I won't give up-
Chapter 12
Disclaimer : I don't own Law and order SVU but I wish I could have Nick (Danny Pino) for me. It's been really busy at work and I haven't time to post another chapter…I hope you'll like this one. I'll try update more often as the end of the school arrive and I'll be able to work more on my story. SInce I love Danny Pino, I wrote the draft for a Cold Case story…It should be up in the next two weeks. Well, enjoy and review!
It's been a month since Nick asked me to marry him and I'm still on cloud nine. I've decided to let go of the past and look to the future with Nick and our children. I can't change what happened but I know how much I love him and that I am truly blessed to have him in my life. After Danny, I thought I could never loved another man but Nick changed everything…We told the children the next morming when Nick proposed and they were thrilled; especially Zara who told us she was happy to have two mommies from now.
Nick went to Cynthia's house alone to break the news to her and Gil. Gil's reaction was good considering he's hasn't known us for a long time but Cynthia was cold…My gutt tells me she is still a bit jealous and she was hoping that Nick and her could reunite again…Well, I am sad for her but I won't cry either because I'm happy Nick chose me. Zara told Maria over the phone and she seems genuily happy for us. Even if I don't completly trust her, I think she was honest when she told us she wishes nothing but the best.I think she still feels responsible for the baby scare we had a while back and she knows Nick and her are over for good.
Olivia and the rest of the SVU squad were really happy when we annouced them the news. Congratulations were in order and we went out to celebrate, even though I am at the end of my road and ready to welcome this new new fiance is really taking good care of me as he knows I can't get much sleep these days. My due date is only 3 weeks away and I wish it were 's mother wanted us to get married right away but I put my foot down and said I wanted to wait because I don,t want to look like a whale in my wedding dress…Nick's mom wasn't too happy about it but Nick took my side and said I would get anything I want as long as I am happy…He's such a sweetheart!
The only one who seems concern when we announced that we were engaged was Bobby. It's not like he wasn't happy for me but he knew that we had our ups and downs the last few months and he didn't want me to jump into something too fast. I reassured him and told my friend that I couldn't be happier. He took me into his arms and wished me the best. Then, he took Nick aside and talked to him for a few minutes. I had the sense for Nick's face that he was telling him something like he was better to take good care of me or he would have to answer to my best friend. Later that night, when I asked Nick about it, he just brushed it aside and told me not to worry about it…I'll have a chat later with Bobby about it. Sometimes, he can be so overprotective it's annoying really.
As I go to bed, Nick takes me into his arms and rubs my belly.
«I can't wait to see our baby, Chris..»
«Me too, you have no idea how much I want this little one to get out…». Nick laughs at my remark.
«It won't be long baby, just three weeks.»
«Try to have a baby that moves at any hour of the day and keeps awake…I think he's like you; he can't stay still for one minute.»
«Well, when our baby is here, I'll be able to help you .»Then, he kisses my forehead as he holds me even tighter. My eyes are shutting down as I am really tired and I need to get all the sleep I can get…I hear Nick talking to me but I everything seems so far away as I go into sleep. He whispers softly to me hear : I love you just before everything goes dark.
Something is waking me up. Everything is dark around me and I'm sweating. I hear Nick's breathing besides me and I know he's sleeping peacefully. I don't want to wake him so I I get up and goes downstairs. I make my self a hot chocolate as I know I won't go back to sleep soon. Lately, I have nightmares about the birth of our baby. Everytime, something goes wrong and the baby is in distress…I don't why because I never had any problems in the past. I am just so scare and I don't want to bother Nick with my fears as he has enough on his plate right I am drinking my hot chocolate, I hear his footsteps and there he is standing next to me.
«Sweetheart, are you ok?» Nick asks with concern in his voice.
«Ya, I'm just so tired. It's like our baby weighs a hundred pounds and I can't wait for him or her to come out…» I sigh as I sit down with the cup in my hand.
Nick stares at it and takes it away from me.
«Chris, you know you shouldn't drink chocolate while pregnant…Let me fix you something else.». Nick can be so overprotective sometimes and it's so annoying…I should be able to have a little treat every now and then. But no, Mister is watching me like a hawk and I can't get my way tonight. He should know better than piss off a pregnant woman …
«Fine, boss,I'll just go to bed then!» I reply very angry at him and just walk away as fast as I can. In two steps, he's by my side and he turns me around.
«Baby, this is for your health and our baby too…»
«Don't baby me, don't you know how much I crave for chocolate? It's like this is all I can think about!»Nick looks at me with a big smile on his face and comes closer. He put his hands around my waist and gives me a big passionate kiss. As he let go because we are both out of breath, I see the small grin on his face.
«Me amore, I'm sure I can make you think about something else…» he says in a whisper. He takes me by the hand and we walk into our bedroom.I sure admire his perfect abdomen as he turns around. Slowly and gently, he put me on the bed and slip under the covers besides me. He caresses my cheek and he starts kissing the crook of my neck. My hands are going down his body and stops on his butt as I hear him laugh.
