Authors Notes: Don't you just love touching scenes between Konata and Kagami? Well I do, which is why I love this one so much! I hope it's not too cheesy, but I really don't know what therapists do or how they work in their offices and what not... So I had to totally wing this! *Insert nervous laugh here* I really hope you like it and that you review! I love me some reviews and the entire Lucky Star cast loves your reviews as well!
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(Kagami's POV)
So much has happened in the past few days it is hard for me to get a grip on it all… First me and Konata start to drift apart leaving the entire group feeling disheartened and lousy, second we break up and do even more damage to those around us, third we get back together and I guess we restored the peace because Misao and Ayano hooked up; I knew it was only a matter of time!
With all the lovey teasing Misao did with Konata I did have my doubts, but I am happy to see that she and Ayano finally got together, they are so cute!
Speaking of cute… I know Tsukasa had feelings for Mikeru, even if they were minor, so I know it hurt her to tell him to leave her for another girl; I do feel like Miyuki is a better match for her anyways. Miyuki knows how to take care of people and that is exactly what my airheaded little sister needs…
When Kona came home last night, she told me that even the Kohai were pairing up! Both Yutaka and Minami are an item now, the same for Patty and Hiyori; I still can't believe that so much has been going on, ahh it hurts my head!
Then Nanako-sensei dropped a big one on us yesterday afternoon… Get this; she's getting married! Yeah I know it's crazy… No what's crazy is my thinking to myself as if I was talking to another person… God I can be weird, I swear that spunky little devil is rubbing off on me.
Actually where is Kona? I know we were sleeping together just a few hours ago when I nodded off; maybe she went back to her own bed… Not likely, she just loves to cuddle into my chest the little perv; I still don't have an answer though.
I guess I need to get up and go see what she is up too; my head still hurts from all that is going on and my lack of ability to grasp it all, I hope things just mellow out from here on in… Miyuki told me yesterday that Kona won't go to her therapy lessons, which was a shock to me 'cause I didn't know she needed them, so I have been holding off on making her go… But if she is doing in the bathroom what I fear she is doing…
Wait… When did I start walking? Oh, never mind I need to check on Kona.
"Damn nightmares, I was hoping if I slept next to Kagami they would go away…" Konata sighed sadly as she splashed her face with more cold water, the dark rings under her eyes extremely visible in the harsh bathroom lighting.
"I knew I should have just forced you to go." Kagami suddenly stated from behind the now frightened girl.
"Kagami how long have you been watching me, you pervert~!" Konata cooed, trying her best to get the subject off of her problems, but she had no such luck.
"Miyuki only gave me the basics yesterday… Tell me what is hurting you Kona so I can get rid of it?" Kagami asked sweetly as she brought Konata into a loving hug.
Konata mumbled something about Kagami being unfair as she pushed out of the hug and started pushing her pointer fingers together, a small blush forming on her cheeks. "Do you really have to know?" She asked quietly.
"Yes." Was Kagami's very brief yet very firm answer; Konata could only sigh.
"I hear him in my head sometimes telling me to do things, or taunting me... But it's not like I listen to him or..." Konata's rant was cut short by the younger girl grabbing her again and holding her tightly this time so she couldn't break away.
"You listen here missy you are going and that is final! I won't have him controlling my baby anymore, that bastard…" Kagami hissed under her breath at the horrible male that had done this to her sweet and innocent little angel.
"But Kagami I don't need it and he doesn't control me!" Konata whined, stomping her feet on the ground slightly; Kagami had been noticing that Konata was getting more and more emotional due to her lack of sleep.
"Kona look at me, look at me!" Kagami said forcefully as she lifted Konata's face to meet her's. "You are going to go and that is final, I don't like it when you're hurting… I hurt too…" Kagami said with a sad smile and Konata knew she had lost.
"Yes Ma'am…" The blunette said dejectedly as she trudged back over to the toilet and sat down; Konata let out a huge yawn and started to rub her eyes cutely.
