AN: Warning a little bit of lemons in this chapter! Anyway sorry for not updating in forever.
I raced to Spencer's quickly after leaving Garcia's office. I held it together up until I got through the door. I striped off my coat and grabbed the first thing of Spencer's and crawled into bed and sobbed. I was starting to realize that this wasn't normal. Just because me boyfriend's away doesn't mean I have to hole up in the bedroom and cry for hours. With those thoughts, I was able to get rid of all the sorrow and negativity. With my new positive mood, I decided to call Penelope and assure I was alright. After leaving as quickly as I did she was probably worrying or had called Spencer so he could worry with her. I grabbed my cell and found her in my contacts.
"Hello?"
"Hey Penelope, how's everything going?" I said in a cheery voice.
She took a few moments to respond, but I get sense her relief through the phone.
"Everything's fine, the case is going really well. Everyone's safe."
"Wow that's awesome!" my cheery voice faltering. Feeling I couldn't trust myself much longer I gave Penelope a quick excuse, said goodbye and hung up.
God! What's wrong with me? Every time Spencer's job is brought up it's like a knife in my chest. It doesn't make sense, I knew about his job before I even met him, and I even want to do the same thing with my own life. I clearly don't hate his job, exactly the opposite actually, I love his job, and I love the person it makes him. Honestly, the man that this job made him is why I fell in love with him in the first place. I chased away all those thoughts and finally fell asleep. I awoke a few hours later to the bedroom door opening. Spencer stood there looking exhausted and apologetic.
"Hi sweetie, I didn't mean to wake you" he sat down on the bed and gently stroked my hair.
"It's alright, what are you doing home?" sitting up and rubbing the sleep from my eyes and smiling brightly.
"Oh the case was done early; we got on the plane a few hours ago. I was going to call you, but I wanted to surprise you instead." He smiled lightly, continued to stroke my hair.
"Great" my smile was starting to falter. He didn't seem to notice, he just kept on talking. So much for being a genius profiler.
"Anyway I'm going to get changed, are you going back to sleep right away?"
"Nah I'll wait for you" I smiled slightly
He got up and walked towards the closet. Well I guess I don't have to worry about hiding my mood swings from Spencer, he doesn't even seem to notice.
"So what did you do while I was gone? Kept busy I hope." Spencer asked while walking into the room fully changed into some pajama pants and a t-shirt. He climbed into bed beside me while I answered.
"Yup I cleaned the apartment, wrote a song and visited Garcia as you already know."
"Well thank you for cleaning, but you know you don't have to"
"I know, but I wanted to. Cleaning can be kind of calming"
"I'll take your word for it. Anyway a new song really, what's it about?"
"You silly" I giggled slightly.
"Well do I get to hear it anytime soon." He smirked
"Of course! I would play it for you right now except the music I have for it is on piano and my keyboard isn't set up here so."
"Actually it is" he smiled sheepishly
"What are you talking about?"
"Come here, follow me." He got up and took my hand. He led me down his tiny hallway and stopped in front on his office door.
"When you were one day I kind of unpacked your keyboard and set it up in my office so you could play."
"Spence, you didn't have to do that" I placed my hand on the side of his face and looked into his eyes.
"Yes I did, this way there's a better chance of you saying yes when I ask you to move in with me." he mumbled out the last part and my eyes popped open.
"What?" my eyes filling with tears.
"Violet, sweetheart, will you please move in with me. I know you're already looking for an apartment here and maybe you've even found one you love, but I figured since you basically live here already what's the point of you moving out when I really don't want you to." He looked down from my eyes.
"Yes" I breathed out
"What?" now it was his turn for his eyes to widen.
"I said yes. I mean of course I'll move in with you. I was hoping you would ask me. That's why I haven't found an apartment here yet. I love you Spencer and I love living with you. Being able to be there when you get home from cases and being the first person you see, it means everything to me."
Suddenly Spencer caught me up in his arms and kissed me urgently, but passionately. I gripped him to my body, afraid to let go. After a while, he pulled his lips away but we didn't let go of each other.