«Somebody is in a hurry » Nick tells me before he gently caresses my breasts while he kisses me. Our tongues plays a little and then he goes down and takes one nipple into his mouth. I can't almost breathe and I moan loudly. I put my hands on Nick's back and I hold on tight. His hands are all over me and the things he makes me feel…I swear, I never felt this way before, not even with my late husband. He comes back to kiss my lips and he whispers sweet things in Spanish to me. I find it incredibly sexy and a real turn on. My hands go down and I grap his length through his boxer. I hear him moan in pleassure as I start a up and down movement.
«Chris, baby, this feels so good….Hum…I love you so much…».
I smile as I hear his breathing accelerate and I know he wants more so I get him off his boxers. With one quick thrust, he's in me and this feel so good. We are made for each other…In every way possible. Nick thrusts are slow at first, but I grab is ass and tell him to go faster. He smiles at me and oblige to my order. Our breathings get heavier and I am close.
«Baby, don't hold back…I want to hear you come…» Nick says in a husky voice. As he says that, I climax and I feel Nick's coming soon after. Then, he moves to my side, and put a hand on my belly. He rubs it tenderly and talks to our baby in Spanish.
«Nick, what are you saying? I can't understand a word,» I complain.
«I'm saying to our little one how lucky he is to have a mother like you and how much I love you both.» he says tenderly as he looks at me with his beautiful brown eyes. Then, he gives me s asweet tender kiss on the lips and we fall asleep in each other's arms.
I wake around 6 o'clock in the morning since my back is hurting a bit. I am still in Nick's arms and I can't help watching him sleep peacefully. I just hope our happiness will last as we already been through so much.I get up as it's clear I need to go to the bathroom. As I sit down on the toilet, a sharp pain goes through my belly and I feel a lot of liquid going out…Oh crap! My water just broke! I call Nick as another contraction hit me and I realise it's going fast…After all, it my fifth child so technically, one would think it won't take too long. My man comes running and when he sees me, he realises what is happening.
«Baby, we must go to the hospital…»
«You just figure it by yourself, you must be a genius,» I reply as another contraction hit.
«Nick, the contractions are only two minutes apart, we need to leave NOWWWWWWWW!» I scream and I get dress and is in pain.
Nick goes to talk to Rosa and tell her the baby is coming and we get into the car. He is driving fast and talking to me all the way to the hospital. The contractions are getting closer and closer and I am afraid we won't make it…I sigh in relief as we park outside the emergency door and Nick hurry me inside.
«My fiancee is in labor, the contractions are only one minute apart and…»
«Sir, let me get her into a room now.»
The nurse smiles at us and she gets me into a bed quick. A doctor comes and says that the baby is ready to come and he'll have the deliver him in the room. I look at Nick with panic in my eyes…
«Baby, it's going to be fine. You can do this. Both of you,» he whispers to me as he caresses my forehead. Then, the contractions became more intense and I couldn't speak anymore. The labor was fast but it wasn't a surprise considering it was my fifth child.
When the time came to push, It hurt like hell and I became angry at Nick. He was there, massaging me, talking gently to me and all I could think was that it was his fault I had to endure so much pain.I turned around and screamed to him : «Nick, I swear we are never going to have sex ever again. You won't touch me I swear.»
Nick was taken aback by my outburst but the nurse started laughing.
«Don't worry mister, they all say that. She'll forget it the minute she will her beautiful baby.»
I continue to push and the pain is unbearable. Suddenly, Nick seems excited ad I can feel it's coming to an end.
«Baby, I can see the head..Our baby is here…»
«Ok, Christine, you need to push one more time,»Dr. Suarez tells me. And before I know, I push as hard as I can and my baby finally makes his entry to the world.
Nick is caressing my forehead and he gives me a sweet tender kiss.
«Thank you my love» he simply says and I see tears of joy in his eyes. Suddenly, we hear our little one crying at the top of his lungs. The nurse comes with a smile and place the baby in my arms.
«Congratulations, you have a beautiful little girl,»she says. I smile at Nick.
«Do you want to hold your daughter?» I ask him.
«Yes!». He takes her into his strong arms and starts murmuring to her in Spanish. He looks mesmorise by her and the image of the two of them together is , he comes and sits on the side of my bed and put our little girl. Nick looks at me with such love and tenderness that I could melt right there.
«Chris, I love you so much. You just gave me the most precious gift…» I simply smile as I am tired.
«Baby, did you think about some baby names?» he ask me.
«Maybe, you?» He laughs.
« I thought we were having a boy, so…». I can help and laugh too.
«Well, maybe we could call her Hope?I mean, if you like it»…
«Yes, baby, I love it. It fits about her second name?»
« Maybe, we could give her you mother's name…Rosa.»
I see his eyes becoming wet.
«Are you sure baby?»
«Yes, I'm sure Nick. Your mother has been so good to me and she'll the only grandmother Hope will ever have so…»
Nick kisses on the lips and caresses his daughter.
Later, after I breastfeed Hope and she's back in the nursery, I fall asleep with Nick besides me.I feel at is perfect for the first time in a long time…
The nursery
A woman is standing there and she's staring at a new born baby with a smile. A nurse comes to her.
«Mam, visiting hours are over.»
«I'm so sorry. I just came to see my grandaugther.»
«It's ok, you can come back tomorrow.»
«Believe me, I will.» And she gives another look at Hope Rosa Amaro before she leaves.