I sat down on the grainy sand and pulled my knees up to my chest, just staring out into the blue water. It's all starting to blur, I'm going to cry. I pushed my head into my knees and let the tears fall, sobs escaping my mouth every once in a while.

A gentle hand fell onto my shoulder and massaged my back lightly. It was soothing, but some things can' t be changed with a matter of calmness. Sometimes the best thing to do is cry.

"Miles..." Joe's voice soft against the waves coming up to the shore and lightly brushing my feet only faint in the background.

"I just needed to get away for a while that's all, I have some things that are..." I stopped and kept my cries slightly quiet. I had cried too much already to weep loudly. Tears continued falling down my face without being wiped away.

"Are you ready to tell me what happened now?" Ever since that day in the car where the topic of my mom came up Joe hasn't seemed to stop forgetting about it. He keeps pressing on the topic occasionally when he feels it might be the right time. Regretfully, there is no right time to tell someone the true reason as to why one is hurting. Well, iIt s time to do something highly dangerous and potentially harmful. It's time to tell someone the truth.

I nodded looking to Joe with the tears continuessly streaming down my face. I felt my eyeliner and slight mascara running down cheeks along with the salt water. Joe pulled me closer momentarily and began to rub circles on my back. "My mom was diagnosed with a rare type of cancer 2 years ago," Joe didn't seem phased at all by the way I began which surprised me. "She's been in the hospital ever since. My dad works double over time to help pay..." I mumbled the last parts about my fathers' hard work. This was hard enough for me. I haven't told anybody about this - not even Mitch or Em! - but here I am telling Joe, a boy I met about a week ago. Yet, I feel like I can trust him already. He reminds me of one I loved and lost. My grandpappy. And that smile of Joe's... They could have been related.

"Oh Miles I am so sorry, come here," he engulfed me in another hug as I felt my eyes continue to swell as the last tears I could muster up were slowly falling down. Then the song that I wrote about my grandpap came to mind all over again. But when I wrote that, I had my momma right there with me. And every since that moment of death in my heart 2 years back, every time I sing the song I think of my mom included too.

You used to call me your Angel
Said I was sent straight down from Heaven
And You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holdin me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in any while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know

"It's good to let it all out," I whispered to Joe as he kept holding me in his arms. I sniffed and looked up into those hazel eyes that reminded me so much of ones I love.

"Yeah I know what you mean," Joe whispered back silently chuckling. His eyes were shimmering against the minimal sunlight on us that seemed to be piercing through my skin like a needle. I watched as a tear slid down his cheek with the sad smile forming on his lips. This moment we were sharing together was emotional, but it felt so right. "Have you told anybody else about your mom? Or should I keep that between us too?" He whispered softly to me as I wiped away the tear on his face.

"Just you please." And I felt my heart sinking. I should probably tell Mitchel or Emily soon. But telling Joe did hurt me - not as much as I had anticipated - but it did still hurt. I'm not quite sure I can keep getting hurt like this on a daily basis. Especially since it's mostly about my mom everytime my heart sinks with pain.

"No problem, your secret's safe with me Miles," and he kissed my forehead lightly before shifting his legs slightly - which made me move too since I just so happened to be sitting on them. "I think we should be getting back, you probably need to pick up Noah and Brais from school right?" I nodded remembering my obligations I had almost forgotten about.

"Ya we should go now," I watched his slide his body out from under mine and then he helped me up. I smiled lightly and picked up my bag, as we headed towards his car.

I felt my hand flick and turn on the radio once Joe helped me into the car and turned the ignition on himself. I heard Yellowcard blasting through his speakers and immediately I felt my body swaying in my seat while my head bobbed to the music. It was hypnotizing and I knew every single world, which I couldn't help but sing along to.

let me light up the sky
light it up for you
let me tell you why
i would die for you
let me light up the sky

"You really like singing huh?" Joe turned to me and starting watching me continue to sing along to the radio.

My phone started ringing, "One sec," Joe nodded and I picked it up. "Hello?"

"Hey Miles, I'm picking up Noah and Braison from school okay? I'll see you at home!" Brandi's voice echoed through the phone.

"Oh alright cya then," and I hung up turning to Joe.

"That was Brandi saying she's picking up Brais and Noahie from school." I said and he nodded again. Now back to where we were before…

I smiled and nodded my head, "Oh yeah! But I mean... I'm not that good I guess. Sorry," I mumbled but despite that I kept humming the song under my breath.

"No Miles you're really good! I swear, please keep going?" Joe looked over at me and then back at the road with a sheepish grin on his face.

"You really think so?" I asked with just curiousity and a little hope in my voice. Sure, some people said I had a good voice, but not many. If Joe said so, then I just might believe it.

"Most definitely. You are amazing, do you write songs? I think Nick said you did..." He whispered that last part about Nick. Wait so Nick told people that I write songs? Uh oh. This might be embarrassing. I felt my face go hot as I turned to look out the window. What if he said I was bad?

"He said that?" I asked dumfounded and scared.

