Warning: Slash! Creature!fic! Cutting! Depression! Children! Mpreg! LightBashing! (None are spared my wrath!) May have more warnings to come!

Disclaimer: If I owned Harry Potter and Co. it probably wouldn't be called Harry Potter and…

Disclaimer: I have read so many fanfic and have a semi-photographic memory. As such, most of what I read stays in my head and mixes with everything that is already in there. So I'm not really sure what is originally my ideas and what isn't…so if anything is like other stuff you've read I have not intentionally 'stolen' the ideas. I have liked them so much that my brain kept them, and altered them.

Last Time:

I hummed in agreement. "Did you put her in her room?" I asked as Remus enter the room. He nodded. "I go into my first heat this weekend…could…could you three watch the kids and Serenity? Xander and I are going to go to the Gryffindor home, Leon Manor, in Wales for my transformation."

"Of course Hades. I and my submissives would be honored to watch over your family while you go away for the weekend." Aymntas answered for all three but Remus and a still embarrassed (possibly from the hand Ay had resting in between his legs) Sirius nodded in agreement.

I sagged in relief. "Thank you."

Chapter 11: In the Heat of the Moment

(This entire chpt is mainly smut, skip if you don't wanna read it…I'll have a summery at the beginning of the next chapter)

The rest of the week went by in a blur of dirty diapers and worrying over Serenity. Friday, my last day until my first ever heat Siri, Ay, and Remy came to pick up the babes and my sister. I was a wreck, a twisted bundle of nerves.

As soon as they left, through floo, with the kids I turned to Xander and sobbed. "Please take me tonight Xander. I…I can't stand to think of my first time being during my heat. I…I'm so scared Dominant. Please hold me."

Xander's warm arms wrapped around my shaking form. He cooed and shushed me, rocking me until I calmed down. Once I was calm he nudged me until I looked him in the eye. "Polýtimos would you prefer here at the cottage for your first time or should we go ahead to Leon Manor?"

"Le-Leon Manor please Dominant."

He stood, holding me bridal style. "Of course polýtimos, anything for you." He called Talin and asked the elf to take our stuff to the manor. He then took the portkey I had made for him and whisked us away to Wales.

We landed in the manor's front hall. "Are you sure this is what you want polýtimos?" I nodded into his chest. "Alright. If at any time you change your mind, you let me know right away. Understood Submissive?"

"Yes Dominant" I whispered.

He stalked forward as soon as I answered, still carrying me in his arms. We surged silently and intently through the halls until we reached the master suite. I was shaking in fear and excitement as we entered. We had only ever gone as far as making out since my birthday. We were to become one, become mates fully today. My Neko purred in my head at the thought.

He gently placed me down on the center of the black satin comforter. I blinked up at him. Through half-lidded eyes I watched as he began to undress. Thinking I should do the same I began to unbutton the many tiny buttons on my shirt.

A thunderous growl had me stopping. A breathless gasp escaped me. He was absolutely stunning, this demon above me. His normally dark brown eyes were now a solid burgundy red with pupils blown wide. His long brown hair was out of the normal ponytail and flared around his large tanned body. The muscles in his arms and chest were tense as he growled again. The sound went straight to my groin.

"Do not touch your clothes. Do not touch yourself. I will undress you. I will touch you. I will make you come undone. I will make love to you. Do you understand Submissive?" his voice was deep with lust, a growling undertone to his every word.

I let out a tortured sob. "Yes Dominant." All thoughts of not wanting to do this fled my mind. This was right. My dominant would care for me. I had nothing to fear. I relaxed into the large bed beneath me and just watched as inch after inch of his dark skin was presented to me. I let out a whimpering moan when his cock was released. It stood huge and proud, already half hard.

He tugged it a few times before crawling onto the bed and boxing my tiny body in, arms and legs encasing me in his warmth. One of his large hands came up and traced me lips before his now familiar lips replaced his fingers. I sighed happily against his lips, melting into the sweet caresses of his hand now on my chest. He worked slowly, torturing me with the slowness of it. One button, five kisses. Another button and fingers explored the exposed skin. And the process went on.

I whimpered against his lips. "More. More Dominant. Please!"

His lips immediately moved, descending upon my neck. I lost myself in the sensations. Before I knew it I was naked, bare before my Dom. He stretched me slowly, kissing all over my body in distraction. I was a sobbing, straining mess by the end. Begging him to stretch me more. To enter me and mate me. I sighed in maddening relief when he finally entered me. He loved me for what felt like hours before he just held me.

~~~~~~~~~Time Skip~~~~~~~~~~~~

The next morning I woke to heat. It was so hot. Everything made it worse. The sheets felt like searing liquid fire under my body. The comforter was a pile of coals on my chest. And all my mind could think was that something was missing. I NEEDED something. My tail came out, my ears extending above my head. I wailed.

The door flung open. A huge form filled the door. Somehow the form, the scent was familiar. But I couldn't think of why. I didn't care. All I could think was Dominant! I wailed and made cooing begging sounds. I needed him. He would rid me of this heat.

I sighed in relief when he came near. He would get rid of it. Oh how wrong I was. His touch was like the heated tongs of a forge. But I couldn't let him leave. The pain was unbearable. But the thought of him leaving was worse.

He climbed into the bed with me and I lost myself.