"Come on love butt, you need sleep." Kagami said with an affectionate giggle as she picked up Konata just to have the shorter girl fall asleep in her arms. "What am I gonna do with you?" Kagami asked softly as she kissed her love on the cheek and headed back to her room.
The next morning finally felt like it was just a normal morning, they all woke up and chatted during breakfast, left the house a little late, and had to run to make it to class on time. Misao wouldn't stop talking about her and Ayano's new found love and the passion they shared, while Tsukasa decided to stay out of the lime light.
Kagami just nodded as Misao talked on, trying to tune her out; Konata on the other hand was joining right in with her talking about all that mushy lovey stuff. Tsukasa and Kagami had their own private conversation about the recent events and how they were looking forward to Nanako's wedding.
Tsukasa was a little disappointed when she found out Mikeru was not at school that morning, but she knew she had Miyuki and that made everything okay. Their classes seemed to just drag on and on, finally the lunch bell rang and they were freed to go eat.
Kagami didn't want to draw a lot of attention to them since their big drama episode was still fairly new news, but that worthless girl came over and picked a fight with them again. It was a good thing a few of the people sitting near them stood up for them causing that girl to back down; otherwise Kagami would have hurt her.
After lunch they went their separate ways to go and finish up their classes, which didn't seem to take as long as the first set. In fact it didn't seem like it took long at all for the four of them to meet up outside the school ready to head home.
"We have to get home and prepare for Miyuki and Aya-chi!" Misao cheered as she threw her hands up in the air for effect; apparently the fanged girl had set up a mini party for her, Tsukasa, and their loves. Kagami and Konata were allowed to come too since they lived there as well.
"Sorry guys, but you go on ahead…" Kagami said coolly as she grabbed Konata around the waist and slung the smaller girl over her shoulder. "But this one has a therapy session." A playful smirk made its way onto Kagami's face as she spoke.
"Hey wait a minute! I said I didn't need to go, Kagami put me down! Put me down you horrible beasty! Are you listening to me?" Konata shouted over and over as she kept hitting Kagami's back, trying to make the taller girl stop, but failing.
"I hear you and I don't care, you're going." Kagami replied flatly and with that the other two girls watched them walk off just like that with large sweatdrops.
"Kona would you please, please calm down? I'm right here, nothing is going to happen." Kagami said in a comforting tone as she gently rubbed Konata's hand.
"I'm trying Kagami, but I'm just so…" Konata couldn't bring herself to say she was scared; however, her insistent shaking and low throaty whines were all Kagami needed to confirm that she was in fact extremely afraid of facing her past…
"I will be with you the entire time so you don't need to worry so much." Kagami reassured again, but it did little to comfort her lover and that in and of itself saddened the taller girl.
The two sat in silence after that since Kagami didn't know what to say and Konata was too busy giving herself a panic attack to think up any interesting topics. It wasn't long before the receptionist led a tall woman into the waiting room right outside the therapist's office.
The women had to be in her early thirties, with long beautiful burgundy hair and a killer body; not that Kagami was looking… The lady was wearing a brown suit and looked a little too fancy to be here for a therapy visit, but Kagami didn't dwell on that too much. A pair of Miyuki shaped glasses rested on her nose, giving her that moe factor Konata always talked about.
The women sat down on the couch next to them and after glancing over at the shaking blunette asked with a concerned little smile: "Are you two here to see Kirie-sensei?"
"Yes I heard she was the best in her field and we could use an expert…" Kagami trailed off as she looked down at Konata sadly, the tsundere completely missed the look of accomplishment on the older woman's face.
"I haven't heard that… Mind if I ask what your names are?" The lady asked with a pleasant smile.
"I'm Kagami Hiiragi, and she's..." Kagami said kindly before Konata quickly cut her off.
