Well, the reviews were great and thank you for them. Here is another chapter. Hope you like it!
"Tohru? Tohru!" Arisa's yell snapped Tohru back to reality. Slightly puzzled, Tohru looked up, surveying her surroundings. She was in the cafeteria. Looking down, she saw her hands wrapped around a turkey sandwich. Only one bite has been stolen from it. She has been holding it he whole time and not realized it! "Tohru!" This time Tohru turned towards Arisa who was staring at her, an expression of worry on her face. "You ok?" Saki nodded, as if agreeing with the question. The two were sitting across from her, all the better to see her when they spoke to her.
Wondering what to answer, Tohru looked up with a small look of worry on her face. There was no need to worry them. This was her problem. "Oh, no. I'm not! I can't remember if I turned off the stove at all. I have been sitting here, trying to recount all that I have done since morning but I still don't remember!" Faking a sign of frustration, Tohru put her hands across her face. By now Saki would have read worry from her waves and Arisa could always tell if something was wrong. She couldn't deny her emotions, but she could deny the reason.
Almost automatically Saki and Arisa put on reassuring smiles. "Agh! Is that what this is about? You don't have to worry. You would never leave the house unless you check and re-checked everything ten thousand times. Even if you don't remember, it would happen instinctually. I'm sure it's fine. Unlike me, I almost burned down my house because I forgot that I lighted a match for a candle and put it on the couch. I'm sure it's fine. Stop worrying and eat your sandwich. You need the nutrients. You still have a half a day of school left." Saki, once again, only nodded and bit into her own pear.
Tohru nodded, smiling. What was truly on her mind, however, was Hatori and the girl. She could never win his heart now! It was too late for that! She didn't picture him as the type to leave someone he loves behind and she would never even try to do that. All she could do is to be a shadow he would never see. It brought heaviness upon her heart, one she didn't think was rational.
It's just a crush! That's all! I just like him a little. Why do I feel so depressed? Why do I want to cry? It doesn't make sense! Oh no, Saki is looking at me! Waves emitting. She will read them! Agh! "I need to use the bathroom!" Tohru burst out and stood up, knocking her chair backwards. Clumsily, she picked it up and practically skipped to the bathroom. The two friends watched her in confusion. Tohru knew that Saki would not believe that Tohru would feel this depressed about a stove. At least, she hoped, her friends didn't see her that way!
A bubble was ready to burst in her. A few feet from the restroom she began to run. Something inside her was ready to explode! She had to hide. Her chest was hurting! What was going on? Tohru ran into the restroom and dropped to the ground, checking if anyone was in a stall. There were no feet visible. She quickly locked the door (janitors would do that to keep anyone from walking in when they are cleaning) and stood in front of a mirror. Her face scared her. It was pale and she started to shake.
Tohru couldn't understand her feelings. She felt sick but she knew she wasn't. Something inside her wanted to come out but she didn't want to release it. Her breathing became shallow and she clutched her hand to her chest. What's going on with me? What is this feeling? Her thoughts strayed back to the morning. She was reliving everything. She was walking down the hallway again. She was seeing Hatori and the girl. He was kind, she was happy. They were together. He was not with her- Tohru.
That was when Tohru gave up and let go of the bubble inside her. Without warning, she burst into tears. Her chest was loosening and she could breathe better but her sobs grew louder. Slowly kneeling towards the floor, Tohru hid her face in her hands. She was crying. Why am I crying? Why does it hurt so? My heart, it hurts for it to beat. She just sat there on the floor, tears pouring and sobs escaping her throat. Someone tried to open the door, realized it was locked, and left. That was the only interruption that came her way.
The tears and sobs stopped due to the reason that she had nothing left to cry. However, Tohru still sat there on the floor, rocking back and forth in thought. She could not understand what made her so sad. The bell rang, signaling the end of lunch and she did not even twitch. Confusion and sorrow were heavy on her heart. Was it because of Hatori? Do I feel like this because he makes me so sad? Unexpectedly, Tohru felt a slight joy. The thought of him brought a bit of joy in her and even though she felt heavy, Tohru couldn't help but smile. She smiled at the thought of him and yet here she was, on the ground, weak because he was with somebody else. This was not normal.
Maybe I just need some sleep… Or maybe I am getting my period. That must be the reason for these mood swings! So Tohru got up, knowing full and well that even though she didn't know why, those were NOT the reasons for these emotions. Cleaning her face, she left the bathroom. The cafeteria was already empty.
OK. So it might seem extreme, but then feelings for a teacher are just as extreme. You're left with confusion and joy, which is what Tohru feels now. I am still NOT certain about how to end this novel. Sorry. But I do have some great ideas in store for you so be patient. It might seem slow, but then such is life. However, the part you are all waiting for (will Tohru and Hatori have any relationship?) is coming soon. Don't worry, I will put in some Akito and Shigure moments, but this is mostly about Tohru's POV so that is my main focus. I might slip in an extra or something, for the Akito and Shigure fans. Review please! :-D