it was exactly.
"Hello Tamaki, welcome back to Japan."
"Hello sir, glad to see your well."
"Father there are a few things I need to discuss with you. With Tamaki back in the country and plans for him to stay permanently being made I have already formally asked for his hand. We plan to marry in June. Also," He moved to bring René between him and Tamaki, "this is our son." Yoshio stared at René who was trying not to flinch. The man staring at him was sending chills down his spine. His eyes felt like they were burning his flesh.
"What is your name?"
René looked at Tamaki who nodded, he looked back at Yoshio and tried not let the deep look get to him.
"René Kyouya Suoh, sir."
"How old are you, around ten I presume."
"I'm nine sir, I turn ten August 31st." What was with all the questions? Looking at Kyouya Yoshio asked, "Are you sure you're the father?" Tamaki clenched his fists, how could he ask that?
"Yes sir I'm sure."
"Leave us for a minute we need to talk."
"You can wait for me down the hall in the other room." Tamaki touched René's shoulder so they could leave. He feared this day, being older or not it wouldn't change Yoshio.

As they walked down the hall he tried to calm down. "Father is something wrong? Why did Grandfather sound angry? Did I say something to make him not like me?"
"No René of course not. He just doesn't like me and your father together." They stopped to see Fuyumi coming out of the lounge.
"Tamaki is that really you? It's been so long how have you been? And who is this, he looks just like you and Kyo…he is your son and Kyouya's. I knew he liked you back then."
"It's nice to see you as well Fuyumi. This is my son, René, and your right Kyouya is his father. René this is your dad's older sister."
"Nice to meet you, you're my aunt then right?" They talked for a few minutes before she had to leave.
"Father, she's nice. I like her."
"I like her too."
Walking in Tamaki found the lounge a little uncomfortable.
"Wow this room is awesome."
Seeing the pool table and the other things they had done it on he tried to not let it get to him but the memories were too strong.

Kyouya walked in a little later so they could leave. He seemed in a good mood but Tamaki could tell something happened though Kyouya refused to talk about knowing Tamaki would get upset. He wasn't going to ruin this trip for René. This wasn't something he wanted to involve René in.

After dinner they walked into his office so they could talk.
"My father wants a paternity test done to prove René is my son."
"What! We both know that he is."
"Well I know that and you know that but you know my father never goes on word alone."
"So what will he do when it proves that you are? I know he is pissed at you now, I saw your red cheek before. You two got into an argument and he slapped you!"
"He wants me to step down and turn it over to Akito."
"No! Don't do it! Oh I knew this would happen. I tried so hard to avoid this but I couldn't."
"Relax Tamaki I'm not worried about it."
"I know you, you're planning to step down aren't you?"
"A small price for us to be together."
"No! I told you from the very beginning from when we ran into each other in France that I didn't want that. I didn't want you to give up your dream then and I don't want it now."
"And I don't want to lose you. I want you, me, and our son to live all together."
"You won't lose me; we'll always be together because of our son. We may live a part but we'll always be connected."

René walked into the room before Kyouya's office looking for his parents. He could hear them arguing, this was because of him. This was all because of him; his grandfather didn't like him and was taking it out on his parents. There had to be something he could do, he had to make this right. Hearing his parents getting louder he hid behind the couch. Antoinette sat next to him.

"So what are you saying Tamaki that you don't want to live with me anymore?"
"If it means you won't give up on everything you worked hard on for years!"
"God why do you have to be so stupid!"
"I'm not! I'm using my head and thinking about you. I'm not worth losing everything! And what will you tell René when we live together and you lose the family company you promised could be his one day? He's a smart boy he'll put two and two together."
"I don't know what to do with you Tamaki I swear there is no pleasing you! I want to take care of you but you won't let me! You know what, fine I won't! Go back to France and live in the box you call a home, barely able to survive! I won't involve myself with you anymore so don't crawl back when you can barely make it and are killing yourself by always working!"
"I tried to protect you, but I forgot you're too good for that! You don't need anyone but yourself so fine I'll go and forget about you just as you want! God I can't believe I was dumb enough to think I wanted to be with you. You've never wanted anyone other than someone you could use for sex!" Throwing something at his head he walked out of the room.

René held his breath and dug his face into Antoinette's fur as he heard the door open. In the corner of his eye he saw Tamaki storm past him.
"Go ahead and leave! That seems to be what your good at! No wonder René ran off, you're the one that taught him how!"
The front door slammed shut.

Kyouya walked out of the office to crash on the couch. René froze knowing his dad was right there. Kyouya opened his hand to see what Tamaki had thrown at him. It was his ring. Sure he said some horrible things but he couldn't he understand that he was willing to do it all for him? He really was an idiot. Kyouya pulled away from his thoughts as he heard what sounded like crying. Looking behind the couch he saw René crying on Antoinette.
*Oh shit*
Getting up he walked around to him. "René?" His head shot up seeing Kyouya over him, letting go of Antoinette he stood up and ran off to go to the room he was staying in.
"René wait!" *Shit, what do I do now?*