"Can hear the song now?" he whispered into my hair. I nodded and let go of him. I sat down in the chair in front of the piano while he took the other available chair in the room. I looked at him before taking a deep breath and starting.
Take the blame off your back I just want to love you I wont count every line I just want to love you You hide behind your mask of stone I just want to love you
It's a burden you don't own
Lay your head in my arms
And I will be your home
You can't carry this alone
I don't want to change you or judge you
I just want to love you
But darling you have to learn to love you too
This life has carved in you
Your beauty lies in these eyes
Cause I can see the truth
I see the strength in you
I don't want to change you or judge you
I just want to love you
But darling you have to learn to love you too
I just want to love
But you don't have to be alone
A thousand lives you could have lived
You're the only one you still need to forgive
I don't want to change you or judge you
I just want to love you
I just want to love you
I ended then looked at him. He walked over and bent down, placed both of his hands on my face and kissed me softly.
"I love it and I love you."
"Mhm, thank you" I smiled.
"Let's go to bed." He said standing straight again with his hand reached out to me. I took his hand and stood up.
"Alright" I sighed "I had something else in mind, but if you want to go to sleep that's fine too."
"Oh I'm sorry, what did you have in mind?"
"Come here and follow me" I smirked, I loved how he wasn't catching on.
"Okay?" he said hesitantly
I pulled him toward his bedroom, our bedroom, got him inside he shut the door and pushed him against it lightly. His eyes widen slightly again.
"Violet" he said slowly. "What are you doing?"
"Babe, what does it look like I'm doing, I'm going to have great sex with my very sexy boyfriend." I smirked at the blush on his cheeks
"Oh well in that case come here." He pulled me roughly to his body and crashed his lips on my own. His hands gripped my forearms before he turned and pressed me against the door and moving his hands to my waist. This movement caused a moan to escape my lips. I could every part of him pressing against me and I mean every part. He was definitely just as turned on right now as I was. I felt we weren't moving fast enough so I dipped my hand under his shirt and pushed my palm into his lower back. This earned a low moan from him. I kept pushing the shirt until finally he broke away so I could pull it off of him. He leaned in intent on continuing kissing me, but instead I attacked his chest and stomach with my lips. I worked my way to just above his pants before moving upwards again. I looked up to see the desire in his eyes. I reached up intending to kiss him fully again, but this time he stopped me.
He took my hands in one his and held them above my head, he used his other hand to pushed up my thin sleep shirt. He let go my hands in order to pull off my shirt. Instead of kissing me he dipped his head down and kissed the tops of my breasts. He continued down to my stomach and back up teasing me just as I teased him. Softly he cupped my breast before finally kissing my mouth and letting his tongue enter my mouth quickly. I let go of him to reach down and push my pajama shorts off. I struggled for a few seconds before Spencer realized what I was doing and helped. After kissing me again he lifted me up and carried me to the bed.
He layed me gently down and pressed himself against me. His hand traveled down from my neck, down my stomach before coming to stop at my underwear. He slowly dipped his hand in and inserted his finger. He pumped slowly in and out.
"Spence" I breathed out. "Faster. Please." I said desperately.
That was all it took for him to pick up pace. It didn't take long until I hit my limit. He slipped his hand out my underwear and toke them off completely. It was my turn now. I placed my hands on his hips and pulled off his pajama pants, thankfully he wasn't wearing any underwear. I wrapped my around him and pumped until he hit is limit too. It wasn't until after that did I realize that I was somehow still wearing my bra. I quickly reached behind my back and undid it. Now everyone was naked. I then reached into the bedside table and grabbed a condom and passed it to Spencer to let him now that I was ready. He put it on quickly before entering me slowly. Not long after, we both reached our limits. Spencer rolled off of me and I snuggled into him completely exhausted.
"I love you"
"Mhm, love you too Spence." I snuggled in closer and fell asleep.
AN : The song in this chapter is I Just Want to Love You by The Strange Familiar. Check it out. Reviews would be lovely!