Saturday was quickly approaching which meant that I had the right to panic and run like a mad man, Alice and I had a date then and I was suppose to plan it, that's how it works, the one who asks plans the date. SO WHY CANT I FIGURE ANYTHING OUT FOR IT?!

For the tenth time tonight as I lie in my (at the moment) uncomfortable bed my lungs push out a long breath of air.

" What the fuck am I going to do?" I whine slamming my head into the feather pillow behind it. This was the worst first world problem to date when it came to my life. Fighting monsters and demons in a battle to save the world... was a hell of a lot easier than asking this girl out it seems and now that I've done it, I'm facing one of the bosses.

A knock sounds on my door, " Dinner's here, Bells." My dad says once he opens the door to my room; he sees my distressed look upon my face no doubt, " Everything okay?" He asks before coming deeper into my sanctuary.

With another sigh I heave myself up into the sitting position before shaking my head in his direction.

"I'm fine, just school." I lie not wanting to get into a conversation with my father about dating, to much of a weird topic between the two of us. Like I've said before; the closest we have gotten to a personal conversation was what we liked on our pizza.

But for some reason, tonight he wasn't satisfied with that answer. His boots thud against my carpeted floor and he takes a seat on my computer chair.

Both of us remained quiet, unsure how to proceed before my dad rubbed his hands together and laid them against his knees then looked down to his feet.

" I wish …." He sighs as he rubs his hands against his face, " Bells I wish that I could be more for you, that I could talk to you... God your mother was so much better at talking to you kids than I am. One of her best traits was her communication skills, we wouldn't have gotten together if she didn't talk to me first." He chuckles remembering a day that had passed long ago. His eyes turned glassy before he looked at me then away, " I thought.." His voice cracks before he clears it and continues, " I thought we had more time with her, you know? If I knew..." I see a tear roll down his cheek and quickly disappear behind his mustache, "I would have spent more time with her. We all would have gone on so many family trips.. but I thought..." his voice trails off and I don't know what to do aside from sit on the edge of my bed and watch as my father began to brake down. I didn't know what to do, this was all new to me seeing him like this.

" It wasn't your fault Pops." Emmett is standing in my doorway, eyes trained on our dad before sliding over to me and then I feel the bed dip beside me. " We didn't know it was going to happen. The only one we need to blame is" me " The bastard who was drunk and decided to drive. He's to blame not us." I looked to Emmett who locked eyes with me; like he knew that I blamed myself for this as well... I pull my eyes away, they couldn't know that.. not that or the nightmares. They didn't need the stress of it all.

Dad composes himself and stands up with his arms out wide telling us to give him a hug.

Emmett immediately stands up and goes for it but I'm the one whose hesitant. This was all new territory that I didn't understand or wasn't sure if I even wanted to. Emotions were difficult things to rein in and control which didn't fit well with me. I wanted the ability to control who I was; how I dealt with things was easy but once they became more serious was the time that I decide to pull out and away...

What would I do if Alice has some sort of meltdown? What happens when we get closer to one another.

"Bells, come 'ere..." Dad brings me out of my musings quickly and soon I am being embraced by both he and Emmett. They didn't know it and they never will, but I needed both of them more than they would ever find out. They were my protectors from the permanent dark that I have been tempted by so many times but never gave into it.

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After many hours of thinking about it, I had decided to just take Alice to a movie and then go to dinner.

It was simple but romantic... I think?

Dad let me borrow his truck for the night which I excitedly thanked him for. His Chevy was older but it still had its white paint intact and full of shine.

I had to pick up Alice a four pm on Saturday since it took a while to get to Port Angeles but with my nervous habits I arrive thirty minutes earlier than I was suppose to. With a sigh I take in my appearance in the mirror of the visor above my head once again. My glasses are re-straitened before I tug at the collar of my light gray dress shirt that I had rolled the sleeve up to my elbows, my slightly darker grey dress pants were crisp and neat while my bulky purple and blue shoes showed out from under them... who wears nice shoes anyways?

With a deep breath I exit the truck and head towards the ominous dark wooden door with a stained glass window the took up most of the door leaving it more glass than wood. My feet nervously make their way up the stairs and towards the door where a shiny silver doorbell is waiting for me to ring it to call upon my beautiful maiden... but alas. I stop a foot away; my nerves moving up towards the surface even more so than they were when I was sitting in my car.

Snap out of it! I clinch my fists and close my eyes, you can do this, you've fought all kinds of monsters, you can take a girl out on a date. The date I could handle; I close the gap and quickly push the bell. I wring my hands together before pulling them apart and stuffing them into my pockets.

The date I could handle... The door opens and the eyes I meet are Alice's but it's not Alice.

" Bella, Alice said you would probably be here early but she isn't ready yet. Why don't you come in?" Carlisle, Alice's dad, gestures me into the house to come in further.

The date I could handle... but the parents were what scared me the most. My one true nemesis that I have yet to conquer.

I smile and with a small 'thank you' I enter the house quickly; behind me he closes the door and turns to look at me.

My eyes actually take in what's around me, I couldn't remember much of this place during my first and last time here, my mind was full of cloudy memories... and some of them didn't make any sense at all.

