AN: Hello loves, I'm sorry I haven't been consistently updating like normal. It's been a rough week and I'm just starting to feel in the right mind again. Sooooo, Ava and Sara are in bed together when Sara has a nightmare. Ghosts from her past come back to haunt her.

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She's tied up. In a scarily familiar place. Her clothes torn and her body spent. He had promised if she helped him with the experiments then he wouldn't hurt her.

He lied. She hears the door open. She smells him before she can see him. And then he's there. On top of her, hands roaming her body.

"No! Get off of me! No!"

Sara jolts awake screaming. Her chest heaving and tears streaming down her face.

She looked around but it still liked she was on the freighter. On the Amazo. With him. Even though she was awake, she was still reliving her dream. Her nightmare. A hand touches her chest and Sara jumps a mile.

"No! Get away from me!" She falls off the bed, scrambling into a corner.

Ava sat there for a second, stunned. She's never seen Sara like this before. She looked into her lovers eyes and her heart broke at what she saw.

Fear. Pure fear and endless pain were what her eyes showed.

Ava slowly got up and sat a few feet in front of Sara. "Hey, Sara, it's just me, Ava. You're safe love. Nobody is going to hurt you, no while I'm around."

She moves a little bit closer when she sees the fear lessen in Sara's eyes and she looks more aware of her surroundings, "come back to me Peter Pan."

Sara hears her. She hears that soft, familiar voice, slicing through her memory, bringing her back to reality.

Everything slowly starts to come back into view. Her bed, her desk, her bureau, her canary suit, all her things, and then Ava. Beautiful, comforting, concerned Ava.

Sara blinks fast a couple of times and everything is back to normal, no traces of the Amazo and it's horrors anywhere.

She takes in a sharp breath and her watery eyes turn to her girlfriend, "Aves?"

Ava smiles softly and scoots all way towards Sara so their legs are touching, "there's my girl."

Sara just lets the tears fall. She lets them fall because she knows she's safe. Ava makes her feel safe, and she always will.

"Oh Sara," she whispers and pulls Sara into her lap.

"It's okay, I've got you. I'm right here, it's okay."

She rocks them back and forth and rubs Sara's back. Sara has her legs wrapped around Ava's waist and her head buried in her neck.

After a while, Sara's tears have slowed, and her breathing is mostly back to normal.

Ava carefully stands up, making sure to hold on tight to Sara, and walks over to the bed. She sits them down and leans against the headboard.

Sara picks her head up and looks at Ava, sniffling softly. Her eyes are puffy and her cheeks are red, but Ava still thinks she's beautiful. She's always beautiful to her.

She cups Sara's cheek in her hand pecks her lips softly.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" She asks quietly.

Sara opens her mouth and then closes it. Ava spoke up quickly, "you don't have to. Not if you don't want to."

Sara shook her head and took both of Ava's hands in her own, "no i-I," she chokes up, "you should know. I've never told anyone about what happened to me on the Amazo. Not Rip, Oliver, Nyssa, my sister," she shook her head sighing, "no one."

Sara took a deep breath and looked at Ava, "but you're different. You're my safe place. My home. Whenever I think of either of those things, you are what comes to mind."

Ava smiles gently and kisses Sara's cheek, "I will always be that for you. I love you."

Sara smiles for the first time that night, "I love you too."

She takes a deep breath and shakily lets it out. "When the freighter found me, I was in nothing my bra and underwear and a silk robe, floating on a piece of wood. I thought I was going to die."

Ava squeezes her hands and Sara leans into her, putting Ava's arms around her and hiding in her neck.

"I remember two men, picked me up by the arms, and dragged me onto the ship. I keep pleading for them to let me go. But no one would talk to me, and their grips would just get tighter."

Ava is listening and trying her best to comfort Sara, holding her tight and planting light kisses to her head.

"Then that's when I met Dr Anthony Ivo." She says his name so coldly that it sends a shiver down Ava's spine, and she holds Sara just a little bit tighter.

"He told me that there was this drug called mirakuru, Japanese for miracle. He told me he wanted to save the world," her voice started to become shaky and she breathed into Ava's shoulder.

"He said I could either help him with the experiments he performed, or become one. I actually believed him, when he said he was saving the world, so I helped." She squeezes her eyes shut and Ava felt tears seep into her shirt.

"Shhhh it's okay, you don't have to continue," Ava whispered in her ear and kissed the side of her head.

Sara nodded her head, "Yes, yes I do. You deserve to know. Besides, that's not what my dream was about, and it definitely wasn't the worst of what I did or what was done to me."

Ava tenses when Sara says that last part. What did they do to her? What happen to my strong and beautiful girl?

Sara pulls back but keeps her head down, "I helped Ivo the first few months, learning everything about the chemical composition of the drug and human anatomy and a bunch of other stuff. It was about a year later, a few weeks before the Amazo sank, when it all changed. I was monitoring a man, after having injected him with our latest attempt of the serum. He started convulsing almost immediately after it entered his system. He died right as Ivo walked in. I turned to tell him what happened but he slapped me before I could. He grabbed me by the hair and dragged me into his office. Threw me onto his bed-"

Ava's worst imaginations and fears were slowly coming true, "please tell me he didn't," she chokes out and grabs Sara's face in her hands.

