After two months of hiatus I am back. Lot of things have changed, mostly my plot line.I feel a surge of anger at the moment and usually writing calms me down. I want my calm self back. So I thought why not today?

Forgive me for the short chapter...

The difference between sex and love is that sex relieves tension and love causes it."

― Woody Allen

Before going to sleep Alex wrote just one poem. She was happy to talk to this stranger over the phone. Her demons still wandering inside her mind and she was giving into them all the time. She wanted to be loved, to love someone so deeply and to feel the warmth but was afraid to love. Terrified. Love had a tendency to fool her and she did not want to be fooled twice.

I don't want to be a forgotten memory

A momentary fling

Where desires met and melt

I don't want to be a yesterday's song

A haphazard melody

Because haste makes waste

I want to be that ripple in your soul

That would drive you insane

I want to be that vein in your heart

That would let you breathe in and out…

When Alex went to the pub for her shift next day, she saw an attractive brunette staring at her. She was in the uniform, so she was the new hire Red was talking about but there was something about her that made Alex wondered. It was her eyes. They were blue and was full of intensity. Alex asked Lorna who she was.

" Her name is Natalie and she is the new part time server. She would work her shifts with you and you have to show the ropes"

Alex did not mind showing her around. She felt something inside when Natalie looked at her. She had something Alex liked the most. A dimple.

Piper was floating like a feather that night. She felt a sense of completeness. Hearing Alex's voice yesterday over the phone seemed to be having a soothing effect on her. She checked Alex's blog before going to sleep and was impressed. She loved the way Alex express her emotions.

I want to be that vein in your heart

That would let you breathe in and out…

"This is beautiful" she thought. she saw Alex in her dreams, for the second time in two days.

Over the weekend Alex had to work almost twenty hours in the pub and had to be around Natalie a lot. She seemed like a nice girl with a genuine smile. Alex liked to make Natalie smile because of her fascination for the dimple. She was a hardworking girl and was keen to learn. Alex caught Natalie looking at her in awe couple of times but thought she must be dreaming of her lover who is far far away, according to what Nicky said.

Natalie adored Alex. From the moment she saw Alex, she felt a magnetic push towards Alex and felt her heart was somersaulting when she was around Alex. At one time, Alex showed her how to arrange food on a tray and their hands brushed and she almost lost her consciousness and felt electrocuted. She loved to look into Alex's eye and felt like kissing her by saturday evening but checked herself. Alex never spoke about her personal life but a hot girl like Alex must be having girls flocking wherever she go and Natalie did not even want to try but her feelings were running rampant by sunday.

Alex felt that too but did not encourage it. She was just recovering from a relationship and did not want anymore trouble. She was never a player who played with anyone's emotions and decided not to encourage Natalie. She liked to talk to her, Natalie had a way of talking and it calmed Alex and Alex liked her, a lot but it was not love. At least not at the moment.

On sunday night, Alex and Natalile were the last to go. Alex checked whether everything was ready for the next day and switched off lights in the kitchen and at the same time Natalie planted a soft kiss on Alex's lips. It was not at all a bad kiss. Alex did not expect it but she did not kiss her back nor pushed her away. Natalie pushed her towards the door and kissed her again and that time Alex did kiss her back. She was fed up of being on her own, being alone and being without a human touch for so long. It was a good kiss but Alex was not sure what to do. She was still sore from her past wounds and dating a co worker was trouble. Natalie started to nibble Alex's neck but Alex had to stop her.

"Why?"

Natalie whispered.

"I cannot do this"

"Do you have a girlfriend?"

"No"

"Then what?"

"You and I, we work together"

"So what?"

"You have someone in your life right?"

"Who said so?"

"Nicky"

"Nicky is crazy"

"I'm still recovering from my ex"

"Let me help you"

"You cannot"

"Let me Love you Alex"

"Jesus, how can you talk about love? We barely know each other"

"If you love someone, you just know. You don't need to love that person for years."

"I still need time, Natalie. I don't want to hurt you"

"No strings attached Alex, what about that?"

She was persistent.

"Friends with benefits?"

"Yes"

"I don't do that Natalie. Sorry. If I love someone, I give my body, heart and soul. It is beyond sex."

"So you refuse me?"

Natalie sound mad right now. Alex thought

"Let's take one day at a time, shall we?"

"Can I kiss you, at least once a day then?"

This girl is never giving up

"As you wish."

"So when can I have my kiss?"

"Whenever you want"

"Everyday?"

"Okay. only one kiss. No touching"

"No touching but kissing?You are mad Alex."

"Okay. no kisses then"

"Okay okay. As you wish"

"I am tired Nat. I wanna go home"

"Shall I come with you?"

"To my home?"

"Yes"

"What part of one kiss a day you cannot understand?"

"A girl is offering herself to you and you just refuse?"

"Yes"

"Why?"

" I don't want trouble"

" Grow up and Just take me home Alex"

"And?"

"Do I have to spell out everything to you?"

Alex sighed. She was desperate to forget sylvie and move on. May be she could do it with Natalie's help.

"Okay"

"Okay what?"

"Let's go home"

Natalie was beaming with happiness. She wanted Alex and tonight she was gonna have Alex, for herself.