I'm momentarily dumbfounded and don't make any attempt to move forwards. When Christian usually plays the piano it's in the middle of the night and at most occasions something is wrong. Is this because of our fight? I don't want Christian to be sad, I just want him to see sense. See things from my perspective. I slowly make my way to the entrance of the great room. Sure enough, Christian is lost in the piece he's playing and doesn't notice me. At least I don't think he notices me, he doesn't make any aknowledgements to my presence anyway. I just stand there and look at him.

After a about 2 minutes he abrutly stops and looks up from the piano, at me. His eyes widen, probably not expecting me eyeing him from the doorway.

'hi' he says hesitantly, most likely expecting me to yell at him. But I suddenly don't feel all that angry, I'm still agritated towards his actions, but I don't feel like yelling.

'hi' I don't move forward, kind of debating with myself what to do next. I want to stand my ground so he knows that I'm serious, but still show him that I'm not mad enough for us not to be okay.

He quietly stands and take a few steps towards me.

'I'm sorry Ana, are you still mad at me?'

'what exactly a you sorry for?" I need to know that he understands.

'I'm sorry for making you angry and I know you don't approve of me going home just because I'm not able to contact you. I know you are a grown woman and are fully capable to make decisions. It's just that I worry and I need to know that you are safe at all times. It frightened me not to be able to contact you and I feared the worse. I didn't see any other way than to let Sawyer look for you, I'm sorry that he woke you in the middle of the night. But you also need to see it from my perspective; I have told you more than once about the dangers riding a car during pregnancy. It would kill me if anything happened to you or Blip. I know you didn't have your phone with you, but then you should have let Sawyer go with you to begin with, if you knew Kate was going to drink'

wow, that was a mouthful...

'I know that it was stupid of me forgetting to charge my phone, but it's just something that happens, especially with a pregnancy-brain like mine. I didn't know Kate was going to drink, it actually wasn't something I had thought about at all. I solved the problem at hand the best way I could, and that involved me driving. Nothing happened and both Blip and I are alright, no big deal. It definately wasn't necessary for you to cancel your work and fly home, as much as I'm happy to see you, I think that's irresponsible. But Christian what has hurts me the most, is you doubting my skills at taking care of Blip. You just assumed that if Kate drank, so would I, I'm not that reckless and I need you to trust me in taking care of Blip. You keep acting like I'm a child who needs to be disciplined, well I'm not.'

I needed to get that off my chest and Christian needed to know how I felt. If I didn't tell him everything now then how would he be able to know in the future?

'baby I'm sorry' he goes all the way over to me and caress my cheek while looking me in the eyes, never breaking contact. 'I love you and trust you with Blip, never doubt that. It's just me and my control issues, I need to know that you are safe at all times, and the only way I know dealing with that is to tell you and take charge...' he keeps running his thump over my cheekbone, 'we both need to work on how to do this. I don't want to hurt you or diminish you, but meet me half way, please. It's so important to me'.

I nod, he is taking this way better than I thought. I thought he would be angry and yell. Hell, I thought I would yell and get angry. I guess we have both grown a bit, we are definately both willing to try to accomodate the other one's needs. I love him

I lean forward, suddenly not able to stay away from him any longer. I kiss him and he kisses me back tenderly. He pulls back slightly 'I missed you so much', 'I missed you too Christian, I'm so glad that you're home'. He grabs me around my waist and pull me closer to him. The once tender kiss evolves. I grab Christian by the hair and he tightens his grib on my hips. Soon we are both panting for air. 'let's take this to the bedroom', I smile and nod and he grabs me behind my knees and lift me from the ground. He carries me bridal style towards our bedroom.

After some tender love-making. Who would have expected that after all that has been going on. We are curled up in bed, our sweaty bodies clinging to each other. Christian is playing with my hair and I am lightly tracing my fingers around his chest. This is where we belong. In each other's arms, not fighting. This is how we cope and reassure each other that we are still fine.
Christian's other hand finds my stomach and he places his palm over the center of it.

'You are getting bigger' he states

'I'm not that big. Surely nothing much could have happened since you left'

'Trust me, it has... I need to get a better look of you' and he quickly moves the sheet covering both our bodies to the side. I'm completely naked in front of him. He moves and places himself so his face is looming over my stomach. He kisses it and I can feel him smiling against my stomach.

'Right here' he takes my hand and places it where he has just kissed 'you have a little bump'

'really?' I haven't really been studying my bump up close in a couple of days and besides; Christian probably knows my body better than I do. A point he has made many times. It makes me happy thinking about Blip growing, that he or she is a part of me. That Christian and I has made this little miracle together. I must be a mirror of the goofy smile that is playing on Christian's lips. And suddenly I remember the sonogram that Christian haven't had the opportunity to see yet.

'Wait here' I say while I quickly get off the bed, in search of my bag where I have kept the sonogram. I wrap the sheet from the bed around me and make my way to the great room, where I left my bag.

When I come back to the room, Christian is still located on the bed; just like I told him. 'I have something you need to see' I say to him, while holding the sonogram out of sight behind my back.

Christian shift himself to a sitting position and awaits smilingly for my next move.

'Close your eyes' I give myself a moment to appreciate the sight in front of me. My dear husband, the love of my life gloriously naked in front of me and I'm about to show him the first picture of the baby we made together.

I crawl my way across the bed, so I'm sitting in across from him. Wanting to see every expression on his face when he see it. I carefully place the sonogram in his hands, so he his holding it in front of himself.
'Breath Ana', I exhale 'sorry' I hadn't realised that I had been holding my breath.

'You can open your eyes now' and he does very slowly. Probably realising what he is holding before even seeing it.

His eyes locks on the picture.. his breath hitches and I'm not sure; but is his eyes a little teary? He smiles...his special smile. Something I love to see.

After a few moments of him just taking the picture in, remembering every detail, he finally says something..

'wow' and I have to agree with him, it's amazing.

He takes my hand and squeeze it. He looks up and his eyes locks on mine. Gray eyes to blue. 'We are going to be parents' I nod, not able to keep the tears running down my face any longer. He leans forward and kisses my lips tenderly. 'Your lips is so soft when you cry'.. I'm so happy right this moment in time, I don't ever want to forget this perfect moment and the joy that accompanies it.

Sorry for the long wait! I have been busy and honestly suffered from a little writers block. Your reviews and feedback has been what has kept me going. I hope you enjoyed the chapter? I will try to update as soon as possible, but no promises to when that will be. Thank you for being so patient with me and for your lovely words. :)