"Classified Information." Konata said as boldly as she could in her current state, but that didn't stop her voice from cracking out of fear. Konata didn't like the thought of having someone pry into her opinions and memories just to make fun of her… Konata didn't want to relive the pain of her childhood; she hated every minute of it and wanted it to all just go away…
"Ah, you are an otaku I take it?" The women said with a small smile and a shrug as she turned away from the two to glance around the room, her smile only got bigger as the smallest girl slid a little closer to her and perked up enough for her shaking to stop.
"You know what an otaku is?" Konata asked with an almost hopeful tone, forgetting temporarily why she was afraid or even why she was talking to this woman in the first place.
"It's a quote from Yuki Nagato isn't it?" The older women smirked victoriously when Konata wrinkled her nose and then opened her mouth to learn the older woman.
"No it was Mikuru, Yuki never held any information back when asked!" Konata said with an air of authority as she explained the anime.
Kagami thought the older woman would be upset that she was getting so haughty with her, but she didn't and she even went as far to ask Konata even more questions about different anime and then seemed legitimately interested in Konata's answer.
Kagami was dumbfounded, this woman hadn't been in the waiting room for more than ten minutes and she already had Konata talking up a storm and completely got the blunette's mind off what was scaring her. Despite Kagami not wanting to be the bad guy anymore today she knew she had to since their appointment was about to begin.
"Hey Kona it's almost time for us to go in…" Kagami said gently as she watched Konata tense up, her happy smile slowly melt off her face.
"You look so sad now, why don't you want to go and talk to Kirie-sensei?" The woman asked with a smile as she stood up and brushed off her skirt.
"I'm scared I don't want someone in my head… She's probably really mean or scary…" Konata whined as she started to hug herself, feeling her shaking about to start again.
"Am I really mean and scary, Miss Izumi?" The woman asked with a warm and compassionate smile.
"Wait then you are…" Kagami said with a grin as she put two and two together; Konata just sat there looking up at the women with shock in her eyes.
"Yes I am Kirie-sensei; it is my pleasure to meet you." She said with a light bow before crouching in front of Konata. "Would you like to come talk to me for a little bit? I promise I won't force you to tell me anything." Kirie said warmly as she extended her hand for Konata to hold.
Konata was still nervous, but this woman was a fellow otaku so it couldn't be too bad… With Kagami holding one hand and the older women holding the other, Konata finally got off the couch and into the comfy office.
Konata was directed to the small couch and Kagami got the seat beside it. Kirie sat in her office chair right in front of Konata, a notebook and pen in her hands.
"Let me explain what's going to happen, okay?" Kirie said with a soft smile. "I'm just going to ask you some questions at first, you don't have to answer them if you don't want, but it would be really helpful if you did." Konata nodded her head in understanding before the older women started.
After asking a few questions like her age, height, favorite color, and favorite food the therapist began to ask a bit more painful questions.
"Do you have both your parents living at home?" The burgundy haired woman asked, although she already knew the answer, keeping the same gentle tone that she had been using through the whole interview.
"N-no, my mom died when I was little..." Konata said shakily, the lack of sleep and severe amount of stress she was feeling was pressing on her emotions and it was getting harder for her to keep them in check.
"What age were you when she died?" The older women asked without even looking up from her notebook, due to her not wanting to look at the sweet little girl's face broken by the memory of her mother.
"I can't believe she is asking stuff like this." Kagami thought a little angry, but knew better than to voice this opinion.
"I don't remember, maybe two?" Konata said voice cracking, as it became apparent to Kagami that the blunette was going to lose it at any moment.
"Did you want your mom to die Konata?" The women asked, her voice getting much colder than it was a few minutes ago.
Kagami just sat there in shock that this woman would even ask such a horrible thing! The tsundere was about to get up and smack this woman silly for being so insensitive and uncaring.
"No I wanted my mama to be with me always!" Konata shouted as a few tears ran down her cheek. "I never wanted to hurt her..." Konata sobbed pitifully. Kagami tried to reach out and comfort her love, but Kirie grabbed her wrist before she could.
"What do you mean you never wanted to hurt her?" Kirie asked softly again as she let go of Kagami's wrist; Kagami on the other hand was trying to process why Konata would say that as well, but ultimately came up with nothing.
