Dearest Harry and Ron,
I feel a burst of strength after my last letter… I hope it lasts me through this one.
So much to say… and yet also so little. To put it bluntly, we've fallen apart. Individually, and as the infamous trio. Once upon a time we could just look at each other, crack a joke, and everything would be fine—unspoken reconciliation. But I don't think that's going to cut it this time. It feels like maybe nothing will, like maybe we're just stuck here in this limbo for all of eternity and nothing can help us or bring us back together again.
We spent so long in a place where it felt like we only had each other to rely on, to support us. Not just the forest, but our whole time at Hogwarts. It always felt like it was us against all the evil in the world, and we were so close because of it. And now look at us. We're all so broken. Why aren't we helping each other to stand? Why aren't we holding each other up? Why aren't we letting ourselves find our strength in one another?
The world feels so empty without the two of you. The world feels so cold and so dull. I have no purpose and no family and no friends; I can't do it anymore. I miss you both so terribly. Every day. And I can't bring myself to say anything, to do anything, because of all the fear in my heart. I'm terrified of finding out that we're too broken to be fixed...
And it all started with you, Harry. With you shutting us out after the war. No one knows what happened that night, besides you—not even Ron nor I. Why? Why wouldn't you let us in? Why wouldn't you confide in us? After everything we went through together, you just pushed us away when we all needed each other most.
And Ron. You and that stupid kiss! It was just a kiss! Just a kiss in the heat of the moment. A mistake. Even you know that—we are so much better as friends. Why couldn't you let it go? Why couldn't you forgive me?
Can't you see that I'm the only one alone now? Harry, you have Ginny. And both of you have the Weasley family. And I—I have no one. Why was it so easy to let me go? How could it have been so simple to push me out? I need you both. So badly…
Come back to me.
Sincerely,
Hermione Granger