I immediately notice the ornate decorations and how clean everything looks, like it's been untouched and brand new.

I suddenly felt the need to take my shoes off...

" It's nice to finally meet you Bella, I'm Esme Alice's mother and don't worry about tracking anything in, I love cleaning, Carlisle says I'm borderline OCD." the woman who appeared beside Carlisle was beautiful, angel like; her caramel hair flowed gently down her back, her body was slim but not in the way where she looks sickly.

I was caught up in my thoughts that I forgot to say something... anything so when I heard two sets of laughs, I blinked and decided to say something.

" Wow, I mean... now I know where Alice got her looks..." I bite the inside of my lip in embarrass, my face grew hotter and hotter by the second as I heard one set of laughter increase making my eyes look everywhere besides the two adults in front of me.

" Oh Carlisle, stop embarrassing her. Thank you for the compliment Bella. Why don't we go into the living room, Alice is taking her sweet time on getting ready. She said she wanted to look perfect." I couldn't help the smile that passed over my lips.

Esme lead us into an even bigger room filled with maroon and gold but not too much of the colors, just enough to feel almost regal.

"Sit anywhere you'd like or if you want to look around feel free to do so." Carlisle spoke up taking a seat beside his wife on a velvet two person couch.. love seat I think they're called.

I decided to sit on the bigger couch that looked exactly the same as the one they sat in except for the size.

It was quiet for a moment, only filled with my silent jumping knee and my fingers messing with a loose thread on my shirt.

" So, Bella," Esme starts in which makes my eyes instantly turn up to hers, "You've lived here in Forks ever since you were born?" She asks before linking her fingers with her husbands, I look away from the sight of their affection; feeling a pang of remorse from the thought that my parents use to do that before... no. I'm not ruining today, just give me one day.

" Yeah, my dad has lived here ever since he was young." I answer with a smile, my stomach flutters nervously at the possible next question that they were planning on asking but before they could a voice chimed in.

" No wonder why your dad is so famous in this town." Instantly my eyes turn towards an elegantly made wooden stair case that I had notice vaguely but now, I couldn't stop looking at it as Alice began to walk down them.

I hadn't noticed that I was standing up when she finally got to the bottom of them, I began to make my way towards her. All the while I couldn't fathom the feelings I had as I looked at her.

Her hair was in its raven black disarray as always; looking so messy yet each lock looked perfectly placed; her eyes seemed brighter with the darker make up around them, but what stopped me from fully reaching her was the dress that I couldn't keep my eyes off of; It was canary yellow with a yellow fabric lace over it, stopped just above her knees and had inch wide straps over her shoulders.

" Wow, you- you look beautiful." I manage to breath out of my lungs and for a moment, I forget about her parents. It was just her and I in the room that mattered. A warm feeling enveloped my chest and began to sink through my limbs into the fire that seemed to now be burning inside of me; it wasn't a bad feeling far from it but it was something that I had never felt before and I wasn't sure what to think about it, I mean the feeling was there in the past but now... after my venture through the forest, it's been so much more intense.

" I'm glad you think so and you look very sexy." Alice pulls me closer to close the gap between us and soon I'm on cloud nine, feeling her lips against mine.

Unfortunately that didn't last long when my mind finally absorbed the sounds around me and I heard someone clearing their throat.

Shit...

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"Please don't be embarrassed by it, my parents have seen much worse from Edward and Jasper." Alice tried to reassure me because of our little awkward scene with Carlisle and Esme watching us make-out in front of them.

My eyes remained on the road and my hands clutching the steering wheel. My face was permanently red from the experience.

What a nice way to show them that you care about their daughter.. You should have just started taking Alice's clothes off...

I felt a small warm hand touch my shoulder and some how my face became even redder than it was before I got into the car.

Stop those thoughts self!

" Don't worry about it, please? I just want to have an amazing night with you without anything being weird." I glance over towards Alice to see a small look of sadness in her eyes. I take a deep breath to calm myself down.

" I'm sorry, just never been in that situation and I don't know..." I let out a nervous laugh, " I just don't want them to think anything badly about me." We had been on the highway for about ten minutes, about to pass the exit to La Push when I felt an odd braking in the engine...

What the hell?

"They already like you. They even think of you as family already." I didn't hear the rest of what Alice was saying because at that moment the truck decided to show its true age and started failing on me.

" No,no no no... please God no don't do this to me." I turned the hazard lights on and took the exit to La Push as my dad's car began to slow then came to a stop on the side of the road just off the exit. My head rests on the wheel between my hands before I slump back into my seat.

" Great." I say sarcastically. Just great, Alice will remember this night for the rest of her life, as the shittiest date that she's ever had.

" I can't get any cell reception, can you?" She asks unbuckling her seat belt and moving closer to me. I shake my head no before pulling my phone out.

" No use, La Push has always had horrible cell service," I groan before sitting back up and unbuckling my seat belt as well. " We'll have to walk, I have a family friend who works on cars here, he can tow it back to his place and see what's wrong. I only know the basics of cars, change the oil, tire, not this though I know it has something to do with the engine. I should have just taken Emmett's jeep." I slid out of the truck cab in despair. This date just keeps getting worse and worse.