Konata just sobbed; Kirie was about to ask again when Konata screamed. "It was my fault she died! If she hadn't given birth to me then she would still be here!" Konata buried her face in her hands as she bawled uncontrollably.
"But you said she died when you were two, so it couldn't have been your fault." Kirie tried to reason with the blunette.
"No she got worse because of having me; she wouldn't have died if I hadn't been born." Konata screamed angrily at the therapist. How dare she speak about this kind of thing even though she knew nothing of what had happened!
Kirie just smiled sympathetically at the hurting girl before pulling out a small piece of paper. "Your mom had a special disease; she was supposed to die a lot sooner than she did…" The burgundy haired women said softly making Konata's eyes go wide. "Do you know why she lived four more years than expected?" She asked with a small smile.
"Why..." Konata said as she calmed down a bit however, tears still streaming down her face.
"She was so determined on having a baby, having you, that she wouldn't let the sickness take her life until you were born… Even after that she wouldn't let the sickness take her until she knew you would be okay in life without her; Konata, she had such a powerful love for you…" Kirie said softly as Konata's tears start to pour faster, but no sounds came from her throat.
"We were told…" Konata managed to squeak out finally before silently sobbing again.
"Science has gotten better and doctors now know the cause for the illness and what it is, but that doesn't disprove the fact that your mom lived as long as she did because of you…" Kirie said with a happy grin as Konata threw herself into Kagami's embrace and completely broke down in Kagami's arms.
"How do you know all that?" Kagami asked still in a state of shock; she would have never guessed that Konata had blamed herself for her mother's unfortunate passing.
"You said I was the best in my field and that is why; I search out everything I can for my patients, so they can get better quicker. Without the proof it would take people like Miss Izumi so much longer to believe that they weren't the cause of something… I just love making people better so they can live their lives happily…" Kirie said with a smile as she handed Kagami a paper with their next appointment time and then left the two alone.
"She loved me so much! Mama kept living just for me! I didn't kill her!" Konata bawled the same phrase over and over again as Kagami whispered soothing words into her ear.
"Now that we have that huge misunderstanding out of the way, I think she will be a lot more open about her feelings..." Kirie thought with a smile as she walked to her car. "Then I can help heal those wounds of her heart and mind..."
"Are you feeling okay Kona?" Kagami asked as she carried her love out of the building and down the street towards the train station; Konata had cried so much that she was physically unable to walk she was so weak, but Kagami didn't mind because she knew Konata was on the road to getting better.
"Yeah, I'm just a little tired…" Konata mumbled as she snuggled her face closer to Kagami's shoulder.
"Sleep then I will get us back, okay?" Kagami asked with a small smile and after a small nod that she barely even felt she watched her little angel drift to sleep.
Sure her head was spinning; of course things had to be hectic for now, obviously everyone is changing, and without a doubt the next few weeks will probably be just as insane as the last few have been… But that's okay… Why? Because Kagami knows it's only a matter of time before everything becomes boring again and this college life will seem so dull…
"I hope my second year isn't going to be as crazy as my first…" Kagami thought with a small laugh; she didn't have any idea what the future had planned for her and Konata…
Lucky Channel~
"Hey everybody it's me your favorite navigator Akira Kogami!" Akira shouted cutely as she poked her cheeks.
"And I am the assistant Minoru Shiraishi." Minoru said with a bow.
"Even though that chapter was short it was still so cute, right?" Akira asked sweetly swinging her arms around her tiny body.
"Yes this chapter helps to kind of buffer all the large event that have been going on and make it seem like just a crazy time in their lives, in fact if you really think about college life and everything all that has been going on doesn't seem that far-fetched!" Minoru said happily as he looked at Akira to say something…
"HOW DARE YOU TALK FOR SO LONG ON MY SHOW!" Akira shouted as she started to pummel him into the ground.
Ending Theme~
"I'll kill you!" Akira shouted as the screen went black…