Sara's tears roll down her cheeks, "I can't tell you that," she whispers.

Ava's heart breaks and she pulls Sara to her and holds her tight. "Oh baby, I'm so, so sorry."

Sara clings to Ava and shuts her eyes tightly, "th-there's more."

Ava pulls back and looks at Sara, "what happened?"

Sara gulped and wiped at her eyes, "I- I, He, he me got pregnant," she whispers looking down.

Ava's eyes widen and her jaw drops, "oh my god."

Sara looks down again and tears stream faster down face. Ava recovers and wipes her tears and holds her, "what happened to the baby?"

Sara sniffles and stands up, she walks over to her dresser and opened a small box and took out a handful of pictures.

She slowly walked back over to Ava and sat back on her lap and gave her the pictures.

The first picture Ava saw was of Sara and Nyssa, a tiny baby in Sara's arms.

"When the freighter sank, somehow the baby survived, and when Nyssa found me, found us, she took us to the league and they accepted us and the rest of that story is history."

Ava looks through the pictures, all of them were of the baby, with just Sara or just Nyssa or the both of them.

"Her name was Amira, Amira Laurel Al Ghul." Sara said softly.

"She's beautiful," Ava said kissing Sara's cheek. Ava paused and looked at Sara with a confused expression, and she asks the dreaded question, "where is she?"

Sara closes her eyes and her heart breaks, "She's buried in a sacred field in Nanda Parbat."

"What happened?" She whispered.

"Amina was about two years old, Me and Nyssa took her to our favorite place. A few miles away from our home in Nanda Parbat, a wide open yet secluded field, surrounded by beautiful flowers," she smiles a little at the memories they had there, "Amina loved going there, she would toddle through the flowers, and giggle whenever she fell. She always picked flowers for the three of us and put the in our hair."

Ava smiles and pulls Sara into a hug, "she sounds like the perfect child."

Sara smiled, "she was," her smile falls and she leans into Ava.

"It was a normal day. Me and Nyssa had been away for a few days and Amina never liked being away from us for long and neither did we, so we took her to our spot. We were so wrapped up in watching her play that we didn't hear them coming."

"Who?"

"Malcom Merlyn and his followers," she says angrily.

"We noticed when it was too late. We stood up, shielding Amina, but she ran around us, and before we could grab her," Sara's voice cracks, "she was gone. They killed her. I had never seen Nyssa so rage filled. All I could do was fall to my knees, and take her into my arms. Nyssa fought Merlyn and his men and eventually back up came but Al Sa-him disappeared."

Ava's heart broke for her girlfriend. For all the pain and loss she had been put through. "I'm so sorry babe, I'm so so sorry."

Sara didn't have anymore tears to cry. "She was the light of my life, and she was ripped from my world. That's when I let the darkness take over. And Ta-er Al-safer was truly born."

Ava just held her, comforting her in anyway she could.

"I miss her so much. I hate that I can't visit her."

Once Ava heard that, she knew that she'd take Sara to see her daughter. She gets up and pulls Sara, "Come on, get up."

Sara looks at her confused, "why? What are you doing?"

Ava just kissed her forehead, "just trust me okay? Can you do that?"

Sara nodded and got up. She saw Ava putting her shoes on and did the same. "Ready?"

Sara just stood there, "I guess, you gonna tell me where we're going?"

"In a minute," Ava said and went to the fabrication and had Gideon fabricate a bouquet of flowers.

She goes back to Sara and grabs her hand.

"What are the flowers for?"

Ava smiled, "you'll see."

Ava opens a portal and pulls Sara through. When they walk through Sara drops to her knees. They're in front of them, is a small stone with Amina's name on it and Arabic script below it.

Ava drops down next to her and grabs her hand, "I thought that maybe this would bring you a little peace. And if you ever want to go see her, just tell me and ill take you here."

Sara kisses Ava softly, "thank you."

Ava smiles, "always."

Sara takes the flowers from Ava and moves closer to the grave.

"Hi baby girl," she says softly, "it's mama. I know I haven't been here in so long, and I'm so so sorry sweetie," a single tear falls down her cheek.

"But I'm here now princess, and I promise you I'll be coming more often," she looks down at her watch, it's midnight.

Another year falls and she rests her forehead against the cold stone, "Happy 9th Birthday Amira, 'ala'am yuhibu lak fatat haluatan. arhumia ya salamiti." (Momma loves you sweet girl. Rest In Peace my princess.)

Sara leans back on her heals and grabs Ava and pulls her closer. "Thank you for being here. She would've loved you."

Ava smiled and kisses the top of Sara's head, "there's no place else I'd rather be. I would've love to meet her."

Sara looked at her with a brilliant smile. Her memories of that time fading away. Her dreams could finally rest. No more nightmares plaguing her mind. But then again, nightmares aren't just dreams. They're memories.