I had no time to get around the hunk of metal to help Alice, she had already made her way out and met me at the front of the truck.

"You should have waited for me, I could've helped you out." I said.

The wind around us ruffled our hair softly and I was thankful for the fact that this was one of the rare days that it wasn't raining.

" I can get out of a car by myself thank you very much." With a devilish smile, Alice turns from me and starts walking towards La Push; I quickly lock the truck and sprint to catch up with her. For her small stature she could move quickly.

"Surprisingly this wasn't the way I envisioned how this night was going to go." I confessed with some annoyance in my voice as we made our way deeper into the small reservation but unfortunately, Jacob and his father lived at the far end of it.

" I don't mind it, I just like spending time with you. I don't care where we are." I look over to the beautiful girl... no woman beside me and see a smile on her face before I feel her left hand come in contact with my right one and lace our fingers together, " Is this okay?" she asks squeezing my hand gently. I can't help but smile and nod in confirmation.

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Twenty minutes later, we get to The Black's house. It's not the biggest house, just big enough for two people to live in and even then it's a bit on the small side. It was red and in need of a re-paint; the tin roof had been re-done by my dad, Emmett, and I this past summer and glinted in the sun.

Before I checked in the house my brain was telling me to look in the obvious place.

I lead Alice to the back of the house where a building the same size and color stood but looked more maintained; An older tow truck with the words Black Towing stood out in bold lettering.

Inside Billy and Jacob Black stood over an old rusted town car. It looked like it needed a lot of work, probably one of Jacobs projects.

"Damn it Jacob, how do you expect us to fix this piece of shit up or even afford to fix it up?" Billy asked as he slammed the hood shut and began to try and fail to clean his hands of the grease and oil on them. " You and your damn projects." He growls, at that moment, he notices us out of the corner of his eye and turns to see us fully. He smiles instantly, "Bella, Charlie didn't say y'all were coming down." Jacob turned around at the sound of my name and smiled.

" Well, we were just heading to Port Angeles and just before we passed the exit to the reservation, Dad's car started acting up and is now sitting, broken down in all of it's glory right beside the off ramp." Billy looks over to my right and instantly I feel like an ass because I didn't introduce Alice, " Sorry, Billy, Jacob this is Alice Cullen, Alice these are very close family friends of mine and obviously the best people to come to when you have car troubles." I introduce them. Billy takes a few steps towards us and chuckles.

" A Cullen, huh? Heard many things about your dad, all good of coarse. I would shake your hand but a mechanics hands aren't the most sanitary but it's nice to finally meet you, from what I've heard from Emmett, you're all Bella can talk about, she'll take good care of ya." my face reddens while the warm heat as well as my embarrassment comes to the surface.

Alice laughs before taking my hand once again, " I know she will." I chuckle nervously at the words while Billy orders Jacob to get the keys to their tow truck and go and start it, on his way out he pats my back with his rock hard hand making me tumble slightly and bump into Alice who just giggled and helped me become steady once again. I tossed the truck keys to Billy who caught them easily.

" Clearwaters have their shack still open for a week or two, if you're hungry you should go see them or at least say hi. You don't come down as much now that you've gotten preoccupied." Billy jabs fun at me as he walks off and soon the father and son drive off to get the bothersome truck.

" That sounds fun, you hungry?" Alice moves closer to me and wraps her arms around my middle, the shiver up my spine wasn't well hidden as a smirked appeared on the smaller woman's face.

I was blushing today more than I have in a long time even then I wasn't sure I had THIS much which made me think of how much Alice affected me...

I didn't want to think about someone being able to control me so much even if I liked it.

"I don't know, Leah Clearwater isn't a big fan of me." I confess moving my hands to Alice's sides. Just don't think about how much this freaks you out on an emotional level, you like it, do it. I try to tell myself but I can feel my palms beginning to drench with sweat and it wasn't because of the warmer weather.

" Are you scared?" She asked pulling away from me to get a clear look at my face, I take this time to sigh internally and turn around to start walking to calm the jitters running through my body both from Alice but for completely different reasons, Alice just skipped in front of me with an eyebrow raised thinking that I was just brushing off the question.

"No, of coarse not, Leah is just a nuisance who thinks that I'm after Jacob is all and for some reason she thinks I'm lying about the whole ' I like girls ' thing." I say making Alice look at me in disbelief before going back to my side and linking our arms together.

" Well we'll just have to show her that you defiantly don't have a thing for that gorilla, unless.. you do?" Alice looked up at me from under her eyelashes while all I could do was look at her in the same way she did just moments before.

" Hell no! Jake and I've known each other ever since we were in diapers, he's like a brother to me and that's it." I promise easily because it was true. Jacob was like another brother, one that was less annoying and not in my face but one nonetheless.

Alright so this is a Part 1 or 2. Sorry for the long delay, this is my longest chapter for this story and it would have been longer instead of in two parts but I figured you wouldn't want to wait any longer. Please favorite and review! Thanks for reading! :)