"Yeah. He said you were real good. You know he writes songs too? He even sent one to a record label, and they liked it. He just couldn't go in uh.." Joe's voice drifted away. WHAT?! Nick's song was liked by a record label, and he turned them down? Why on earth would he do that? I'll have to ask later... Joe looked muffled so I decided it would be best to just ask Nick instead, seeing as Joe was uncomfortable by the topic.

"Ah I see. So what do you want to do now? No homework. It's a friday uh," I looked out the window to see how quickly it got dark. Weird. "And dark, so wanna watch a movie?" I laughed at my suggestion. Joe looked at me confused - probably wondering why I am laughing - but eventually smiled and nodded.

"Sure, want to stop and get a movie?" Joe asked.

"Ha! Yeah right, I saw your dvd collection the other day. It's intense Joseph. I bet you guys have every movie I've ever watched!" I said with much enthusiasm and tad of sarcasm. Ha.

"Well," There was his cocky grin. "Not trying to brag," which in other words means that he is trying to brag. I wore an amused expression and watched him word this. "But I do have a very impressive collection." I laughed as the car stopped and I stepped out heading towards his door.

"Cockiness isn't always an attractive trait ," I giggled as he opened to door to his house. Oh looky here.

"What are you doing here Cyrus?" Selena choked out while Nick turned up and smiled at me. I smiled back lightly and turned to Joe who looked annoyed.

"It's not your house Gomez, and I invited her thanks. We'll be off to my room bye." Joe took my arm and led me to the staircase. When we passed Selena, I pulled an Amanda Bynes and jumped my face at Selena's making her trip on the coffee table and fall back. I looked at Nick who was chuckling softly while nodding and smiling at me. I smirked back and followed Joe up to his room.

"Woah nice," His room was covered in posters of bands with the ocassional picture of something sports related. I laughed at the flat screen tv in his room currently watching Spongebob. I have nothing against the sponge personally, but I just find it weird that he'd be watching it.

"Joe.." I tried to contain my laughter as Joe turned to me confused and then followed my finger to the screen.

"What the..."

"HEY JOEY!" A little boy jumped up from under Joe's bed and it nearly gave me a heart attack. This boy had the same features as Joe. The slight curl to his hair, the beautiful hazel eyes which never ceased to amaze me.

"Frankie what are you doing here?" Joe looked confused. Oh so this is his little brother Frankie. I did see that they were family, the resemblance is obvious.

Frankie looked sad that Joe wasn't happy to see him. I frowned seeing him too. Gosh it's like these Jonas' emotions are highly contagious! "Aren't you happy to see me?" Frankie asked.

"Of course I am bro!" Joe walked over and picked up his brother putting him in a death grip.

"O..kay... Too..HAPPY!" Frankie tried to breath - or speak rather - through his brothers intense grip. I laughed and then Frankie noticed me just as Joe was setting him down.

"Woah you're beautiful." I blushed.

"Thanks, I'm Miley." I blushed again and stuck out my hand.

"I'm Frankie," he grinned - which was so cute - and shook my hand. "Wanna play a game with me? I have halo 3!!!" I laughed. I remembered when Trace and Braison were obsessed with that game - and I don't doubt that they still are - but I myself did pick up on that game. It's seriously fun!

"Sure, I'd love to!" I giggled as Frankie took my hand and led me down to their living room where he then pulled out an xbox 360 and some of his wireless controllers. "I call black!" I yelled and then Joe groaned as he trudged down the stairs joining us.

"Black is always mine!" Joe said.

"That's why there are two black controllers stupid," Frankie said looking at Joe like he actually was stupid!

"Hey what cha guys doing?" Nick came in carrying a diet coke and bag of chips. I slipped my hand into the bag and took a handful out.

"Thanks," I said while crunching down on some. He chuckled and nodded turning to Frankie who was currently logging into his profile for XBOX live.

"We're playing halo, duh," Frankie said looking annoyed again. I laughed at how funny this situation was. The younger brother hating on the older ones. Speaking of older ones, where's Kevin and their dad?

"Hey Frankie, where's Kevin?" I asked.

"He's with dad at the office finishing up some stuff I think. Should be home by dinner I guess," Frankie replied simply while handing me one of the two black controllers. He then threw the other one at Joe was luckily looking up and caught it. He laughed and took a seat next to me. Nick was still standing eating his chips.

"Want to play in a team of 4? That would be fun!" Frankie said taking a seat on the couch next to Joe.

Nick nodded and then sat down on the big chair next to my side of the couch while he grabbed a controller. "Let's do this," and those words started off our evening.

I am starting to love these Jonas' and I just met them. Hopefully they don't turn out like those people I loved before and well... You know what I'm talking about...

"You okay?" Joe questioned looking at me. I guess what I was thinking about on the inside was showing on the outside.

"Yeah I'm okay, just thinking about her," I said smiling slightly. Joe nodded and hugging me quickly making me smile. I squeezed his hand and then right before the game started, I let go. During our entire exchange, I felt a pair of hazel eyes watching the whole time.