Tamaki sat on the front porch steps of Kyouya's house. Crying into his knees, he was so lost and angry. Why did Kyouya have to be so stupid and act like he could solve everything? What did he see in him all this time? Why did his father have to be on business, he had no place to go? He could show up there but he had no way to get there he wasn't going to use one of Kyouya's drivers. And he couldn't stay here, not right now.
"René?" Something ran past him in the corner of his eye. It looked like him but why would he be running off?
"René!" Pushing off the steps he ran down the front walk to try and stop him. He was fast, when did get so good at running? Cutting across the lawn he was able to reach him only to send them both to the ground as he grabbed his shirt.
"Father let me go!"
"No, what were you thinking? Why were you running from the house?"
"I'm going to fix this, I'm the only one who can."
"This isn't your problem. This is solely between your dad and me."
"No it's not. Trust me father I can fix this. I know he still loves you and you love him. You both should be together and I'm the only one that can make sure you both stay together." Pulling away from Tamaki he stood up to take off again.
"René come back!" Standing up he went to follow him when he heard Kyouya run up behind him.
"He went to speak with my father. I sent a car to take him there." He handed the note he found in René's room to Tamaki.
"Why didn't you have the car bring him back here?"
"Because he'll only leave again. Let him do this. It couldn't hurt; he is only following his heart. Just like you."
"Kyouya I…are you sure about this?"
"My father won't hurt him. Tamaki let him try, come on let's go inside its getting dark." Slowly he turned and followed Kyouya inside; while René tried to talk to Yoshio they could try to fix themselves. If René was willing to work as hard as he could to see them together and stay that way then they could work hard to.

René sat across from his grandfather. He had already explained everything, why his parents should be together and his dad left alone. He was willing to work hard and prove to his grandfather that just because he was born from unwed parents he could still become something. His grandfather used a certain word but he had trouble repeating it. Now Yoshio was staring at him. No matter how deep he looked at René's eyes he saw them burning with the passion to make everything work. From the moment he walked in before to talk to him he liked this kid.
*My dad says you're a business man, so let's talk business.*that determination and passion reminded him of Kyouya. At only nine he held such promise already. Picking up the phone he called Kyouya to have the three of them talk.

"My father wants me to go over there." Kyouya hung up the phone. He had been with Tamaki to try and fix and apologize for what happened when the phone rang.
"Go talk to him, I'll wait here for you both to get back."
"You better be."
"I promise, no more running."
"Good, be back soon." Grabbing his coat he walked out to the car. Antoinette jumped on the couch to rest her head on his lap.
"Yes girl, looks like everything will be okay after all."

Kyouya got back with René who went to his room to give his parent's space. Kyouya led Tamaki to the bedroom to talk with more privacy.
"Your son is amazing."
"Our son is amazing."
"Our son is amazing then. He was able to convince my father that we should marry and ignore the fact that he was born before we were married and at when we were sixteen."
"So your safe?"
"I'm safe. So long as I marry you, live together and don't have another child before then I'm okay. Since we were already planning on two of the three I believe everything will be okay."
"I guess then it's a good thing I'm not pregnant anymore."
"What?" He couldn't hear what Tamaki said under his breath.
"I said I guess you forgive me then and still want to marry me even after what I said and what I did."
"I'll always want to marry you. I need to apologize as well for what I said earlier. My words were out of line and I'm sorry. Can you forgive me?"
"I forgive you, I promise not to get so angry next time we happen to fight. I love you Kyouya."
"I love you as well Tamaki." He took the ring out of his pocket. "I believe this belongs to you." Taking Tamaki's hand he slipped the engagement ring back on.

Tamaki pushed Kyouya away gently as they started to make out on the bed.
"Kyouya please stop."
"Is something wrong?"
"I know you're probably hoping for make-up sex but I don't think we should. I don't want anything to happen to mess you up. Your father is looking past out actions let's not push it."
"God I feel like a teenager again, following my father's rules. But I'm not going to force you if you don't want to." He moved further away so Tamaki could tell he was serious and wasn't going to try something. He was a little surprised that he was against it. They had always been careful and this was their first fight, tonight could be a lot of fun.
"Thank you Kyouya. I just know that we had René because we were always at each other and even though we weren't careful back then I want to make sure that doesn't happen again. I want to do it right the next time. He hated lying about the other reason why he didn't want to but, he believed that not letting Kyouya know the real reason was better. A part of him wanted to tell him but the words refused to come. How could he tell him that he had just lost a baby when the thought alone still brought him to tears?
"Tamaki are you okay?" He noticed he looked sad, as if he was ready to cry.
"Just tired, today has been what a day." Moving under the covers he tried to act as he always did. Kyouya slid in next to him and wrapped an arm around him before falling asleep. Tamaki let a few tears fall before closing his eyes for the night. The pain of loss was hard to handle it seemed.

With the fight behind them the rest of the trip and the week went smoothly. The weather had been a chilly but sunny making it perfect to hang out outside. René showed them both how to throw and in return they took him horseback riding. It had been ages since they had both been on a horse as well making it just like everything else they did; interesting. The week flew by, and before they knew it Tamaki and René had to head back to France.
"Bye dad, have fun at work."
"Bye René, take care of your father for me. Make sure he doesn't get in too much trouble."
"Hey that's not nice." Moving between them he kissed him good-bye only breaking apart when they heard about their flight boarding.
"See you soon."
"Not soon enough." Tamaki smiled at Kyouya's words before leaving for the plane.

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Well this ended better than the last which is always nice. And they worked everything out so I'm too horrible. Please review.
~Femalefighter~